#not putting this in the main tag bc 1. its a vent post lmao and 2. i dont want a bunch of wes kinnies biting my head off sorry

[ursaspecter]

Before I get into it I just want to give a disclaimer: this is not a personal attack on anyone or me trying to gatekeep Danny Phantom. I am simply just airing some frustrations. This is all my opinion based on what I've seen from the current state of the fandom.

Also I'm writing this at 1am.

Now that that's out of the way, I'm really frustrated with the way this fandom acts at times. I've been a fan of this show for around 10 years now and only relatively recently came back to the fandom after being away for a while. It's nothing like what it was when I first got into the show, and I think that comes from the fact that a lot of people in the fandom haven't actually seen the show and have only read fanfics. And that is where I think the problems start to come up.

Now, ok, the show isn't for everyone. It's loud, has flashing colors, and certain parts haven't aged particularly well since its run from 2004-2007, and that's perfectly understandable as to why someone wouldn't be able to watch the show. I'm not faulting anyone for that. I only take issue when someone has a popular headcanon and a majority of the fandom acts like everyone agrees that it's canon and then get all up in arms when someone says they don't like that particular piece of fanon. I know in the grand scheme of things it's not that big of a deal, but it really bothers me whenever I see something like "I love how we all agree that [fanon]" or "so we all know how [fanon]"

Little things like ghost cores, haunts, obsessions are whatever I don't care that much, but when it gets into the territory of replacing fundamental aspects of the source material is where I have a big problem. See, I got back into Danny Phantom because I wanted to explore a darker take on the story that's a little more grounded in reality, but when every other thing is angst or torture or just treating Danny like a punching bag (most of the time written out of character), the idea really started to lose its luster ans made me hesitant to share my ideas.

The biggest issue I have though is with Wes Weston. Gonna be honest: I never liked him. I thought he was unnecessary from the moment I saw him. Then someone (I'm so sorry I forgot who it was) pointed out that Valerie was the perfect character to fill the role of the skeptic that tries to expose Danny, but the fact that the fandom wanted to focus more on an unnamed background character who happens to look like Danny was very telling.

Obviously I'm not saying that if you like using Wes that it automatically means you're racist. There's more nuance than that. I think what Wes does reflect though is just how much of the fandom just rejects the show? How so many people probably didn't even know about Valerie because perhaps she just wasn't in the fanfics they've been reading? Hell, I see more focus put on Dash than Valerie sometimes. Another one-dimensional white boy minor antagonist instead of a complex black girl anti-hero who is probably the best antagonist Danny has in the show AND the best love interest.

Also the overabundance of DC crossovers where Danny gets adopted by Batman are really annoying. I blocked every possible tag that could've gone with the crossover, but still somehow whenever I go through the main tag one sneaks through. Seriously between Frostbite, Clockwork, and now Batman why are y'all so obsessed with giving him a new father figure when you can just give Jack a better personality. Oh right because then you won't be able to write him vivisecting his son if he actually cared about him. Silly me I almost forgot!

Anyway thats why I only follow like 5 dp blogs and like 2 of them dont even post about dp most of the time. And schnuffel-danny my partner in chaos and shitposting. Gonna start a petition for a Danny Phantom reboot on the CW and make it the most edgy cringy shit ever and it'll have blackjack and hookers and Wes Weston is not invited.

#shut up casey #angery. #so very angery #about the ghost boy no less #not putting this in the main tag bc 1. its a vent post lmao and 2. i dont want a bunch of wes kinnies biting my head off sorry #also turning off reblogs just in case

[mieczyhale]

okay so…. anyone else get a weird feeling hearing the broken jaw story for the first time?? like.. that kind of feeling you get when someone is talking to you and you feel like you’re missing something or they’re leaving something out?? 

diego said klaus fell down the stairs, while wearing grace’s heels, and broke his jaw which was wired shut for eight weeks. and it could just be a funny little sibling story like the ‘licking a battery to get pubes’ one but.. that one didnt feel weird the way the broken jaw one did. the battery story is funny, not even two lines said in passing, and it doesn’t feel like it needs to be any more than that. like.. i dont have any questions, i dont need to know more about the story. it just is. 

but the broken jaw story… mmm… it doesn’t feel like that. it doesn’t feel like a funny little story, even when diego tries to make light of it because of klaus’s silence. and it leaves a bad feeling after. the first time i heard it i came away uneasy and with questions - and that could just be me, i’ve seen a fic or two with the angle i’m heading towards here but it doesn’t seem to be a popular hc?? but also i could just be missing a lot of posts lmao 

anyway

the hc hill i find myself sitting on is more like a few hcs that all stem from the same main one - which is this:: reginald caused klaus’s broken jaw. klaus was wearing grace’s heels, yeah - that’s very him, but instead of tripping i think reginald caught him and either 1. pushed him down the stairs or 2. hit him hard enough he fell OR 3. klaus did trip down the stairs but it didnt break his jaw - reginald, appearing at the bottom of the stairs, hits him hard enough with his cane to break his jaw. i think all three are possible and they all would leave.. pretty much zero evidence. cuz even if hitting klaus left a mark.. once he hit the floor, once he broke his jaw, it could just be chalked up to being caused by the fall/”fall” yknow?? 

i just feel like there’s something darker missing from the story - diego finds it funny, from his perspective it would be - clumsy klaus. klaus? doesnt find it funny. and sure he’s already down because of vietnam but he does express other feelings later in the episode so he could’ve at least acknowledged diego. but he didn’t. idkidk i feel like i’m not explaining myself very well?? i know what i’m trying to express here - my hcs and my reasoning - but its just… not coming out entirely perfect? but whatever - i at least managed to explain the basics of so i guess that’s good enough ;sdfl;slk if anyone has questions or wants to talk more about this literally just reply/reblog/send an ask - i am always game to talk about this (the umbrella academy) shit

OH! and the second hill i sit on, which i’m including in this post bc its kinda related, is one i know a lot of people are also on and that is that his broken jaw was his first experience with drugs and where he learned that he could make the spirits go away. whether his injury was truly an accident or something worse, the drugs he was put on to deal with the pain triggered the start of what would be an 18/19-ish year spiral. and nobody ever pieced that together, no matter how obvious it should’ve been - either right away or when things started getting out of control. but people are naive, ignorant, blind and nobody took it seriously until it was too late

but THAT is a whole separate thing for another time bc i could honestly vent forfuckingever about the years between klaus starting with alcohol and drugs and him leaving the academy. i could also vent forever about the years AFTER the academy too, if im being honest. its something i spend a lot of time thinking about so i’ve got hcs but also things that i just think could be possibilities but i dont necessary consider them hcs? what im saying is i could vent forever about klaus just in general. love of my goddamn life

@hellomyguru (tumblrs been a bastard child lately and i dont trust it so im just gonna tag you ;lsdfs)

#oh boy i wish i could make sense just once lmao. #hellomyguru #tinysquidrachel #mytuaposts #klaus hargreeves

[elementalheroneos]

Why do u care so much about killing stalking if u don't like it tho? Why don't u just ignore it? Not being mean just wondering

Ok so this is going to be long bc the whole “Don’t like it? Ignore it.” shtick has annoyed and frustrated me for months and I’m just going to vent it out now. I’m sorry anon if this comes off as angry bc it’s not directed at you, but again, this has bothered me for months now and I feel like more people are just going to say this until I put all this out there.

Also if this ends up in the main tag bc tumblr is a broken website: I don’t care what any of you nasties think and I don’t want to interact with you, so why don’t you all help me ignore it by blocking me and moving on.

TLDR tho: Ki////ing Sta///king makes me extremely uncomfortable and seeing people support it and the abuse in it scares me. I’d love more than anything to be able to ignore it and pretend it doesn’t exist, but because of its popularity, it is impossible to avoid unless I completely change my life. So because I have to be exposed to it against my will, I’m going to grit my teeth and express discomfort with vent posts on the internet and involve myself with people who also dislike it.

If I were to try and ignore it tho, I would pretty much have to delete all social media and avoid most of the internet.  Tumblr has recommended blogs about it to me, the main tag trends when it updates, i’ve gone into tags completely unrelated to the manhwa and seen crossover stuff, when it came out I had to unfollow 15 people who posted it, just a week ago someone who posted it followed me (despite me having it in my byf to not follow me if you enjoy it), people have interacted with my posts with icons of the characters, and so on and so forth.  As far as I remember I’ve only directly gone looking at the main fandom/character tags on tumblr/instagram about 6 or 7 times since it became popular.  One was when I first heard about it and was looking through the tag to see wtf it was. 2 or 3 were because I got into such a distressed state that I was trying to block as many people who supported it as I could so that they would never interact with me. 1 or 2 were to actually know what was going on to have an informed opinion. And the last one was bc y00bum-in//drag was saying that no one said anything like my vent post so I searched keywords to get screenshots. Beside that the only time I willingly look at it is also if someone’s blog pops up on a post on my dash who is a fan I might look at it for a moment because it’s already there in my face.

I really don’t actively look for that shit tbh it’s more it finds me. And the same goes for instagram and facebook and even I think I saw someone with a character dragon/icon on flight rising??? And uhh instagram allows you to block zero tags so guess how many times it’s come up there with cosplayers (and guess how many had self harm sfx makeup that freaked me out :) ) I’ve also had people message me/my friends about cosplay advice and commissions and saw posts about it on their blogs. 

I cannot avoid it at all on the internet, and to an extent the same thing goes for irl. I enjoy cosplaying and want to use as a springboard for my dream career in costume design and construction. I also work for an anime vendor booth and go to almost every con in my state and even some out of states.  My boss knows zero about k////s and tbh he wouldn’t care about what it was/if me and my friends who also work for him were made uncomfortable by it.  So when cosplayers show up to our booth, we can’t just leave to avoid them. We can’t tell them to leave because were extremely uncomfortable either. It’s basically a retail job so we have to smile and help sell things to them. One con for 2 days straight a pair of sang///woo and yoon////bum couple cosplayers kept coming back to our booth every 2-3 hours and hanging out for 20 minutes straight because we were the only booth at that convention selling yoi merchandise. Our boss even encouraged us to keep trying to get them to come back and buy more since they spent so much money. It was honest to god awful??? Like all three of us just kept praying they’d leave and not come back every time they showed up cause we did not want to see them. Esp when they would also loiter by our booth to talk to friends and do shippy things and joke about the abuse in the comic. 

I also was talking to a really popular cosplayer once who also is uncomfortable with k////s and he told me that a yoon//////bum cosplayer ran and tackled him at a con and damaged his cosplay. Or I had the scare of my life when I was going under a table to sort through the boxes and I came up to a yoon////bum cosplayer right there with wrist bandages and felt uncomfortable for the rest of the day.

And also umm going off that and onto a semi tangent: do you have any idea how many k/////s cosplayers love using self harm as a prop????? Ever since the chapter with self harm came out I have yet to see a yoon////bum cosplayer without wrist bandages (bloody or not) including that one that kept coming back for 2 days which is god awful. Esp considering one of my friends who works at the booth is extremely triggered by that stuff.  Anytime we see yoon////bum cosplayers now we have to go out of our ways to avoid our friend seeing it by either getting them to switch tables or trying to distract them all while WORKING and helping customers. And ofc one with bloody wrist bandages went right up to their booth one time when they weren’t looking and when my friend looked back bc they realized a customer was there they had to sit and help them purchase something before going to the bathroom because they were having a panic attack and needed to get away from that. And ofc the rest of us had to cover for them and pretend to our boss they were just taking a bathroom break. So uh yeah not fond and if you think I can ignore that….. what world do you live in???? It’s in my face on the internet and at cons I attend to enjoy and at my job.

Even though this has gotten super long I’m going to say this one thing before someone jumps on my dick for it: “But Ceili, why do you follow/interact with anti k////s blogs???? Lmao you secretly enjoy it/want to see it” Bc like I’ve said above, I have zero way to completely ignore it. If I’m going to be forced to see it against my will, I want to see it through people who also hate it bc its a huge comfort to know that some people don’t get off to the abuse and torture of a gay man and think its disgusting as well. I’m not going to just internalize and try to pretend I’m not disgusted and uncomfortable for the sake of protecting poor k//////s fans’ feelings. I’m going to vent about it and I’m going to talk to other people about why I hate it because it helps make me feel safer and allows me to get shit out. Anti blogs also talk about the contents of the manwha so that I can stay informed without reading it/having to see posts about it because if you dare try to criticize it and say you dislike it without reading it every fan jumps down your throat with “Youre making assumptions!!!!! You don’t actually know anything!!!!! Stop lying about my favs!!!!!” I also sometimes like reading anti’s posts bc there are times where I have problems articulating my feeling so seeing someone else write it out more cohesively than I can helps me sort things out so that I’m not thinking as much about how I feel and what I’m trying to say about this garbage bc someone already said it. And also if a fan is saying something extremely nasty, yes I’m going to sometimes jump in bc I’m at that point already upset and angry.

So yeah again: I legit cannot ignore it and once I see it I can’t stop thinking about it until my discomfort passes which can either be for a few minutes or a few hours depending on the situation. Unless all fans go and keep their content super private and dont put it out there which yall will never do, we’re at a stand still and if you want me to not continue to talk about this block me and dont interact bc I want to move on with this and be done already.

#ceili speaks #killing stalking // #self harm // #long post #sorry if anything is unclear/confusing I wrote this mostly rushing

[punkscrunchies]

@ newcomers + old friends

in the last month i’ve gained almost 40 followers (which is a lot for me) so i just want to remind/tell everybody about my other blogs:

aesthetic blog - natalyatabakov

blog where i reblog nature photography - realworldbeauty

side-project where i find the sources of stolen aesthetic images - source-finder

and a new one! music is probably the thing that i’m most passionate about in the world. i’m a keen musician and i have a (really) good music taste, not to toot my own horn lmao. if you’re into alternative music then i’m the place for you! i used to post my songrecs into a tag but i decided to just make a blog for categorising them! (i also include occasional instrumental/classical music).

natalyasongrecs (just a quick warning - all of the posts are from spotify)

some other things! 

1. i post photography (my own). my instagram

2. i have a twitter which i mainly use to retweet and like things but y’know, i’m an attention whore so why not post it here. twitter

3. my name is natalya. pronouns are she/her (bc that’s what i’m used to and they/them is the most annoying thing to use bc people constantly want you to explain it)

so since everybody is fucking posting every single minority they belong to in their bio these days and i only have a fucking shitpost in there here’s the rundown bc apparently people care? about this shit??:

- bisexual

- agender; biologically female

- second gen bulgaria->australia immigrant

- born to mixed ethnicity parents (one had moved to australia from bulgaria in 1993, one has had family in australia since the mid-19th century)

- that being said. i am white. like. i have race privilege. i just have the decency to not say im 15% italian.

- BUT. i tend to use the term “anglo” bc. you know. i dont actually have brit blood in me. im a half-wog. haha. 

rules to this blog (i dont think ive ever set these down, but why not now):

1. no TERFs. 

2. i do not support doxxing or violence of any kind, and this only has one exception - nazis, or the “alt-right”

3. paedophilia-free zone. no way am i putting up with this shit.

4. anon is off for now - it will be going back on around the middle of the year.

5. i dont expect support of every single belief system; religion; etc. what i do expect is tolerance though. unless the belief system leads to harm (e.g. racism, neo-nazism; anything paedophilia-positive etc) then i expect tolerance

6. don’t bring me into drama unnecessarily. this hasn’t happened before, but since i’m exponentially gaining followers i’m kinda dreading when i will. what i mean is sending me asks like “what do you think of [blog]?” or something like that. your ask will be deleted, but i still don’t want to even see it.

7. if you want me to trigger warning ANYTHING (absolutely anything) then all you have to do is send me an ask or message me and i will. i don’t usually update my list of trigger warnings that i use so feel free to send in something just to make sure! (btw if you send an ask/message i’ll reply to you privately. i would never ever post that)

8. do not. ever. reblog posts that have the “personal” tag. literally anything else you can reblog - but not that. my personal life and feelings are not a funny meme or conversation point. 

9. continuing on from 8 - keep in mind that this blog is still my own blog. i can post whatever i like on it, i can set whatever rules i want. don’t ask me to not post personal things because it irritates you. this is still a personal blog. it isn’t a humour blog (it mostly is, but its main function is my vent/personality expression zone)

10. i enjoy positivity! i really do! and i totally encourage it, but if any of you tell me or anyone else to stop being cynical or negative about something because it isnt “positive uwu” then you can fuck off. people are allowed to feel negatively about something or be cynical. this website’s positivity started as an awesome vibe and quickly proceeded to policing and harassment so.

anyway this post is the basic rundown. 

#me #rules-and-me-post #long post