#maybe a few cars too

[dathomirdumpsterfire]

#fr fr #buses #buses everywhere #🚌🚌🚌🚌🚌 #maybe a few cars too #if i'm feeling cute #heh #Star wars #the force #sith #darth maul #jedi #for real tho i can't find where this gif came from to give credit #might be former ly darth but IDK #blessings on those who water mark your gifs and screenshots and edits and art #we WANT to give you credit <3

[sweatermuppet]

oh i never posted abt it here. but post office guy ended up moving away. i found out a while back & then i went in somewhat recently & he was at the counter & he was weighing my orders & said "today's my last day, actually!" & i said "oh really? i was worried id missed you already..." we joked around, me & him & his other coworker who sees me regularly. he said his car was packed up to go & he went "it's been a pleasure, working with u" & i told him it's crazy that he'd been with me since the very start of me opening my shop & we wished each other well & he gave me my receipt & said "have a good day, man" & was so smiley like always & i said you too + "have a safe drive"

#started crying before i even got to the car #just... wishing him well always. always been so sweet to me. so well mannered & capable. never made me feel stupid #when i had questions abt post. i wish such good things for him & his wife #but yeah. post office guy era has come to an end! so no more post office updates </3 #found out the older man who served me a few times passed away too :'( #we talked abt john denver. thought maybe he'd retired. found out he passed :(( #if you've ordered from my shop there's like a 65% chance post office guy handled yr stuff. he was my clerk a lot #so everyone say thank u post office guy

[thenwethrowitonthefire]

Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

#fucking hell #it started with finding out my dad smoked in my car when I picked up my sister #who was equally dreading the day #my mum turns into the world's tensest and judgemental presence. worsened by my aunt #then hell for autistic people (of which there are multiple present) #multiple deaf people means one uninspired conversation that isn't interesting in any way. #combinations of passive aggressiveness and people not saying a thing because they can't participate. voice volumes too damn high #weirdass food situations. Very full table. so many smells. #this goes on for over an hour. wishing for literally anything but being there. soul crushing. #then you still have to sit in that room for 2.5 hours. it just goes on and on. #my autistic deaf dad physically looks like how I feel. my mum and aunt keep piling on top of him to demand his mental presence #i leave the room once (to get my phone to show pictures to my uncle) and am immediately followed upstairs by my mum #who demands I don't leave the room (What's next. following me when I need the toilet?) #me and my sister are so bored we start throwing paper planes and fake fighting. #Which amuses the bored and the deaf #but of course my mum and aunt have opinions and this is not allowed. only soul crushing boredom allowed #they complain to each other over it while aggressively doing dishes #finally it ends because my mum and aunt start insisting my dad should go to bed if he's 'that tired'. *sprinkle on some additional ableism* #still sitting through a conversation about allergies one of my sister's friends has. my mum preaching that people should take that seriously #(meanwhile i had to cook for myself for 9 years because when my allergies were really bad no one bothered to check if i could eat something) #me and my sister go sit upstairs to discover our mum has made things we care about vanish in her room #and made things appear that should not be there #I've washed the interior of my car and hope the smell will go #you think it's over after that. but woke up with the realisation that even more things have disappeared from my sister's room. #i can't remember a time when things left outside of my room didn't disappear #I don't know why we do these family gatherings at all. no one has fun on days like that. #the housing crisis isn't making these things easy. my sister is losing her place to live again as well #she'll go hiking for a month and then work on a campsite over the summer #maybe I'll go house sitting again. idk. #can't make commitments a few months in advance like that because I'll cancel everything the second Sparks announces anything important

[strawberrybyers]

realizing i’m so funny and talking a lot and making a million plans right now is not because i am healing for a new year new me era but because i am entering a state of ✨hypomania✨

#i am still dealing with the consequences of my last hypomanic state #i literally just received money to help pay off all the credit card debt from my last reckless era #i need to pay off these debts and bills TODAY before i start booking trips to all these vacations i’ve invited all these ppl on in the last #24 hours 😭😭 #the other morning i woke up and immediately went into full detail explaining to my mom how i could survive a zombie apocalypse #and today i drew a rectangle to represent this house that i remember and wanted her to remember it too bc i couldn’t remember whose house #it was #deadass i draw a rectangle and i was like ok so this is the house and i draw an oval to represent where we would park the car #that is it. that is the image and i expected her to remember where this house is 😭 she was like hey maybe we need to think about if youre #in a manic state because you’ve been on 10 for a few days now and going from rotting in my bed for weeks to THIS is giving ✨hypomania✨ #hypomania #hypomanic #bipolar ii #strawberrybyers text post

[yo-yo-yoshiko]

Because I'm me, what did you think of the Shin movies?

I've only seen Godzilla and Kamen Rider but I think they are mega cool! I like them for very different reasons than I like their source material, but I did enjoy them a lot.

#i'd thought i'd seen shin ultraman but either i forgot everything about it or was thinking about something else asdkfjalejf #i watched a few min out of the middle recently and was like ???? but I should watch that soon #I remember the first form of godzilla being legitimately frightening and I thought that was cool eeeheh #pushing all the cars and boats so that they tumbled over eachother..... aaaaa scary #kamen rider was full of cool shot choices and was interestingly stylized and i liked that a lot too #that one eva movie is part of the shin series too i think??? #recently watched that with a friend for the first time so maybe should check that out as well #the human story of godzilla was also pretty heartbreaking at points #aaahhhh #makes me go wowwwwwww #deathchrist2000 #ask and be answered

[httpiastri]

it's race (sprint) week!!

i'm so excited!!

#my cousin is actually coming to visit me this weekend #and she's been watching f1 alone at home for the last few months since i started watching it with her this summer 🥺 #so we'll be able to watch together!! i cant wait #for those of you (most of you) who weren't here this summer around silverstone: my cousin and i were on vacation back then and #when we picked her up at the airport on the austria sunday i was watching f1 in the car and she was like “oh no not you too 🙄” #but then i made her watch with me on the silverstone weekend because she's from the same city as dino (and they have mutual friends bcs the #are the same age) and she said like “hm maybe i should actually start watching this” and now she's watched it alone at home ever since then #i actually dont know if i've seen her irl since the silverstone weekend lol but im so excited to watch the whole sprint weekend with her 🥰 #asks! #anon!

[femmesandhoney]

good first impression songs: the albatross, my boy only breaks his favorite toys, how did it end?, i look in people's windows, the prophecy, down bad

#how did it end gives me major it's happening again agnes obel vibes tbh #the piano was beautiful there #im trying here taylor i really am maybe this is a trapped-in-the-car album #lana has a few of those too it's not a crazy thing w an artist to need more time w the songs... #im just more a pop fan most of the time so this album isn't really for me #and only lana can get me to listen to various genres bc i adore her lyricism and voice in a way i don't with taylor as much

[backroadboy]

guys is it weird to call a guy you never even met after your girlfriend broke up with you?

#yes this is about my stanford fic #it's all about finding comfort in a person you never met #because it feels like you've known them your whole life #and you're in your twenties and you're spending most of your days alone #and you want to form connections but your hunting buddy couldn't handle your life and neither could your girlfriend #but there is this guy who listens to you and doesn't think you're crazy and he has a kind voice and you wonder if he looks just like you #imagine him and he hosts a music show on the radio even tho he doesn't know shit about music #and he tells you stories so fantastic and strange and he is way too serious sometimes but when he laughs you wonder what it would be like #to see him smile. to see his eyes narrow with an expression of joy on his face. and you wonder if his lips are as soft and as sweet as his #voice sounds #and suddenly you wonder what happened to you in the last few month since you first talked to this guy. maybe there is something wrong #with you because when you lay down on the backseat of your car. covered by a leather jacket that is way too big for you.... #yeah that's when you start to think 'what did this bastard do to me.' #we met at the end of eden fic #txt.

[wormsdyke]

ew ew ew ew bad thing happened gross beisnajajs ahhh auuuhhhheghsjswkos real life event occurred that is real life gross and ocd is going CRAZY over it

#accidentally left a cup out for a few days and i went to pick it up to wash it and it was just filled with bugs #immediate swarm of flies flew out #flies on my walls. and mold in tha cup #cup has been taken care of but the flies are still in there #was gonna try and sleep on my couch until the grocery store opens in the morning and i can buy fly paper #but now ocd has reasonable provocation to go nope that’s dirty too #maybe i’ll sleep in my car i might be able to handle that #god this is so stupid #tell u what tho as long as i continue walking in circles around my apartment surely nothing bad will happen #the problem now is if i stop walking i’ll die but my whole body is itchy now and what if it’s bugs and i have to stop walking to itch #doomed either way i suppose #AND MY OCD MEDS ARE IN MY ROOM. WHERE I AM TOO SCARED TO GO #a thing i often do at this point of freaking out is shave all my body hair so i can’t confuse the texture for Something On Me #but the bathroom is the grossest most evil place of all i absolutely cannot go in there or touch water rn

[pepprs]

like it’s VERY very important to not text and drive. and i understand how dangerous it is to do that and to be distracted at all in any way for any amount of time on the road. i know it’s important to learn about these stories and bear witness to them. but i just think. like idk. watching multiple of them every day for 10 days (with a two day break halfway through for the weekend) is realy… like idk. i think after seeing a couple you can get the point. i don’t want to sound dismissive or lackadaisacal and im scared im sounding like that but i just am so freaked out by all of this and witb every new horror they’re showing us it’s scaring me worse.

#purrs #delete later #car accidents tw #death tw #child death tw #ask to tag #drivers ed tag #like this sucks so bad. we go from watching a video about how to drive in the city… to a 10 minute vid of a man talking abt how he hit and #killed 3 kids and it shows a PICTURE OF THE SCENE OF THE ACCIDENT WITH BLOOD AND EVERYTHING… and then after the video we immediately start #talking about like. fucking street cleaners and how you have to watch out for them. HOW is the video about the kids being hit and killed #part of the flow of the learning. what purpose does it serve. and it’s like these are REAL PEOPLE who died. real kids who existed. and it #just feels kind of fucked up. maybe it’s more fucked up thst im not following the flow and accepting the weight of it but it’s hard to when #im scared as fuck and just want to not be shown gore videos anymore. and then once we pick up the content again like abt street cleaners and #shit i can’t focus on any content bc i have to wind down from seeing the dead bodies and hearing the letter the parents wrote. like how is t #this helping. maybe it’s landing / more necessary for the 16 year olds but im 24. i am a whole adult. i do not take being alive for granted #i am terrified of death and dying and painfully aware of how fragile human beings are and how easy it is to be in danger. this is not #helping me or sending me a message it’s just making me so scared and terrified to even leave the house and unable to stop thinking about #death or injury lol!!! and i can’t tell them to stop and i can’t quit bc i need my fucking license so i have to just put my head down and #do this but it sucks indescribably. and we also saw one of those trick videos again too that makes you feel stupid bc it tells you to count #the number of lkke. things you see and it turns out i missed a few AND they were like did you notice what was going on in the background snd #i didn’t bc i was too busy counting the fucking things they told us to. i want to SCREAM. this makes me feel so stupid and helpless lolllll #<- as i was typing that we were learning about the chance of survival if you are hit by a car at different speeds! bc that’s relevant 😍😍😍😍😍😍 #anyways. my therapist was telling me stuff abt how i need to remember this isn’t targeted for me and i need to regulate my nervous system an #and how to calm down when it triggers me but i forgot everything she said literally 5 hours ago and now im here freaking the fuck out so. 🥰

[plantdyke]

I’ve been drawing a lot more often (yay!) but because of it tendinitis has been flaring up real bad in my right hand (not so yay!)

I found my brace though and god like the instant relief it brings once I get it adjusted properly is crazy, when the Tylenol I took kicks in too I’ll feel invincible 😤

#maybe my index finger will stop twitching too 😇 #I don’t think I can realistically wear it at work bc I don’t wanna get like food and shit on it #so I’m wearing it for a few hours before my shift and then I’ll put her back on when I get home :) #ooo I’ll put it in my car so it’ll be cold when I put it on again tonight

[lovestryke]

i think if you grew up in my household you would have put a gun to my mom and dad's heads already

#help i came home and they got so ballistic that i didnt say hi to them #after my 9 months of driving myself home and entering the house from work not once have they urged a greeting out of me #why the hell do they care now??? #like mom got so mad and i was like um ok * goes back to watching danny gonzalez * then i get shouted at to come to parents room #and im like siiiighhh let me put on my jacket i know this will be a while #and im just getting yelled at and standing there like. is the song and dance over yet. can i get back to my computer #and my dad is like your MOM and I DONT TREAT YOU GUYS LIKE THAT #and im just in my head like.....you give us greetings rather than treating us like human beings.....ok....i would prefer the respect rather #than the greetings.... #and my dads like whenever I come home I always greet everyone #and its like. yeah ? i can think of a few times where you havent but it doesnt matter when its you right #oh you can come home and greet everyone yeah but can you treat us with respect? are you capable of not having everyone groan when they hear #your car horn that indicates you're home? do you have the ability to not make everyone hide and vacate to their rooms when they hear your #key unlocking the door? no? then i dont care about the fact you can say hi to everyone #and mom is like lecturing me and my sister about not cleaning as well and its like hi what about your husband #hi maybe you should question why we cant clean our rooms #maybe its the fact you never taught us how to organize or how often to clean? did you know you've never taught us how to properly clean? #did you know i cant clean without a timer? are you aware that your eldest daughter that gives you attitude and promised to be mean when #she's taking care of you in your last years of life doesnt clean whatsoever? the 26 year old that acts just like your husband? the one whos #only chore is to wash dishes and doesnt even do that? she complains shes too tired because of work but even on her off days she doesnt do i #? do you remember that she only does the dishes when she's going out with a boy? do you remember the 3 months where i took it upon myself t #do everyones chores because i had the time? the way you dont acknowledge i helped out a lot during that time and helped keep peace through #the house by doing that? you dont because you love to focus on the negatives and as a result you make your own life miserable #and everyone else's?especially mine because im the one who actually feels guilt? but dont do it bc im tired of doing someone else's work?

[mer-se]

Solstice and falling stars

#solstice #mount auburn #prettiest place #add lights and visible shooting stars and it’s the most perfect place #caught a few unknowingly that made me smile #the sky was so clear I’ve never seen that many stars in cambridge especially with so many lights #some parts weren’t lit up and had little lanterns to walk with #the light show on bigelow chapel was insane #everyone was so quiet was actually beautiful beyond words #I imagine that’s what it feels like to see the castle at disney at night but better sry #love that chapel and cemetery so much #I’ll never forget how it felt seeing it the first time #anyways lol #gotta see her in the snow too #I have a long video of the lightshow maybe I’ll post it here too #was so meaningful and special though #the whole night actually #even sitting in my car for hours eating tb and freezing out my sunroof #saw some deer and possible skinwalkers too #always eventful #and definitely needed #mine #eclipse

[herawell]

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#negativity cw #father mention cw #my dad’s driving has gotten very erratic in the last few years #He’s always been a fast driver #But since 2018 or so he’s gotten very rash #Always speeding even when it’s raining/road is winding/etc. #Yesterday we went to visit my sibs at university and we got honked at twice by other cars because he made a rash maneuver #Every time I’m in the car with him at the wheel I say at least 5 times ‘papa can you PLEASE slow down PLEASE’ #my mom has noticed it too and agrees with me #That it’s gotten worse in the last few years #He had two major hospitalizations in 2018/19 and surgeries #She speculates it might have changed his brain/affected his psyche #maybe or maybe not #Anyway the reason I’m venting is yesterday my mom had a sit-down with him where she told him his driving has gotten worse #And she said ‘the kids have noticed too’ #And he said ‘[alia] doesn’t count’ #🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 #because out of the six of us I’ve always been the most cautious/slowest driver (to my family’s irritation) #so he just thinks I’m overly paranoid #my grandfather/his dad passed away last week and he’s heading to India on Wednesday for the funeral #so my moms waiting until after he comes back to pick up the conversation #but I’m kind of annoyed rn

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#christ. i feel like this is gonna b where i end up for school #it just seems like a really good place and i think it could help me be less intense lmao #more close access to the wilderness and all that. the ice driving is gonna stress me the fuck out but maybe not more than city driving woul #and i mean who wouldn't wanna live in a place with with moose and bears and mountains and snow #assuming they give me an offer. but the guy said it would prob b an easy conversation so im hopeful #sigh. ive done so much interacting this weekend. i fucking hate house parties. im so awkward #i mean most ppl r a bit but i tend to b the person sitting alone in the corner not quite knowing what to do. like we were xc skiining and #after the group was all huddled up talking and i was climbing around in the snow by myself trying to decide if it would b super weird for #me to roll around in it. i didnt bc i was abt to get in thr car but i shoudl have. whatever. i hopefully didnt leave too terrible an #impression. also everyone i meet with adhd @ me: ur problems sound like adhd. me: ok i hear u but also i refuse to listen until i have a #diagnosis lol. i think im just gonna white knuckle it until i start my program so i can use uni counseling bc im abt to get off my parents #insurance 😭 so just a few more miserable months. or like idk the timeline. hhhh let me leave the southwest. lol there were 3 fucking ohio #ppl on this recruitment weekend. were everywhere. everywhere but ohio rip #unrelated

[ssaalexblake]

well, the problem of having had a huge box of books for donation in the garage for 2 years but nowhere to donate them to has handily been solved by the fact that that stupidly long period of rain a few of weeks ago kind of flooded the floor where they were kept and like 90% of them have mould now :/ 

not how i’d have liked this to end (i hate chucking books) but it’s not like i can Not chuck them now

#eh #a Few books are more likely to be donated than a huge and heavy box #the only way u can get to the charity shops here is by driving into tow #*town #or taking a bus #and then walking the long high street to the charity shops #(no cars but emergency vehicles) #and uh #it costs a fucking fortune to take a bus Or to park #And the huge box was too heavy to just try and do a one off expense thing #but eh a little box that can be carried in might actually happen #also pro tip! if you're all about no car urban planning #i would advise that people based city planning with a prominent public transport system #only works if your public transport is not privately owned #trust me. #i live somewhere built Not to cater for vehicles but people #(it's pre car by Thousands Of Years) #and capitalism ruins the utopia you want #i can't afford to take public transport into town lololololololllll it's a laugh #a one off expense maybe... regularly? not fucking likely #too far to walk #too expensive to park and there's little parking anyway #yeah anyway those posts annoy me #they're usually ableist anyway #saw that one abt seoul and ppl praising it and like a month before i'd seen a post abt a protest by disabled people #at how inaccessible the public transport was