#its just so frustrating that this cool cute app has been. taken over

[35gofbeansprouts]

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#having APINIONS that i want to post on artfol bc its aimed at those users but honestly !!! #theyre all teenagers going thru the self centred asshole stage so really whats the point #like theyre not gonna Realise for another 5-10 years #its just so frustrating that this cool cute app has been. taken over #by 15-20 year old kindergarteners

[chaerrie-on-top]

The Stars Aligned For Us

Chapter 4

Dahyun and Chaeyoung walk side by side in a comfortable silence, their sneaker clad feet creative a rhythm against the sidewalk. Chaeyoung glances at her phone every now and then, secretly hoping her boyfriend (well, ex-boyfriend) would call her or text. Whenever she would glance at it, she couldn't think about it long before her eyes would tear up. So, she'd distract herself and count the cracks in the sidewalk or look at the cars passing by. Chaeyoung had stared at her phone for too long, and thought about too much when her lips began to quiver.

She clears her throat, "I saw you eating with a girl today," Chaeyoung casually says. "You've never talked about her before. New friend?" "Ah," Dahyun hangs her head, letting her long brown hair fall in her face and hide her blushing cheeks. "That's my new friend, Sana. She joined our class today; she moved here from Japan."

"Japan? That's so cool! So she's fluent in Korean?" "Yeah, she has an accent but other than that you would never know she's Japanese! Her aunt lives here, so she lives with her and I assume that's why she's so good at Korean."

"Ohh," Chaeyoung smiles. "You seem awfully happy."

Dahyun chortles and picks up her pace, running up to the restaurant they had finally approached. She opens the door, looks back to Chaeyoung with a smile. "Really?"

Chaeyoung nods and walks through the doorway. "Mhm. I've never seen you so smiley." Dahyun follows in after her. Dahyun stands to the side while Chaeyoung goes up to the register to let them know the girl's had called in the order.

"Your meal will be ready in just a minute, thank you," the employee tells her. Chaeyoung thanks him before turning and stepping off to the side where Dahyun waits. "Dahyun?" a voice speaks from behind them. The two girls whip around at the same time to find a pretty girl with shimmering brown eyes and long wavy hair looking back at them. "Oh, hey Sana," Dahyun greets, her eyes training on the girl. Chaeyoung glances over at her roommate, watching as Dahyun seems entranced as she looks up at the slightly taller girl. the girl, Sana, looks back at Dahyun with flushed cheeks. Chaeyoung awkwardly clears her throat, causing both girls to seemingly snap out of it and look over to her.

"Ah, hi, I'm Sana," Sana introduces herself, bowing politely. "Dahyun, who is this?"

Sana trains her eyes onto Chaeyoung, looking her up and down. Chaeyoung can see some sort of shift in emotion on Sana's face; jealousy? Annoyance? Chaeyoung wasn't sure, but Sana definitely didn't look at Chaeyoung the same way she did Dahyun.

"This is my roommate, Chaeyoung," Dahyun introduces the two. "Chaeyoung, this is Sana-"

"We were just talking about you," Chaeyoung bows. "Dahyun was telling me about you guys meeting!" Sana smiles back at her and she opens her mouth to speak, but the cashier calls Dahyun and Chaeyoung.

"That's our food; I'll go grab it. It was nice meeting you Sana," Chaeyoung says before parting ways with the girls and going up to the register.

"Guess I better get going. I'll text you later," Dahyun tells her.

Sana waves cutely. "Okay, bye Dahyun."

***

The next morning Dahyun awakes to a text on her phone.

Sana: hii :) it's Sana

Dahyun smiles to herself, opening up the texting app and hurriedly texting Sana back: hii :) what's up?

Sana: can I call you? I just have a quick question :)

Dahyun: go ahead :)

Dahyun sits up in her bed, staring at her phone as she awaits Sana's call. About a minute pops by before Dahyun's phone begins to ring, which she answers almost immediately. "Hello?'

"Hey."

"Hey." Dahyun pauses. "So... The question?"

Sana giggles over the phone, "Do you happen to have class between three to four this afternoon?"

"Nope."

"Great!" Sana cries. "Dahyun, you have to go with me."

"Go with you where?"

"Wouldn't you rather it be a surprise?" Sana giggles, sounding almost mischievous. Dahyun sat there for a second, trying to imagine what plan Sana had up her sleeve.

Dahyun must have been silent for a moment too long because Sana gives in, "Fine, I'll explain a bit more. I need you to come to this meeting with me."

"A meeting? Sounds kinda boring-"

"It wont be, I promise! Please just meet me at the science building, okay?"

Dahyun sighs. "Fine, but you owe me big time after this."

Sana giggles. "Whatever. I'll see you later! Bye Dahyunie!"

***

Sana sits at the bench outside of the science building, nervously checking the time on her phone as she waits for Dahyun. She was a bit early, so she pulled up a game on her phone to pass the time. Only a minute into her game, Animal Restaurant, a shadow casted over her. Sana looked up expectedly, thinking Dahyun had arrived.

Except, she was met by a boy she had never seen before. "Hi," he said. "I'm Jaemin, you are?."

"Hi, Sana,"

"Hi, Sana. I just wanted to tell you how beautiful you are." He tells her. Sana blushes under the sudden compliment. I'm uninterested in men, is what she wants to say.

"Thank you," is what she says instead.

"Mind giving me your number? I'd love to go out for dinner sometime."

Sana internally cringes, her eyes quickly scanning the scene around them as she looks for an escape from the awkward encounter. "Ah, that's kind of you but I have a boyfriend," she lies. Suddenly she sees Dahyun coming from a distance. "Dahyun, over here!"

The boy smiles sheepishly, "It's okay, I'll see you around."

"Bye," Sana smiles and waves at him, breathing out a sigh of relief once he leaves.

"Who was that?" Dahyun asks once she's made her way over to Sana.

Sana shakes her head and stands up, gently grabs ahold of Dahyun's arm before leading her away. "Doesn't matter. We have a meeting to attend."

***

"Sana, you're insane!" Dahyun cries, digging her heels into the ground as she comes to a stop. Sana tugs her arm, scoffing with frustrating when Dahyun refuses to move. The building the meeting was being held at was literally only feet away and now Dahyun wouldn't go in.

"Please," Sana pouts, giving Dahyun puppy dog eyes.

"So you're telling me I'm supposed to walk in there and pretend I'm Japanese?" Dahyun asks. Sana nods. "You're crazy!"

"Aw c'mon, it'll be fun!"

Dahyun groans. "And what if I get caught?"

"Attendance isn't being taken or anything! There's a really short informational part, but most of it is just to give foreign students a chance to meet each other."

Dahyun shakes her head. "Sana..."

"Please come with me, Dahyun," Sana whines. "I'm shy." Dahyun laughs out loud; they both know that isn't true.

"Please! We can both meet new people! It'll be really fun, please!"

Dahyun melts under her intense gaze, her eyes diverting to the ground as she contemplates her decision. "Fine. I'll go with you."

***

The informational part of the meeting lasted for only about fifteen minutes before the students were invited to come enjoy some light refreshments and get to know each other. Dahyun gulped as her and Sana stood up, the two girls setting on their way to go meet the other students. Her palms felt sweaty, which she wiped against her jeans as Sana looped their arms and led her with the rest of the group. The two girls found their way to the refreshment table, where they both grabbed cups of water and surveyed the room.

Sana looked around, hoping to find someone that looked approachable. Standing at another refreshment table not too far away were two girls who casually chatted as they sipped their drinks. Sana whispers to Dahyun, "Let's go talk to them."

"Wait, Sana-" but its too late, Sana has already wandered off and poor Dahyun follows behind like a lost puppy.

"Hi," Sana bows her head politely and gives the girls a warm smile.

"Hi," one of them says. Dahyun notices her pretty face and long, straight brown hair. This girl is tall; a lot taller than her but only a bit taller than Sana. The girl beside her has short jet black hair with bangs covering her forehead. She has big brown eyes that look back at Sana and Dahyun warmly.

"I'm Sana and this is my friend Da-" Sana cuts herself off, giggling nervously. "I mean, um, Hana."

"Cool, Hana is my sister's name!" the one with short black hair excitedly tells them. "I'm Momo, this is Tzuyu." she gestures to the taller girl who is looking at Dahyun strangely. "Are you both Japanese?"

Sana nods, "What about you guys?"

"Momo is, but I'm Taiwanese," Tzuyu says, still looking Dahyun up and down. "You're so familiar to me for some reason. I think I've seen you before..."

"Ah, maybe you've seen me around campus," Dahyun tells her. Tzuyu nods in agreement, her curious gaze melting into a kind one.

"Maybe," Tzuyu responds with a small smile. The girls fall into a brief silence which is broken by Sana's sweet voice.

"Da-" Sana bites her lips, cutting herself off once she catches her mistake. "I mean, Hana and I are going out for ramen once this is over, would you guys like to join us?" Dahyun casts her gaze to the floor as she tries to conceal her giggles. Tzuyu's eyebrows draw together as she looks at the girls with curiosity, but Momo doesn't seem to notice the slip as she announces that Tzuyu and her will join.

***

The girls walk together to the ramen shop that's only a few minutes away and grab a table inside while they wait for their food. Dahyun excuses herself to the bathroom and Tzuyu offers to grab everyone's food once its ready, leaving the two Japanese girls alone at the table.

"Ah, can we switch to Japanese while the others are gone? Talking in Korean hurts my brain," Momo whines to Sana cutely, playing with her straw as she bats her big, round eyes at the long-haired girl sitting across from her.

Sana laughs and starts talking in Japanese now, "Sure, but your Korean is really good!"

"Are you kidding me? Yours is way better," Momo scoffs. "How are you so good at it?" "My aunt lives her, so I've spoken Korean for pretty much my whole life."

"Wow, you're so lucky. You make switching between languages look easy," Momo sighs dreamily. Sana smiles when she sees Dahyun walking up to the table and she scoots to the side so Dahyun can sit in the booth with her.

"Hi Hana, we were just talking about how Sana has completely mastered two languages," Momo greets the youngest girl at the table, still talking in Japanese, whose face goes white as she's spoken to in a foreign language.

Sana gushes from the compliment, momentarily believing her own lie as she completely forgets that Dahyun can't speak Japanese.

"Um..." Dahyun gulps, glances at Sana for help. "Hai..."

"You're super good at Korean too. How did you learn?" Momo is simply just curious as she asks, hoping to gather some study tips from the girl she thinks is Japanese as well.

"Um... Hai!" Dahyun says confidently. Sana can't help but to burst into a fit of laughter, which makes Dahyun's face go red as she ducks her head in a mixture of shame and embarrassment.

Momo stares at her strangely, just as Tzuyu joins the table with everyone's bowl of ramen. "Did I miss something?" Tzuyu asks upon seeing a hysterical Sana and a flustered Dahyun.

"Sana," Dahyun says, glaring at her friend. "Maybe you should fill Momo and Tzuyu in."

"Yeah, your Japanese is pretty terrible," Momo mutters, making Dahyun choke up.

"Well..." Sana starts. "It's because she's not actually Korean." "What?" Momo cries, nearly drops her chopsticks as she gapes at the girls across the table. Tzuyu rolls her eyes.

"Momo, you couldn't tell?" Tzuyu chides.

"We're so sorry we didn't tell you," Sana says between giggles. "I snuck Dahyun into the meeting."

Tzuyu chortles in disbelief, "No way." Momo still stares at the girls in shock while Tzuyu starts to laugh.

"I can't believe I never noticed," Momo huffs, grabs a pile of noodles with her chopstick.

The girls laugh for a few minutes more at the sheer stupidity of Sana and Dahyun's little scheme. They laughed so much that other customers in the shop had glanced over, looking at them strangely as they laughed to the point of leaning on each other for support. Sana laid her head on Dahyun's shoulder as she laughed, her eyes casted upwards as she watches Dahyun's pretty face glow with happiness.

[tsarinastorm]

Same World-Adam Sackler/Reader-Chapter 1

*PART TWO OF SO WE BEAT ON SERIES

PART 1: Chapter 1  Chapter 2  Chapter 3  Chapter 4  Chapter 5   Chapter 6

“I want to know you moved and breathed in the same world with me”. -F. Scott Fitzgerald

Adam’s walking through the park carrying Sample, he had got roped into babysitting as Caroline had to go somewhere and Laird was busy. He hoped it wouldn’t be for too long like it was last time. Both Caroline and Laird had seemingly been more stable than they’d ever been and it made Adam happy. Considering her real name, Adam was now glad his niece’s nickname Sample stuck, it was better than have to carry around little Jessa-Hannah. In fact, that name made him feel nauseous. Now he was over both his past relationships with Jessa and Hannah enough to be friendly with both of them, but he still preferred to keep his distance so he wouldn’t get caught up in all of that drama again.

               Today was his day off from shooting his recent film and he wanted to make the most of it despite his babysitting duties. It was nice outside, and Sample needed fresh air so he took to her a local park, though he would never let her be more a few feet away him. She’s sitting down on the blanket he brought for them playing with a toy and he’s talking to her in a silly voice which makes her laugh. He hears someone speaking to him.

               “Cute baby. Is she yours?” Y/N observes him with Sample and smiles. Adam’s disoriented seeing her there, and she looks beautiful he thinks to himself. She’s wearing a striped short-sleeved sweater, black jeans and flats.  Act cool, act cool.

               “No, she’s my niece. Her name is Sample.” He answers her and she leans down beside the blanket and hands Sample her toy. Y/N raises her eyebrows as she asks, “Her name is really Sample? That’s a different name.”

               Adam watches Y/N playing with Sample, and he appreciates it. He remembers how awful Jessa was with her, so it’s refreshing to see someone who is a natural. He mentally logs this moment in his mind, because if he ever gets into a serious relationship again, he wants kids one day. “Sample is her nickname because she was born really small, sample-sized. Her name is Jessa-Hannah Bluebell something, some ridiculous name. My sister was trying to do a home-birth but was having complications and refused to go to the hospital. It was Jessa and Hannah who convinced Laird to carry her there.”

“Damn that sucks though having your niece named after two of your exes. Sample it is then” She says as she smiles. Y/N adds, “You seem like you’re really good with her.”

“I guess so. I’m a like a big kid myself and it works out.” He responds back and Sample appears to be loving all the attention she’s getting. Sample grabs unto Y/N then heads towards Adam, as Y/N hands her to Adam, their hands brush. And it’s electric, Adam can feel the tingle go through his arm. She then looks at her phone and stands up to leave.

               “I have to go meet Shoshanna for lunch. But you’ll be at the party, right?”

               Adam nods his head, but before he can speak, Y/N adds, “Hannah and Jessa both will be there, but if it gets weird I can find a place to hide you in the apartment.”

               “Thanks, but I think it should be civil between all of us now.” He watches her go and thinks that if he wasn’t so into Y/N there would be no way anyone could get him to that party. But he supposes he’ll suffer through it if he gets to spend time with her.

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Marnie called you as soon as you left Shosh, and she told you that she had seen her ex Charlie earlier in the day. She said that he’d gone through rehab, been clean for over a year and has a new app he’s developing. She then mentions that she invited him to your apartment warming. You told her that if   Marnie still had a couple hours of work left and you decided to browse on your computer. Without thinking it through, you start googling Adam, and then you’re clicking on his movie. You try to talk yourself out of it, but then you press play. It’s actually good, guess he really did love Hannah.

               Then, the scene starts. He spanks her again and again. You feel yourself becoming aroused as you watch his back muscles move and his large hand collide with her. You’re getting wetter, and honestly you can’t remember the last time you felt this horny. You go to take a shower, hoping that these hormones will pass. But that scene was hot, and you couldn’t ignore it. Then, there was the raw emotion from that film, you could feel everything that the characters were feeling. It made you think of Adam differently to see what kind art he had created and to see what he really felt. Here you had always thought that he was more of player, you never realized the strength of his emotions. Now you find him more attractive than you did before.

               Ugh, this complicates things, you think to yourself. Of course you had to go and catch feelings for one of the most inconvenient men you’ve met. First, there’s the fact that Adam may be the most frustrating man you’ve ever known, second, he’s an ex of one of  your friends and has a complicated past. Third, you had decided that you didn’t want a relationship right now, you had wanted to focus on yourself. Yet, if you were being honest with yourself, you were infatuated by Adam, and you could see it potentially developing into something real one day, if it wasn’t already. He made your head hurt, your heart flutter, and gave you butterflies as cliché as that sounded. He was intense, and you could tell that he felt things as deeply as you did. You always wanted the type of connection that was intoxicating, maddening and deep enough to drown in. You knew you would have to explore things with Adam, and you made up your mind that you would be open to the possibilities.

               While you’re zoned out in your own world pondering your emotions, you hear your phone buzzing. You check it and its Jessa calling you, so you answer, “Hello.”

“Hey, so Y/N, first, I need life advice then I have a question about the party tonight.” Jessa says and you can hear people in the background speaking.

               “Okay shoot.” You tell her.

“I want to mend my friendship with Hannah but I don’t know how. I thought since Adam and I are over that it would fall back into place but it’s not. And can I bring a plus one to the party tonight?” Jessa asks and you sigh before answering, “You should show Hannah that you’ve changed and that she can trust you again, and you know, take an interest in her life. It will probably be a slow process. You can bring a plus one as long as he behaves.”

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Music fills the air, and you have opened the sliding doors to the main terrace. Marnie has taken care of the food for the night. You weren’t sure if you wanted this apartment warming in the first place but you go along with it, because, hey, what could it hurt? Marnie has moved the furniture around in the main room so the table is in the middle of the room, while there are other seats surrounding the room. You’ve never been the best hostess so you follow her lead. Though you do set out the flowers and see that the food is out with utensils in all of the containers. You’re wearing a pale-pink, off-the-shoulder jumpsuit, and block-heeled sandals.

“I can’t believe you invited Jessa. And Adam. There is now a 99 % chance that this will turn into a shit show.”  Marnie says as she continues moving around your apartment. You stop to get a treat for your dog River before answering her. “You invited who you wanted, including your druggie ex who you just ran into for a few minutes earlier today. By the way, tell me about that.”

“Well I just ran into Charlie on the street and he started asking me questions about my life. I summed up the past two years, and asked him about what he’s up to. He said that he went to rehab, and has been clean since. He also has a new app he’s starting. I don’t know it just really threw me for a loop seeing him again.” Marnie states and you notice that she’s twitching her fingers like she does when she’s nervous.

“Running into an ex can do that. Do you still have any feelings for him?” You ask because now you’re curious. She seems very flustered so you sense that there’s some emotions underneath that.

“For so long, I thought I would always end up with Charlie. Then I wouldn’t and I thought that Desi was the one, then Ray, but I think that I always really wanted closure about Charlie.” She admits and you give her a pat on the shoulder and say, “If you need closure then get closure. Love chooses you sometimes.”

“Back to what I said before I got off on the Charlie tangent, what were you thinking invite both Adam and Jessa?”

“Jessa says that she wants to turn her life around and I guess I want to support that. Adam and I have a lot in common, he makes me feel less weird.” You say hoping that will get her to accept the fact that you choose to invite them both.

“Look, Y/N, I know you’re a good person and want to help people but Jessa pulls this all the time. She’ll say she’s going to change, get her life together and that will last a few months then she spirals out of control. And she’ll probably end up fucking you over. But I say that as your best friend: just be careful. Then there’s Adam. I have never understood what it was about him that made Hannah and Jessa so crazy. My only worry with him is that he wants to fuck you. Then if that happens, the awkward love triangle will turn into an even more awkward love rectangle.”

You feel your face go red at her last statement, you still blush as an adult and you hate it. Then, you do your best damage control by saying, “That’s not going to happen. But I guess we’ll see what happens with Jessa. We’re best friends, we’re supposed to be honest with each other.”

Marnie turns and grab a gift bag from her room, and pulls out the bottle of champagne that was inside. She says, “Marc got us this as a house warming gift.”

“Oh well that was very nice of him.” You say and think that he was the last person you wanted to think of. Elijah then shows up early to help the two of you set up the decorations. You had bought some lights to string up through the apartment and terrace while Marnie had got a few balloons. You catch up with Elijah while you wait for your other guests to arrive. Hannah shows up first, followed by Shoshanna and her fiancé, Byron, then Ray and his girlfriend Abigail come in. Then a guy you assume must be Charlie walks in. He seems nice enough, and Marnie introduces you to him.  You’re actually feeling relieved that Jessa didn’t show since Marnie was sure that she would cause problems, but you were disappointed that Adam bailed. You were looking forward to hanging out with him again and you wanted to tell him that you watched the movie.

               You mingle with Shosh and Elijah, the former is talking about wedding details and the latter is giving her his thoughts on the details. Byron is keeping his opinion to himself as you assume that he’s letting Shosh do much of the planning. You look over and see Ray and his girlfriend Abigail sharing a plate of food and giggling. Your eyes continue to scan the room to see Marnie and Charlie off on their own in a corner in the room.  How is possible to feel lonely in a room full of people?

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Adam buzzes up to Y/N and Marnie’s apartment. When he walks through the door he immediately sees that the room is full with people who aren’t his biggest fans: Hannah, Marnie, Marnie’s old boyfriend, Elijah. Then he sees Y/N and it was worth it. She standing by the door to the balcony, and smiles as soon as she sees him. She looks hot and comes right up to him and thanks him for showing up.  He don’t see Jessa and he’s relieved he can’t deal with her ‘friendship’ ploy tonight.She offers him a drink and he follows her into the kitchen to avoid socializing with the other people at the party.

“I have a question and I want you to be completely honest with me.” Y/N says and looks somber. He nods his head and now he’s scared: what will she ask, it must be important. She then leans into him, handing him his drink then whispers, “What is like to fuck Hannah and Jessa?”

He watches her to see if she’s joking or being serious. She then laughs at his horrified expression and he shakes his head and shrugs his shoulders before adding, “A gentleman never tells.”

“Now, c’mon, what kind of answer is that? I invited you so you could provide details and your drama could be the entertainment for the night.” She says cheerfully, then giggles. Holy shit, that giggle may be one of the best sounds he’s ever heard.

“What? Here I thought you brought me here so you could watch me squirm. Don’t worry, I’ll be sure to make it clear that you invited me so you’re responsible.” He says in a deep tone back at her.

“On a more serious note, I watched your movie….” Now, Adam starts to panic, he’s expecting her to lay into him and begin her insults/commentary. He’s surprised by her actual comment.

“It was really good. It was open and raw. Real life isn’t depicted correctly in art anymore, it was refreshing. You could really feel the passion. To have a love that’s too intense to survive is painful, but you have to let it go.”

He feels his face blush, he always feel uncomfortable from praise, but he does appreciate it from Y/N. He knows she definitely has her own opinions, and is well-cultured so if she likes it then that really means something. He awkwardly stammers, “Thank you, I appreciate it.”

Then the rest of her comments sink in, he adds, “See you get the purpose of it! That was the point of it: that you can have a connection that’s too intense for it to last.”

The moment is ruined because he then sees Jessa walk into the room with some guy, she’s obviously dragged here. She goes up to talk to Hannah, Marnie, and Shoshanna. Adam is thankful that she hasn’t spotted him yet and he wants to keep it that way.

“How are your projects going?” Y/N asks him like she doesn’t even recognize that he’s become tense. He answers, “Good, I’m actually updating some of my old writing work for a resume, and preparing for another audition. One of my friends from the cab group wants me to take the movie and either turn into a longer screenplay or adapt for the stage.”

Shit! Jessa’s made eye contact with him and now she’s coming their way. Jessa approaches with the asshole she’s brought with her. She hugs Y/N, and says, “Y/N, you look beautiful as always. This is Joe, we’ve been seeing each other.”

Jessa then turns to Adam and says, “It’s good to see you, Adam. Adam this is Joe, he’s a cardiologist. Joe this is Adam.”

Adam reluctantly shakes Joe’s hand and prays that Jessa goes away. He can tell that she brought this guy here to make him jealous but he’s so checked out of that relationship that he doesn’t care, he’s just annoyed. He wants to continue his conversation with Y/N without the newfound company. Y/N chatters with Jessa for a short amount of time which leaves both him and Joe stuck standing there awkwardly.

“If you need someone else to help you review your other pieces, I’d love to read some more of your work, if you’re open to that. I know some writing is extremely personal.” Y/N says as she ignores that Jessa and Joe are still only a few away. Jessa is trying to hide that she’s eavesdropping in the conversation, but she keeps her head pointed towards their conversation.

“I’d like that, I’m auditioning for a role with Ars Nova, and they’re going to be doing a new piece by Sara Ruhl. They look their actors to be well-rounded and are looking for new works.” Adam says and he can’t hide his excitement. He wants the role and to be a part of the elite company.

“Wait, that’s amazing! Didn’t Lin Manuel Miranda do work with them? And Sarah Ruhl? Wow” Y/N says and she sounds as excited about it as he does.

“It’s a big opportunity and I want everything to be perfect.” He says. But before they can continue the conversation, Jessa interjects, “Who and what are you talking about?”

“A theater company, one of the best in New York and one of the best contemporary playwrights,” Y/N answers her and Jessa only responds with “Oh” then she walks away and goes to talk Hannah.  Adam and Y/N look at each other and raise their eyebrows before continuing the conversation.

They end up talking about past relationships, family, and pet peeves. For one of the first times, Adam is one of the last people to leave the party, Y/N gives him a hug and Marnie gives him the side-eye.Adam never thought that Y/N would agree to help him write. The idea of her reading and editing his work makes him somehow self-conscious and excited at the same time. He wants to be sure to impress her, and to make the most of it so his resume is as good as possible.

Adam returns home then goes back to read through new materials for upcoming auditions. He gives up after he notices that he can’t concentrate. His thoughts drift to Y/N as he thinks of how good she looked that night at the party, and how perfectly disheveled she looked walking the other day. He wonders what she would look like after he’s wrecked her, then he thinks about her great her tits looked in that outfit, and her perky ass. And he realizes that now he’s hard. He unbuttons his pants and reaches down to stroke his cock. He begins stroking, thinking of how Y/N’s mouth would feel sucking him, how her pussy would feel around him, and how she would look when he made her cum. He strokes at a faster pace until he feels the familiar tingle in his spine. Then his orgasm hits him and streaming cum is across his hands and his stomach.

He thinks that he’s going to have to make a move on Y/N, or else he’ll always regret it. He’s interested in her in every way: sexually, emotionally, and intellectually, and he supposes he’ll settle for any part of her she’ll give him.

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               Once everyone is gone, you crash down on the couch beside Marnie, and you look around at the mess left from the party. You grab some a container of cookie dough and a couple of spoons, and the two you snack and talk about how great the party was.  Marnie stares at you, so finally ask, “Why are you looking at me like that?”

“I saw you talked to Adam most of the night.” Marnie says in an accusatory tone and gets up to pick up some of the trash.

“What? We have a lot in common. I’m not going to apologize for it. You spend the night talking to Charlie, how did that go?” You say, desperate to change the topic.

“It was good, I forgot how I had felt about him. Then it’s all coming rushing back. I guess we’ll see how it goes.” Marnie says and you’re worried because while Charlie seems like a nice guy, he did have no problem ditching her and disappearing.

“I hope it works out or get what you need from it. Do you want to finish cleaning up in the morning?”

Marnie shakes her head yes and you retreat into your room, and fall into your bed. Sleep hits you at once.

#adam sackler #adam sackler x reader #adam sackler fic #hbo girls #girls hbo #adam driver #adam sackler smut

[kinktae]

kinktae? i think you meant the sweetest & loveliest person ever 🥺💞💓

Anonymous said: rose deserves all the love and more rt if you agree 🤠

(warning: oodles of precious and dear anons under the cut)

yooniversus said: i faqing luv u (hehe get it) 💕💕💕🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕🥺💕❤️💫💕💫💜💕💜💕💜💕💕💜💕💜💜💜💜 ok soddy i was just bored 

Anonymous said: i dont usually interact with fic writers but ur work is out of this world!!!!! the way you write dialogue makes it seem casual and natural flowing like how you would talk to a friend :)) connecting to the main character has never been a challenge for me, but with your writing its like i am the character instead of just some reader. i hope that you never stop writing as long as it brings you joy, and that this message makes you smile (even just a lil' bit) luv u!!

worldclasscassy said: i am so geeked over ur writing 🥰🥺

Anonymous said: uwu punch me daddy

Anonymous said: ur deada$$ one of the best writers on here, i don’t make the rules sis 🙈

into1995 said: heelo! sending all my love! 🥰 you have such a beautiful soul, please take care! we are here for you always. 💕

dejayoon said: take your time lovey! you deserve a break💜

Anonymous said: imagine waking up every day knowing ur rose...PHEW!! wish i could be that lucky 😪😪

lovesic-eunoia said: hey, sweetie. i know your anxiety has been making you feel like crAP and i'm here to tell you that it really does get better❤️, there's always gonna things that make you wanna quit trying to get better, but don't give up. anxiety doesn't rule your life, you do. i wish you the best through all of the ups and downs. you're a precious piece of life. much love ❤️❤️

Anonymous said: I love you

Anonymous said: saw u on my dash and my heart went lub dub

Anonymous said: I hope you take some time to yourself and enjoy hiatus! We love you!

evilkookie said: Your health is way more important than anything!! I wish only good and positive things for you and you feel better, take as long as you need for your Hiatus 💝💝

Anonymous said: I dont know if I'm late but take care of yourself bby! Health always comes first and I hope you'll be enjoying your time outside of tumblr! Will miss you but love you so much bby! -Bunny

miss-peys said: Hope all is well! I myself had to take a step back from school because my mental health was terrible! Hope everything is going okay in your personal life! Can’t wait for you to come back to tumblr, but please come back when YOU feel ready not because others want you to come back! Sending positive vibes your way! Can’t wait for you come back💜💜💜💜

Anonymous said: Rose my darling dearest I just wanted to let you know I’m thinking of you and I hope you’re doing well 💜💫☁️

Anonymous said: hi jared ilu xoxoxo

Anonymous said: I love u and I hope ur taking care of yourself and staying hydrated!!

googie-kook said: How are you doing lovely? Miss you loads and hope you’re feeling better! Love from London! 🇬🇧 💓💓💓💓💓

Anonymous said: hi bby! im just coming in to tell you i love you! and you are loved!! and i hope youre taking good care of yourself and doing all those good things to keep yourself happy and healthy!! and im super excited for your spooky fic soon! sending you nothing but the best !!!❤❤❤

Anonymous said: i’m really happy that you’re taking a mental break from social media(tumblr). i had to do that a couple days ago and it really helps. anyways hope you get better and you take time to heal yourself. i love youuuuu🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

Anonymous said: Ur meat is huge, keep going.

Anonymous said: how are you being doing rose? hope you're well

hyzzzan said: I'm glad you're still here 🥰💜

Anonymous said: You are so good and such a cute human bean oof (are we still saying ‘oof’?) it’s really frustrating cause I can’t make u feel the intensity with which I mean it. You are so so so so good, your stories just hit different. Like next level shit. Your characters, stories, yo skills I swear if only I was half as good as you are at writing maybe I would be able to make u feel the intensity of my feelings.. I hope writing these masterpieces brings you as much joy as reading them does to me💕💕

Anonymous said: Your stories are soooo good! I am in love with them.

Anonymous said: I MISSED YOU. seeing the "hiatus" taken off your blog just made me so happy. I hope you're good 🖤 happy Halloween 🦇

Anonymous said: I'm rereading all your fics and I keep falling in love with your writing. Thank you for quality content. Also, I hope you're doing good!

Anonymous said: Hi love! I'm so so sooooooo happy you're back! Hope you had a great break and noe you're feeling better. But take your time with writing, exams come first. I still can't wait to read your new stuff tho! (On a side note, we already talked in private but I'm still shy, sorry) ♥️♥️

Anonymous said: Hi omg are you back?? I missed you 🥺

Anonymous said: rose ur writing is insanely good and whenever im having a ton of anxiety i read ur writing to calm me down so tysm for being the best ever

lorengarcia-yut

said: You're BACK! I'm so happy you're back! I really hope you are feeling good and happy. Just wanted to send you a lil welcome back message with a little love

monohoed said: Hey, hope you been feeling better? I love everything you’ve written so far and just wanted to let you know! I’ve struggled w mental health myself and I empathise ♥️♥️

sydney--chan said: I fr think I might die when you post a fic again like no cap ive missed you and your writing so mUCH🥺🥺🥺

Anonymous said: so heyyy idk how to say it buttt ily~~ ★☆~

Anonymous said: hihi rose ilu sm and i hope ur doing well, pls take care of urself bb 🥺🥺💜

Anonymous said: .........you are like so beautiful

Anonymous said: HEY IM WUV U AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!! 💕💕 I love all your work and I hope the best for you!!!

Anonymous said: ummm ma’am??? you are so beautiful and I am so gay??????

Anonymous said: I followed you on twitter and you are pretty, funny, kind, and creative. Biggest friend crush uwu

Anonymous said: Omg you should be a model. You're so gorgeous, I'm jealous. If I ever met you in real life, my self-esteem will go down. But I love you too much girl 💕

mazeyoongi said: i haven't had much time or interest in reading fics lately because i am so busy between work & college, but every time you post a new story i HAVE to read it. no natter how busy i am or what is going on, i always read your new fics. they are ALWAYS so so so amazing and you manage to keep my interest from beginning to end no matter who or what it may be based on. thank you for giving us such wonderful work. you're amazing! 💓

Anonymous said: You're so pretty I- TAKE MY HEART PLIS I MIGHT JUST MAKE A TWITTER ACCOUNT FOR YOU 🥺🥺😩😩 -Bunny

Anonymous said: wtf the twitter video, jeezus you are freaking stunning

Anonymous said: you‘re so pretty lemme suck your dick, it‘s only fair

Anonymous said: low key your facial structure is like perfect?? i'm kinda jealous?? luv u b

charlie-hatsune said: JUST FOLLOWED YOUR TWITTER AND YOU'RE SUPER PRETTY!!!

dazedaurora said: okay but like how tf is everyone around here so pretty?! you're an absolute doll 💖

i-want-to-bite-your-head-off said: I haven't been on here in a WHILE but hi hope you're doing well and ily uwu

sapphireprinces5 said: Hello!! I just wanted you to know I really love all (and I mean ALL) of your stories. I really want to be a better reader for all of you amazing writers who share their art with us. With so many authors leaving, I really want to do my part better! So, you will definitely see more from me when you update!! Excited to see what you have in store for us ❤️

Anonymous said: Omg hi lovely!!! I just wanted to tell u that you are a precious human being and I hope u know that

ktgguk said: uwu I hope you had a lovely day, don’t forget to drink plenty of water 🧸💗 keep being amazing at what you do!!!

Anonymous said: You’re so consistent through your work and everything you write is a phenomenal masterpiece! I hope you don’t mind me asking, but how do you manage to always get such a high word count per chapter. That probably sounds so dumb and I’m sorry if this wastes your time.

Anonymous said: I LOVE U SO MUCH THANK U FOR ALL UR HARD WORK IN UR WRITING AAHHHHHHH!!!!!!

justaregularcrazyfangirl said: So, hm... It's not an ask but i just read what you said about my little review and i just wanted to say that you managed to make me blush 😆 (urgh i'm not used to do this and it shows !) Anyways, i'm happy you found my review interesting 💜 I hope you have a nice day ~ "You nice, keep going" ! (And that's my cue to go and hide somewhere !)

Anonymous said: you're an amazing writer!!!

Anonymous said: pls rose u deserve ALL the love in this universe

Anonymous said: Ma’am!! We are your friends!!! That post was SO CUTE!!! Love U!! My heart is full of love and appreciation for your cute self

Anonymous said: I love you

Anonymous said: i love your stories for one, always have ever since I found you 🥺 you give me most of my inspiration to write and let my creativity flow but it’s so dang hard actually putting the words I want on the pAGE BENDK

Anonymous said: Do you ever read your own fics and be like "Damnnn I'm good"

Anonymous said: Oh are you sick 😥 Get well soon 💜

Anonymous said: Omg you speak French too?!! Is there anything you can’t do?!?! You’re such a smart girl 😭🤧💕

Anonymous said: I think you’re really cool and I wish I could be your friend. ❤️

Anonymous said: 💜💜💜 Hey love, idk if you've already deleted the app or it'll get barried in the inevitable avalanche of asks you're about to receive but I hope you can feel the love I'm sending your way nonetheless. You're my favorite writer and there's so question, i'll be here when you get back. Take as much time as you need and I'm very proud of you for taking the necessary steps to get better. That alone takes strength. I wish you the best of luck. -🌻

Anonymous said: Life is a pendulum between your fics and your ficsrec

Anonymous said: just wanted to slide in here to say i dont really like smutty stories, but damn yours be hittin different and im obsessed, so thank u for sharing ur work with us 🥰🥰

Anonymous said: hi! i’m a reader of your work and well, I completely understand where you’re coming from. exactly. 100%. so you take your time and love yourself like you know you deserve to. I support you!

bugznot said: whenever you decide to come back we’ll be ready with open arms. remember you are powerful but you can only take so much. breaks are necessary and important and i hope you are kind to yourself in this time

Anonymous said: Leaving this message for when you’ll come back: I hope you finally start to love yourself back, you take chances cause you believe in yourself and your abilities, you leap blindly because you have faith in yourself and you know where you stand. I hope you have learnt to love yourself, to demand more of others and you for yourself, because you are worth it. I hope you come back, rejuvenated and free of all those schemes that bring you down. Love you 💕

Anonymous said: Saw your most recent post and wanted to say that I hope you feel better soon. I understand how tough it is when it feels like you’re living a lie, but not to minimize your experience, I’m sure it’ll pass and you’ll feel more comfortable with yourself. We all love you here and are patiently awaiting your return. If you celebrate it, happy holidays! Hopefully it won’t be stressful for you and you get some time to relax! 💕

Anonymous said: take as much time as you need & don’t feel like you HAVE to write just because there are people waiting for updates. your real life & health always comes first but pls know that we’ll be here for you & only want the best for you. We’ll be patiently waiting for you & understand your struggles (or at least I do 🙃). pls keep your friends around you, stay in good surroundings with positive vibes & take care of yourself (& your dog aw). sending all the love to you!!!

peachishiz said: Hey Rose my love Dw u don’t gotta answer just popping in to say I love u so much and I hope ur doing good and stuff 🌸💕

Anonymous said: hi bby, i just wanted to say that i can’t truly say ik what you’re going through, bc every circumstance is different, but i really relate to you & what you’re going through. i teared up a bit bc i’ve had the similar thoughts & feelings (and i still do) but i think being open & vulnerable about it is the first step (& hardest) so i just wanna day i’m proud of you 🥺 i wish i let you know more how much i love and appreciate your fics, but i hope the time you take for yourself is healing 💜 Luv -⭐️

Anonymous said: Hope no matter where you go or what you'll do, you'll be happy with it. Lots of love and best of luck ❤️❤️❤️

Anonymous said: dude honestly , taking that step to take care of yourself makes me extremely proud and i dont even know like that. When i first moved to Miami i think i felt similar to how you do , i held a lot of resentment for myself and the life i led and its a sentiment i dont wish on the worst of my enemies. Im sorry you feel that way , but you know you have the strength to pull yourself out of your slump , and that's quite the feat on its own. Good luck and i hope happiness finds you soon. - A.L.Á

Anonymous said: heeeeey, I hope you take lots of care during ur hiatus. Stay hydrated, eat some tasty food, make yourself a priority, reach out for help when you need to, and life is like a minecraft house, sometimes it gets burned down, sometimes it gets attacked but in the end you always have the opportunity to rebuild something new, that makes you happy and satisfied. u rock, u r wonderful and amazing, ily

Anonymous said: Hi! Just wanted to say that your writing is brilliant. It’s okay to be going through a tough time. I’m proud of you for recognizing that you need a break and taking one. The year is almost over: it’s the perfect time for a lifestyle change or a new beginning. Do what you need to do. We’ll still be here. Love you!

Anonymous said: You’re doing great sweetie! Keep going ♥️♥️

Anonymous said: im not sure if you still have the app or not or if you'll ever see this but i love you 💓 & i know idk you but to see you taking steps toward loving yourself is so beautiful ! im still on that journey myself 🤷🏽‍♀️ & it gets hard but you gave me some newfound energy just now. good luck !

Anonymous said: I am so proud of you. You’re so brave for accepting the fact that you are not okay, and doing something to turn that around. Now you’re walking the path towards betterment. I won’t wish for you to not fall back into that hole, but that when you do, I hope you come out faster and stronger every time. You made my life a thousand times better through your works, I hope through this hiatus, you’ll be able to do that for yourself. I am rooting for you ❤️

sydney--chan said: Hi babie🥺 please take all the time you need for yourself. I am proud of you for taking a step back and realizing you needed change. You are very strong and I cant wait for you to come back better than ever:)

Anonymous said: Ah, baby! Just the fact that you opened up and came with this decision shows that deep inside you care for yourself and you are also really brave. YOU ARE inspirational, your friends aren't lying. So many of us can't stop being stagnant and that's ok too. But you, you are doing so much and you are handling this better than you see it yourself. You are mature enough to see that things are wrong and that you deserve to heal. Everything that's wrong is going to pass. (1/?)

Anonymous said: And the cloudy days are going to be gone. I believe in you and I hope you believe in yourself as well. Treat yourself like you would treat one of the boys, for ex (I know it sounds silly but... lol). Imagine if they were feeling down and if they made mistakes. Wouldn't you forgive them? Make them see that it is ok? Wouldn't you want to cuddle and take care of them? Treat yourself like that, please. Treat yourself like you deserve to be taken care of, because you do. (2/?)

Anonymous said: Try to date yourself, you know. Take yourself on a date, buy you something nice when you can, try not to tell yourself things you wouldn't tell other person (cuz I know you are the kindest to people). And it is ok if somedays you can't handle things the best way, but you're just human and it is okay. Allow yourself to be imperfect. We are all trying hard in this life and we are all making mistakes. I am proud of you for trying. Keep trying to be better for yourself. You are precious and (3/4)

Anonymous said: I hope everything gets better for you as soon as possible. We are cheering you up, also while you're on hiatus. Come back whenever you feel like it and don't feel pressured to please others. YOU are the one who matters here and you're amazing af. We are going miss this bright star that you are but be patient with yourself and take your time. Please, seek a professional and take care of your health. You are lovely and loved. Everything goes, my love ♥♥♥♥ (4/4)

Anonymous said: I love you so damn much❤️

Anonymous said: I'm proud if you, I get that this was a hard decision to take, and you still did it. So, I'm proud of you. You finally understood that you are the n. priority, so please treat yourself like it. Even if you'll be gone for the whole year, I'm still super happy ti hear this. You deserve this, as you said yourself, you deserve the world. I'm sorry to hear that you're not doing good, but I know that you can make it better. Please, remember that you're not on your own: ask for help if you need it. Ily

lorengarcia-yut said: I just read your post and I just want let you know that we support you! Your health comes first, please take all the time you need. I feel for you, cause in a way I understand. Please take of your self! May God bless your life cause it’s gonna get better. Keep going, don’t ever give up, and please keep pushing. You deserve better than what you’re going through. Bless your heart ❤️

Anonymous said: 🌹 I don’t know if you will see this but I completely understand what you are going through. I have depression and social anxiety, and it’s so hard for me to get out of bed in the morning to go to school in a city where I don’t know anyone. I just want you to know that I will always support you and I hope that this time away will help to clear your mind of some negativity and bring you into a new year with hopefully brighter days 💜✨☀️

minigalixies said: i hope you come back feeling better, love ♡ so proud of you making the decision to put YOU first !! it’s a hard, but VERY important, decision that i hope benefits you sO MUCH !! i look forward to seeing your new posts when you feel better mentally + physically !! ♥️

Anonymous said: I hope this break provides you with everything you need. I hope life in general gets easier for you, you deserve it my love. Your mental health is way more important than providing us with content. Please take care of yourself, we'll be here for you if/when you decide to come back. I love you.

Anonymous said: hello im here to state a fact: your writing is perfect

moonchild-love-letter said: Hi, how are you? I hope you're okay. Actually, I hope you're better than okay, I hope you've been eating well, sleeping well, and spending your days chasing your bliss. Your writing is a piece of art, whenever I finish a chapter I always feel so happy and blessed to have found your blog. I hope that happiness returns to you ten folds. I hope your days are filled with love. Thank you for sharing your work. Thank you.

Anonymous said: BABY ROSE YOURE BACK!!!!! I’m ready to spend my 2020 supporting your 10/10 writing and you on your life journey. GONNA SMOTHER YOU WITH KINDNESS AND LOVE 🥰🥰

Anonymous said: i admire u so much for being confident enough to put ur mental health first. school causes me so much stress and anxiety and makes me slip back into my depression so fast. i look up to u so much. im glad ur doing what makes u happy. 🥺

Anonymous said: HAPPY NEW YEAR BBY 💙💙 YOU WERE LITERALLY THE FIRST FEW BLOGS I FOLLOWED AND YOU GOT ME INT HE FEELS SO MANY TIMES AND YOUR THEMES ARE AMAZING AND YOURE AMAZING AND I LOVE YOU YOU SMOL BBY -Bunny

tinievmin said: Okay so you’re my internet older sister now!!! Wow this is so cute 🥺🥺 Take care of your health, eat well, drink water, sleep, and be kind to yourself this year!!! Sending u love!!

Anonymous said: U ARE A BABY 😩😩😩😩😩😩

Anonymous said: WT FFFFFFF ROSE HAPPY NEW YEAR 🌟 u are backkkkk i miss u little bby 🤧💕

Anonymous said: While they say that army’s are toxic, i think I’ve never found so many people sharing one common interest with such an awareness and consciousness about complex concepts like loving yourself. I like to think that BTS deconstructed the cliché of “love yourself” into something more complex and difficult that u would pursue in life bravely, even through struggles, and not just a quote u find on aesthetic pillows. And I think you’re doing just that too with your stories and your journey. thank you💕

Anonymous said: hello! i'm a returning bts writer and so glad to see find you on here still!! i remember reading one of your earliest fics i love you

Anonymous said: You’re so talented!!

Anonymous said: hello miss rose how are you today? I thought id just come over to say hi and i love you so much you beautiful human being. I hope you and your little fur babies are doing well!💜💜💜💜

Anonymous said: hey, idk if you'll even see this, but i just wanted to say i'm in love with all of your fics. i don't even have a tumblr account, i just come to your page from google to read your stuff and see if you're doing well😳 i could say more but that robot verification keeps running out, so hope 2020 treats you well and you're an amazing writer!

pocketfullofsuga said: hey I checked who im following and it said you are one of my favorite tumblrs I mean they aint wrong though bby

Anonymous said: JUST WANTED TO SAY ILYILYILY AND I HOPE THAT THE NEW DECADE IS TREATING YOU WELL EVEN THO WE ONLY FOUR DAYS IN. ILY, STAY HEALTHY, LOVE YOURSELF. k bye 🥺🤍🕊🥰

#so #I just really really want to take the moment and apologize for not responding to so many asks #this year #as u can tell by reading this past #had been kind of a whirlwind #and im so so grateful and humbled rereading all these asks #u guys really are my friends #above all #and im so just brimming with love #genuine love and appreciate for you all #thank u #I love u guys #Anonymous

[hoodie-at-the-bar]

our first fight

This is a long one, so buckle up. 

It’s not uncommon to not be on the same page with banter or wit, and humor often gets misconstrued over text. If it happens once, that's probably the case: a simple misunderstanding. If it happens often, and there is heightened defenses and agitation, it could be telling of something far more serious than a misunderstanding. Let’s talk about Ryan.

Wait! But first - let’s get the definition of (2) terms out of the way. I see so many guys’ profiles self proclaim themselves as “witty” - you cannot self proclaim yourself! If you are funny, you do not need to draw attention. Did Robin Williams ever describe himself as funny? Did Brooke Shields ever describe herself as beautiful? Am I aging myself with the era of celebrities I chose to use as examples? Okay maybe they have, but the point is if it’s obvious, and if you are secure, there is no reason to call it out. But ‘wit’ isn’t the word I’m pointing out, it’s banter.

Banter: noun; the playful and friendly exchange of teasing remarks

Easy enough right? You’re with me? Playful and friendly, and there is an exchange, often teasing.

Screw it, let’s do “wit” too:

Wit: noun; a natural aptitude for using words and ideas in a quick and inventive way to create humor

What helps with this quickness, is always assuming the person’s response is something you can play with, think of it like a hand-off in sportsball, or passing the spirit stick. If your teammate hands you the ball, and you pause and say, “what’s this?’ or “this isn’t a ball” - you may have ruined the play.

In improv, this phenomena is called “Yes, and…” - basically accept what the other person is saying, and play off it. I do this 99% of the time, and it gets me in trouble. It allows for that back and forth banter, and an exchange of wits as well, but the average person may get confused; arrogance is a known side effect. Irrelevant Note: I’ve never taken an improv class.

Now that we got those key terms out of the way, let’s talk about Ryan.

I matched with Ryan on Hinge. He was cute, and I thought our first message exchanged had the potential of the vocabulary above.

Fun right? Aren’t we cute? He asked me about my meme game, which was a yellow/orange flag. As I mentioned, this style of humor shouldn’t be called out but flow organically. Anyhow, we moved off the app to texting - the sight of that green bubble should have been a sign. He sent me a meme, and I decided to give it a rating in a “playful and friendly teasing” manner - see what I did there?

I know, he “lol’d” at himself... twice. But there it was, that first line of defense - the assumption I was accusing him of an irrelevant meme, questioning his humor, or criticizing his word play. Granted, I didn’t find it funny, but that was also irrelevant. This is where the journey of explaining every text begins...

I could already see the sensitivity rising, which isn’t really my jam. However, maybe Ryan was nervous, so I should be cautious of wilting this delicate flower.

I wasn’t quite sure what he was rating, maybe my response? I merely inserted the McGuffin to tease him about his punchline, but sure Ryan, you can play too.

Oh he’s still at it? Wow he really was striving for that 10/10 punchline - I was trying to remove myself completely from said motif of rating system since he seemed triggered by it with his “are you going to grade my humor??” - I tried to stop the insanity. Is this a scenario where it’s okay if he does it but I can’t? Or is this a scenario where the toddler sees his sister make the parents laugh so he mimics her behavior, even though the imitation game lost its charm? 

There it is - the sensitivity. I wasn’t sure what he meant by “that”. Is he asking if I always break the cycle? Is he asking me if I always rate things? Is he asking me if I use the “shrug” emoji for everything? I was confused - I stopped rating him because I didn’t want to experience hearing someone cry over text for the first time, and I only threw in the other two to make it a solid list. He seemed to just go rogue and create a list of his own - he didn’t practice responses “in line”.

My confusion grew: he kept rating! I stopped! My head began to hurt. “Breaking the cycle refers to rating things” - was that a question, or was he trying to explain my own analogy to me?

Let’s explain everything now, because I think Ryan needs some help.

Painful? Yes, yes it is.

Ryan noticed I called out the obvious - we just may be too different. We may just not get each other. It’s not the humor necessarily, but he had a sensitivity that made me feel there was some anger in there, an anxiety or frustration I had no interest in discovering. I wanted badly to give him the benefit of the doubt. He began a more aggressive back-pedal approach.

You know when a guy says, “Sorry baby, I only cheated on you because I was so afraid of how much I love you.” Da fuq? One of those responses that does not explain the actions, but obviously tries to reason with flattery, or false compassion. Playing it safe? Ryan was questioning my every response: do you always do that? Are you going to grade my humor? Yet, he said he was trying to prevent him coming off as a jerk. So tell me this: how is sensitivity to my remarks is a way of avoiding coming off as a jerk via sarcasm? He would banter back with sarcasm until he gets insecure, then has to check: 

“Haha.. Um.. we are still joking right? We are? Oh whew! I mean, cool, duh, I knew that ha. Lol. ha. I’m not a jerk I swear. Wait, are you joking again?” 

And I’m sorry but...

We continued to chat some more, for some reason. When we were more serious, it seemed to ease the tension. I decided to let myself open up and pause on the joking - well, as much as I could. He asked me what kind of a relationship I wanted, so I decided to give a long answer so he had data points to play with, and continue the back and forth conversation. 

and then he went back to the dark world of sarcasm I tried to avoid for safety. We were talking about what to do for our first date.

Sigh - why did he feel the need to clarify he was kidding? TWICE? Would I have casually said “nah” if I took him seriously? I didn’t want to offend him, or make him feel he wasn’t funny, so I implemented that “yes, and” - going with it, going with his line of thought. But every time, every time, he slammed on the breaks and my gut flew into my mouth. It tasted horrible, and was very unattractive. 

Now I was just curious - did he date girls who didn’t understand sarcasm so he constantly had to explain he was joking, coming off as an ass? What’s going on here...

This may have been the most painful text yet. He was grasping - he wanted so hard to get back on the funny train, in my good graces, that he kept pushing his Ghostbuster joke forward even though my priority was easing his insecurities of being ghosted. I promised I would not ghost him, and to make the subject light - added in only if he said “Just kidding.” We may have a listening malfunction as well - this clearly wasn’t working. There was a valve that would close from time to time, only allowing one-way listening, or communication. 

Why am I still messaging this guy? Perhaps that phantom improv class I never took has me continuing the story line against my will... and yes, I am very aware his jokes were confusing and only invited groans.

Meanwhile...Ryan asks me for a selfie. 

The “yes, and” isn’t something he can go with, yet every time I call him out on it, he back pedals to him joking the entire time. You can’t fail at a punchline, then try to pick it back up. You know how you have a friend that says “oh man! I should have said this!” at a missed punchline opportunity? Not Ryan - he doesn't care. He’ll take a second or third strike. If he missed his cue, he’ll just say it later - relevance is not a requirement for Ryan. 

Later in life… 

I try to gloss over it all again, and go straight to meeting in person. I thought I was explicit: let’s grab a beer, and here are a few options of where we can go or what we can do.

Yes and… yes and… yes, and… I’m trying really hard to keep it going. 

I saw it as a challenge... I tried to steer out of this dark hole into a normal conversation. What kind of haircut do you have?

He told me his hair style, and we could have had a normal, lovely conversation. But no, he couldn’t let this go. He tried to go back and insert that punchline.

Let it go Ryan, let it go. You already answered me literally, you can’t go back.

WHAT?!?!?! He was the one who brought up being roofied! I was trying to play along with whatever sick banter he wanted to go on!

You think this is a painful read? Try actually talking to the guy.... which we’ll get to in a moment.

It was a Sunday when he next texted me. I had just finished the Seattle Space Needle stair climb, and I was exhausted. I was laying on my couch when he texted me that morning. He knew I was exhausted... so exhausted, I could have fallen asleep.

That eager beaver. I was doing it guys - I’m going to call it off. I just can't deal with that level of anxious insecurities. But he kept pushing to talk on the phone - 

I was not digging our text exchanges, but at this rate: let’s just finish the show.

Then he called. The upside was that it wasn’t awkward like a first date, but a call from a friend you’ve known, and apparently had passive aggressive fights with. He wanted to clear the air that our texting chemistry was fading faster than we could ever meet up in person, so I was listening.

Maybe texting was just as bad as they say, no real connection leads to misunderstandings. Nope - his texts matched him, it was him.

“It’s just that you're so great, and beautiful, and I really like you that I just wanted our first date to be perfect. I’m sorry I didn’t remember you suggested a place to go. It’s just that…” - literally felt like I kicked my boyfriend out of the house and he is graveling to come back in, saying sorry but when I asked “why are you sorry,” he’d have no response. He just wanted us to be okay - and again, we haven’t even gone on a date yet.

At one point, I was trying to defend myself and he said “Can you let me fucking finish?!” - I was shocked.

I had foreshadowed that he could have anger issues, and I was seeing it.

“Sorry, it’s just that I've never met anyone like you and…” and it continued

At one point he interrupted me, and I had to say, “Hey you swore at me when I interrupted, so it would be great if you can give me the same respect I gave you.”

Yes, this was a real life conversation.He told me that I wouldn’t let him in, and he felt I was constantly analyzing him.

“Ryan, you mean to tell me you thought I was watching your every word and step to see if you were someone I liked? Yes, I was. I was analyzing you -It’s called dating.”

He swore at me again for something else he was upset about, and basically we ended the call with isn’t it a shame that all this miscommunication didn’t allow me the chance to meet him. I guess he was really great or something, but I couldn’t see it. Probably my vision.

#first fight

[spoonie-living]

Review: PillDrill Medication Management System

Editor Diane on deck! Frustrated with your med management setup? We’ve got a neat, nicely integrated system for you here.

First, a quick overview:

Category: medication management, caretaker aids

Good for: organization, habit-keeping, record-keeping, reminders, institutional use

Design: 4/5 ★★★★☆

Functionality: 4.5/5 ★���★★½

Bang for your Buck: 5/5 ★★★★★

Overall: 4/5 ★★★★☆

This product is best for fairly specific needs and could use additional development to really live up to its potential, but I still really enjoyed using it and would heartily recommend it to the right user. I would recommend the pill strips on their own, too.

Read on to find out if this is your own personal holy grail!

Disclosure: I have been given this product as part of a product review through the Chronic Illness Bloggers network. Although the product was a gift, all opinions in this review remain my own and I was in no way influenced by the company.

So. There’s a lot to discuss here.

As a starter, let me introduce my partner Ash! They are agender and use the singular they/them pronoun. We’re polyamorous, and I live with them and our other partner Steve.

Ash is a lot sicker and less mobile than I am, so I and the able-bodied Steve tag-team on helping them out. I got the PillDrill specifically for Ash, so I’m reviewing from the perspective of someone supporting a partner, and also based on the feedback they’ve given me.

Now that that’s out of the way, let’s dig in!

What is it?

PillDrill is a system meant to fully address medication management. It has a small “mission control” hub, 1, 2, 3, or more pill strips, scan tags you can put on your individual medication bottles, and a cute little mood cube you can use to quickly log how you’re feeling at any time.

The concept here is to use the hub to scan medications as you take them. The pill strip pods are scannable, and you can attach lettered tags to individual bottles with straps or adhesive. The hub can accept a scan of these or the mood cube, and can prompt you to make certain scans with beeps and flashes.

Tying all of this together is a little app that you and a caretaker, friend, or family member can download to keep track of everything. Since you won’t always be right in front of your hub, you can also log a dosage from the app by medication name, pill strip, or letter. The app will send you scheduled reminders if you like, and send an alert to someone if you are a specified number of hours late in taking them.

The app keeps track of when you log any medication, which is helpful if you need to space your dosages carefully. It keeps your history so you can easily look back and see your adherence to your schedule, or how often you’re using rescue medications.

What we liked

This system is feature-rich and pretty while still being modular and flexible. Don’t want reminders? Just log your meds when you take them! Don’t want to bring others in on your medication management? Don’t need to! Not really into scanning or the hub? Just buy the pill strips!

Ash and I did a lot of trial and error with the system, figuring out what did and didn’t work for them. In the end, they found that they like having the hub around by their nest on the couch, but mostly log doses on their phone. They don’t care about me or Steve being looped in on what they take, but I did find their mood notifications really handy and used their medication history/”med cabinet” in the app to make sure I filled their meds up correctly each week. They found medication reminders a bit too stressful (the hub beeps and flashes and their phone lights up), so we turned those off really quickly.

The pill strips are absolute keepers. They’re nice and easy for Ash to open despite painful joints, and—fitting in with the modular approach—each day’s pod pops out for easy carrying. Very handy. The pods are surprisingly spacious, too! Ash was worried their enormous host of dinner medications wouldn’t fit, but they (just barely) do.

Ash's pill strips are in the places they are mostly likely to take a certain dosage, so Steve and I find the individual pods extremely helpful when Ash asks us to fetch their meds from another floor of the house; there’s no worry of us moving an entire pill case to the wrong spot and forgetting to put it back. When they go out for a meal, they bring their pod along with ease (although this does mean there’s a weekly “where-did-you-leave-that-one-pod” moment).

As you may have gathered, I just love the pill strips as a concept, and think they really stand out on their own as an individual product. Do read on to the next section for some of my concerns, though.

The mood cube, too, is a really great addition to the system. The hub is a bit like a clock radio, so you could keep it by your bed or wherever you nest up during the day, and just scan the cube whenever you notice it. Ash doesn’t let on about how bad they’re feeling—mostly by habit, but also because they don’t emote unless they feel socially obligated to. The mood cube was so great, because I could get passive updates over the course of the day without bothering them with “how do you feel on a scale of 1-10″ or any other such silliness.

While we didn’t end up using the other features, I absolutely see how they could be useful for the right person! I love that the PillDrill seems to have been designed with different experiences in mind.

What we didn’t like

I actually have a pretty long laundry list of things we didn’t like in the PillDrill. They aren’t dealbreakers, but they do somewhat detract from the product as a whole.

The pill strips make me a bit uneasy for travel. I definitely would recommend them to someone who is mainly taking their meds at home, but a trade-off of easy-opening pods is that the closures aren’t very strong; if your pods were being jostled in your purse every day, you’d probably have a few spills. Ash was hesitant to try carrying them because of this, but the shortness of the trips they generally take with the pods seems to minimize the risk.

The strips also have nice magnetic straps you can pull over them to keep them in place when you travel, but I’m still not convinced they wouldn’t pop open in your luggage under the right circumstances.

Note: If you’re looking for a good on-to-go pill case, I highly recommend looking into the Sabi Folio, which I love and have been using for the last 2 years. Here’s a review I wrote a while back for Ethos Disability, if you’d like to learn more.

I also noticed that some pods stay in the strips better than others. They’re supposed to pop into the strip pretty securely, but we have a couple days that can’t quite stay in, which bugs me just from an aesthetic perspective. This is a production issue and could probably be fixed in future versions.

I think the app is where this product needs the most work.

There were a bunch of little things that bothered us, so I’ll just throw them in a little list:

There’s no way to assign doses to pill strips. This means that if you log a day’s pod, you’re not logging exactly what you took that day. This is a real miss, since folks will probably want to keep track of when they start and stop certain medications. The alternative is to log each medication one at a time, which is ridiculous when you take so many medications.

You can’t name pill strips. They just go by Strip 1, Strip 2, and so on. Kind of rough when you have a bunch of them.

Notification overload. When you take a bunch of meds all at once, you get this cascade of reminders. You can fix this by setting up a pill strip instead of individual meds, but the above two items make that a little less viable. A short-term fix would be to group those reminder notifications.

No mood-only notifications. I don’t care when Ash takes their meds—that’s their business—but I do want to know how they’re feeling. Unfortunately, I can only get these with “meds taken” notifications, so I experience a notification overload on my end, too.

Better mood gradation needed. Ash’s health has been ranging from “bad” to “awful” lately, and they’ve expressed a real desire for better gradation in that area; the data we’re collecting here isn’t so useful. I know cubes are useful and cute, but maybe PillDrill can take a cue from the dice used for tabletop RPGs.

No time stamp editing. Right now, you can’t edit the timestamps, meaning that if you forget to log your meds and try to do it later, it won’t show an accurate time. Ash takes a number of meds that restrict when they can eat before and after, so it’s pretty important that they keep track of when they were taken. They’ve been foggy enough that they might be able to remember they took something 15 minutes ago, but will forget that a few minutes after and not know when it’s safe to eat yet. This could be a big barrier for folks who use rescue meds they need to space out by a certain number of hours.

No way to export medication lists. This is pretty self-explanatory—it would be great to be able to share the contents of your “med cabinet” in the app with a doctor. As it is now, you’ll either need to take screenshots or keep a separate list. This makes the “comprehensive solution” feel a bit less comprehensive.

Symptom tracking would be pretty cool. We’re both hoping to see this in a later release of the app, as it’s the obvious next step.

Who will benefit from this system

Overall, it seems like this system was designed primarily for foggy stay-at-home folks with or without caretaker(s). It also seems like it would be great in an institutional setting, given the at-a-glance medication adherence features and ability for a caretaker to add multiple patients to their app.

Anyone with a bunch of different medication times will love the reminders, and folks who generally take their doses at home will love the pill strips to death.

Otherwise, it’s all about what you’re into!

Want one of your own?

Look no further! Head over to the PillDrill site to pick up the whole system, or just the beautiful pill strips.

Enjoy, y’all! ❤

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[canaryatlaw]

Okay, so I'm sure you could tell by my posts thus far that today was totally awesome and pretty much the best birthday ever, but I'll try to recount most of the rest of it before my eyes demand I shut them. So alarm goes off at 9 and I push it to 9:15 cuz I can get away with it, got ready and then hopped in an uber and got there soon enough. There was of course a lengthy line to get inside by that point, but I really moved pretty quickly so it wasn't a bad wait. The "crossover" panel was the first thing happening, so I headed over there and got a seat in the general admission section and thought for a minute about asking a question because I wanted to but couldn't think of one, but then I thought I came up with a decent one so I got on the question line. So that panel was Caity, Brandon, Neal McDonough (Damien Darhk) and Robbie Amell (Ronnie, former half of firestorm). Lots of funny moments, they were joking around a lot. Like someone asked who their celebrity crush was, Robbie said his wife haha, Brandon said Neal (which was hilarious), Neal said Gene Hackman, and Caity said Angelina Jolie lol. Caity gave a shoutout to the scrapbook the lotzers made and talked about how much she loved her fans, so that was pretty great. Someone asked if they could have their current character meet up/face off with any other character they've played who would it be, so of course Brandon said Superman (predictable) and then turned to Caity and was like "400 Days right, right???" which was super cute because if you weren't aware they were both in that movie and played a couple, lol, so very cute. I think she picked black canary though, and I don't remember who the other two picked. I think those are most of the questions I remembered worth mentioning. I got really mad because they literally cut off questioning with the guy right in front of me, like I would've been next and they cut it off so I was VERY frustrated about that. But not long after we went back to Caity's table and I asked her my question which was what was your favorite scene to shoot in season 2 of legends and can you hint at anything in the next two episodes? And she said she really really liked shooting the next episode and that its gonna have a really cool guest star (at which point I was like Felicity right? And she was like haha yeah) so that's cool. I then also asked her about talking to the writers about captain canary and she said she had done so, but I asked her to keep trying and she said she will because she really likes it so that made me happy, and then we took more selfies and she signed another photo. Not long after that I want to Katrina's table which was right next to Caity's, and holy crap Katrina is literally the most adorable person on earth lol. She was like bounding full of energy and running around everywhere and it was great. I had tweeted her sometime last month after listening to a podcast episode she was in where she was saying all proceeds from autographs and selfies taken today would be given to charity and I said I would be there and it was also my birthday, and then last night I tweeted her again saying thanks for answering my question at the panel and that I'd see her tomorrow for charity Sunday, and when I got up there she was like "oh it's you're birthday too right??" (Cuz they had just done it with another girl) which made me happy because she remembered something that little haha, so she had everyone sing happy birthday to me and video taped the whole thing and I'm just sitting there grinning like an idiot the whole time but I don't even care because it was awesome. I then talked to her briefly about Training Day and what the fate of the show was gonna be, and she said she actually didn't know wha the game plan folk forward is, which I'm sure is very frustrating. I went to Katie Cassidy's table next. She wasn't like, rude or mean or anything, she just didn't come off as personable as Caity and Katrina, but that's probably more of a personality thing than anything else so I'm certainly not holding it against her. I said you knew I was at the panel yesterday and how sad I was about Laurel's death because I love my lawyer superheroes and she was just like "well, keep watching, you never know" which is a very non-committal answer but I'll take it, lol. Addressing that I browsed around the vendors and everything for s bit and picked up different items I liked. Then my two Twitter friends (shoutout to @saraslittleassassin for indirectly introducing us and basically being the reason I came to the con) were in line for Caity and they had VIP passes when I only had the regular, so I just snuck in line with them saying I wasn't getting anything just watching, which actually worked quite well haha so I was happy about that. I got to say the last two things I really wanted to say, which was that I had started taking martial arts lessons because of Sara, and that we had interacted on Twitter back in December about the whole politician and documentary thing which she remembered and reaffirmed she'd vote for me when I run for office (the likelihood of that ever happening is not particularly high at the moment, but we'll see). After that we were pretty much done, so we got some food and I grabbed a Lyft home since my uber app is still losing it. Got home to my roommate having mad cupcakes for me, so we had a very nice movie night in. I had never actually scene fantastic beasts and the force awakens so we watched those, which I both enjoyed quite a bit. Fantastic bests didn't really feel like a Harry potter movie but I think it did a good job as a film on its own. The force awakened was as m awesome as everyone in here has said it is, asked I thoroughly enjoyed it. I might write up a more detailed version in the next few days, but right. Ow I'm having a lot of sissies keeping my eyes open so I think I'll end it here. Today was awesome and thanks for very one who contributed by saying happy birthday or anther else. Goodnight everyone. I hope your next birthday is as lovely as mine was.

#daily journal #March 2917

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Atlas Shape Fitness Tracker First Impression

The Atlas Shape, by Austin-based Atlas Wearables, is a legit fitness tracker, including steps, sleep, personal-training, training programs--but for me, it's only a half-solution to me. That said, it's the missing half to my Atlas Wristband2, which lacks the all the fitness tracker functions Atlas Shape offers me but with a suite of workout, weightlifting, and training functions that the Atlas Shape lacks. Luckily, they work beautifully together and you'll generally find me wearing both devices whenever I am getting my sweat on.

Wearing both my Atlas Wristband2 and Atlas Shape The Wristband2 and Shape are Peanut Butter and Chocolate

I originally purchased Atlas Wristband2 because I do a lot of two-handed kettlebell swings. That, walking, and indoor rowing is the holy trinity of my workout regimen. I wanted to be able to track my kettlebell swings so that I could swing without needing to count. I wanted to just focus on my form and my breath. The Wristband2 is just a dumb sensor with a little memory and some autonomous smarts. Set it on FREESTYLE and if you have had the forethought to download the right exercises to your device, your device will not only identify your exercise but also judge your form and track your heart rate (HR). All the magic happens on the web server in their data center. The Atlas Wristband2 Isn't a Fitness Tracker But The Shape Is

The battery of the Atlas Wristband is limited, even with the MOWER SAVE MODE set to ON. So, you need to be judicious and make sure that you charge your device completely before you need it again. The Atlas Shape, on the other hand, is both surprisingly thinner, smaller, more delicate, and much more of a fitness tracker like the Fitbit Charge, Fitbit Blaze, Garmin Vivoactive, Fitbit Versa, Fitbit Altra, Garmin Vivosport, the Apple Watch, Jawbone UP Move, Misfit Flash, Xiaomi Mi Band 2, Fitbit Flex 2, or the Fitbit Zip's always clipped to the hem of my rowing trou. I Refuse to Use the Apps and Notifications

Yes, the Atlas Shape offers apps and notifications that I neither use nor have enabled. They include SMS, missed call, incoming calls, e-mail alerts, social media, calendar events, loss protection, and "activate screen on wrist raise." I don't use any of them. There's a warning underneath these toggle options that warns you that every single smartwatch sort of update or notification will reduce the band's battery life--so, no to all of those guys! I Wear My Shape in My Trou When I Use My Treadmill Desk

I transitioned from my Fitbit Charge HR to my old school Fitbit Zip when I realized that wrist-based step-trackers are not ideal when it comes to treadmill desks. For me, I clip my Fitbit Zip to the hem of my rowing trou and then use the polypro/lycra blend of the trou to mount my Atlas Shape to my right thigh when I am walking on the treadmill desk (I don't know how it works yet--I am comparing the steps my Fitbit tracks with the Shape and with the number of steps my desk tells me I have taken. We'll see in a follow-up post. Charging Is Easy But It's Not Simple

I love having a generic USB charger for my devices. Micro-USB or Mini-USB. However, those USB ports and plugs, both male and female, fail so quickly. Yikes! So, it's nice that the Shape has a very nice, magnetized, proprietary charging dock. That said, don't lose is or you're SOL. I have mine in its little home and it works really well. Instead of a gator clip like some Garmins have, it's magnetic. It's cute, and it mates with a Micro-USB. Neither the Atlas Wristband2 nor the Atlas Shape take long to charge up, but the Shape lasts a lot longer and is intended to be on your body all the time. Don't Wear the Atlas Shape in the Shower Dude, right after I showered with my Fitbit Shape, things started going wrong. So, immediately after my shower, I checked the Atlas FAQ and it says NO SWIMMING OR SHOWERING which is a serious fail since the Wristband2 is more durable than that, I think. Here's the notice, for your convenience: Atlas Shape is water-resistant, which means it is rain-proof and splash-proof and can stand up to even the sweatiest workout. However, do not swim or shower with your tracker. Shape is able to resist water, but it is not 100% full proof (water-proof). Whenever you get your tracker wet, dry it thoroughly before putting it back on.

So, while my device still tracks my steps and my sleep and syncs with the Atlas Shape app, but the touchscreen is being a total jerk. I need to thwack it with my fingers and swipe hard at it and maybe the LED screen will turn on or maybe not. I need to become a heavy-handed beast with this device, which is OK, because I don't really need to interact with it all the time (because I have all the notifications turned off).

But, it's annoying. And I would call it partly broken after the first offense. But I don't want a replacement. Why? Because the screen never turns on anymore unless I really want it to so I guarantee I am generally only sipping battery. If the screen is mostly unresponsive, the Atlas Shape fitness tracker will surely last a short week at the very most. It does pop on once in a while to let me know it thinks I'm sleeping and to remind me to be more active.

But I am going to take it off before going to the pool, the beach, or into the shower. Pity. So close to being competitive with all the other devices, which are pretty much all pool and shower-friendly. I recommend charging your Atlas Shape while you're doing the dishes, washing your car, taking a bath, grabbing a shower, or at the pool or the beach. That's enough charging. Sleep Tracking isN'T Fancy Like GARMIN, Fitbit, or TomTom

My Casio G-SHOCK with my Atlas Shape I love the Atlas Shape sleep tracker. It tells me all I need to know. When I hit the sheets, how long it took me to fall asleep, how fitful my sleep was, and how many minutes of actual sleep I got (versus just the amount of time I was supine or prone in bed). Garmin, Fitbit, and TomTom have a lot of other cool metrics, but I like what my delicate, red, unobtrusive, and svelt, offers me. Besides, a lot of those other new devices, especially the Fenix, Suunto, Apple Watch, and TomTom which are beefy and oftentimes made of steel, aluminum, and titanium. You can see how tiny this device is compared to the size of my Casio G-SHOCK Military Black Series (DW-5600BBN-1JF). I Get to Track My Workouts Using an AI Robot Lady

I have an Atlas-supplied Coach. But she's a robot lady. I assume she's a lady because this device seems to be the more feminine of the two Atlas devices. It's so purty and delicate and red and svelt and all the workouts are pretty feminine. I am into it. I am a modern man. Whenever I wear both devices, it's total yin and yang. See it yourself. I'll share it again here. See how good they look together? And they work together, too! The main differences between the Atlas Shape and the Atlas Wristband line of workout trackers is that the Shape only offers guided workouts. As far as I know, the Shape isn't as smart as the Wristband2.

It has a little HR one-LED heart rate monitor (compared to the three green LEDs on the Wristband) and when you let your Atlas Shape App know you want to do a predefined workout, it tells you what to do and when you do it, your Shape knows what you're doing it, so it leads you. The Wristband2, when using FREESTYLE, which is the only way use it, follows your lead, trying to use its big machine learning brain and little black box full of sensors to sort out which exercise you're doing for any set, from pushups to TRX rows to crunches to deadlifts to anything I throw at it--just as long as that exercise has been intentionally downloaded to the device before I start working out. It's super cool. What's better?

ELIZA (click to see larger) That my Shape App recognizes all the workouts I do using my Wristband2--without conflicting with it. They work together beautifully, once you get it working (don't be frustrated on your first sync, it can be a little tricky). So, once you do all your FREESTYLE reps on your Wristband, they show up not only in the diary/journal/log of workouts on the Atlas Dashboard but also on the Shape App, and all of your workouts synced from your Wristband is included in whatever my very own AI robot mistress personal trainer IM chatter lady tells me.

She--I'll call her Eliza from now on--knows all the manly work I've been doing on my other device and includes them all in my real-time coaching (not by a person but by the equivalent of a fitness ELIZA. I thought I would show you what it looks like but it sort of looks like a combination of ELIZA, an SMS/Chat back and forth with a real trainer, and a choose your own adventure/Japanese role-playing Nintendo game. You can't ask any unique questions, you can only choose from a couple questions that it asks you at the end of every analysis that robot Trainer Eliza offers you. I feel like I have run out of first impressions. I chose not to call this a full review because I have had some technical difficulties over the last week or so--but I just didn't want to wait any longer. Read the full article

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