#and i have no way of printing new ones

[tamagotchikgs]

my mom said my cats cant live with us in the trailer which . i just can’t do that man i cant live w/o them they are my only reason for getting up everyday,..... they’re the only thing i have irl that makes me smile or feel any amount of joy or anything whatsoever. i wonder if i could get my own used trailer too,,,,, i was looking & there r RVs for 12k,, if only i could get hired somewhere maybe i could afford it by summer :(

#im still probably going to kill myself hving to go back to my childhood . there is no escape #it never ends its always there & it’s always rotting me away #even my therapist agrees i need to get as far as i can #but i never can. #also #i got turned down from the other cafe i was trying to work at a month or so ago #ive been trying to ignore it to not fuck my mental health into a spiral but i do hav to face it I guess o(-< #there’s still the bubble tea spot I’ve been trying to get my resume to since they opened #but i checked my resumes today and something pink spilt on them o(-< #and i have no way of printing new ones #unless i go buy usb stick and pay to have them printed at staples or something but i. don’t have any fucking money #they really make it as hard as possible huh

[insomniac-pbparker]

rambling in tags

#tried to talk about it on vc but no one's paying attention haha #talkin about it here cuz I've been meaning to share with. someone #hi if you're reading this:) #peter prattles #anyways. started a new project recently; i got a model for my mask so I'm thinking about printing it out? #got the STL (STereoLithography (file format for CAD software made by 3d systems)) files fhe other day; they look like they'll fit well toge #ther after i print them; so that's good. not a lot of sanding ill have to do on the main face shell; 8& #augh #*; it's already textured #i keep pressing comma. stop #anyways. got the files; it took FOREVER to splice but that's alright. i haveta do it regardless #*slice not splice #the whole process of slicing something (FOR 3D MODELING BY THE WAY) is really interesting; i should look more into that #the thing is; the files and info I got on them didn't say what orientation to print the mask in? that was odd #it also didn't say what fill / support types to use. but I'll figure that out in the morning #oh! my favourite part I'm working on for the mask is that it is able to attach / detach in specific sections; so it's easily disassembled #I'm using neodymium magnets (specifically 10mmx1mm or 1/16in discs) to connect it all together #I'm thinking about making it disconnect in about 4/6 different places? four for sure #not sure about the last two though. thinking about making the LENSES of the mask detachable; but i feel like they're more likely to fall of #uhoh i think i did something wrong #i printed (or started to print at least) the domed mesh on the 3d printer instead of the specifically labeled resin printer. i don't have j #I don't have a resin printer #wow there's a lot of tags. okay #so many thoughts in my head apparently #eh whatever. hear about my 3d prints boy #there's an option to make a ventilated mask; or one without the vents at the front #the vents are just small cavities near the front of the mask #right near the nose / mouth would be #ohh it's actually lined up beautifully; it blends right into the webbing on the front of the face #face? mask? eh

[solvicrafts]

Nine people I'd like to get to know better

...except I'm getting to this very late and have no idea who has or hasn't done this yet, so consider this a free-for-all for anyone wanting to do this, too!

Last song: Follow Fi (extended) - good background noise when I'm working on my websites :)

Bregan D'aerthe fan-site will be returning soon-ish btw! PROBABLY in April or May but it really depends on how much more our relocation is gonna keep getting pushed back :(

Favourite colour: I am a BIG fan of colors just in general but um...

GREEN. Let's just say 'green' and make this a bit easier.

Last tv show/movie: Oh lord... I really don't watch tv much at all. As in... I've watched 1 show in the last 3 years, which is the Loki series.

Spicy/sweet/savoury: Mostly savory with a bit of spice. I do not usually like mixing sweet and savory. There's an Indian restaurant around here that makes great tikka masala and if I could only eat ONE meal for the rest of my life it would be that.

Last game: Minecraft. I was feeling a bit cynical after corporate put up some more ~woo~ feel-good brainwashing customer service posters so I fought back by putting up signs in my spooky scary underground dungeon saying shit like "positive vibes only" and a few other things that might be too much of a giveaway for where I work so I won't share them (YET!)

Last thing i google "do people seriously believe this crap?" with absolutely no added context because that's the mood I was in

@foxboyclit thank you for tagging me in this, it was fun!

#is this the room of a 5 year old or a 30+ year old with adhd and too much creativity to contain? #actually it has changed a bit since I took that photo given that it's been a year #but overall it's still very similar #the ghost is gone because the string broke and I couldn't be arsed to fix it #so now there's the giant spider web in its place #the flowery table cover was replaced with a lace spider web for Lolthmas and I still haven't changed it back #during covid when I was working in a hippie woo grocery store at the height of it all I got seriously depressed #I couldn't go anywhere the way my hours were #so I turned my room into an enchanted forest and tbh it's really serene. my cat is hopelessly in love with my little red rose pillows. #this is the longest I've left my room looking more or less the same #I get an urge to redecorate every 6 months like clockwork but it's been this way for 4 years now I think #taking everything down when I relocate is gonna suck but my next room/office is gonna be Underdark themed so... WORTH IT #I already have the custom printed mural :'D #the new mural is a lot less cartoonish and a bit more uh... GROWN-UP lol but still very pretty #cw: taxidermy #<- just in case since I have one of my foxes and coywolves in the photo #disclaimer: the pelts in this photo are super old and were not killed by me or for the purpose of taxidermy

[citrlet]

okay i caved

#im so particular about merch there wasnt much on the store i wanted 😔 #i did like the triple vault boy we're all in this together shirt but i have so many t shirts already i dont need 2 new ones ajfjska #i wish this coop print was on a sweatshirt i adore the way it looks like a real 50s movie poster

[bootyful-seventeen]

Anyways as a resident senior to many, I urge you to get physicals of the media you love because you don’t know if they’ll ever remove the digital version of it

#I heard sony has a big issue with this even if you paid for it #and I’m not the type who really buys digitals #tho the only thing I’d get that’s digital is probably the 90’s dub of sailor moon #and even then I’m not paying for it but torrenting it #cuz the physicals for that dub have been out of print since like 2004 and it’s by episodes and not seasons unfortunately #and idc I prefer the old dub over the redub of sailor moon #like don’t get it twisted I’m so happy they put my lesbians back where they belong but I just can’t get with the new voices for the scouts #and the funny part is I like all the vas in the new dub but I think they just don’t work together and sound too similar #I could only pick out Stephanie and Katie but the other scouts? nah man way too similar #I can barely tell who is who unlike the old dub where every single voice was so distinctive #the old dub was a godsend to the visually impaired kids like me that didn’t know I needed glasses until grade 4 :/ #but yeah gonna be difficult as hell to find that old dub since the new one completely replaced it everywhere #just wish that they released dvds of each full season to make life easier for me #but at least I’ve had an aeasier time with others #even happily ever after cuz that was a Snow White movie I adored as a kid cuz I thought she was so pretty lmao

[icewindandboringhorror]

me everytime I am preparing a meal with multiple elements I have to balance so they all finish cooking at the same time: Wow this is just like the 2009 hit Nintendo Wii game 'Food Network: Cook Or Be Cooked'

#or like if I'm making two things and one finishes cooking before the other and has to sit there and get cold #in my brain it's always like 'tsk tsk.. they would deduct points from my score for that' hjhjb #one of those instances of game mechanics imprinting onto your brain. kind of like imagining sims interaction moodlets in irl conversations #i LOVE the game though it's so fun. I've never even heard of it before I just found it by the dumpster in a box of other old wii #games someone was apparently discarding and picked it up due to my interest in cooking shows and stuff #I like having to time things and all the little actions you can do. though sad that there's so little recipes #you can unlock the whole game in like a day or something. I think if I had more time and social energy to actually talk in forums or be par #of a 'community' - I think looking into the type of stuff where people mod wii games and etc. would be very very cool #Wii is my favorite console and so much of the time I am always like 'grrr.. they dont make new games.. and this one game is very cool #but imagine if these 5 improvments were made to it! it would be SO much cooler!' etc. #Like being able to download new custom recipes/levels for Cook or Be Cooked lol #Modding wii sports resort the same way that some people mod skyrim and build entirely new games out of it #with new quests and etc. Like just.. create your own sports.. RPG mode.. use the already existing archery assets and etc. to have a mode #where you can just free roam around the map shooting at enemies and stuff ghhjbjh #WHICH I WOULD LOVE DEARLY.. #I dont realyl like combat in games but idk I'd make an exception.. whatever.. I just want to play more in the Wii World #I have the soul of one of those people who builds all their own computers and 3D prints custom frames to transplant their 3DS into and #has like all special 'hacked' phones and wii mods and customizes everything and etc. etc. like.. 100% my exact personality and preferences #HOWEVER I just simply do not have the money or physical energy/time to get onto projects like that #The best I can hope for is one day having a close friend who does that so I can maybe use their 3D printer every once in a while or we both #collaborate on some wii modding project or etc. but I just couldn't on my own.. I already have too much stuff going on.. Have to make #compromises due to lack of money + low energy + busy. Like I could never build my own phone. I could save up for a teracube phone #or something so it's better and more repairable than all these dumbass modern phones you cant even take the backs off of. but that's probab #y the best I could do lol. ANYWAY.. Especially wii customization. I could get really into that.. I saw a picture one time of someone who #made like a semi transparent case for theirs kind of like the famous purplish see through gameboy color case but for a wii.. which is.. aAA #yearning crying sobbing etc. etc. so on and so forth

[aroacehanzawa]

I hope this is a good time to plug an actual 1869 novel by Ivan Goncharov: Obryv ('The Precipice', but the newest and complete translation is called 'Malinovka Heights') which follows Boris Raisky, an "artist/writer/poet/sculptor/etc" (unemployed guy) who dropped out of art school because he didn't like to practice drawing hands and wanted to paint the next mona lisa immediately. And then he gets bored of living in the city (runs out of money) and goes to live with his great-aunt in the countryside to be around nature and gain some "writing inspiration" (doesn't write) and meets Vera, who is Not Like Other Girls but! turns out she is actually super nuanced and complex and by not like other girls i mean not like other girls written by 19th century men but like an actual woman. And then he also meets Mark aka the village hooligan that everyone tells him to avoid but in defiance of them all he says that Mark is "the only person worth talking to" and invites him over in the middle of the night in secret (gay) and then there's a love triangle over Vera because of course there is. And they also meet another guy and it turns into a love square but i actually haven't read that far yet but i promise it's really good anyway please read Obryv

#goncharov #this recommendation sounds absolutely on crack because that's how i feel about this book #before the new english translation came out there existed only one copy of it in a language i can read (swedish) in all of scandinavia #and that copy happened to be in my local library (i don't even live in sweden!!) and i read the first part of it #and contemplated stealing the library copy itself because there was no other way to have a whole copy for myself #because the only english translation was an abridged version completely out of print #AND THEN when i was still contemplating library theft. i saw the new english translation in my local bookstore?????????? #i have yet to finish reading the whole book because it's like 900 pages but. it's so well written and the translation is nicely modern too

[pathsofoak]

The urge to draw book covers for all parts of TCH versus the lack of ideas...

#and also art skills #I mean I'm not that bad but also not That Good if that makes sense #I wanna do something with the position of the sun like in the titles #but especially in the first three parts there are different plots at play and I'm unsure how to represent both in a single image #thoughts thoughts thoughts #for The High Noon I would draw a scene from the Safe Haven #and for The Early Rise I would probably try to capture the new WCKD building and the positives that come with it but also y'know. the whump #I guess for TNW a desert at night would do either way. I could split the image to have Thomas on one side and the camper on another #but TBH and TLF I'm not sure of #I Could have them crossover on the cover of TBH but that doesn't happen until the climax #TLF is plain two different stories happening at the same time #hmm #I do have a temporary TLF cover with pictures atm #but I would love to do art as well so I can print the fics for myself

[stardustedknuckles]

Well I just got curious and made an account on another credit checking site and yep, my credit under my old name is different from my new name. My student loans and biggest credit card don't show up on my new name account - I'm the same goddamn person with the same social security number. Why is this my problem.

#Sdk does trans stuff #This means trying to get an apartment or something will pull up the new account which looks 3 years old #And it's dogshit because it appears to only have two accounts #One of which #By the way #Is the same bank another card under my old name is #This is bullshit #But it might be relatively easily fixed #By which I mean I'm going to end up having to print and mail stuff aren't I

[kellystar321]

📤📤📤 free for all! Let anyone answer a question!

anon this is literally so cute <33

📤 What's your favorite sorta "advanced vocabulary" word? (like unequivocal, ostentatious, iniquity) 📤 One of your favorite tropes to see in media, and an example from a media you like! 📤 If you were a stuffed animal, what kind and color would you be?

Reverse ask here!

#reverse ask game #heres my answers by the way hgkjh <3 #i really like linguistics so i enjoy a lot of big words and learning new vocab <33 i do really like the ones i put as examples hkgjh #i guess one of my words is Debonair; which means confident stylish and charming its so fun; sounds so slick <3 #everyone loves found family we don't have to rehash it SO; a different trope i like is when a person has uncontrollable powers? #especially if it's in tune with their emotional state and it flares up when they're too happy or angry or sad hkjgh <3 #Steven Universe does it where steven is so happy he starts floating except he can't get back down so hes just stuck up there #another one is when kiwi/the bard gets possessed by a ghost and they literally can't control it when it bursts from their chest #and starts singing with their voice. and they struggle to hold it in and keep it together but it happens and they collapse at the end :'> #its a good way to balance a character strength (having powers) with a weakness (being unable to control when they use it) #i would be a cat with soft plush tangerine fur and white-with-orange-star-print fabric in my ears and stuffed wings <3 #very soft to hug and a comforting weight to hold as you sleep; like my bear cerulean <3 #interstelore

[fungi-maestro]

The Question #19 (1988)

#book club #vic sage #myra fermin #dc comics #comics #this issue is a pretty good split between Vic and Myra handling hub city corruption in their own ways #i think i went on a whole long rant once about how myra and vic are two sides of the same coin so i will spare you all that again #this issue does have a slur count. context is that Myra's political opponent is a card carrying bigot #balancing out this very real issue is an absurd moment where a man's blow up doll wife got shot in the head #leading to vic presumably bringing her to tot to fix. although this didnt happen onscreen i can imagine tot's reaction very vividly #i feel like plastic guns have been in the news recently. it seems odd that an issue so specific has stood the test of time. #maybe it was something about 3d printed guns. i cant remember. #i feel like this is one of those stories where you can easily see where each side is coming from

[xcziel]

progress report!

still 5 boxes to go - looks like my becky chambers, murderbot, and my dark is rising box set should be in there, plus a bunch of mysteries, but this is more representative (except don't judge me by the donaldson those were a gift from my aunt & uncle. also yes that is a duplicate grimm's bc it was like a dollar ok, i might want to give it to someone)

then i'll just have the boxes of my dad's books!

.... ... ....

.. i'm going to have to get another bookshelf

#and then in order to have them match i will have to move a living room one to the bedroom #and then flip the other living room ones so that the new one and the only slightly less new one make a bookend type situation #bc that's the only way i can think of to get the heights and shelves matched up and it's been bugging me anyway #but it involves even more book shuffling plus probably blisters again #and it STILL won't be enough shelves even if i chunk everything on the 'not a lot of love' table right out #like seriously all my paperbacks are still mostly double-stacked which is okay #but i REALLY WANTED to see all my books spined out please tell me if there are tricks i'm missing if you have tips #because i cannot justify like four more bookshelves - one will be a lot if i go for it - but it seems like that's what it would take #this is nuts how do bookshelves hold so few books? i can't even fit all my liaden books in one shelf #just organizing my fave authors together takes like two entire bookshelves and that's not even getting to the mysteries #then i have the sff favorites that have pride of place and NEED to be in the bedroom plus the shelf of 'kid books' #and that's not even counting the memorabilia stuff like the doctor who and robotech stuff #and actual books from when i was a kid that have sentimental value - like my rule is if i've reada book more than a dozen times #i am not getting rid of it no matter how it's falling apart especially bc so many are out of print #me still trying to find john verney books whenever i have a chance bc i only have the first two of the february series #which ... my february paperback better be in those boxes too >_>

[thelaughingmerman]

I did adulting today. I'll have to wait a week or two but soon I may finally be able to get my new state license and registration. Totally shouldn't have done that three years ago...

#listen. covid happened i moved three times lost my registration card and i have a poor memory #im going to get a personalized license plate :3c #i lost my registration card thers almost no way for me to gef a new one rn so my best bet was getting my title from the lien people #i also have a pic of registrarion from an insurance claim i printed out jic but last time they said no

[unproduciblesmackdown]

that moment when: everyone's lives are restricted and constricted and these imposed consequences are attributed to anyone's continual individual failures to seek, find, and follow the Correct Path through Life, and so everyone is left on their own to only be seeking & finding these failures as well as the only answer to how their lives can be better....versus Not seeing the world as the free marketplace meritocracy of everyone's personal failures/successes, nor everything in your own life, and thus not forever having to scrutinize Where You Must Be Bringing It Upon Yourself by fucking up or at least failing to do the correct thing, and exist only in perpetual punishment for your ongoing failure and occasional temporary reprieves from it. recognizing everything that wasn't & isn't & wouldn't be [this is because you're bringing it upon yourself] and thus having more capacity & capability to look at the realm of your personal individual self, reality, experiences, life through the perpetual instances of seeking, finding, and following your own needs/wants through one's inherent personhood and exercises of autonomy and recognition of where & when & how one recognizes moments of their existing freely & in more resonant genuine alignment with themself, you know? endless examples to be found in endless fractals of [where & how are people's lives made smaller]. and that of course this doesn't preclude the ability/option at any time to question one's choices, since you'll be able to find more Actual choices available to you (and, also crucially, find more actual choices made by others that are in the pursuit of limiting Yours) to look at, and people getting to exercise their autonomy isn't the same as "everyone doing anything they want regardless of how it affects others" since that [how does it affect others?] element instead being Regarded would be able to lead to recognizing that, in fact, an effect might be the infringement on others' autonomy, hence: There's A Problem....like the ability to just go ham with [questioning???] anything in existence, certainly including oneself, b/c the "norm" is such that rather you're only supposed to be able to question yourself for your failings (or those positioned as less than, thus, beneath you) and not even have the language to express a questioning of aspects of life beyond that b/c stop calling anyone "cis" they're just Normal, Just Be Normal and it would all be fine

#brought to you by: i think one of my feelings lately of A Shift is in my less than ever running this like continuous background function of #looking for Thee Answer (just like the black suits) in any & everything that could serve as the Key to like. whatever could fit into place #to like set things on a [hell yeah. life? better] path. juxtaposing this recent sense of things with the [lol. in retrospect i Do see a new #context wherein i can Recognize smthing abt myself] past going on of like. granpa greentext story be me be fifteen i'm in college b/c i hat #school i also mostly assumed i'd probably fail out freshman yr but didn't. i've never known what i'd wanna major in & as a sophomore i'm de #supposed to figure it out in time for scheduling my jr yr classes (though Ideally have known from the start / been scheduling thusly) & so #many evenings during dinner i'm furiously perusing the daily print news as i've been doing for some yrs to Keep Up W/Current Events but now #also consciously like ''boy i hope in the course of doing this i stumble across some info that sparks some eureka moment of Getting what my #major should Obviously be so i can understand the rest of my life around [do job] b/c i sure as hell don't understand it around [be married #much less [be parent] so one option remains obvi'' whereas now i realize like lol you Were figuring out a guiding light in doing so & that #perspective being honed was one of Having A Political Analysis times....which also provides another Example of [only being able to interpre #what makes your life & your world the way it is: via Your Personal Failures to have already Had Better] in that just like i often forget i #misguidedly (but also reasonably; clearly also using & seeking that autonomy & freedom) tried to have a better existence within the #situation i was in by Coming Out As Trans to parents via an email that was then not directly discussed ever; b/c any legitimate discussion #was not permissible like how so many matters of [supposed correct existence] are Unspeakable so as to be Unquestionable #languaging that succeeds & sustains itself having to be expansive / flexible / creative / evolving too. Making Up Words hell yes #anyways so i also forget i Did try to propose majoring in things that Did more approach what i was suspecting were things i'd wanna do #but even the first like expression of anything on the periphery of that was met with ''no you'd hate it b/c you'd have to deal w/Stupid Ppl #every day'' (by which was meant; with believed inherent synonymity: poor people) & then i also will oft forget i pushed for it any further #which i Know i did b/c of it next being met with angry & aggressive ''i've never heard you talk abt that interest before So'' #(wonder why? withholding info to protect yourself=finding room in one's life for existing more freely; exercising the autonomy to Do That) #but it's easy to forget b/c The All Encompassing Perspective was rather [i'm sure Failing to just Know my major for the sole possibility fo #defining one's entire life: The Correct Dream Job] & then Failing to push it or just express it & be understood ''correctly'' even if i Did #have any ideas in that realm. vs seeing how i Was succeeding & was recognizing shit & pursuing it & looking out for myself & etccc #it's undeniable lol like the framing even that Blaming Oneself is an autonomy seeking response. b/c your autonomous power in your own life #sure Would be more immediate if Everything Really Was Your Fault (when ofc really this is abt obscuring & denying the responsibility of ppl #who have the power over others' lives & then have to act like this is all the fault of the Others; they themselves have never Truly Chosen) #no victim blaming no condemnation of anyone's ''passivity'' here babey #re: the undeniability it's how like. maybe you've only Just realized you're not cis but in doing so it's like ''oh That's what i already #recognizing in various ways throughout my whole life'' it's all always Been there/going on & perspex shifts + new lenses can reveal them

[loregoddess]

best part of drawing fantasy map: you will have a cool fantasy map for your fun fantasy project

worst part: labels

#I hate typography #I dunno how the hell I got through my typography class w/ an A #I am SO BAD AT TYPOGRAPHY YOU HAVE NO IDEA IT IS SO HARD #like my text looks Fine if I hand-letter it and actually Try but I refuse to hand-letter an entire map #also hand-lettering is...hmm...only good for some arts #cartography is not one of those arts for me #also I just hmm...hate positioning all the little labels and stuff and making the text tool Actually Work For Me #very tedious but not in a fun way #I'm working with 3.5 or 5 font I won't even be able to read this if I print it RIP #but if I made the map larger than it is the program would crash I know from experience #which is fine I hate large files anyhow BUT THESE STUPID LABELS #I'm only doing this so I have good worldbuilding notes for the future for this particular project #I'm almost done with labels and then I just need to do some other stuff #and this map I've been working on literally all year so far will be complete #and then I can maybe do other arts #I know ''you can work on multiple arts etc. etc.'' but listen I will not finish this map if I start a new art project #I Want To Finish but mmhhmmmm do I hate typography~ #I literally hand-drew an entire border filled with swirls no problem but these labels.... #I literally hand-drew everything but THESE LABELS #anyhow that's my art vent post for the day #I swear I love art but sometimes I need to scream in frustration y'know #bc typography #oracle of lore