#maybe i’ll make this a real thing

[dainslutz]

Anyone else thinking about being one of the fatui who’s lived to tell the tale after running into the darknight hero… But instead of telling them he had you begging within seconds with a dripping pussy, you make up a story of a great fight and valiant getaway? And whenever you tell your ‘truth’, you can’t help but throb at the memories…

Anyways me too and I can’t stop thinking abt the chains on his hands either… it would be so hard to forget the feeling of the cold metal rubbing against your gummy walls as he finger fucked you with his gloves on…

Maybe he still has stains on his dark red coat… You’ll have to find out next time he comes after you ;)

#diluc ragnvindr #diluc #diluc x reader #diluc x reader smut #genshin impact smut #don’t worry he can’t forget you either #fatui reader #diluc x fatui reader #maybe i’ll make this a real thing #fem reader

[lesbianyosano]

deeply hypocritical of asagiri to try to pivot the story into the fake deep commentary on the state while completely ignoring the question of carceral system even with mersault at the heart of the story for years

#i’m way too tired to say anything of substance but i’ve been thinking abt the way asagiri writes political commentary and oh god #txt. #mersault is a foucaultian nightmare but bc of the way dazai and fyodor are written and directly referred to as 'monsters' (and said comment #being fairly understandable given the way they act) it excuses the structure completely making it seem like a reasonable structure to have #when i finally have time to finish discipline and punish… then maybe i’ll try to make this more coherent #but that will be july at the earliest so uhh whatever #whatever the gist of the thing is that bsd psychological storytelling and doesn’t work once you try to implement any serious social #commentary and also asagiris grasp of political theory seems extremely shallow #like yeah ok you quoted weber once whats next #actually it’s so interesting that theory authors apparently stay as real ppl in bsd ig im never getting a twinkified gilles deleuze… #oh and don’t get me started abt the hunting dogs how are you gonna criticize the state but have them be 'actually good’ bc they care #about civilians they are literally the state power civilians need protection from

[r4zzberry]

i’ve been watching a lot more kwite videos and streams recently so i was feeling goofy and drew him! its not my usual fandom art but yeah

#le0w0 art #Kwite #kwite fanart #twitch #cc: kwite #idk what other tags to use #BUT YEAH #im real proud of this #i love making sticker lookin art #maybe one day i’ll get a sticker making thing #print these suckers out #ANYGAYS #YEAH

[romantichopelessly]

literally the catch 22 of making urself less to keep people around you directly leading to people leaving u bc you’re not opening up to them 🧍‍♀️

#like !!! I’m trying to be what YOU want!!! I’m sorry you didn’t want me like that and now you’re mad I’m fake ?!!!??!! #I’m trying so hard but I don’t think I have an authentic self to live confidently as #bc everyone says the only way to rly be happy is let go of expectations and be your real self and find your real people #but I don’t think I have a self tbh #I think I’m a collection of experiences and expectations and I don’t know how to return to the origin point #oh well I guess!!!!! lost cause! #‘you can’t give up everything for someone and call that love’ WELL WHAT IF ITS THE ONLY WAY I KNOW HOW TO LOVE ?! #yeah I’ll never have real love bc I only expect to love and not be loved #but let’s be entirely real. you can’t love a mirrorball ! a set of masks ! a changing thing ! #and yeah I know it’s my fault I’m like that but it’s fucking impossible to stop #how can I take chances and live authentically like ??? what the fuck that goes against my like. core being. #idk I’m making it sound stupid but UGH #and then I just become upset later that they don’t love me the same. maybe it’s bc they don’t know me. like sure. they never asked. #but I never told. #i talk sometimes

[seilon]

more and more it makes me kind of uncomfortable (for lack of a better/softer word) to call my own characters ‘ocs’. because like. they’re from a completely original universe and from completely original intertwined stories and all that. so why would i have to specify they’re original in the same way someone would when referring to a character they made for a pre-existing non-original universe/franchise/whatever? by that logic every fiction author ever would be referring to their characters as ocs rather than just. their characters. you know.

#i guess you could say it’s different or something because I haven’t published any one Solid Official Work yet or anything but. #I don’t think that particularly matters? cause then you just get into policing what does and doesn’t count as Real and Official and that #inevitably doesn’t do anything good #idk man I know the term Original Character isn’t technically incorrect in my case but. I just feel like that term was created to separate #fandom creations from their source’s canon. or maybe to describe characters that don’t come from any particular established universe #or story at all (fandom or otherwise). #cause otherwise. why shouldn’t I just be calling them my characters. the characters from my universe and my works. which are #established and incorporated. it’s definitely not properly organized or set up for true publication (at least not yet. definitely possible #I’ll publish something as a consumable structured thing someday) #you just don’t hear established authors calling their characters ocs. because why should they? the original part is sort of a given. #hopefully anyway #anywayyuyyyyyyeuyyyhh sorry this is not important just has been on my mind the last few weeks or few months or more #kibumblabs #I guess there’s also a difference maybe between making characters for the sake of making characters- and those being ocs- versus #characters that are developed as part of a larger work/story #I definitely feel like there’s a difference between the two and how they should be labelled (but im not saying one is more valid than the #other or anything like that.) #like when I see a poll that’s like ‘how many ocs do you have’ I just kinda sit there cause that question. doesn’t make sense in #my situation at all. because it’s the same as asking the author of a fiction novel that question. what do I count as my ‘oc’ #would that mean my primary characters? or vaguely my primary and secondaryish ones? or do you mean every single character mentioned #regardless of importance or prevalence? every single named parent or grandparent or boss or childhood friend or one night stand or etc etc #I feel like it’s weird to call those characters ‘ocs’ in the way the question is implying. but then what DOES count? it just doesn’t make #sense for something like this. right? it irks me a little

[deityofhearts]

I collect a lot of stationary for someone who has no reason to use all this stationary

#deity dialogue #I have recently acquired a pretyy lavender coloured highlighter #and it’s like. I don’t take notes I don’t write in my diary anymore because tbh I lost it and it was just. not a vibe maybe I’ll buy a new #one and try and start keeping entires again #I have no use for a planner because let’s be so for real I do not have a life #all I do is go grocery shopping and sometiems thrifting with lex and kait on a whim #I’ll be starting work soon but I set the hours for that job so it doesn’t really require a planner #I want so much to be a cute notes girlie (gender neutral) because I love cute neat things but like #the unmedicated adhd and lack of anything going on in my life prevents this #maybe I’ll buy a planner anyways and pretend #maybe buying a planner is the first step towards making plans #plus like I do have plans this year that me and kait and lex are gonnna start saving money since we all have jobs now so we can hopefully #move by at least the start of 2025 #so ya know what. I will buy a planner #a cute one.

[scorchedcandy]

Erm is there a TES and/or BG3 Secret Santa / gift exchange sort of thing and if not, would people be interested if I set up one 👁️

#art and fic and so on so anyone can contribute #maybe a fantasy gift exchange and u can select what ur interested in creating/receiving like tes bg3 dnd etc #I’ll make a real post for guidelines and the thing where I’d collect what ur interested in creating/receiving later if people show interest #id probably gather interested people until like late november and then distribute people on december 1 #rolling deadline december 25 - january 1 #bg3 #tes #dnd

[caterpillarinacave]

So you choose not to step through the door, after all why mess with nonsense when you're already in nonsense? You check the items in your pockets, your phone you shut off to conserve power, the dog tag, key and top clink together but offer no help, and when you fiddle with the walkie-talkie you manage to get it to turn on, excitedly you call out to the void but only static responds, which is disappointing but predictable, so you put the items away and hunker down for the night, looking at the sky you can see that the stars seem strange, though you're no expert, and the moon seems to have a second smaller moon near it which looks pretty cool but is a stark reminder of how not on your own world your predicament has landed you.

In the morning you begin looking through the nearby bushes and plant life taking note of anything strange, you notice the berries you had been picking before you stepped through the door are also growing around here, they look and taste the same, and some other plants seem pretty similar to the forest from before as well, although the further away from the door you go the more unfamiliar plants you come across (of course that may just be your lack of familiarity with plants) and the few animals you have noticed are bizarre in a way that you can't explain, like the people from town, they seem almost perfectly familiar, just a little off and the noises they make have you thinking they wouldn't be able to communicate with their counterparts either, brushing aside another branch you come across a strange funnel made of metal which you pocket and what looks to be a regular whistle, you wipe it down and blow but hear nothing aside from the air going through, you consider it is either broken or maybe a dog whistle, as you go to put it away you hear something big running in your direction, before you can decide how to react a large creature storms out of the bushes and stops in the clearing before you, it's huge as a horse with paws and sharp teeth it licks as it looks around and spots you, it shakes its head again reminding you of a horse, then steps closer before turning and staring expectantly, you get the feeling it's waiting on you, impatiently, and you realize it seems to expect you to get on its back. Do you get on?

Yes.

#I am a terrible terrible Irish child #Clearly all those folk tales whose only moral was “don’t climb on the strange horse” were lost on me. Technically not a horse though. So. H #Uh please don’t run into the bog with my on your back strange horse thing. #…This may be one of my worse ideas #On one hand moving away from what appears to be the only connection my world doesn’t sound like a great idea #Back through the door is logically the the best bet. However I’ve already explored the area #The only thing to do would be to just sit there for hours and that will get me nowhere. The things that do have leads like the walkie- #Sputtering are things to pay attention to but not things that are likely to change if I don’t move. The whistle is the newest thing- #And let’s be real I’ve been in the bramble for like 14 hours without the neurospicy meds I am teetering on dangerously antsy #Probably better to get on the horse before I come up with something more stupid #It’s interesting my world flora seems to surround the door. I wish I’d payed more attention before I stepped through #If the nearby flora on the other side seemed like it would come from this world it would suggest that the door just leaks between universes #In two ways. If it’s earths flora then it’s either only leaking one way which we could no from one step through #Or - which we will not know but should pay attention for if we step into some other world - if the earths flora shows up around EVERY porta #Which would suggest earth is the base in some way #It might be beneficial to climb a tree to try and see farther out #Though I don’t exactly get many opurtunited to haul myself up a tree so I would put to much stock in a)my upper body strength #And b) my ability to chose a tree that won’t kill me #It’s defintley worth taking in as much info as possible. I’ll try and notice things like different winds gravity tempature ect #What should i tag this all. Help I got lost in a blackberry bush? Anon who takes me to alternate planes of reality? #I know #Guys I got lost in a bush #That’s a good one. Nothing weird there at all. #FINE I’ll rage it “guys I got lost in a blackberry bush” #I wonder what makes things so familiar. Perhaps this world exists very closely to the other. Perhaps they’ve crossed paths before. #Perhaps they’ve shown up in our dreams. Perhaps I have bad memory and my brain gaslights itself into thinking everything’s familiar #I wonder maybe the horse is a horse/dog thing- that would explain the likeness to the dog whistle (?) #This can’t get any worse I say doing something that could very much make it worse #Eh what’s the worst that can happen. At least I don’t have to pay taxes in this world #Guys I got lost in a black berry bush

[ezraphobicsoup]

with every act of self love i hug my past self and give him reason to keep going

#i dunno i’m feeling things i’ll try and spare you all the thoughts #i was gonna make a post saying ‘i need to go back in time and hug my younger self’ #but this is how you do it right?? you do everything you can in the present to make up for all the shit you subjected yourself to #or were subjected to by others in the past #and it will get easier even as it gets worse it will get better #and maybe one day i will be the past self that i look back and feel such pity?? sorrow??? for #but i can do everything i can now to forge that future me into someone who is loved by himself #sorry bit uhh bit deep for not even that late night tumblr posting #just bare with me it’s important i do this every once in a while #ezra’s real life rambles

[ciderjacks]

sometimes I get worried that whatever is wrong with me will kill me and the thing is it’s not an unfounded concern and that’s what really scares me

#Oh well though #if I die I guess I’m glad I lived at all #Or something corny #I probably won’t it’s probably fine #I just wish we could figure out what it is so if i am dying at least I’ll know #Somehow not knowing makes it worse #I guess I should make me peace with death anyways it happens to everyone eventually #Fuck though dude #If I die I’ll have never gotten to do any of the shit I actually wanted to do #I’ll probably die here too #No fucking answers so maybe im mourning myself for nothing #Ugh #fuck #i hate this #Maybe I just have arthritis though the fact that my thing is progressive is concerning #Sorry for the heavy post at 2:00 am gents I’m having a real one #vent #physically disabled #mortality #Is that a tag #Whats the tag you use when you’re unspecified progressive disability makes you fear for your life #I gotta come to terms I just gotta just in case #Rip me I lived I laughed I loved

[rosicheeks]

You could post cute pics and get validation from strangers on the internet while you wait.

Fr tho I hope you're doing okay ❤️

What do you think I’ve been doing 😂😘

#haven’t posted in literal ages #and then I post multiple things in the past day or two l o l #your girl wants attention and validation all the damn time!!! #was trying to reblog old content but yall have seen that too much and don’t have the same reaction #I want your mouth to drop and you can’t help but drool from looking at me #that’s my goal 😇 #but seriously I’ve been looking at a lot of my rosie content and deciding what’s good enough to post #looking for someone to go through all my content and tell me what are the true gems #so I can post those #it’s actually insane how much content I have #and most of it has never been seen before lol #have this school girl post I’m working on 😇 #just working on the cute tags hehe #if you guys are ever bored and looking for something to do #give me attention #and praise #and worship me #pretty please 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #on a real note I should be fine? I hope. #every day is different… today I’m doing my ehhh alright? #but I can’t complain cause some days I feel like death #I’m also lucky I have weed to use as my crutch #I’m just in between jobs right now cause I was trying to get into this dumb program #but now that I’m on a waitlist I’m gonna have to find some sort of income #I saved up some from my last job but that is slowly dwindling away #maybe I’ll do some sort of driving/delivery job #I’m just so sick of working when I know it doesn’t make a difference #I’m going to be poor and broke the rest of my life so who cares #welp getting sad and don’t wanna do thaaaaaat….. also running out of space lol. so gonna smoke the little weed I have left and ignore ignore #ask

[aeoris4lovers]

can i say something about this battle that might make some people hate me

#i’ll say it in the tags: #i wouldnt be upset if imogen died #absolutely nothing against her (and DEFINITELY nothing against laura ofc) #i just think it could have super interesting narrative implications #first of all id just love if they actually had to face the whole no revivify thing head on #that just makes the whole situation so much more real yknow?? #and from there i can see it going in two directions that id be interested to see #1) they go on a quest to find some obscure way to bring her back and it makes a cool parallel to their quest to bring laudna back #or 2) they cant and theres potential orym-laudna bonding bc orym would know how to be there for her better than anyone #obviously any pc death is DEVESTATING #but the story possibilities????? man i think it could be a catalyst for some good shit #ANYWAY she just got healed so maybe this isnt even Relevant #just having Thoughts idk #cr liveblogging #c3 liveblog #critical role #c3e67

[goldensunset]

the besties hath spoken and determined this is a good character design so i’ll share with the class

#WHEEEEE OC TIME!!!!!! more kestrel!!!! #the combination of the cape and gloves (being the same color) are kinda supposed to be like his wings! #and the long ponytail in back is kinda supposed to be like a tail #bird boy ❤️🖤 #the boots are. idk i needed another neutral color that i hadn’t already overused lol. i’ll make a real design for them someday #i did this suuuuper fast and sketchy but it came out really nice #had to take a page from the besties regarding this pose cuz normally i wouldn’t do something like that with the arms #it looks good i’m just not the kind of person to do things with the mindset of Looking Good lol maybe that’s my problem #anyway am i just posting this bc i’m bored and procrastinating? maybe #my art #oc tag

[arthur-r]

testosterone meeting complete?!?!?!?!???!!!

#it went well the doctor was so much better than any doctor i’ve met ever in my life #treated me like a human being?? was familiar with my pre-existing conditions?? #saw autism on my chart and just acknowledged it and moved on?? no ‘‘are you sure you’re trans you’re just a confused autistic kid’’ ??!! #i have an informed consent paper to look at now but it’s all stuff i’ve already researched #i have officially decided that T is more important to me than biological children so we got this #(i was already basically there but i had an anxiety spiral a couple months ago about freezing my eggs which i’ve confirmed was just anxiety #‘​‘just anxiety’’ i sound like a fucking evil doctor but like. intrusive-thoughts-anxiety vs thing-i-should-listen-to. i don’t want bio kids #the one thing i’m nervous about is my singing voice i wanna make sure i get some recordings in before my voice changes #cause my voice isn’t mine but i’ve sure worked hard on it shdhdf and it has a high pitched anxious quality to it that you can’t often find #shdhdhf i just feel like the voice i have now is more unique than wherever i’m gonna end up. and i really want to sound like my favorite cis #men musicians but i feel like my anxious songs just won’t hit the same if it sounds like some guy is singing them #so i’m gonna make some recordings within the next month to put out pre-T demo versions of my songs (real demos not what i’m always posting) #and then i’ll be ready. cause i want to sound like some weird shitty man SO BAD. please just let me be some off-key guy with voice cracks #TO BE CLEAR i would sure like to be a talented singer on testosterone. which has happened for one of my dearest friends and can probably #also happen for me. if i keep working on my voice all the time. BUT i would rather have a shitty low voice than a beautiful high one #which i did a lot of thinking about and grappling with since i’m a vocalist and it’s kind of really important to me #but half the male musicians i listen to can’t even hold a tune. so I CAN HANDLE IT #anyway!! i’m going to latin now!! and then i have work and then asexual club and then heading home and maybe laundry #i hope everybody has a good day and i love you dearly #me. my post. mine. #delete later #medical cw #(? ask to tag)

[artheresy]

AAAHHHH ICHOR OF TWO DRAGONS WTF

HOYOVERSE IS SICK, THEY’RE SICK AND FUCKING TWISTED IM NEVER RECOVERING FROM THIS

BAIHENG APPEARANCE, SHE’S GORGEOUS, SHES RADIANT, SHE BRINGS THE WARMTH AND CARE AND I LOVE HER SO FUCKING MUCH IM GONNA CRY

AND YINGXING,,, MY LOVE 😭 MY OLD MAN BABYGIRL, I WANNA CRY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH TOO, THE FUCKING BRACER, THE GODDAMN BRACER IM SO

And Hoyoverse isn’t SLICK for showing the flash of Yingxing presumably (or perhaps? Blade at that point already the hair looks dark but I could be wrong) being stabbed through the torso, a front view from Dan Feng in a position where it looks like YX might have shielded him? Somehow, BUT ALL OF THAT SHOWING WHILE THE VOICE AOVER TALKS ABOUT THE TRANSMUTATION ARCANUM?? They aren’t slick, I’ve never believed in the dragon heart theory more in my life DO YOU HEAR ME

Ugh, I atill can’t collect my thoughts fully I’m going crazy, I feel insane, high cloud quintet lore devastates me to my very core

Also

then :’) at the end, with the Astral Express? His found family pulling him back out, that’s so… I love this animated short so much

Seeing Yingxing even if it was for such short moments made me so happy, SEEING THE BRACER AFTER ALSO SEEING THEY ADDED THE BRACER TO DAN FENG IN THAT ONE LEAK ART MAKES ME SP HAPPY today has been a greatday for me and im feeling exceptionally annoying

#ALSO AHAHAHAHHAHA #STELLE #Stelle canon trailblazer real and true #i was a truther from the moment I saw her #/j this is slightly just me being annoying but #maybe one day I’ll rant about why exactly I feel stelle is canon trailblazer #bc its not just like official hsr stuff that makes me feel that way #but like actual story stuff if that makes sense #ANYWAYS #I feel great #but also my head hurts bc im too excited #sorry yingxing and baiheng both appearing is doing things to me #also dan feng’s voice like GODDAMN #im so #AHH #dan heng #dan feng #baiheng #yingxing #jingliu #jing yuan #high cloud quintet #hsr #honkai star rail

[quibbs126]

*sigh* and I’m back into “college panic mode” mindset, because I was too damn lazy to do stuff when I should have, and now I can’t build my full schedule because no classes are available, I don’t know what else to fill it with since I don’t really know what I’m doing with core classes, but also I need a lot of hours to make up for me dropping like 7 credit hours last semester, but I don’t know what to fill it with

Not only that but payments are due on the 18th (though from past experience I can be a bit late on that?), and looking it totals to over $7000, so I need a loan but don’t entirely remember how to do loans. And I can’t just ask my mom, since literally last week my dad reminded me to start doing my loans, and I haven’t touched it since tonight when I was thinking about it. I was planning to do it last Friday! And I have no excuse as to why I haven’t been doing it and I don’t want to get in trouble

And classes start in literally a week, less than that since it’s basically the end of the day, and I’m stuck dealing with stuff I should have dealt with back in May, because I’m so damn lazy. But at the same time, I hate thinking about school during break, I hate thinking about school in general, since it just sends me into a panic and I’d rather think or focus on literally anything else

And now I’m stuck here, my eyes tired and wanting to do to sleep, but my brain going on overdrive in a panic over all this, and I just want it to go away

*sigh* I’m sorry, I just need to get this out somehow. I’d ask why college does this to me, but in reality I know I dug my own grave here. I don’t want to be in this mindset, to fear college so much and to sit here, knowing I need to do things but still watching the days tick by, still not doing anything, despite having all the time in the world

*sigh*

#I feel like crying now. Probably won’t #hopefully I’ve tired myself out enough to go to sleep now #but I’m not sure I have #real life stuff #college #me being a failure #maybe I shouldn’t post about such personal things #but heck it I don’t have anyone else to talk to about it #or that I want to talk to because I’ll just make people mad at my incompetence