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sotalewhispers · 5 years

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Decisions, Decisions

So here I am again. Gonna update a few things. Well a week ago, I had sent a text message via fb to my cousin who is my dad’s niece from his brother in the Philippines. Basically explaining what went on the past few weeks of trying to get a cosigner for me and my son’s personal loan so we can get him to college while I get the rest of the family situated. As I have stated in my last introductory blog XD, I thought I can handle this without any issues but I miscalculated wrong. Not a lot of credit history, and an ex who initially didn’t try to be a cosigner who was afraid of creditors calling him should he attempt to put down his information. I then tried to ask my son’s grandfather (his dad’s dad) and even went as far to ask his uncle (his dad’s bro) if one of them can be a cosigner. The loan amount was only for 5k, nothing more than that, and I would be taking responsibility to pay the loan monthly, even my son as well since he plans on working part time while in school. But I rather he save his money. Anyway.....The results? Well I didn't take kindly to being told that I was asking or begging for money. Where in the conversation did I ask for money? All I asked for was a cosigner, so the loan could be approved. Where in that conversation(s) does that say ‘hey I need to borrow money from you?’ Its the bank or financial institution I am applying for or my son which ever is more convenient so the loan can be approved. This is me ranting about that part considering it felt insulting and disappointing to be told this way that I AM asking for money from them when that is not the case. It was hard seeing the disappointment on his face when he got the text of refusal. I know its the dad’s responsibility which was their argument. I know this. But when it dont work out, I had to ask his grandparents and his uncle. Not like I can easily go ask my side of the family here who knows nothing about my existence let alone my kids since I had officially been cast aside as family since 2007. Not sure if I should explain that one. If anyone knows what its like to be an outcast and not completely belong, and be outed as an example, there ya go. Maybe next time I will fully explain but for now that will do. Anyway back to the main issue at hand. But yeah, what other options does a person like me have if the kids’ father refused initially to help, knowing his oldest was going to college couple months ago? His grandparents, his uncle even his godmother was an option to ask. I won’t really involve his godmother for she is a dear friend. At least she told me her credit wasn't fantastic and she was unemployed, I know she would help if she could, and she isn't a blood relative XD. Regardless I have explained in a text to my cousin about what I tried to do and that my dad was my last option, and since she can better explain it to him, I thought that be more convenient. Yeah I know it should be me but calling him over the phone, but he has a hard time hearing so he would not understand what I am asking for. We did video chat after I sent my cousin the message. Who knew that he would get our hopes up to be disappointed a week later (basically today) that he cant help. Not to mention that I actually had my son’s dad be a cosigner for a loan and it was declined. My son missed his orientation/registration day today, I was hoping that it would work out and we can be there before the end of this week. I feel like time is against us, that there is no hope. I feel like a failure as a parent. I wish I could do things differently in the past so I can have awesome credit to take out a personal loan. My son is already enrolled and he cant even make it there on his 1st day of class next week. Sigh.... I was advised by my sister (in the Philippines) who told me my dad should have not given me false hope. She told me he does has money to give me. I will explain next time why she says this. But she had told me to speak with my cousin here,(my dad’s bro’s son) to speak with his dad since she knows its not true that he cant help when he obviously did this and that. I will be talking to him in a few hours and see what happens... For now I did start a gofund me for my oldest. So those who actually read this, if you can help or share the link it be much appreciated from the bottom of my heart. https://www.gofundme.com/f/tsxe8-moving-for-college&rcid=r01-156689435002-c938cf2e4a7e4d19&pc=ot_co_campmgmt_w

#singlemom #children #college #advice #gofund

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okamigekidoo · 3 years

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Helloooo!!!! So a lot has been going on the past few months, as per usual! I’ve got my custom fursuit, and the Rhodey refurb. So I’m happy to say my suits are together (I’m editing a YT video right now!)

I’m almost done with my first year of college! It’s felt long, yet short at the same time. I might have to do summer school bc of my depression but...I hope I’ll be okay! Therapy feels like it’s going slow, but I’m being a lot more open than before.

I will most likely be getting sent to an outpatient facility bc of s*icidal thoughts I’ve been having (extremely bad ones). My therapist was very concerned I didn’t tell him all the other times I had them, and that I didn’t contact him during attempts. I felt bad about it, but he basically told me that it was nothing to feel bad for. We agreed on outpatient because my anxiety is far too bad for me to get put somewhere, where I CANT leave, if I couldn’t leave it would most likely just make things worse.

On a good note, tomorrow I’m going about an hour away from home, and hope to snag a few 250 MG THC edibles, I’m hella hyped for that. B)

Got a LOT of assignments coming up, and am choosing where I’d like to live with my friend Val. My mom has agreed to let my pets stay here for a while, so I can ACTUALLY move, because most places wont allow me to bring my 4 ferrets. So, I will only be bringing my ancient ferret, Zoey with me. I want to be with her when she passes, and she’s too high-maintenance for the rest of my family.

Speaking of, the dog those people abandoned, is getting help once Val gets here. I cant risk getting kicked out again, and his presence will “make” my mom be nicer, so there’s that.

I’ve also got a new PC in the works. My brother has chose all the pieces based off of what I want it to do, although the video card I was looking at getting, is out of stock atm (im borrowing a spare one my brother has, when the PC gets put together!) All of the other parts have been ordered in the meantime.

ATM I’m very tired, and drained. I go to therapy again this week thank GOD. As per usual I got a lot to get off my chest, and I feel like im barely “hanging in there”. Medications still havent came in blisterpacked. I feel like im rotting away w/out my meds but it’s all cool. Unfortunately I had to switch meds AGAIN as one of them caused me to gain a SHIT TON of weight (I will not say the # of pounds :’’’’) )

Doing commissions is taking me forever! But with that, I’m doing as best as I can as well. And my etsy shop is still getting orders, and I JUST restocked badges the other day. I am thankful but very flooded atm ^^;;;

But yeah thats all for now drfmndkjn im tired and need to finish editing my video!

#sam talks #okami talks

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riskeith · 3 years

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hii!

manifesting xiao for you!!!!! it surely will be worth it after all that wait and all those rolls shsjdhsj <3 you’ll probably upgrade him and his weapons and talents and all that right away too, huh? spilling all your recourses on one stotic lil boy 👅 (can’t say i blame ya he deserves it) FUNNY YOU MENTION THAT when i did the guiding light seal puzzle before the stormterror battle i accidentally forgot to change kaeya’s weapon to the ones i’ve upgraded so he was stuck with the dull sword and i was like why the FUCK doesn’t he do any damage and then it hit me . yikes 😬 Lmao has that ever happened to you?

oh really? reading all of that makes it seem like we’re in the bad end of the stick dhdhdjdjfh but you made me curious to try it out tbh... now where could i get a hold on a pc..... hm

yeah omg you’ve gotten so far now i can’t imagine how bizarre it would be to revert back to giving like 10 dmg and facing level 3 villains lmao still sometimes even i find myself missing the early days things weren’t as stressful then ): do you?

school did start which is why haikyuu is perfect!! it’s been keeping me very warm and happy tbh... 🥺 you know something i noticed this time watching is that kagehina are Always around each other. i honestly don’t remember them doing that but watching now it’s like at almost every scene they are either standing next to each other or showing up to the other’s scene and it’s like??? damn???? y’all live like this? idk if that changes in future eps but right now it’s Constant. i love it.

dude i’m such a nostalgia person i’m always up for a trip to the good ol’ days bc sometimes you just gotta go back to things for your own sake. but fun Fact i started watching voltron after it ended so i missed so much of the hype while it was ongoing.. literally came into it while it was a goddamn mess. i knew that klance wouldn’t be canon but watching i couldn’t help but hope... how was it stanning while it was ongoing?

(you saying that reminds me of the what if we kissed meme..... what if we kissed in the genshin co-op mode 😳 anyway you’re at such a high level idk how much i could help you... i suppose we could just run around but yeah i do play in europe... 😭)

RED AND BLUE GAYS!!!!!! RED AND BLUE GAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the purple light were mega gay like hello????? especially since lance is bi and it was Him that said the line and hfjdhdhsjdjdhdj fuck ! i’m so sad now ever since we started talking about them i’ve just been missing them sooooo much it’s crazy... KEITH DESERVES THE UNIVERSE he’s so sweet and caring in his own way and he grew so much like compare s8 keith with s1 keith and see!!!! he matured so much and god . at least he’s helping the galaxy with his lesbians now

dude i wanted to say that but i was scared it was an unpopular opinion.... hunk and pidge could be so mean to him sometimes for no reason or just shoo him aside and no??? don’t do that to your friend????? it irked me sometimes bc you could see that he got upset about it but he felt like he had no one to turn to 😭😭😭😭😭 kms but keith. keith is good.

THE I LOVE YOU SCENE did it also take you sooo much by surprise like i remember watching and just going AAAAAA??????!!!??!!?? and the art???? mister anime keith kogane?????? it was so beautiful and so perfect and so sad ughhhhhhh funny how keith has 2 out of the three i love you scenes on voltron even tho he’s the stotic type .

i’m thinking but honestly all i want is some fluffy angst... a punch in the gut with some final kissing . i love fics that rewrite the sunset scene always chefs kiss... or you know how in season 7 for some reason they always called out for each other first? like when lance has his crashing scene keith yells out lance come in twice??? or when they are stuck in the galra prison and they yell out each other’s names???? idk something about that would be amazing to read???? ok i rambled idk rewritten canon klance is just Mwah... OH IM SO EXCITED TO READ THOSE SNIPPETS EEEEEEE :DDDDDD TY FOR SENDING THAT

i’m soooo glad you liked the fanart when i saw it i HAD to send it your way... it’s the little bois in their animal hats 😭😭🥺 i love them so much it’s soooooo cute 😭😭 i’ve been stalking the original tweet and there’s some other version and they’re super adorable too 😭😭😭😭😭😭

hope you had a wonderful day today + yesterday... take care <333

hey heyyyy~

actually i don’t think i have many resources to give him bc im focusing on levelling up my team for the ascension rn FJKHDSKFHSDKJFHSDK but for sure i will do it... anything for him 😩 AHAHAH nooooo but yes ! during the chalk prince dragon event i used festering desire in dragonspine but my higher levelled sword everywhere else, but sometiems i forgot to switch back and was stuck with shit damage 💀

yeah actually i see a lot of poeple complain about not being able to do missions on mobile either (or having a really hard time with it) fskjhfksj but there are for sure people who would think mobile is better so 🤷‍♀️ to each their own! ahah does anyone in your family have a windows laptop/pc? steal borrow it 🤪

i definitely miss the easier days!! it’s fun going to an area with lower level enemies bc i defeat them so easily.. but then again their drops also aren’t as good so you trade one thing for another i guess lol

ikr?!?!?? like we get it you’re inseparable omg.. it’s so cute when they go seek out asahi as well and hinata hides behind kageyama and then points and at him like he’s showing him off.. lives in my mind rent free 😌

oh i see!!! that’s so brave of you omg you knew all that and still decided to give it a shot? fshfkdsjf. it was. insane. like talking about the positives only, it was just everyone going crazy every time there was a single hint of klance is canon king and just ugh. it was all so exciting and hype and like the energy you know?? especially when there were conventions where they were revealing trailers or new info wow tumblr was buzzing.. (reminds me of when klance was top ship.......) i miss that kinda environment tbh! but also now that i’m in uni i don’t think i’d have the energy to keep up fhskfjds

(WHAT IF WE KISSED!! IN GENSHIN CO-OP!! HAHA JK... UNLESS?! that’s so funny fskdj but i wish 😔😩 makes a second reroll account just for this? HAHAAH. and noooo even if we didn’t do anything i feel like it’d be so fun just running around hfkdsjs. and maybe i could carry you w your quests it’s always been my dream to help someone out like my brother can just come into my world and one-shot enemies 😩 but maybe some day!! cross-server will happen)

:((((((((((( S1 KEITH AND S8 KEITH THE GROWTH AND DEVELOPMENT 😭😭😭😭 keith went from being a lone wolf expelled from the garrison to finding his MOTHER!! AND THE BESTEST SPACE WOLF DOGGO!! AND LEADING A FKN ITNERGALACTIC ORGANISATION!~!!!eASKJDHSAFHEHFSDIUHSAZODUQWEQWYRHIASKJDNCSOUADHB. marmora!keith............. both a blessing and a curse.... but that uniform tho 🥵

i cried!!! so much watching that scene lmao!!! can’t remember how i felt at the time but i was probably also surpirsed.. and ikr? that’s poetry in its own tbh we love that keith said the most ‘expressive’ and ‘emotional’ lines the most

sunset scene... sunset scene!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg yeah them just calling out for each other’s names first like??? explain please?? omg also remember when keith chose lance in the quiz.. AND LANCE CALLED KEITH THE FUTURE? FUCKING EXPLAIN???????? WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! there is no heterosexual explanation. okay but now that you’ve put sunset scene in my head... either rewrite where lance was looking for keith to confess to him bc they were going back to space and he wanted to get it out or.. in the future where klance are together and lance has a dream about it and suddenly realises wait. did keith already like me back then. and then they talk about it ... hmmmmm . AND WOOOO NO PROBLEM!! HOPE YOU ENJOY <33

i def have to look at the other versions!!! honestly this meme is kinda the best thing out there rn so many cute baby renditions of charas.. blessed!! i love them all sm...

thank you!! hope yours have been great too, and school is treating you well :**

#marriage anon #wowclunaanswers #long post

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