#it's like walking hell on earth

[stellamancer]

falling out of love is!! a terrible feeling!! where all the things that used to charm you about another person slowly turn to annoyances!! when the excitement over the little things that brought you joy is gone!! but it was there! you know it was there, but now it's not or it's slipping through your fingers, you can't get it back, you can't save it you can only watch it disappear.

and then you ask yourself where do you go from there? do you suffer in misery and wait and hope that maybe the other person will just stop loving you? hope that you'll be lucky and you won't have to be the one to bring the axe down on them??? that they'll do the dirty work for you! because even though you don't love them any more, you did at one point, and you still care about them and you don't want to hurt them!! or do you just tell them 'no i can't do this any more. i don't feel the same any more.' and take their heart, and smash it on the ground??

and if they know?? they can feel you slipping away, slipping through their fingers, like sand, like water. and they try so desperately to hold onto you, to keep you, clinging to you. aND THEN THAT JUST BACK FIRES???? OHHHH OHHHHH WEEPS INTO MY HANDS

#nikuniku spam #tee tag #because we all know LMAO #I PROMISE I LOVE YOU TEE #the thought of falling out of love reminds me of my first bf #i thought that going to different schools would be enough #but he kept calling my house constantly #and finally my mom's ex was like #'you need to talk to that boy he won't stop calling' #and i did #and i told him we were done #it's easier when you don't have to see them anymore #but when you do #it's like walking hell on earth

[tblsomedoodles]

Why are you here? Comic

They're dumbasses, your honor. Like, at this moment, neither of them actually believe they're sibling. (Mikey and Leo are dead set on it but these two are skeptical.) Yet they spend two minutes alone and devolve into sibling bickering. something i had not planned on when i went to make this comic. They did this on their own lol!

Bonus Traximus Reaction to finding his ward bickering like a child with one of the newbies

Honestly, it's actually a pretty important moment for both Rafa and Traximus. Rafa because that's that's the moment they realize Donny has like no self preservation instinct, so if he won't protect himself, Rafa will, while he's around to do it at least. It's important for Traximus b/c for the first time in years, he's seeing his ward acting like a child and he pretty much decides right then and there that 1) They're definitely siblings, and 2) if these 3 strangers actually manage to escape this place, he is making Rafa go with them.

Anyways, here's my little experiment with limited color pallets. I'm not sure i'll do this again b/c it was kinda annoying to figure out the colors first (especially since i knew i wanted both variations of red and purple but couldn't find a good pallet for that. Thus i ended up with this one.)

ps. Donny's shoulder is a reoccurring problem at this point b/c he won't let it rest long enough to heal properly. The injury first happened during "shredder strikes back" events and since Donny decided to start his training pretty much immediately upon getting to the farm house, it hasn't had the rest it needs to properly recover. theoretically, it should be healed by now, but he keeps pushing himself and re-injuring it, a fact he's been hiding as much as he possibly can.

#tmnt #tmnt 03 #ninja club au #my doodles #03 raph #03 donatello #dislocated shoulder #reoccurring injury #me chanting ''they're just so dumb. how are they this dumb'' the entire time i was drawing the last page #Traximus bringing Rafa and Donny food #''What the hell did i just walk into?'' #Traximus ends up fixing Donny's arm #and his brothers are none the wiser #until they get back to Earth and Rafa straight up tattles to them #i kinda like the backgrounds with that brush tho #i didn't bother with sketching them or anything #and it looks pretty cool

[justaz]

STOP STOP EVERYRHING

i do not know if this has been said but i am going to say it bc fuck it almost knocked me off my feet when i thought of it

merlin waiting patiently for arthur for YEARS. mourning him for longer than he knew him. watching everyone he knew in camelot die and himself not age a day. watching the stone of the castle begin to crack, the wood begin to rot, the streets begin to empty. camelot has fallen. he ventures out but not far in case arthur returns. he experiences decades pass by him in a flash, still nothing. humanity advances and advances, yet they are also their undoing. they build themselves up just to tear themselves down a moment later. years and years and years and years and years pass, still nothing. the great dragons words echo in his head and he holds them close in hope, arthur will rise again. a day in spring, merlin catches a whiff of something he can’t place but he’s hit with a wave of nostalgia. it’s not until he’s lying in bed later that day that he remembers it’s what arthur used to smell like. not long after that, he tries to recall arthur’s laugh, but the memory is mute. and fuzzy. why is it fuzzy? stop focusing on the laugh and focus on his face…what did he look like again? oh god. no focus on something small. his eye color. what color were his eyes? blue…right? or were they green?

merlin forgetting the pieces of the puzzle that make up arthur, he can’t remember what he smelled like, what he looked like, what his laugh sounded like, he can’t even recall the way he screamed his name everyday when he needed something. merlin’s loosing arthur again. how long has it been? too long, too long and arthur still isn’t back. the dragon said he’d be back. he remembers that. he’s been repeating the words in his head since they were spoken to him long ago. every morning when he woke, every night before he slept, whenever the world around him seemed out to get him. he’s coming back. arthur’s coming back. why isn’t he back? what had that damn dragon said? he always talked in riddles but merlin had thought his words were clear for the first time since he’d known him. what had he said?

when albion’s need is greatest, arthur will rise again.

he’ll rise again. arthur will be back. and they’ll fight a great evil like they used to, side by side, two sides of the same coin, arthur and merlin together at last. he just has to wait for such a great evil. a great evil that would constitute arthur’s return. merlin’s lived many, many years. he’s seen much evil. arthur never returned then. something bigger and badder then. something worse that anything he could imagine…would it be immoral to instigate the evil to come to pass? (merlin’s tries to recall arthur’s secret smile when merlin made a face at him across the room or whispered something in his ear when visiting noble and royals were acting like fools and comes up empty.) to hell with morals. to hell with the damn dragon. to hell with it all. merlin’s been alive for centuries. arthur’s been asleep for centuries. they’ve been waiting for each other for centuries. merlin’s sick of it. to hell with it all. arthur needs a great evil? he’ll give him a great evil.

#aka merthur rivals to friends to sorta lovers but not quite to enemies to lovers #i was just thinking about merlin loosing the love of his life and literal soulmate #and just deciding #‘​fuck it. to hell with everyone else. i want him back.’ #and becoming the great evil terrorizing albion which requires arthur to return #bc like. who can beat merlin? the greatest sorcerer to walk the earth? #arthur pendragon #the other side of the coin #the one who merlin’s uses his magic for #the man he serves #evil merlin #or rather #dark merlin #merlin emrys #bbc merlin #something something destroying yourself for love

[puppyeared]

Atla live action 😐

#thats my honest reaction 😐 #to be fair ive only seen 20 minutes of the s1 finale bc my parents are watching it but. mmmmm kinda mid #like. the casting is definitely an improvement since the last time they tried a live action but it feels like the writing falls flat #or maybe im being harsh bc ive only heard negative criticism on it beforehand. but fr anytime u bring up the original its already #good and not just because its the original. so much fucking detail went into it to the point of someone noticing azula wielding mai's knive #to how well thought out irohs character is used as a way of uniting the cast especially as zukos foil #i heard that sokkas sexism was toned down and i have to agree that feels like a cheap move. like i get WHY they think it would be better #but its not about how that reflects on real world its about how it affects the story. sokka starts out as a misogynistic asshole because #it makes it that much more impactful when he changes. toning that down makes it flatter and makes his character development weak #and someone pointed out they didnt even make him wear the kyoshi warrior uniform and i know it feels like such a small detail but #come on man. they did that in the original because not only does it help him really walk in their shoes - wearing 'feminine' clothing and #makeup and having suki explain its significance but it also ties in with the shows theme of harmony and intersectionality #i was also disappointed when they had the fire sages explain how the water tribe draws power from the moon because in the original it was #IROH who explained it to aang and everyone else BECAUSE we as the audience is under the impression hes with the 'bad guys' #and it builds up to how he learned from the other nations which reconciles his past as a war general and his character overall #AND its an excellent starting point for the cast and audience to understand how the nations arent as closed off as you would think #plus you would think its only fire nation doing propaganda but they expanded on that with earth kingdom censorship and it WORKS #a lot of things in the live action also feel arbitrary like. they gave momo a near death experience for 5 minutes for no reason #im firmly on the stance of bringing back filler moments instead of putting major events right after each other so that u give your #audience a sense of time passing and to really absorb the story. but i think thats more like shock value than filler and yeah its a small #thing to gripe about but those things build up and its really annoying. the thing abt avatar filler moments is that however small #its at least meaningful. hell even the beach episode emphasizes how isolated zuko and his friends are as child soldiers #i also swore to never watch the first live action since it was that bad but i really liked the stylized tattoos they used for aang #anyway. those arejust my thoughts. im not gonna watch the rest because im a ride or die for the original aftr growing up and #rewatching it at least 20 times as a kid. but theres definitely room for improvement and i wish ppl wouldnt take it as 'better' just cuz #netflix is adapting it. i wouldve killed for them to just reanimate the entire avatar series and touch NOTHING ELSE no redub #no changes to the story. just reanimate the thing and leave the rest alone and youd make easy money just the same #ALSO its very jarring not hearing jack desena and dante basco voicing sokka and zuko cause their voices were the most recognizable to me #i get that its because its live action but im allowed to feel a little sad abt that. and uncle irohs accent was really soothing #yapping

[heich0e]

went out last night (woof) and walked into an unlocked stall in the bathroom only to find some poor girl in an absolutely wretched state w her friend trying to take care of her and i got her water and gave her friend the pack of gum from my purse for when she was up to it and made sure they had a way home because in another life i could have been either of those girls but in this life i went home before midnight and scrubbed the bar stamp off my hand like lady macbeth

#i walked in on ANOTHER girl throwing up in the bathroom like less than an hour later #this place was hell on earth #also while i was waiting to get into that bathroom a girl grabbed my hand and was like 'you are SO beautiful' and then immediately+ #followed it up with 'how old are you' and i looked this child in the eyes and said 'geriatric in comparison to 90 percent of the ppl here' #my outfit was cute though so at least there's that

[zarovich]

ever been so sick that just seeing a photo of food makes you ill

#personal #i cant keep anything down today. not even water 😔 hell on earth why does the planet hate meeee #i dont want to be sick like cmon i want to skip around ina field or something like the silly guy i am #buti cant barely walk cuz my muscles are twitching so bad. welll guess im hitting up club bedtime with dj blankie...

[sturmhondsdemjin]

Steve spinning that nail bat is actually something that can be so personal. And sexy.

#an eddie munson ghost tweet #stranger things #eddie munson #steve harrington #steddie #eddie laying across the hood of steve’s car kicking his legs behind him and twirling his hair with stars in his eyes like #‘spin me next big boy’ and steve’s just standing there with his jaw on the ground like WHAT THE FUCK because his brain has malfunctioned #twenty different ways to sunday … and eddie ABSOLUTELY KNOWS what he’s doing and just reaches out to squeeze steve’s forearm … the arm that #holds the bat and gives a little ‘tch’ and a wink and WALKS AWAY leaving steve utterly baffled with his brain scrambling desperately trying #to catch up to what the hell just happened … THEY ARE IN PUBLIC!! EDDIE CAN’T JUST SAY THOSE THINGS!! but he did and he means it … and #steve just flexes his fingers around the bat and gives it another little twirl once his brain comes back down to earth. meanwhile eddie is #already halfway across the parking lot with his head tossed back and his face toward the sun and those rich brown eyes closed right as he #howls with laughter because he KNOWS he’s got steve right where he wants him … #[steve’s bat twirling becomes a subconscious habit … and not just the nail bat … it’s ANYTHING remotely twirling size. because eddie loves #it and steve really fucking loves eddie] #here’s a short story nobody asked for but everybody gets to see

[anglerflsh]

New monthly pfp + God I am So tired dot png

#[.art] #self #i hate you university level math and chemistry and physics done in highschool I hate you so much. #and I don't want to miss a weekend of maybe some free time to having to present my school to the general public girl no girl #girl give this to a teacher like it's supposed to be not to a teenager hell on earth why do I have to do the job of this guy instead of him #on god I am going to. To. I mean i'll do it like hell they'll let me skip out on this #but hhh. The weekend is the one time I get to take walks and sleep until seven and rest a bit...

[lo-cinno]

I do not live

#hi hello i missed tumblr bro i am not the doing okayeth rn i be feeling like a walking corpse #this sem is very de not okay hell on earth type shit torture device 9000 makes you wanna commit sudoku more and more with every second #the stressy and depressy is so real lord above or below i do not has the strength nor sanity for this #anyways hi how are yall if anyone is even online idk did tumblr die while i was gone yet? #hope yall doing better than i am tho (thumbs up) #prob gna disappear again tbh

[themoonking]

see someone spreading misinformation about ancient greece online, gently correct them, they say "well discerning whats canon and whats fanon in greek mythology is really difficult". i am killed instantly.

#my brother in christ contemporary texts are free online <3 #sometimes by multiple different translators #trying to correct people who believe that in the '''''original myth'''''' persephone just walked to the underworld of her own accord is hel #fyi i was saying hell on earth and ran out of letters #i was not trying to be quirky and reference a completely separate culture's myths i prommy #if i ever use 'hel' in like a casual context instead of when specifically talking about norse mythology i need to be put down #greek mythology #i speak #reminds me of that post that claimed that gorgon heads were used to mark womens shelters in ancient greece w/ no source #and everyone believed it #as if gorgon heads weren't on basically every building #(being hyperbolic obv but. basically) #like i don't get this modern urge to give power and agency to women in mythology by either #(a) pretending nothing bad ever happened to them and everything was of their own volition (bad. stop it.) #or (b) pretending that they have uniquely bad stuff happen to them and no one else had bad stuff happen to them and its only this lady #so therefore everyone else involved is evil (also bad. also stop it.) #like when one of those modern 'feminist retelling' greek myth stories w/ the same covers about ariadne #it actively adds bad stuff to happen to ariadne when shes a mortal woman in greco roman myth who actually gets a happy ending #like whats the point of that??

[perilegs]

i’m making huge generalizations here but idk i feel so much more comfortable just existing around trans (and some gnc) people than i do with people who are cis (and gender conforming) bc of the way we view our - and other peoples bodies. i hear trans people talk about bodies with so much love and adoration. like sure hating your body is a big thing for most trans people but most of us also learn to accept what we look like. and the acceptance often turns to genuinely liking yourself. especially if you make changes you want to to your body. it’s just. idk i feel like only a trans person could see my body for what it is

#ive seen a lot of trans art recently and its all been so lovingly made and with clear adoration towards bodies that look like yours #idk im not very eloquent and theres a lot more nuance to this entire thing #but like. i personally love my body like yea i have parts im insecure about we all do but also i have been able to choose to do things to m #body that make me happy! and i dont just mean surgery and hrt bc thats not for anyone but also choosing to do whatever the hell i want to #with my hair and getting piercings and dressing in a way that feels good #i know being able to dress etc the way you want to is a privilege #and im so grateful for it #i can't believe there was a time when i wasnt allowed to cut my hair or wear boy clothes and i had to dress up as a girl #and got constantly reminded of being a failure of femininity etc. and now that i dont talk to my mom anymore im so free #i can exist in my body and i actually feel like my body is mine and not there just for show if that makes sense #like i look in the mirror and go that me! #and also like seeing myself like that has obviously made me appreciate others bodies as well #bc when you have for a long time always payed attention to the positives of a certain thing you start noticing positives more! #just like how idk going for a walk and finding 5 nice things you appreciate or looking #in the mirror and listing things you like about yourself #out loud. even if you feel uncomfortable #it helps #can you believe you're happier when you fall a bit in love with everything around you #there are so many wonderful things on this earth and you have to condition yourself to notice them and its hard work that never stops #but it is so worth it #i have lost the plot of my post #leevi talks #anyways i love how trans people love bodies

[thedevilinmybrain]

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#will never understand the mentality of spending your time on this earth #sending hateful anonymous messages online #like you really don't have anything else you could be doing? #a hobby you could take up? #a movie to watch? #hell #even a quick walk outside to see how big the world is around you and your shitty opinions?

[starkittsy]

wisp venti is just so portable… he deserves a cozy spot to sit

#genshin impact #barbatos genshin impact #wisp venti #wind sprite venti #venti the bard #aether genshin impact #genshin traveler #none of you understand the hell i went through to finish this pic and upload it #there is a corresponding comic that I was working on for this but I had to give up bc my ipad is not cooperating #I could barely save this pic #sorry for bad quality it’s just that autodesk hates me no matter what #anyways I chose aether for this cuz his scarf looked like a perfect place for venti #I recently learned that the official plush of hi #m has little arms! #okay I’m going to walk into the woods and lie down and let the earth slowly reclaim me #veearts

[twilightarcade]

man .

#wordstag #uur not going to believe this but that appointment we scheduled? Yeah it's still happening. What the hell.. #I think . They should cancel all appointments forever for me. Because I've been sooooo good like #drinking water. Eating food. The works. Come on now #lil ol me? Going to the doctor? Laughable. We all know that I'm perfectly healthy #I wake up in da morning eat food brush my teeth do fuckall eat lunch do fuckall eat dinner shower then go to sleep. For 10 hours !!! #you can trrust me bro #8 glasses of water. Every day. Yeah I know I'm good; aren't I? #I tthink I need to get my blood drawn too because that was supposed to happen like a year ago 🩸🩸🩸🩸 good thing nothing bad happened #cod it's not even the like. Hey don't eat anything or whatever part . It's just the fact that I have to go. I think they should just #let me ship my blood over. In a neat little vial. I can trust ups with this task #that said we're gonna have to be on our best behavior o7 I'm gonna sleep so good that the doctor will get jealous. #they'll walk in and go wow! That's the face of the most well rested [X] year old I've ever met! I'm proud of you #and we'll pass alllllll the test. Every single onnathem. #we're going to pass with flying colors. And they'll even give me a sticker. That's how good I'll do. #I love trips to da . Dockter. Dockters love me also. Peace and love on planet earth. #doctors office is so fun !

[carcarrot]

oh google maps we're really in it now

#not even winter yet and im looking up my hotel from my california vacation and where id walk from it #i miss it. it was always 80+ degrees and hell on earth trying to cross the street but i miss it #seeing google maps of the area is like oh you mean this wasnt a dream i had. it was real??????? #i wish i could relive it all again of course for the fun of it all #but also so i could make the smart decision of not wearing the sandals that cut into my heels :( #that was literally hours before the concert btw lmao but i put on socks and the cdg shoes and said it fuck it we're dancing anyway #its a long time until my next vacation . oh well #im sorry im making this out to be so much lmao but as someone who works full time and does nothing vacations mean a lot. to me #anyway. dreaming of micelis pasta and santa monica pier burger. and everything else #everything except those awful fucking sandals

[goldenkid]

hi guys. has anyone ever thought about an au where martha stayed with 10

#she so wouldn't because it's out of character but like.....if he persuaded her #and she left and he appreciated her this time and she abandoned her family.... #maybe she's not the doctor's doctor maybe this time the doctor chases her and keeps her tethered because she's been so strong and maybe she #-makes him promise to take her back to that same second. back to her family. #but she's walked the earth for a year she's seen hell too but the difference is she can run away. #and she IS going to go back she IS going to take care of them #but she has a time machine. she can run away so far. #maybe she had a year away from the doctor and now it's so much less about him #and more about her escaping #maybe being a doctor across the stars. trying to protect people to save them to practice because she's so scared that she can't save her- #-family. that the damage is irreparable. #and she's so angry at the doctor but also they make such a good team #and this time he's the one worrying about her #yeargh... #and then CAPTAIN JACK IS THERE. just cause i <3 the tenjackmartha dynamic #doctor who