#like please never be around kids

[ickypuppi3]

idk there’s something very interesting about how people will say things like this about billy-

“he deserved it” “he wasn’t listening to his dad” “it wasn’t that bad” “he deserved to die”

you know, things abusers would say

and then they’ll say things like this about the karen & billy situation-

“he looked older” “he initiated it” “she didn’t actually do anything” “she was the victim/was vulnerable and he took advantage”

you know, things literal groomers say

like surely you have to know you’re wrong if you’re on that side of the argument?

#fandom wank #billy hargrove #tw abuse #neil hargrove #tw karen wheeler #these are all 100% things i’ve seen too #like i’m not pulling them out my ass #people have said those exact things #like it’s so wild seeing arguments that are like #things my dad has said to me yk #idk how you can be on the abuser/nonce side of this whole thing and he like yeah !! that’s a god opinion !! #like please never be around kids

[governmentmandatedryujinstan420]

releasing this from the hj discord dungeon because the public populace was in agreement also i'm chronically offline on tumblr and need to fix that for my chronically online ahh

#hand jumper #webtoon #sayeon lee #she couldn't even enjoy herself once she gets into the decent university because she got sent to the corps sayeon lee my giiirl #SHE'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO BASK IN THE GLORY OF VALEDICTORIAN BECAUSE SHE WAS CONSCRIPTED 😭 #bro she's built like those kids in school who dump social interaction the moment exam season comes around #she's built like and earned that first honours fr. #but the corps said nah so she did the one thing those kids do make life even HARDER for themselves #even if in context it's no even hard it's just a matter of survival in the corps so success is the only option lest you die #hj reminds me of kaiji a lot with how they handle this but they're like two different genres but i digress #so she created TWO short term goals that forced her to hammer down her if not reinforce her previous values/beliefs #and if you read fp or wait until this tuesday lemme tell you rn it gets worse #which force her back into her shell and wall she's built #which is fucked up bc juni's wall is coming down when cell 4 didn't die as quick as she'd thought and surpassed her expectations #sayeon try not to be any characters narrative foil/parallel challenge fail 1000% speedrun #this only gets worse in fp and while this was in my drafts since the morning #i will say i literally just had a conversation abt this with my g bigbrainmanyvibes before prematurely leaving for lunch #but i set an alarm to actually post all the memes i made here so imma do this one now then the rest later #JOIN THE HJ DISCORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND WAY EASIER TO USE!!!!![to me......] #PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #that's it for my obligatory plug for the hj discord you can stop reading now i you haven't already stopped because i make this thing a diar #anw GLORY TO SAYJIN NATION!!!!!!!!!

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

going to a young adults smallgroup for the first time tonight even though I've been invited for p much a year by now because I finally know someone there and I'm like. very nervous and excited. as Pinkie Pie once said, I'm nervouscited.

#the girl I want to be friends with is gonna be there... and the other girl who went as a leader to youth camp #so I know TWO people aside from the leaders!! I just never know how to act around people my own age #I always feel younger and pathetic around people my age. older people or younger kids are fine. just my age group #makes me feel like a small awkward child who everyone is looking down on #pray for me please #Lu rambles #adulthood woes

[ribbononline]

New fic by @silverjirachi out wahoo wahoo! Go support it!!

#my fic commentary remains impeccable <3 (gnawing) #more quick fanfic doobles its more likely then you think >:] #also going through an art style crisis atm dont worry abt it KJHKJSDF #anyways. big fan of spinda that was my fav mon as a bit as a kid. also worried abt spinda considering it was never mentioned in the sequel #please be alive out there buddy #good excuse to draw younger them again :] prequel fics always fun #curious to see where it will go!! also specifically what the end point will be :3c #is it the archie running away in the night plotpoint or. #like courtney has very much alluded to things after that in th already existing sequel fic will we get to see #or will those things be tackled in the last part of the trilogy hmhmm #i like thinking abt fanfics. i like how everyone in the fandom has such different takes on the characters #allows me to take them and put them in scenarios its like free aus for days to play w #<making up so many endings and plotthreads up in my head to every fic i get my grubby hands on #rotating them around like theyre in a microwave #oh back on track i do not remember if the devil and the dead sea ever mentioned eye color of either of them so i just fuckin winged it #perhaps they are inaccurate if so Uhm. Apologies #now we patiently wait for the chapter releases. spinning really hard #TWO fics ive been excited for updating again after a good forever tis a good month

[sysig]

This is a very serious story about a man named Stanley (Patreon)

#Doodles #The Stanley Parable #TSP #Just kidding I tricked you it's more silly fluff! But it is still about Stanley haha #Starting off with just some general doodles because Fun To Draw <3 #I was trying to draw Stanley pursing his lips from a side angle 'cause lip expressions are something I struggle with and yup! That tracks #He does look cute tho haha spacey boy thinking in emoticons #More Narra floof - trying to even out his hair but it's harder than I thought! Hm! #The ''long side'' (really just the side opposite of his part) has more volume so it's hard to get them to convincingly ''match'' lol #Doesn't help when he has it all mussed haha #Sleepy lads <3 Sleeping together but so grumpily barely touching! No snuggles! Protect the chest and don't get cozy! #Yeah that lasted all of like five minutes once they were both asleep lol Stanley must cuddle the warm spot on his mattress haha #I'm quite pleased with that one especially haha ♫ Sin looks so open and unbothered and relaxed and his hand ah <3 #Narra's so put out (but he does secretly like to be snuggled. He's never admit it tho!) #You might notice I also tried a different eyelid fold style for funsies in the first Stanley-solo and them sleeping together #It was in fact funsies! Haha #I still like the simple dot-folds but every once in a while it's fun >:3c #Capping off with more size silliness hehe - if he can go very big why not very small! Put a Narrator in your pocket and walk around with him #He'll complain the whole time that your pocket is cramped and you did a bad job in picking fabric haha #Oh but he'd be especially cute in Stanley's breast pocket <3 #Also he's not speaking in that one I just didn't know how else to express that thought about Narra being So y'know? Lol #Cute lads <3

[uselessnbee]

saw my favorite bylers talk about the relationship between Mike and Joyce again and now i just can't stop thinking about it

not just if she saw the airport fiasco but what if she saw the conflict between willelmike

or after they're all finally in hawkins again maybe she saw there's something going on and asked Jonathan and he told her some things he knew he could let her know

and then she comes to Mike and he expects it. he expects her to be angry to start criticising him cause he fucked up and hurts everyone and he knew this was coming but god does it hurt. this is the woman that feels like a second mother to him the woman that sometimes feels more like a mother to him then his actual mom and he knows being criticised by her is going to be the last straw and a part of him is dreading this but a part of him also thinks he deserves this. of course he does he fucked up he's the bad guy he hurt people he hurt her children she loves more than anything of course he deserves this

so he can take it. it will hurt. it will be like a punch in the face but he can take it it's what happens after that's the real question

but Joyce just smiles at him so gently and asks if he's doing okay. if everything is alright if something is going on. she tells him she cares about him and she knows he's been through a lot but if he needs her she's here for him. if he needs to talk she will listen if he just needs someone to be there for him she will be and she's just so caring and gentle and loving to Mike and Mike just. fucking. breaks.

he doesn't even remember when was the last time someone treated him this way like his feelings matter like he matters and he just can't help it. someone finally sees more than his snarkiness. someone finally sees more than him being a jerk. someone finally sees there's something more going on. someone finally sees the pain behind it and cares enough to actually ask him of he's okay and so he just lets himself cry in front of someone for the first time in years

#byler #mike wheeler #joyce byers #mike and joyce #my favorite mother and future son in law relationship to think about #i love to think about Mike seeing Joyce as his second mother and Joyce seeing Mike as if he's her own son #like god this is the kid she saw grow up since he was like 5 this is the boy that made her son so much happier #and i bet she never invalidated his feelings or anything because Joyce would never #and Mike just feeling safe around her and Joyce being one of the few people who never see him as the bad guy because that's Mike #and she only sees him as the kind boy who is always so caring and gentle with her Will #and of course she wants to make sure he's okay and that he knows she's there for him #and how much that must mean to Mike his parents never show interest they always invalidate his feelings and never ask if he's doing okay #they never make him feel safe like he can talk to them but Joyce god she's the exact opposite #she always just shows him care and never makes him feel wrong for just being himself and i'm sobbing now #where is my own Joyce to adopt me please #Also about Jonathan telling Joyce some things no he totally wouldn't out Will or anything #he would say what he knew he could but he doesn't know much about the situation himself #and Joyce totally already knows about Will so it would probably look like #Joyce: i see there's some tension between Mike El and Will is everything alright? #Jonathan: we had to listen to Mike's shitty unhonest love confession to El and it was so bad it got Max killed :/ #Joyce:😰 #anyways sorry for rambling i just have many thoughts about this #blue's 'Mike's extreme defender' ramblings

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

stfu ART cannot be dead. surely not. this book is lying to me

#someone better say sike RIGHT FUCKING NOW im so upset. im SO upset #although i do incredibly love murderbot having an emotional breakdown. #when the one alien (<< i think theyre aliens ar least) said they deleted art and amena looked at murderbots face and just said 'oh shit' #like fuck yes i love some murderous revenge moments. thats so delicious. but also i cannot accept the fact that art is dead #MURDERBOT HAS REFERRED TO ART AS ITS FRIEND MULTIPLE TIMES SINCE IT AND AMENA WERE CAPTURED #IT HAS NEVER DONE THAT BEFORE. WITHOUT ANY SNARKY SIDE COMMENTSRY #IT HAS THOUGHT THE WORD FRIEND. GENUINELY. MULTIPLE TIMES. #IM GOING TO START EATING FIBERGLASS. RIGHT NOW #SOMEONE SAY SIKE PLEASE. I MISS ART SO MUCH #<< DO NOT ACTUALLY TELL ME. IM STILL READING. #reaction time #im fucking UPSET !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #but also i LOVE murderbot feeling unbridled emotions . more of that please. its pissed its grieving its miserable #it cant think about art too long without completely breaking down. it has let its guard down around dangerous entities so many times. it #never fucjing does that. especially while it considers amena a client and ESPECIALLY because shes dr mensahs kid. #what the hell im feeling so insane rn.

[introvert-celeste]

Oh boy, it's time for my monthly bout of existential dread! 😃

#vent #tmi #pmdd rant incoming bc I'm positive this is what it is #(my period is a couple days late and the pms is pmsing) #but i think my anxiety has been a bit of a capitalist lately #saying shit like 'if you aren't productive you deserve to suffer' #and 'you have no aspirations and nothing of value to offer the world so why are you still alive?' #oh my god please shut the fuck up #i mean it's kind of true but you don't have to say it like that #i have no career I'm gunning for #I'm not interested in marriage or kids or any sort of partnership #i have no meaningful talents #I'm not involved in the community and i don't do any charitable deeds #my social anxiety makes me kind of a shitty and boring friend which is why i only have one #it feels like if I'm not constantly working to better everything and everyone around me then I'm a leech who shouldn't exist #in other news i asked for a week off from work for my birthday and while it's been mostly good the idleness is starting to get to me #(and the pmdd) #someday i will get a proper diagnosis with better medication and then it'll all be over just wait #(it will never happen because my people pleasing attitude makes it seem like I'm fine ☺️) #(it's a miracle they even prescribed me antidepressants) #god i feel like I'm spiraling a bit right now i low-key wish i could just die right now

[genreawareness]

my roommate’s in the bathroom so i cant brush my teeth and go to bed. time to soapbox on tumblr. very very curious what it would take to make living in a suburb emotionally sustainable for me because the genuine comedic overwhelming joy at coming home is actually crazy.

#from the desk #literally have been jumping around happystimming like its THAT insane out here #however. #get out of the bathroom pleaseeeee i dont want to be eepy tomorrow. okay? im trying to be good and go to bed on time!! #ANYWAY. #i think like. hm. okay. in a hypothetical future where i am married with kids WOULD that be enough to make suburbia survivable? #does it work fine if i just have a car and a license and can get to people easily? #i am never ever ever going to be capable of living in my hometown its too spread out #hm. i dont know. #i think the concept of a community space is apparently genuinely really critical for me #is what i love about living in this specific apartment that its kind of the community space? #i mean certainly yes but could i go without it. what WILL i do with my one wild and precious life #im sure i could? it’s difficult to say any of this for sure bc its almost 1 (LEAVE. PLEASE.) and im just saying shit but man #craaaaazy how much better i feel #not the community space the living in it. #i still feel like zooming around but also im tiiiired i wanna go to beeeeed

[scarletspider2the2ndpower]

“Sibling Rivalry, Part 1,” Superior Spider-Man Team-Up (Vol. 1/2013), #2.

Writer: Christopher Yost; Penciler and Inker: Marco Checchetto; Colorist: Rachelle Rosenberg; Letterer: Joe Caramagna

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Superior Spider-Man #Scarlet Spider #Kaine #Kaine Parker #I do like how they got this cross-over to dovetail with Kaine’s visit to New York #and I just….Kaine was so excited (or as excited as he ever gets) to see Peter again I weep #there’s a post floating around tumblr about how Marvel will do anything but let Kaine/Ben/and Peter be in a room together and be happy #and yeah…for real #(also — side note — why I live in such great fear of the upcoming Dark Web event askfhsj) #(oh! and how I was initially hoping to see Kaine in the current Spider-Verse event #….until I saw how they brought back two other Spider characters I was excited to see return — Arachknight and Spider-Kid — and I thought #‘you know what…never mind…’) #anyway again please ignore my ramblings in the tags hahaha

[floof-writes]

*in a whisper* Brennan. Brennan please. I know you have a lot to do. But please. Stop playing Zelda like an NPC. Let her do cool shit like the PCs she's supposedly on equal footing with. Brennan, she didn't even rage until the last round of battle. And only then to give Penny sneak attack. She didn't even action surge. You had her take two levels of fighter so she could ride a horse into an ice cave to give info to the PCs? Let her kill things. I know she's very good at it.

#at least have her pitch in more often with the group PC jokes her voice is so soft and important to me #brennan #roleplay a whole scene between Zelda and her dad #spend 15 minutes describing her homelife to the camera Brennan I would kill and die Brennan please #BRENNAN SHE'S THE 'SEVEN' IN 'THE SEVEN' #BRENNAN PLEASE #in my heart there's a storyline running parallel to Ant and Penny's parental pressures #about Zelda's quiet nature in a house full of religious zealots #that has drunken partygoers passed out on the lawn every morning (even on school nights) #who isn't only expected to do the same but has a biological will to #or perhaps she's just never been taught how to do anything else #And she comforts Katja and Penny and says she won't be the fifth 'I'm in' #even though she worries (knows) that she has only two options in life: #adventure with these women and rage for their protection #or lose herself to ecstasy #and drink until she dies #(just like everyone around her) #(the only silver lining is that if (when) she accidentally has a child during that process #she knows gorgug won't let them get too fucked up) #(there will always be a quiet place for gorgug's kid to sleep) #(zelda wants to be lucid #but she knows it will be unlikely) #brennan lee mulligan #zelda donovan #the seven d20 #d20 #dimension 20 #fantasy high

[todayisafridaynight]

sorry for buying so much snake jewelry i promise im not a majima stan

#snap chats #DISJSK AWFUL THING I REALIZED TODAY #for context my chinese zodiac is a metal snake #which wouldnt be anything on its own if my mom didnt have an extreme fear and hatred for snakes LMAOOOOO #its ironic you see. so i get snake jewelry for good luck :] #i bought a little snake ear. ??? like it goes around the uhh.... hold on #its an ear cuff <- dumbest bitch alive took five minutes to find and check the package #on the plus side i found the ring i thought i lost :) that caused me to buy another ring... cause my fingie felt naked..... #to the blokes working at zumies and hot topic im so sorry for makin yall look for it im stupid 😭 #OH BUT ON TOPIC RIGHT. #yeah i also have a snake ring yeah- and yk i wear Metal cause Hehe Metal Snake #and it took me getting the snake cuff to be like.... hey am i just... getting majima-adjacent jewelry... #all snakes relate to majima dont you know #its why i keep sendig bestie pics of snake jewelry i find 🥰 #but yeah i also got two new cross rings. one to replace the ring i thought i lost ☠️ #but yeah i got em cause my mom also hates crosses #‘snap youre embarrassing please get over your mom being mean to you’ i will literally never #i didnt have a teenage angst phase i was too numb in my teens to do it right alright. let me have this #also wait no who said that your early twenties was just like. being a kid with adult money. #cause my sister co-signed me on that and yeah. like not old enough to be an Adult adult #but old enough to be an adult but your also an idiot. a big ass idiot who doesnt know anything yet. #I AM RAMBLING ANYWAYS im driving home now :] very happy with what i got today.... #might draw daigo or masato in the bullshit i got... because i love projecting... BYE

[arthur-r]

(wrote this song before i left for college but it’s sure applicable to life right now!!!!)

lyrics: falling from grace, i’m a rusting lace artifact / tears down my face as i break my immortal pact / trust me, i want to be healthy / trust me, i want to be special and loving and sweet / trust me, i know that i’m broken / please, i just want one more chance to prove that i could be the— / best friends know how to reveal me / best friends know how hard i try to have something to say / best friends know that it’s not helping / can i just go far away to where there’s nowhere else to— / turn around, up and down, i’m melting!!!! / turn around, i have something to say!!!! / color bleeding, heartbeat leaving, need a place to lay my head / arms are folded, fine print bolded, everything is overloaded!!!!!!!! / color faded by the sun, i bite my tongue, i’m coming undone / color faded by the sun, i bite my tongue, i’m coming undone / color faded by the sun, i bite my tongue / trust me, i want to be healthy / trust me, i want to be special and loving and sweet / trust me, i know that i’m broken / trust me, i know that i’m broken….

#when i write a song and don’t know what it means and then i have a breakdown and suddenly know what it means #turns out i have been compartmentalizing since i was a VERY young child as if there are two parts of me completely separate #and one of them is this golden child perfect person always so ready to please #and the other one is a literal fucking monster. that’s how i’ve been thinking about myself since i was a little kid #and i sort of. i had a breakdown about that last week and then yesterday i was so upset about not being able to separate myself from illness #how i’ve always been treated and treated myself as if there’s a perfectly healthy person in there somewhere who is just plagued with demons #so i’m constantly reaching for this person that doesn’t exist and never has and never will #because i can’t accept myself as a whole being complete with good and bad parts of me #it’s also just autism/POTS venting shdhdhdf but i knew that much #it wasn’t until i thought about my childhood though that i realized i’ve always been autistic i’ve always had mobility issues (though less) #and that i have never let myself integrate those aspects of myself into my permanent identity. like i’m waiting for them to go away so i can #prove myself and show how good i can be at just being normal. so i don’t know. anyway here’s a song #P.S. i processed my emotions so good and i’m normal now. gonna get dinner with that guy today and have a normal person conversation #so don’t worry about me. i pretty much fell asleep after i posted and i’m doing a lot better now #anyway i’m not great at this instrument shdhdf and i’ve also been crying so like as a piece of music this isn’t great #but as an expression of a feeling and idea. these are the feelings and ideas i’ve been thinking about #of all the things to theoretically be overheard by a ton of neighbors though. living in a dorm is nerve-wracking!!!! #most people don’t hang around my dorm at this time of day though i’ll be alright. hope everyone is doing well #me. my post. mine. #ask to tag #music

[theyhitthepentagon]

confession i hate the idea of huntress wizard and finn being in a romantic relationship. friends maybe. qpps maybe. not romantic though. maybe im crazy. i just think he'd be happier if he wasnt into dating people

#my truth #IDK he could just be unlucky because none of the girls hes crushed on have worked out #but i think maybe he like. convinces himself he needs to like a girl #whenever i was a kid id like trick myself into thinking i had crushes on my friends #i didnt really though. i think finn is like that #he mistakes admiration or friendships for romantic feelings #in that one episode where he goes around and kisses girls (i forgot why??) but he never really feels anything #i think that is where he would start to realize hmm. do i really want romance #im glad they kept huntress wizard and finns relationship vague because if they had him stay with her id be so mad sorry #I DONT HATE HER OR ANYTHING DONT TAKE THIS THE WRONG WAY #i love her shes funny i just dont see a relationship between them working out #hating on the relationship not the people in it ok? trust me please #category 5 autism event sorry i care about finn ok?

[icewindandboringhorror]

a littol rats 

#i still love cat toys so many of them look very cute and cool and soft lol #when I was a kid I used to ask my guardians to buy me cat toys even when I didnt have a cat. I just wanted to keep them for myself #same with fishing bait. I had a whole box of those little rubbery plastic looking soft fish bait things or whateer they are #because they were squishy and bright colors lol #'i used my birthday money to buy a new doll! what did you get?' 'hand sanitizer because it has bubbles inside of it. erasers #to chew on and destroy. a bunch of cat toys and fishing lures.' #and then carried them to school with me #A VOLLEY BALL!!!! jhbjhb that was one of my goal gifts when I was a kid and I never got one #because they had one at one of the afterschool daycare things I went to and I would carry it around. and when we would go outside #I would put sunscreen on it and talk to it and stuff and pet it like a cat because I really just loved the texture of whatever it was made o #ut of and the fact that it was white ( my favorite color) and round (one of my favorite shapes) and just looked really cool #and then the adults of course were like 'please stop taking the volley ball out of the toy basket and carrying it around with you all day #it does not belong to you and the other kids want to play with it. also stop putting sunscreen on it..' and I was just like >:T #i will get my own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #and I never did #I also used to think it was 'volley vall' #ANYWAY fvjhjh #still sometimes I go into stores and feel drawn to the cat toys..

[pink-deserves-more-love]

Brb gonna go cry into a corner I found somebody on tiktok who responded to a Bellow Diamond video saying they’re “literally sisters” and telling everyone who seemed confused in the comments that it’s confirmed like buddy no its not why are you spreading misinformation 😭

#steven universe #at least I don't THINK they're confirmed??? Like to my knowledge Rebecca never came out and said 'yeah they're sisters' #its an okay interpetation to have! I literally don't care if you see them as sisters! BUT PLEASE STOP GOING AROUND SAYING ITS CANON #THIS IS ***JUST*** LIKE WHEN WOLFWALKERS CAME OUT AND PPL ATTACKED ANYONE WHO THOUGHT IT WAS QUEER JUST BECAUSE IT WAS LEFT FOR INTREPATION #the person tried to follow me and I was excited to find an SU fan but I blocked them so fast bc of that. like *I* ship them bud. #they also had 13 in their bio so im assuming they're 13 years old....kid please...... #this is gonna cause even more ppl to go around saying they're confirmed sisters. there's no canon confirmation please stop lying to ppl lmao