#like BITCH U COMPLICATED

[sapphic-woes]

Might rant Abt this so bear with me but what Uthred and alfred had but lesbian

#listen listen #'i will not be called the one who killed alfred king of saxons' #loke fuck hes angry at him hes been betrayed and yet #acknowledges that alfred is king #which which ooooo season one on the boat WAS DIRECTLY OPPOSITE #growth their BOND #the way they push and pull how badly afred wants uthred to be be christain #yyyy??? becuase it would make him feel less guilty about loving him!!! #WE WERE BONDED HIM AND I #like fuck???? um????? SHIT????? i cant stressed the sadness in his voice #the GRIEF #they knew what they both wanted without saying the words aloud #HE WAS A MAN THAT I LOVED AND DESPISED #like BITCH U COMPLICATED #jsvsusvsisnsbeheoshvrkrbrieb god i need to make it gau i meed eivor to fulfill my tlk fantasies #imagine this and your a saxon queen and eivor is jarlskona and yall have been AT each others throats #real hatred that simmers #yet you can never forget her. you cant ignore her. you want to make her SEE you #ievewigsjsbsizvzkzbsisvsjsndisv bitch im im im maybe i need to rewatch tlk even tho i still needa #watch vikings valhalla🤡🤡🤡🤡

[inkskinned]

one of the things about having an unstable parent is that it can so easily ruin your future. you want to get out, but getting out takes having agency. it takes the resume and the grades and the stellar community service history.

but you have to choose your battles. you know if you sign up for an after-school activity, it'll be okay for a while, so long as the activity is parent-approved and god-fearing. over time, like all things, it will become an argument (i can't keep carting your ass to these things) or a weapon (talk to me like that again, see if you get to go to practice). sometimes, if you love the thing, it's worth it. but you also know better than to love something: that's how they get you. if you ever actually want something, it will always be the center of their attention. they will never stop threatening you with it. telling you of course i'm a good parent, i came to all of those stupid events.

you learn to balance yourself perfectly. you can either have a social life or you can have hobbies. both of these things will be under constant scrutiny. you spend too much time with her, you should be at home with family is equally paired with you're acting like this because you're addicted to what's on that goddamn screen. you cannot ever actually win, so everything falls within a barter system that you calculate before entering: do you want to learn how to drive? if so, you'll need to give up asking for a new laptop, even though yours died. maybe you can work on a computer at the library. of course, that would mean you'd be allowed to go to the library, which would mean something else has to bleed. nothing ever actually comes free.

and that bitter, horrible irony: you could be literally following their orders and it still isn't pretty. they tell you to get a job; they hate that your job keeps you late and gives you access to actual money. they tell you to do better in school; they say no child of mine needs a tutor. they want you to stop being so morose, don't you know there are people who are really suffering - but they revile the idea you might actually need therapy.

you didn't survive that fall the way other people would. you've seen other people scramble and get their way out, however they could. maybe you were made too-soft: the answer didn't come to you easily. it wasn't quick. it was brutal and nasty. some people even asked you why didn't you just work hard and escape during school? and you felt your head spinning. why didn't you? (they control your financial aid. they control your loan status. they love having that kind of thing). maybe in another life you got diagnosed sooner and got the meds you needed to actually focus and got attention from the right teachers who helped you clear hurdles to get up out of here - but for now? here?

the effort of trying. the effort of not-dying. that kind of effort was absolutely agonizing.

#writeblr #btw i got out #even though i felt this way #i was undiagnosed and was in a particularly fucked up situation #(it's complicated lol) #i had no money and no way out #no car no license . i still had a curfew at 22 years old #and still. i got out. #you can get out too. #i wasn't allowed to literally do anything after school we were pretty much only allowed 1 hobby #and STILL i got out. #it wasn't bc i was particularly smart or capable or clever. it's that 1. i got lucky & 2. #i knew there had to be The Rest of The World #and I wanted to at least VAGUELY get to the Rest of the World before i gave up trying #sometimes it's the spite that gets u thru it. that sense - fuck u #FUCK YOU ACTUALLY. #im gonna make my own life u stupid bitch. since u seem so convinced i could never REALLY do it. #whenever ppl are like <3 just cut out ur parents <3 im like <3 have u never been poor lol <3 #<3 i needed them to sign my loans <3 #<3 bestie not every person who is struggling is going to be able to make the grades and hero status to get a free ride. #and guess what baby!! we still deserve to get out and have a good life.

[sophiethewitch1]

www!reader WILL call batman a pussy for not killing on her private twitter. she does it like every other day. its cathartic

#sophie speaks #series:www #all of the batfam: i have a very complicated relationship with the idea of killing as i follow a code that i know has caused thousands of- #lost lives and hurt people. but i still follow it because i know its the right thing to do #reader and jason: what like a baby??? #i actually wrote www!reader to reflect all of the guys like... worst traits #shes obsessive like tim ignores her problems like dick is completely consumed by vengeance like jason and just generally petty like damian #hand in unlovable hand #and you havent seen readers more petty side yet but believe me you WILL #her and damians interactions always crack me up because they're just so. #genuinely miserable around each other but both too stubborn to concede any ground #damian: i think ur here to cause trouble and steal things #reader: i am literally working at a soup kitchen. ur only allowed to bitch if u help #which of course he does hes a good boy but the soup kitchen definitely has a weird vibe when the two of them are around #u dont have to worry about ur own problems look at these two obviously emotionally incompetent people bickering with eachother #anyways what was i saying

[justinefrischmanngf]

it’s not that it makes me sad per se but i really could’ve been dating someone i did actually kind of really want to date since JULY. and now the moment is literally so far gone and i didn’t realise until the moment was so far gone !!!

#like it actually doesnt make me sad because there wouldve been major complications Had we dated #and the person who i trust most in this world has told me theyre glad it didnt happen #and i think in the long run he’s not the First person i should date anyway like in an ideal world we’d date like. 2-3 years on from now when #i’d been in at least one relationship to work out how i operate in a relationship #but it’s also like i wish i had known that the opportunity was there and i wish i had taken it #and part of me goes well maybe in 2-3 years it COULD happen #but i think that does a disservice to the person he’s dating now like . i do hope they’re happy and it goes well for the both of them #AND ALSO ITS WEIRD AS FUCK TO BE LIKE OH WELL MAYBE IN A FEW YEARS ILL DATE THIS PERSON *AFTER* another person?????? #like bitch who do you think u are that you’ll have managed to date ANYONE in that time and also why the fuck would u date someone without #hoping it would last???????? #but thoughts ≠ action nor are they inherently moralistic #but also that’s a weird way 2 think about relationships #it’d be funny if it happened though #idk i just think that if the timing was different he and i could have so much fun dating like genuinely i think it’d be a really good time #but it’s really weird because i’m not pining away after him or anything like ik it sounds like i am #but it’s not like that it’s more just that it’s opened up all these thoughts that i hadn’t really thought possible before ? #and they’re not possible NOW bc he’s dating someone else so i’m in exactly the same position but idk #i think i’m getting too settled. i’m TOO SETTLED. #because it’s literally not normal to think oh maybe in three years we could date and it’d be better timing for both of us ??????????? #unhinged behaviour. what the fuck is that. #it’d be fucking hilarious if it happened tho

[ev1lmorty]

feel v mean calling out soecific meta but im still kindve fuming over a post i saw w a bit too much engagement a few months ago implying erick couldve never gotten physical w emorty bc if he had emorty wouldve not put up w him as long or wouldve easily been able to defend themself actually it was a poll like. rallying abt what kind of abuse everyone thought emorty had endured like placing bets on how badly rick brutalized him. have we lost the fucking plot lol

#the way u can tell a lot of meta treats morty abuse as some sort of voyeuristic hobby #god i have bitched abt this on my priv so often i forget if ive said it here but i wish ppl could go #yeah i want to fuck rick n i acknowledge he is an abusive figure in his familys life or he didnt ysed to be this bad #but he allowed himself to let go of reality n become this person #like rick isnt just abusive in bed dominating ur reader in planned consenual dom settings. lol. anyways #idk i wuv rnm for having a portrayal of an abusive relationship i can actually fully relate to including the complicated codependent #feelings n having to navigate when things improve n the person gets better n what ur supposed to do when yr basically #left to pick the pieces up urself n how much of the tradegy behind their actions help n how much doesnt matter #im rambling now bc its v v late #also like enabling family when ur created in abuse it keeps going n going ppl no longer are able to acknowledge beths complicity #n jerrys apathy despite being the family scapegoat n at a similiar position to morty but its the quiet parent who tries to stay down #who enables it the most etc #summer loves her brother but gains something from the dynamic if she engages in the toxicity i could go #on #but it still comes back to rick.

[parlortricks]

Ppl who think Patrick’s a bottom is like sure fine whatever it’s a free country and all that. But it’s so funny when they’re like “Patrick is breedable” “Patrick is so soft” “Patrick’s child-bearing hips” Patrick is just not razor-thin and u guys think sexualizing it means u get a free pass to be kinda weird. You understand that that’s the subtext of what you’re saying yes

#listen I love feminizing men. it’s a pastime of mine 🩷 but ps is not bottoming for any1. #it’s like ppl thinking abap pw is a top just bc he was in his gym rat era. Thats a bottom bitch. #and that’s just cuz he got more muscular. stereotypes all of u!!!!! #not that bottom equals feminine blah blah u guys know what I mean . #D/s dynamics r also far more complicated than near lil boxes but i have to go do my fucking hw instead of talking ab kink online #my POINT . is ppl r weird ab Patrick’s body . #t #anyway I’m not ashamed to say this was inspired by ppl calling patrick an omega on Twitter. BUZZER NOISE WRONG

[rose-lalondde]

Naruto Modern Fantasy AU - Bijuu & Patrons

Order and Chaos are two of the oldest divinities and are responsible for the creation of the systems that exist within the Nexus (my world). Respectively, they're famously known for the creation of the Order of Angels & Life (Order) and Hell & Death (Chaos). Other achievements include the Seven Heavenly Virtues and the Seven Sins (Partially out of commission).

At an early part in their life, Order and Chaos formed an understanding relationship that developed into romantic feelings. The result of that romance and their union were the bijuu, their nine (related) children. Very soon after Shukaku was created, they separated and began their long-standing and bitter feud. In addition to their together children, they each have their own offspring, the Goddess of Life and Creation & the God of the Dead (prev the God of the Dead, Death and Decay; alt title as King of the Dead).

In the older days, each Bijuu was worshipped and had devoted followers because they were so important, and at the time were the only minor gods around. Eventually, after the creation of the New Gods, the Bijuu lost relevance and were in danger of fading away. A deal was struck so that they could maintain their form and power but they had to have a patron that they fused their soul with. In rare cases, the patrons are willing participants who offer themselves in exchange for help. In most cases, the patron is an unwilling sacrifice, pushed by devoted followers (or power-hungry men) who want to keep their god alive. In the very special case of Mito Uzumaki who offers herself to keep Kurama alive by making a deal that she'll honor his wishes in exchange for power and safety,,, she absolutely does not follow through. This builds up decades of resentment, especially when he is passed down to Kushina who does the same, which starts off his rocky relationship with Naruto.

In another very special case, Rin, who is forcibly made a patron to Isobu, dies within the early stages of his soul intertwining with hers. Later she is resurrected, as the initial soul intertwining process was botched, and Isobu and Rin's souls are now one in the same. Meaning that instead of switching out consciousnesses like a regular patron and god can do, they share it. After the resurrection, Rin also displays physical features of Isobu such as red sclera and protruding spikes.

Patrons receive their patron god's powers and abilities in exchange for either sacrifices or completing quests/tasks, often they're centered around the patron god's title. For example, Matatabi requires Yugito to exorcise and guide spirits/ghosts to the afterlife. In Killer B's case, him and Gyuuki are just vibing. Gyuuki has a historically good relationship with B's family and all of his patrons volunteered willingly, so he freely exchanges his power. Fuu was unwilling sacrificed, but thankfully Chomei adores her enough to provide her power for protection, even helping her leave her followers.

Kurama - God of Vengence

Gyuuki - God of Persistence and Adaptability

Chomei - Goddess of Luck

Saiken - God of Patience

Kokou - God of Determination & Freedom

Son Goku - God of Courage & Strength

Isobu - God of Still Waters and light rain showers

Matatabi - Goddess of Exocisim and Safe Passage to the Afterlife

Shukaku - God of Overindulgence and Partying

#naruto au #naruto #nexus #moon posts #Nexus is basically a system of pocket dimensions that can sometimes bleed into the human realm #lemme tell u rn they were NAWT raising those children #using offspring instead of children b/c they're not bio related??? idk how to explain #very complicated relationship as they're considered creations but have been raised and taught by them (more or less) #Life considers the bijuu as her siblings #Dead does not (which is funny b/c Order favors him the most even though he's not hers lol) #Rin and Isobu are basically the same person instead of her just being a host #long story short: Life went behind some ppl's backs b/c resurrection via patron was NAWT the deal #the akatsuki are not going after the patrons or bijuu like....they could but i don't rly wanna write that #i thought about keeping kushina and minato alive b/c kurama would'nt rly form properly with his patron dying saurrr....yeah #i did say minato died though already and i gotta stand on business #kushina however #if im bringing rin back im gonna bring her back too omg #but instead of resurrection its stubbornness that keeps her alive through the extraction process and extensive therapy omg #like her soul got ripped in half and she's essentially comatose for 12 years which they keep a secret ofc #hiruzen hides her from naruto and ofc that bitch is dead when she wakes up #Rin helps with the recovery process even before she wakes up #instead of naruto and sasuke going with jiraya to get tsunade rin goes b/c no one else can heal kushina atp #soul recreation veers into black magic and the creation of life #tsunade doesn't wanna do it but does it anyone b/c shes family #tsunade ends up binding her soul to the goddess of the ocean and seas b/c of their heritage #i forgot to mention that kushina's a witch. Uzumaki is a witch coven surname #ummm idk that was it i think

[onlywantlove]

happy for midnights? sure. but like. once again hit by the awareness that she could do something incredible with her voice that isn’t just for her

#like actively do something. currently. #just ‘vote!’ ok. all she has to do is speak and ppl do as she says. she could say more #‘it’s not her responsibility’ morality is lost on you. she’s rich and thriving while u defend her #‘do something babe say something lose something babe risk something’ okay mirrorball #look. I have loved her almost 20 years and I’m mad. ignore me if you wanna keep celebrating #she is not the source of my anger but a factor and I’m not gonna act like I don’t have complicated feelings abt it #maybe closer to 15. idek look it’s LATE #she should call netanyahu a bitch on twt and turn off her phone IDC. #kyra speaks

[rainswept]

i feel like dan heng is one of The easiest characters to comprehend personality wise, yet in my opinion people still get him wrong so often. am i just too picky. bye

#he’s much calmer and saner and on the surface less complicated than say. blade. #not that he doesn’t have nuance. because obviously he does #just that blade’s (for example) is much more apparent — the moment he speaks there’s layers. he’s someone u look at and ur like. wtf #whereas dan heng could pass for a normal person ™️ at first meet. less complex at first glance. #yet i still feel like dan heng gets painted as Bitchy Bad Boy or Obsessively Loving Boyfriend toooooo often #the mischaracterization is. certainly not as bad as someone like blade #but. still #why can’t some of u like…… understand there’s more ways to love than physical touch or words of affirmation #some of u have never sat next to someone doing their own thing and do a completely separate thing as a sign of trust before. 🙄 #ALSO HE’S NOT!! RUDE!! like to an acquaintance?? no #there’s a difference between playful somewhat exasperated banter (like with march) and full on. Being A Bitch #and he does not often fall into the second category…. #even when he was fighting yanqing and blade he was literally like #“i don’t want to hurt anyone. i just need to make sure my companions are safe and i’m running out of time.” #like #like. #he’s deeply loyal. yes. and he is also reserved but he’s not an asshole and this is made soooooo clear #stoooppppppp making characters go to the complete one side of the spectrum PEOPLE HAVE NUANCE. STOP

[boxwinebaddie]

JAIL

JAIL FOR GIVING US A SNEAK PEAK AND GETTING US EXCITED

JAIL

IF THIS IS ABOUT TO KILL A KING!!!! I AM SORRY, I KNOW!!!! RIP

i am still developing the plot <3 -- which you can still totally ask abt, but unfortunately a lot of it might not be Permanent because my tsot style universe is still largely In The Works? i do, however, place very high value on all of ur opinions of my writing and my world building, so it would be very sick to get ur opinions on what i've got?

but again!!! trying not to crutch or base my self worth around what others think of me! teacher nina modelling self help and self love! xx

either way! you guys know how i am, so i'll probably just post random dialogue or excerpt snippets here or there/test guinea pig/or rather, ~test stripe~ things out on you guys thru my tumblr blog bc as of rn i'm a little scared of ao3 because of how stressed out it made me. :'(

its nice here tho!!! and You Guys are nice!!! so as a step towards being kind to Myself, i'm going to use this blog as a place for uplifiting and inspiration and share my deranged thots when i feel inclined to <3 and if they pop up, i hope they thrill you as much as you all thrill me :')

-uncle nina, trying to teach myself how to use hath, thy and prithee

#i like #have ideas but theyre not fully recognized #like high fantasy universes are so complicated to me #same with scifi #its why i held off on tfbw and tsot fanfics bc i am very crazy abt the world building and it has to make sense to me #like the tfbw one allllllmost makes sense to me and it finally makes enough sense for me to write oneshots abt it or hcs #so if u want those fire away #but like anything about tsot ur just gonna have to take w a grain of salt from me bc im very indecisive and like #idk all the provincial life kingdom stuff and social hierarchy things have to make sense for me it will fuck w me if its messy #but i love u guys thank u for supporting my weird ideas & gut feelings and i hope conflicted antihero assassin stan is Giving #i honestly love him or what i think i know abt him in my head which is that he wears the big white puffy sleeve tunic #but dreams of silver suits of armor and carrying a big sword instead of food and drink to belligerent travelers at the inn ok #peasant stan...please one chance #i do not care that u have demons bestie...Boo Bitch! #place thine lips upon mine!!! come hither! make haste!! #like maybe he is committing treason but at least hes committed okay!!! my man is loyal OKAY! *me: in denial* #alien kite phantom theres stan disorder jersey & sexy cursed sellsword stan are my morally dubious and mentally ill shawties #i will fight for my kids #i will be fighting for my life tho smh

[potpiehead]

in my mind if you did everything you were supposed to health-wise barring any freak accidents you could live to 200

#i be sedentary as hell eating like im a dog about to get put down thinking im gonna live to 98 with zero complications #bitch he loss of youthful delusions of invincibility is near. #<- dont listen to her. she cant die #that being said my family does have a history of living old as fuck like 90+. and none of them were severely disabled or ill even in old age #other than the typical diseases u would obviously expect at that age but even then they arent bad in that regard. #and i dont exactly come from a family of olympic athletes lol #only person in my family who died young ish was my grandpa who was like a severe alcoholic and heavy heavy smoker #i think he died in his 50s #or late 40s #i saw this article that said the first person to live to 1000 (!!!!) is probably alive today and i didnt even look into it but deep down im #like. ur looking at her!! #<- get real

[twinknote]

ranting as my dog given right this fine disability pride month (altho i’m feeling more disability shame rn)

my mom asked if i wanted to get smth for dinner and i was like “i don’t rly have the energy to go out but i would order smth for pickup/delivery” bc ik i pushed myself a bit too hard the past few days (today Esp)

and altho i appreciate it bc i haven’t been able to afford to get food anywhere in a Hot minute, i’m like Wow i rly don’t have the energy to call somewhere or even go into a restaurant to pick up food and i’m also just feeling v arfid-y esp around meat and things that might mess up my stomach and anyway i just wish that shit wasn’t so fuckin complicated and i wish my mom could understand how complicated even something as simple as getting food is for me and just like idk offer to pick it up. i hate having elderly parents who don’t know how to function in the world on their own

#also it’s shabbat and i’ve been rly wanting to actually observe it for like a month now and i never get to bc Something comes up that #i feel obligated to do and then i have to wait another week etc. #and i’ve had like zero actual rest days this week bc i’ve been trying to get myself out of the house #which has helped my mental state but i’m just So exhausted #it’s almost as if having chronic Fatigue syndrome on top of another disability makes u idk Tired? from doing things? #crazy stuff ik #also like bitch i don’t even have clean clothes to wear that i won’t sweat in bc for some reason it’s still 80 degrees at 7pm #and i was planning on doing laundry tomorrow. also on shabbat. kms this shit is too complicated i give up

[jinxy]

I need to meet a version of myself that was never like. forced into identifying as anything. I need to see what that mf uses, I need the powerpoint presentation

#dis.txt #got wizard high earlier 2day as a treat and i realized that my shitty rmte is the 4th or so person #who's tried to be like 'god you're soooo complicated just id as bi!!!!' #and i do truly wonder if i hadn't met any of those ppl if i'd want to use that label alongside my other ones. i do like the history of it #of course this is obviously not me shitting on my bi siblings i love u guys. i've just met some Characters #like the 1st one was pro-neopronouns but also. anti me being anything 'more' than 'just nonbinary' #2nd was just an asshole who liked going 'i know you better than yourself!' #and the 3rd was a bitch from college who also called me 'exotic' for being trans. so. idk what that was all about lol

[vvanessaives]

THE 2077 GANG: he was a cowboy, she did boxing, they had a skater boy as roommate.

[template] [icons]

#oc: fenix #oc: vesper #oc: daniel #mine #*ocstuff #so uhhh yea <3 finally did a thing for all three besties :3 #sobbing and crying as fenix's one is the best out of the three. U DONT DESERVE THAT HOE. also i love that he has vesper listed as partner #and vesper has him as ?? so true bestie. who knows. ALSO johnny is listed as complicated just bc i couldn't write enemies to besties that #insult each other every 2 seconds. also sobbing at daniel's relationship...this guy only friend is fenix...i'm so sorry daniel i'm so sorry #that a mean bitch (me) would leave u with only a friend like that. #ALSO LAUGHING AND SCREAMING AT THAT ARCHENEMIES FOR FENIX AND ROGUE KDJFNDKJSFHK #ANYWAYS I'LL SHUT UP NOW. JUST. YEA THE GANG

[burymeinblack2022]

Don't ask:

- a man, his salary

- A woman, her age

- And a tumblrina (gn) who they voted for in the nge/moomin poll....

#Releasing this from the drafts bc the poll ends at 9pm today #It's been real y'all we go down gracefully it's been an honor fighting with y'all in the Eva trenches 🫡🫡 #Also why are pitting 2 bad bitches against each other #Like do ppl realize when they say 'moomin is for queer people' the lead of Eva is also literally a depressed bi like! #He should be doing numbers here on the depressed gay site come on. Yeah it was doomed by the narrative #But what is Romance without tragedy. Like man. What a trope (only talking abt the story not the authors obv) #Imagine hearing 'maybe I was born to meet you' from a divine being who sees all your faults #And how much you hate yourself and loves you unconditionally and intensely from the moment he lays eyes on you... I'M GONNA BE UNWELL #Regardless. Times are tough but we stay silly :3 let me be silly for a moment with u it ain't serious #Wow anna said something #Anna's shitposts #Nge #Eva #I just think they're wildly different in how they approach themes and it's weird and complicated to even compare them #One is lighthearted and comforting the other feels like being crushed by a thousand elephants both are important #We got far we deserved better than to lose bc of a bit everyone was committed to but. It's respectable. It all returns to nothing or smth #Edit: the sidenote is to differentiate between the fact one is not known for being queer media but it does have that #Despite it being so small in the story (the show at least but it's significant) and the other #Is obv queer media bc of the author and it's not in the story as far as ik but it's an accepting/inclusive story #Why do u think it got so big and a character that appeared once became one of the biggest*. It obv meant smth to ppl #*to the point he appeared more in the rebuilds and is all over in merch. ANYWAY SORRY FOR RANTING IN THE TAGS I GOT PASSIONATE OK

[zebrafiz]

okay so update for my shader situation. what i ended up doing was reinstalling gshade (i guess i never really properly uninstalled it bc it was still on my computer girl idk) BUT i downloaded this replacement dll file to keep it basically as version 4.0.4 and it won’t constantly pester me for updates… yes this is risky but i have to live on the wild side. i believe the ‘malware’ is in the newest update and has since been removed but im also kinda ??? Alarmed bc the gposers discord deleted the entire gshade channel and website pages LOL ? u cant access the faq without a password now either

#why must it be so complicated… simply don’t be a loser bitch gposers! #apparently the creator of the other third part resource is a 16 year old too… #like ur that mad a 16 year old took it into their own hands bc u kept adding in updates that break ppls presets ? ok #*personal