#not nearly even half of the things

[magicalgirlmindcrank]

I suppose I have to take back some of the things I've said about RWBY now

#not nearly even half of the things #but some of them

[cuoredimuschio]

okay, but where's my steddie AU where steve wants to learn to play guitar to impress a girl he's infatuated with and he remembers that munson kid was always hanging up posters for his weird band at school, so he hikes out to eddie's usual dealing spot behind the track and asks (with far less groveling than he really should have) if eddie will teach him how to play, and obviously eddie says no because why would he want to help king steve, but of course, steve offers to pay him, $20 a week, and well, that's the kind of get-the-hell-out-of-this-shithole-town cash eddie really can't afford to refuse, so fine, he'll teach steve to play and they'll spend inordinate amounts of time together tucked away in eddie's room and they'll start to see that they have more in common than they thought and that they kind of had each other all wrong, and eddie will put his hand over steve's to help him get the placement for a tricky chord and it totally won't awaken anything in either of them?? where is it??

edit: i started writing it

#steve x eddie #steddie #stranger things #someone tell me this has already been written because i need it. please. #bonus points if steve shows up to the first practice session empty-handed #and eddie nearly calls the whole thing off when he has the Audacity to grab at eddie's sweetheart as if eddie'd ever let him play her #and he doesn't even teach steve anything that day because rule number one get your own fucking guitar and keep your mitts off mine #but by the end when eddie is deep deep deep in love and it's time to send steve off to woo this lucky girl of his #he offers to let steve take his sweetheart because she's guaranteed to make him look ten times hotter and cooler #and he'll have no trouble sweeping his girl off her feet and maybe eddie's breaking his own heart but it's fine—as long as steve's happy #except steve doesn't seem nearly as happy as eddie thought he would be #he seems sad actually and eddie kind of hates that so he starts to make some lame joke about how steve should be honored #because eddie wouldn't lend his baby out to just anyone and that gets steve to crack half a smile #but then he puts the guitar down on eddie's bed (with all due gentle reverence) walks over takes eddie's face in his hands and kisses him #kisses him like he's been dying to do it for weeks. because he has #because somewhere along the line it stopped being about wanting to impress a girl and started being about wanting to be with eddie #it started being screwing up on purpose so that eddie would grab his hands and show him how it's supposed to be done #and forgetting about lessons entirely and just sitting around and listening to eddie talk or just watching him play #because somewhere along the line steve fell out of infatuation and into love with the last person he ever expected.... #anyway idk where i'm going with this

[intotheelliwoods]

Hey uhh uhhm if yall dont hear from me in a while/I dont post many updates, no im not dead, I just may or may not have taken on a very large project ✌️

#a very very large project #that I cannot even post...... #until another 5 to 7 more updates................................. #.......................................... #whoops #nonsense #this thing. is going to be 2 and a half minutes #and I need to emphasize that I refuse to do any still frames #theres going to be movement. #everywhere. #wish me luck imma need it #so far im on panel 700 #out of.......................... #nearly 4000. #coloring not included. #oopsies #whoopsies

[silverskye13]

The universe keeps thwarting me [nerfed by the common cold edition] but So Much (for) Stardust is a RnS Helsknight song.

#spazzcat barks #im delirious #but also i started drawing the two lines that make me EmotionalTM and had to stop because its 9pm and my brain is melting #anyway i keep imagining #'I used to be a real go getter' as Helsknight before he started looking like Wels #[taller muscular platinum white blonde hair annoying spotting of freckles constantly red eyes] #and then panning to 'I used to think it'd all get better' Helsknight with hair nearly auburn no freckles dull black-blue eyes #the only real thing setting him apart from his other half being the scars he chose to keep -- even those fading with time #so much for stardust... we thought we had it all....... #eughhh i need sleep #its just a good song okay #life is just a game maybe #im stuck in a lonely loop now baby #i need the sound of crowds now or i cant fall asleep at night #im losing my mind #i think ive been going through it.... ive been putting your name to it.... #[dilerious muttering continues]

[franeridan]

reading volume 105 and I had forgotten we actually got mihawk's bounty and on page acknowledgement that he's a better swordsman than shanks??? they have half a billion difference in bounty mihawk's is still over half a billion above luffy's this is absolutely fantastic to me for many many reasons but especially because by god zoro seriously fought him ten volumes in. he really tried to fight someone with three times king's bounty with only one named sword and three weeks of experience as a pirate. he actually left his village at age sixteen specifically looking for him and went up to him at age nineteen convinced he was gonna win. and he had the guts to complain about mihawk using the butter knife to fight him too how is he alive he's so lucky mihawk felt like adopting that day

#i have already extensively lost my mind over final boss mihawk cruising the waters of the plot since the early chapters for #absolutely no reason whatsoever and tricking you into forgetting he's an actual god walking between ants #but when i read these things in the manga it fucks me over all over again like #yes sure shanks was there first chapter too but not as an enemy??? not sitting smack in the middle of the shichibukai #nearly all of them luffy defeated when he was still nothing more than a rabid chihuahua??? #insane!!! mihawk is insane!!!! #but the fact that he has only half a billion difference with shanks ESPECIALLY trips me cause #strength isn't the only factor in deciding a bounty in one piece!!! #influence! power on the seas! number of territories and subordinates!! the type of crimes they committed!! #they all play a factor in deciding someone's worth together with their strength #and shanks has all of that #all of that factors in his four billions bounty #but mihawk has none of that!!! no power! no territories! he doesn't even have crewmates!!! #he's alone doing his thing by himself!!!! #he /was/ called the marine hunter so I'll guess he does have the incidents to make his bounty increase #but aside from that it's all calculated on his strength??? his strength alone is worth 3.5 billions????? #how high would his bounty even be if he had a fleet and territories like shanks does?????? #dude #dude I'm obsessed with mihawk #in case that wasn't clear or obvious enough #......he's pretty much worth the added bounties of marco king and katakuri i cannot wrap my head around this #he straight up says he doesn't want to be an emperor is this why he isn't one it is isn't it dude made it so himself #oh i LOVE him when is he becoming relevant already #if oda doesn't give me either a fight between him and shanks or with them allied fighting side by side before the end I'll cry fr

[thereareeyesinsidethetrees]

y’know i honestly don’t think stan would have been as much of a hardass about getting ford to say thank you if that whole conversation where he ended up disowning him hadn’t happened

cause that was never the goal. he didn’t spend thirty years teaching himself theoretical physics and building something he didn’t have most of the instructions for just because he wanted ford to say thank you, he did it because he wanted his brother back

but ford didn’t want to be back, so, hell, what else are you gonna get from it?

#on another slightly related note #i’ve never understood the ‘ford should have said thank you and the fact that he didn’t clearly means he has a problem’ thing #stan put him in that situation in the first place. was it accidental? yes. did it still happen? also yes #thirty years of being lost and the first place you end up is essentially right in the lap of your abuser? wh. hgh #i get wanting a thank you for thirty years of constant work with little to nothing to go off of #even more so i get not wanting to thank the person that put you in hell for at the least nearly half your life and at the most over half #the point i’m trying to make isn’t that stan didn’t deserve a thank you #it’s that ford was more than justified in not wanting to give it to him

[martitheevans]

Have to get something off my chest... despite my being a Star Trek nerd, I've only ever seen TOS and its related movies, never delved into the other shows

#the yapper yaps #my dad always said they were rubbish #so I thought 'oh those are the rubbish ones that I won't bother with' whenever I saw stuff related to them #and then I began to get more into star trek thinking that when I went online and interacted with other fans they'd think the same #but TNG and DN9 are like beloved #whoops #and it's weird because the one thing nearly everybody doesn't like are the AOS movies #and I love them (even though there's some stuff that does annoy me I can look past it) #maybe I'll swallow my pride and just watch a few episodes #i saw half of that one TNG ep about the non-binary aliens #pretty alright but it did lack the silliness and cunty eyeshadow of TOS #star trek #star trek tos #star trek tng #star trek ds9

[skzoologist]

Me: okay so I finally have everything sorted out for the last chapters for Unfamiliarity, and I will even have some time to write them now! :D

Life: *chucks every kind of shit at me*

Me:

Me: say sike rn

#i couldn't make this shit up even if i tried #i'm half laughing half crying at this #too ridiculous #potat rambles #and boy does potat ramble hard again #the skz pics/fanarts my menace keeps sending me is nearly the only thing keeping the soul in me

[running-in-the-dark]

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#currently crying because I'm alone with my husband's 94 year old grandma and I'm the only one who ever lets her talk about certain topics #so she just talked about her childhood and youth for one and a half hours #which means. the war #I'm not gonna go into it but it makes me cry every time even though I've already heard it all before #how can you not cry about a child who lost two of her teenaged brothers and had to watch the third one very nearly die too #the stories about how careful they had to be because the police constantly went to every house and checked everything #how they had to hide some of the milk from their cows so they could make butter because they couldn't afford to buy it #and how dangerous that was. #idk I'm so tired of people dying over senseless and unnecessary shit forever and ever and nothing ever changes and no one ever seems #to learn from it #or at least the ones in power don't #as long as there's disposable people (men) to send to war it doesn't matter. and now that's not even necessary anymore you can just kill #people from far away and. I'm just tired #and I'll shut up now and not talk about these things again as usual. it's not because I don't care it's because it (literally) drives me #insane to think about it and I know it's weak and pathetic but I have to choose to stay just barely sane enough to stay alive #can't stop crying. 🙃 #anyway. shouldn't talk about it so. bye

[noirandchocolate]

Yes Bast and I will be wearing workout pants and t-shirts to be korok girls at the Renaissance Faire.

Also yes over those we will be wearing forest-aesthetic ponchos with intricate, lacy designs that took me 80+ hours to hand-knit over the course of a month.

This is because I am terminally unable to half-ass anything and also I wanted Bast’s vision for her outfit to be realized! She made us cute hand-painted fascinator-style masks to wear on headbands and got us accessories! I had to do my part with my skills too!

#kidk says stuff #my love language is fiber crafts #get knitwear’d on loved one!!!!! #anyway I spent nearly all the time I wasn’t at work or taking care of basic needs to make the things #they’re the largest garments I’ve ever made and that includes tunic-length sweaters I’ve done in the past #I had to block them one half at a time and even for that I had to buy another set of foam pads! #I hope people who see us there get a kick out of us!

[icewindandboringhorror]

Two baby boyes in the same position ... chair guardians ..

#cats #THE VET says they are a healthy weight. they are just huge and also look really large in certain photo angles #I know they both look so round lol.. which is cute but I don't want anyone to think I'm overfeeding them intentionally/negligently because #''chonky cat cute hee hee'' or whatever. i would not sacrifice their health for aesthetics. they're fine. they just Look Like That lol #funnily enough George (the brown one) actually is the only one that needs to loose a tiny bit of weight (he's like.. half a pound or so over #the ideal weight but is not obsese or anything). Noodle (the grey one) is of perfectly fine weight but he's the one that #always looks like a complete orb in photos hhjh.. Naturally Round Body Shape #I think it's also that they have like.. medium fur?? #they're not long haired cats but they are REALLY fluffy and thick coated compared to other short haired cats #I've seen. like my friends and relative's short hair cats usually have shorter hair than my cats so it's weird #if that's even a thing.. but they LOOK like shorthair cats but also have thicker coats than other cats so I think theyre sometimes kind of #fluffed up more than they look like they'd be. especialy their back and side fur. their chest fur and fur on the top of their #head is really short but some of their back furs are nearly 2 inches long strands and etc. etc. #ANYWAY... love when they sit in similar positions

[mossflower]

finished homestuck!! and adding it to my ever growing list of ‘media near-universally labelled as cringe that actually kinda slaps’

#like i won’t lie parts of it? terrible. i can’t even begin to piece together half of the lord english plot #but i think a lot more of it was actually really really good. especially act 4 and act 5 they were my favourite hands down #act 6 not so much. like separately? i loved the alpha kids and the dancestors and the concept of the cherubs was really interesting #but somewhere the execution fell short. it’s gonna annoy me cause i can’t figure out why #i think it might be the retcon. which i didn’t hate as an idea!! but it occurred closer to the end than i thought it would #i feel like if they’d explored the impact of the retcon more it might have flowed better?? idk #idk. act six as a whole i’m split on. i either loved what it did or was massively confused and exasperated by what it did #it’s like half of the comic and i got through it in about a week when it took me like a month to do acts 1-5 #and it doesn’t feel like that much happened it’s weird #but yknow. it is the act that sold me on vriska!! like i liked her before but i really liked her ghosting it up in this act #the bit where ghost vriska and ghost terezi found each other nearly had me in tears #vrisrezi as a whole. what a concept. easily one of the best dynamics in the entire thing #i really hope terezi finds vriska post-canon. however i’m not sure if i want to read the epilogues and homestuck 2 or not yet #ooh ooh also!! john fulfilling his quest slapped!! that’s probably one of my favourite bits in homestuck ngl #and omg. did not see davekat coming i won’t lie but i was v happy about it #k ill stop now bc i will end up listing half the characters and my favourite bits about them. and as fun as that would be #i really need to sleep haha #homestuck

[orcelito]

I think I cried harder today over my dad's jackets than I did at his deathbed. That was a miserable time of course, a memory that will likely be seared into my brain until I die, but I cried... I think a normal amount, all things considered. More than I ever usually do of course, but I typically don't cry At All. All this free crying is certainly surreal.

The jackets, though. I was put in charge of doing his laundry, because we don't want to pack up dirty clothes. I was expecting it to be unpleasant bc my dad's dirty clothes - gross. But really, it was much more unpleasant in that... those were his. It felt wrong to touch them. Felt wrong to treat his jackets as gross. Because they were just his jackets. They weren't even in the hamper. And then I was remembering him wearing them, and then I was crying. Again. And again. Weeping over these damn jackets.

Then I found a shirt on his bed that still smelled like him. It smelled like a Hug From Dad. And that set me off crying even harder.

In total, I think I cried like 6 times within 40 minutes. It took me that long to finish sorting the damn clothes bc I just. Was a wreck. Like, what are you supposed to do when you're living life like normal, vaguely hopeful bc you're taking steps to secure your own happiness, and then 4 days later you're sorting your dad's laundry because he fucking died. Suddenly. Without a goodbye.

And you have to worry about his lack of a will (even under an ideal situation, only 2 heirs and no conflicts between us, probate's a fucking Bitch), and arranging the funeral, and prepping his obituary, and picking out pictures, and writing a speech bc you want to talk at his funeral, of Course you want to talk at his funeral, but even just thinking about anecdotes you could share has you crying yet again.

I've cried more times in the past 3 days than likely the entirety of last YEAR. And that's WITH my cat, and uncle, and family friend dying. Those all hurt, my uncle most of all, & I was real fucked up over it. But this? This was my Dad. Likely the person I'd have named 2nd closest to me in my life, second only to my sister. He wasn't perfect, but he did so much for me throughout my entire life. All he wanted was to raise us to be happy and independent. And he accomplished it, we're getting by without him, but we still wanted several more decades with him. He was only 57. We should've gotten several more decades with him.

But here we are now. Playing investigators to his life, digging into all his shit, trying to find documents and take inventory of all his things, and learning Many things about him in the process. In his lockbox of sensitive documents, like his SSN and birth certificate and all that stuff, we found an old letter. About a decade old now, written in my hand. Right at the very top, we found that he'd kept the letter I wrote to him telling him frankly about my struggles and the things I wanted him to do better. He kept it. He tried to take it to heart. He looked at it again, sometime more recently than all the rest of the documents. That was on top.

His love for us is evident everywhere. The pictures he has hanging up all over the place, majority of them with us in them. The old fathers day cards placed on display in his bedroom bookshelf. The gifts we gave him, even stupid little knick knacks, placed around his apartment with pride. I wish we'd taken more videos of him. I don't want to forget the sound of his voice. I don't want to forget his smell either, the smell of a Hug From Dad, but I still tossed that shirt into the wash even though it felt like saying yet another goodbye.

It's the suddenness that hurts the most, I think. We were planning on having him help me finally get my license this year. My final words to him, the last thing he would've seen from me, were messages asking up on whether he'd called his car insurance company to make sure there wouldn't be problems. I should've called him more. I don't know if I'm going to learn from this.

I cut my 2 weeks off early to have time to grieve and to work on things for the funeral and settling the estate. The last thing I'd wanna do right now is selling fucking bubble tea in a job I already decided to leave. So here I am without a job, though with potentially two life insurance policy payouts to come. Inheriting half his 401k. Inheriting couches, knickknacks, keepsakes, paintings, art pieces, maybe even his guitar and other furniture if we can figure out what to do about space (I don't have room for this furniture, I don't know if I even have room for the couches, but God do I want to keep so much of this furniture). It has me even considering keeping one of his guns, just one. A tiny little revolver, it sits so comfortably in my hand. I don't even want to use it for anything. I just want to have it, keep it stored in a drawer with its ammo kept separate. I don't like guns, but this is a part of him. He loved collecting guns. He was about as responsible with them as someone can be, keeping them locked in a lockbox and impressing upon his children the importance of gun safety (I've known the basic gun safety rules ever since I was a little kid. Of course, of course, of course.) It reminds me of him. It's horrifically easy to have a gun in Indiana. I apparently don't even need a permit to carry anymore. (I have no intention to ever carry this in public.)

It's all a cycle. Business, grief, thoughts about my future. Round and round, like the most nauseating carousel in existence. I don't know how I'm still so functional. My skills with compartmentalization have been my lifesaver.

And im just thinking about the story my dad's best friend shared today. About a friend of theirs who lost her father. She reached out after hearing about my dad to share his words with her: "it's okay to grieve, but don't make his death your life".

He explicitly referenced himself in this, saying if he were to die suddenly that he wouldn't want us to define ourselves by it. Grief is expected, but he wants us to be able to move on. He's always wanted us to establish ourselves and make ourselves happy. He wouldn't want to be a weight holding us back from that.

So every time I start to feel guilty for thinking about having nicer furniture or using his life insurance payout to fund the rest of my college, I remind myself of that. Thinking about the material isn't a bad thing. I'm only human. And in the end, he'd Want me to be thinking about it. He never intended to die, certainly not without warning like this, so he would've only encouraged me being pragmatic about it all.

He only ever wanted us to be happy. So I need to do what I can to live up to that.

I love him. I miss him already.

#speculation nation #negative/ #this got really long on accident. but i think typing this out was really helpful for me. #getting the thoughts out. processing. the works. #nearly cried several times just from writing this. #...and honestly i might reference this again when i start seriously writing my eulogy. #things suck a Lot right now. and i really wish they were different. #feels like i picked a bad choice in a video game and am now seeing the Bad Ending or whatever #all i need to do is reload a previous save. it's all still there. perfectly preserved in my memories. #but... that's all gone. as suddenly and unfair as it is ive been thrust into a new chapter of my life so thoroughly. #it's not all bad though. he wasnt prepared for dying so it's been hell to prepare for him #we dont know if we'll even be able to get into his fucking iphone. stupid piece of shit. #but he had life insurance. he had a union job. and That comes with benefits #(something about a year's salary going to the family. aka half a year's salary to Me. and isnt That mind boggling.) #as much as it hurts im going to be realistic about it. im going to do what i need to finish my education. #and im going to use it as a springboard for finally becoming a 'proper adult'. #the kind who could own a nice kitchen fridge. one with an ice machine on the front of the door #and freezers in the drawers. #maybe then i could think about getting motorcyle lessons. not from my dad as i originally wanted #but i wanna keep the family biker spirit alive. i wanted it even before he died. and now i want it even more. #ive had so so many thoughts. it's only been 3 days. ive had to emotionally numb myself several times just to Get Through It. #everything is exacerbated. my mom wants to go to the funeral. we will have to fight her on this. my dad Hated her. #and i certainly dont fucking want her around either. not then. not when im talking about my dad. #(my dad. my Dad. i saw him die. i felt him cold. i do not regret it. it still hurts me.) #it's overwhelming. i loved him so fucking much. even with his flaws he was truly an amazing father. #i'll... shut up now. if you read this far. well. hug your loved ones a little tighter. you never know when youll lose them.

[cq-studios]

8 and 11 for the fandom ask game?

8. you hope more people will come to appreciate ___ (a ship, a trope, an episode, etc)

Well, I’m sure pretty much anyone looking at my blog feels will agree when I say the mobile games.

Like I feel like people are too quick to dismiss them as just Gatcha cash grabs (and I understand they were to an extent, but that’s not all they were, you know?) . They both have told really interesting stories (even if KHUX took its time to actually get to it… 300 missions until Ephemer was insane lol) and added so much to the lore and casts. Not only that, but they gave us new content in what otherwise would’ve been painfully long gaps between games.

Just talking about this makes me even more excited for Missing Link.

11. if you're a writer or artist, what fic or piece of art are you proud of making?

As a writer and an artist I’ll answer for both.

For writing I’ll have to say Nameless AU is probably the fic I’m the most proud of at the moment, and, uhh it’s not out yet but just you wait! Once I finish that first chapter it’s all over for you lol

For art I think I’m obligated to say my Safe and Sound PMV. The art is old and not the greatest but it’s honestly a miracle it got finished at all and I’m proud of that.

#Nameless AU is my pride and joy… if only I could finish a chapter lol #Like this thing has how many chapters started? I’ve lost count but the first one is nearly done #it’s been nearly done for like *checks hand* a year and a half #hell maybe longer I dunno #but I swear this will get done eventually lol #Safe and Sound however took me 7 months and I had to draw the Lifeboat 100 times (it was actually like 7 times but it felt like 100 lol) #That thing was a labour of love and even if I’m not so happy with the art anymore I’m just happy that I finished it at all #then heccin’ YouTube took it down and I had to find a cover that lined up lest it be unviewable forever lol #the version with the original audio is in the replies if you wanna see it the way it was supposed to be

[kyuala]

SOOOOOO hard to go through everyday life trying to ignore the never-ending feeling that im just irreparably fucked up and therefore should just give up on everything

#this aint exactly s******* but it aint exactly not s******* either #anyways it gets even harder when i have to live under the same roof as my brother who is so much better than me in every single conceivable #and imaginable way possible like #and i knowwww a LOT of it comes down to us having relatively similar yet wildly different lives despite being 1.5y apart and having the sam #family our entire lives like he has gone through NOTHING and i mean not a single societal issue ive had to face and endure my entire life #he's a man im a woman. he's white im black. he's straight im gay. he's skinny ive always been 'overweight'. he's always been the good #christian kid ive always had issues w faith and religion. he's never been mentally ill i was clinically depressed for nearly 8yrs of my lif #we both lost the same parent and im the only one who got pathological grief and a personality disorder out of it. he's had a great job for #the last 7yrs that now pays him 20k+ every month ive only had 3 odd jobs my entire life and 2 of those my MOTHER had to give me so i would #have SOMETHING and ive never made over 1.6k monthly n my last job was minimum wage only #he's had like 4 relationships and is nearly engaged im so traumatized + emotionally unavailable ive only ever been on 1 date my entire life #he has a good relationship w every family member we have i have Issues w like half the family. he's always been an active member of our #church i can barely listen to like 4 traditional hymns before i start losing my mind and spiraling. i think the only two ways we're pretty #much equal like socially is that we're both able bodied cis and christians but still the cis and christian thing is debatable for previousl #stated reasons so like. do yall see how much better he is doing than me in every little last area in life and how he's always gotten the #long straw when it comes to Not having to deal w certain obstacles in life. n i know its like yea idk what it actually is like to be him an #he could not be doing all that well first of all shut up. second of all if it was 1 or 2 things i'd get it but it's literally EVERYTHING #and i know bc of said things n our v different lives it's unfair to me to compare the two of us but then it begs the question: WHY #WHY did i have to go through these things. WHY do i have to deal w this. WHY did i get the short straw literally every goddamn time #WHY did i have to get THIS life like WHYYYYY why ME GOD. why have I had to put up w all this bullshit for 24 fucking years!!!!!!!!! im TIRE #and this is not me hating or resenting him i know it's not his fault and he is so good to me #but still. why was i left with these things? to live like this? #so yes i guess i do envy him a little bit. who wouldn't #mari.txt #personal #tw negative #dl #btw i do NOT mean some identities are better than others. i mean he is better and is doing better than me in life partially bc he's never #had to deal w certain social issues and obstacles that come w oppressed identities.

[everythingisstardust]

Why is it that the muses always strike right when I'm about to go to bed/suffering from insomnia? I've been planning on using this giant canvas for a tardigrade painting for nearly two months now, and then suddenly, right when I put on my pjs, I actually get the motivation/ inspiration to do it?

Anyway here's the guy half done, gotta wait for the paint to dry. (I'm very bad at that, which is why I love acrylic paint. Very good for my slap-dash methods.)

#I am actively procrastinating on so many things right now #I am staring at at least 3 half finished projects #Including a book I still have to decide my binding methods for. #Do I want to use fabric tape? Kettle stitch? French stitch? Fuck around and find out? #Idk but if I mess up even one signature I might cry because it's nearly 100 sheets of nice letter size paper and I don't have more #Fucking perfectionist paralysis #Maybe I'll break through tomorrow #Since I'm all caught up on immediate priorities