#part one is done bitches

[supercalime]

Just thought about sharing this frame right here

Do with it what you will

#the split second before the lips touch are always my favorite part to analyze like a psycho #sorry about the motion blur #this was a bitch to screenshot but I had to #for science #also can you tell that I really like Tommy and buck together and want them to be endgame? #I’ll hide the next bit in the tags cause some shippers are scary: #I don’t really want buddie to happen #im not against it but there is something about eddies actor #that makes me feel like he’s one of those bros is fine with gay people but not near him #and this is purely my own impression #I don’t think he said or done anything to give that impression #you know how there are certain actors who simply refuse to kiss men because of fragile masculinity #because I’m straight bro #anyway #Back to Tommy and buck #I really like them together and they better have at least one kiss as intense as buck had with other partners in the past #not just a peck like last week to get diversity points #ya know #shmexy kisses #lety rambles #tuck #bucktommy #evan buckley #tommy kinard #911 #911 abc #oliver stark #lou ferrigno jr

[mildmayfoxe]

WORLDS GREATEST con artist / cheapskate / stud / boozer / dancer / brat / space cadet / bs'er / hypochondriac / nut / burden / losing gambler / playmate / animal / party-goer

#because of my INIMITABLE grace and kindness i have done the shopping for you. you're welcome #these are some of the ones i liked that i found while looking for world's greatest bitch #i did purchase con artist after i started writing this post but i'm leaving it on here. and i have another bs'er (cheaper) open to think ab #i really loved a lot of these though it was a hard choice to actually buy some #vintage pins #i had a tag for these kinds of things uhhh #my finds #??? was that it #snoopy #i only included the snoopy ones bc i know how much people love snoopy merch tbh #also i didn't find a bitch with a rainbow but i DID remember i have the capacity to switch out the hanging part #so i bought WORLDS GREATEST TRUCKER (cheapest rainbow) and WORLDS GREATEST BITCH (footprints version) #and i'm going to combine them. >:) #i also FINALLY bought a hogs are beautiful pin that i've had in my ebay likes forever #finds

[bunnyhysteria]

a few people are bringing up depression in response to my shen yuan post, and while do what you want yes, I feel this does go back to how people don't know how to write disabled characters as another person brought into light. including mental disabilities.

mayb now I'm projectin on this one, but seein the absolute cluster fuck of shen yuan, it feels strange to go "it's depression!". I see narcissistic personality disorder, other cluster b traits, I see autism, mayb even ocd. he's a paranoid, hot head mess whose constantly calculating every moment. but people don't really know how to contextualize mental illness, especially not the "scary" ones, even if they have mental illness themselves. just slap on depression and anxiety as a bandaid and don't talk about the rest! it's not that people don't want to go further (or at least I have some faith), I just think our current society has not prepared people to step out of the "nice" mental disorders.

so I don't fault anyone who reduces his nonsense into the socially acceptable depression, but I can't act like that it doesn't make me uncomfortable. but also not uncomfortable enough to directly respond to strangers on the interwebs HSKDHDH.

but I also did want to talk about the depression to slob pipeline as well because that's I suppose the part that gets me. he's unwell, so he's a slob and a disgustin mess. a statement that could be made about someone who has depression, but I have a hard time applying the "he" to shen yuan in this case. I'm personally under the "I care so much about my image that I feel like I'm gonna rot from the inside out" type, and my response has been to hyper clean. clean and clean until I can't clean anymore and so I'm stressed that I can't make my space (and by extension myself) better in a small matter of time. I was once a slob in the past as a teen, but I'm immensely embarassed by it. I'm vain, so I take photos of myself with my backdrop being my room, and I will loose my marbles if someone looks down on me because I threw my pjamas onto my bed while gettin changed. no one but me and my family enter my room. no one else even enters the house.

*picks up shen yuan by the scruff of the neck* yer telling me this rich pretty boy obsessed with tryin to get people to take him seriously wouldn't have an instagram or whatever the equivalent would be?? honestly I feel like it would be expected of him, and he might also flaunt his wealth (that he didn't earn) to try to feel better. if you couldn't tell I'm tryin to shove a superiority/inferiority complex onto him over his status. that's just cause I think it'd be funny I don't have any text evidence off the top of my head for that lmao.

ultimately with all this, I just want something different. I want people to step back and look at shen yuan for who he is and then extrapolate out from that and into how they want to play with his character. I don't know how, with all these complex thought processes and characterizations of binghe, we have landed with a very 2d, copy paste version of shen yuan every time. maybe I just need to dig more into shen yuan fan creations, but I have yet found one to step out of the invented fanon version mold or their small variations. and its quite strange to me given how divorced fanon shen yuan is from canon shen yuan. I suppose I'm not used to a fandom with a character so warped away from canon well accepted. dare I say, ooc.

#svsss #shen yuan #text #mine #shout out to my first therapist who looked at my cluster b clusterfuck and went 'yea that's just depression and anxiety' #mam I have psychosis. #also now I'm briefly thinkin of shen jiu and shen yuan in a blender known as DID. I wonder if that's been done. #I feel like its has to have been??? #I'll look it up on ao3 later. mayb. if I feel like it. I will most likely forgor since I'm not that invested in the idea #also shen yuan doesn't have to be my flavour of mental ill that's not the point of the post. I am sharin my experiences as an example of how #he might be instead or just in general mental illness that doesn't fit the mold of 'nice' mental ills #binghe has bpd though I'll say that. the fear of abandonment is strong with this one #strangely im gonna make a wild claim for a character I relate to but I don't see shen yuan as a bpd bitch #that's a new one in my books. usually every character I relate to I slap bpd on like it's flex tape #but it's just not a part of how I interpret his character and I'm not gonna pretzel him into how I am just because #if I'm gonna project I'm gonna use text based sources to at least say that it could be in chatacter #cause do what you want with characters but at some point of pretzeling yer just slapping a canon name onto an oc #and I'm not clickin on a shen yuan fic to read about your oc. like I'm sorry but I'm just not

[qwuilty]

Feeling like a freak on a leash (you wanna see the light)

Feeling like i have no release (so do I)

#postal dude #postal 2 #postal #my art #its supposed to be like. the painting of the lady with the pearl earring #i came up with the comparison of him being like a caged / leashed dog in my head and have been obsessed with it ever since #that kind of like. violence and rage but contained back by the people around him and social convention if that makes sense #also. the like leather part is cheetah print cause its supposed to be like. connected to The Bitch and all #havent done a digital painting in a bit but i really like how this one came out :O]

[phnmnt]

Shen Yuan shixiong AU - Part 6

Because Shen Yuan acts as a kind of "cushion" between Shen Qingqiu and Luo Binghe, the latter's life in the sect is a little better than his original fate in PIDW.

Shen Yuan makes sure Ming Fan and his other shidis don't bother Luo Binghe. While he's at it, he pushes Binghe towards Ning Yingying, set on being the protagonist's "wingman". (But Luo Binghe only has eyes for his Shixiong, so jokes on him haha)

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5

#svsss #scum villain #shen yuan #luo binghe #ning yingying #shen qingqiu #sy shixiong au #phansdraws #YEAH SO THIS ONE ALSO TOOK FOREVER #its like 4-5 drawing into one #i probably made some mistakes but you know what #idc lol im DONE #shen yuan is trully the best shixiong ever i want 10 of him #you guys enjoy white lotus bingbing while it lasts u__u #next is the woodshed part #BUT THERE'S A SURPRISE #im a fluffy bitch so if there's angst you guys will also so get fluff #love yall ♥♥♥

[lucielovekj]

When I was in uni we had to do a presentation on an artist chosen from a provided list and I chose Mark Ryden and the lecturer who I presented it to laughed and asked mockingly why I would make the presentation pink because it’s extremely unprofessional and I was like you mean this guy?

Why did I make a presentation on this guy pink???

#we were told the aesthetics didn’t really matter and to make them cohesive with the theme #and it was LITERALLY just a muted millennial pink background w white boxes and dark pink text #everyone else did black and white but we legit had people with dyslexia on our course so I didn’t wanna do that #AND other peoples were just as heavily decorated and coloured it was literally just the colour pink she bitched about #and I was like why? what’s the issue? it’s a major part of his work and it’s just a damn colour what’s your problem??? #in front of the whole class I was so mad and embarrassed but I was too annoyed to drop it #we were also in pairs and I ended up doing the whole thing for a lot of reasons and then my partner couldn’t even pronounce the words #so it was made extremely clear I’d done everything and for some reason this makes teachers assume YOURE the asshole #I’ve had it so many times where I’ve been that guy doing the whole thing and then those in charge are like #why are you being such a control freak and nasty to your group #like idk maybe because I’m the only one even remotely trying and I don’t want to fail SHARON

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

does anyone have any tips on how not to be a crippling perfectionist about your writing?? i have been staring at the same five paragraphs of the next chapter of four walls for a whole week and i've reached the point where i actually want to defenestrate my own laptop

#i've got the later parts of this chapter and a good chunk of the next one basically done #but this particular section is slowly driving me insane #UGH #why do i write characters with complex and conflicted emotions #it makes for a very complex and conflicted writing experience #(which i'm bitching about rn i know but i also wouldn't give it up for the world. it's just. a lot sometimes) #i end up second guessing myself constantly #also i haven't written anything this long for a good five years and i think the challenges of that #and the challenges of making a longer piece all tie together and work as one are really starting to set in #anyway sorry please feel free to ignore this mess of a post #i just needed to have a vent before returning to my keyboard and trying to make sense of alex's foolish little head #thanks to anyone who read their way though all this rambling 😅 #writing stuff #lulu posts

[chalk-drawings-on-the-sidewalk]

discotheque child

#this has to be one of the most frustrating pieces i've ever made #but i'm glad i got it done because i love disco kid so much he's blorbo from my boxing game #also tried my hand at realistic (?) shading and i think i did a pretty good job at that!! #but the folds... oh my god the folds were a bitch #they were the hardest part to draw out of the whole thing I HATE DRAWING FOLDS I HATE DRAWING FOLDS #also i have a jacketless version because i am completely normal and rational over this man lmk if you wanna see it 😏 #my chalk drawings ✍️ #punch out #punch out wii #disco kid

[asordidbarwere]

BOILED ONE PHENOMENON FUCKING HILARIOUS

#analog horror #i cant stop laughing holy shit #you bet your ass it's a cognitohazard im gonna piss myself #see. you could argue this is a prime example of analog horror tropes being done to death #but that image is EXACTLY the kind of shit my 4-year-old brain wouldve cooked up to give me nightmares #that's why i love the genre. it captures the freaky parts of a 90s kid's imagination uncannily well #however 31-year-old me thinks that is a FUCKING RUBBER MUPPET LMAAAOOOOO #''a melted face'' going A Blee Blee Bloo Blah Bloo #i bet this video legit scared wendigoon for real tho. pussy-ass racist bitch #the boiled one phenomenon

[passumstars]

I will likely never get to do anything with her

#my art #the band ghost #nameless ghoul oc #i mostly wanted practice making a character sheet ish thingy #and by god i got that #had to work hard for her colors which is not usually a problem for me #and the silhouette flip like if your character doesnt have a tail then bam its done and no one will notice the small problems #but it doesnt work with a tail if you want perspective i had to redraw/move her tail around to make it look right so. learned that very much #i like the layout concept though thats nice #i have a whole backstory for her. she was part of a group summon and it all went fine except that one person was missing and they ended up #with a statue. she was too terrified to talk to anyone so she got left there and after it sounded empty she reverted and found some place to #hide in the gardens. so she lives there now. and ruins a lot of socks. and helps with the plants not that anyone knows that. and panics and #turns to stone if anyone walks by. so everyone does realize theres a moving shifting statue in the abbey but no one is sure what to do about #that. doesnt speak much if at all. doesnt steal a new shirt bc people notice if those go missing unlike socks. has anxiety bitch face also #yeah. and like. i dont know what a fandom is and i certainly dont know what a music is and thats why ill likely not do anything with her #which kinda sucks. but i still made her a character sheet cause she wont leave me alone. and for the practice #cause if i think about doing a sheet for story ocs i get all perfectionist and it doesnt happen #the luck thing is that she kinda thinks being summoned was a curse #im gonna shut up now

[touchlikethesun]

i think it's worth interrogating why, for some, "thinness" is associated with gender affirmation and niceness. i think it's worth interrogating why, for some, being bigger is associated with agression and ugliness. i think, if your first impulse to someone suggesting a character be depicted in a larger body is, "fuck you ewww how dare you," that maybe just maybe, you might have a few biases that you need to unpack. this is not saying that artists can't draw what they like, this isn't saying people can't headcanon what they like, but i wish people would think a bit deeper about why they view thinness as so desirable, and fatness as such an affront.

#i tried to be calm in the post but imma be a bitch in the tags #your skinny femme sirius is not fucking oppressed #and the way people in this fandom talk about thinness is genuinely triggering for me and for a lot of people #one thinness is not associated with a fucking gender #people of all sizes exist across the gender spectrum #what message do you thinks it sends if being skinny is integral to your conception of gender??? genuinely what do you think? #what message do you thinks it sends when fat characters are demonised ridiculed or flat out ignored??? #clearly you guys read harry potter growing up because you talk just like JKR #now i'm a bit older and i've done so much fucking work on my body image on making peace with myself on breaking out of ED and diet culture #but if i was 16 and still deep in my ED i would absorb this message like a fucking sponge #and i would probably be right there with you being revolted by fatness #don't take this as an attack take it as a chance to reflect on why you think the things you do and on the effects your words have on others #for me personally i really find super skinny super femme sirius triggering because of my history with EDs and my own gender issues #but for the most part i've made my peace with the fact that this is MY issue and so i try not to comment on it #everyone has their own experiences and i think it's good to be mindful of that #and learn when the best policy is to just disengage #i didn't comment on the post that sparked this initially because that's what i was trying to do #but i kept seeing it and i kept seeing some really awful things being said about fatness and masculinity and i just don't think that's righ #marauders #sirius black #ed mention #fatphobia #fandom culture

[bobbie-robron]

I brought him up to face his responsibilities. (Part 2)

Yeah? Right success story he’s turned out to be, ain’t he? Nearly as good as his brother who knocked off his wife.

This part is mostly Jack, Zak and Cain going round and round about Andy, Debbie and the baby. Jack sticks up for his precious son Andy since he stepped up when he learned about the baby (forget the fact that Debbie was, and still is, a minor, Jack, hey?). Diane wants Robert to patch things up with Andy but he couldn’t care less. Andy announces him and Debbie are getting back together.

09-Jun-2005

#classic ED #classic ED robert’s story #20040609 #episode 4071 #classic ED 2005 #200506 #part two of the episode #gah we only have weeks left of robert now 😩 #one and done again for robert for this part #life’s a bitch innit #adam meets the grandparents #sorry but the andy debbie scenes aren’t included #andy stepping up #adam forsythe #jack sticking up for andy #cain dingle #robert can’t be arsed about andy #jack suden #zak dingle #diane sugden #robert sugden #karl davies #val lambert #andy sugden #debbie dingle

[wishingprince]

I got another hobby.

#prince text #prince learns crochet #it’s so bad #I’m so bad at it #but damnit if it ain’t fun #the only bad part is that I was so particular and fretting learning the loops that my hands got rlly tight #first and worst hand flare up since I moved to Washington #but I think it’s exacerbated bc I’ve been doing two hours of gesture drawing a couple times a week lately too #and one of those times was today #so my hands are done with me rn #they’re like BITCH STOP WE GET IT U CRAFT #WATCH A MOVIE PLAY POKÉMON LEAVE US BE FOR A FEW HOURS FOR FUCKS SAKE #ok guys I hear u #anytime I learn something like this I need twice as much patience and to be shown over and over again #but now I know it’s dyspraxia and not me just being Bad at listening #or moving #LMAOOOO

[setaflow]

Broke: This fic chapter could reach 30k words Woke: This fic chapter could reach 69 pages in a word doc

#Guess which one I'm more excited about lol #Seta speaks #Seta writes #Rain in the Desert #Haven't posted in 6 months because this chapter's been a BITCH. I've rewritten parts of it several times it's been a grind #But we're almost done! maybe like 400 words left? I could finish it tonight or tomorrow morning...... #And then I take a recharge break bc I deserve it 😮‍💨

[marcotheflychair]

how i’ll be looking while subjecting myself to the tw*l*ght movies for Michael Sheen:

#michael sheen #TW: Sparkly Vampire Movies™ #i fr be out here torturing myself for a character with like under 5 minutes of screentime #and they aint even consecutive its over the course of the whole franchise #and he fully isnt even IN one of the movies #im obv gonna skip that one #i may be a masochist but even IM not that mentally ill #twilight hate club where yall at #michael sheen is literally the only good part of tw*l*ght #michael sheen my beloved #only reason im watching twilight to begin with really #i love michael sheen #volturi #aro volturi #aro twilight #team volturi #team michael sheen actually #in anything hes done tbh #give me edgy vamp michael sheen over midward or drycob any day #he (michael sheen) gets all the bitches anyway #source: trust me bro

[bluffmotel]

the betraying holts ending fight with tyler is still the CRAZIEST sequence of the whole game to me. he is practically spitting and seething with jealousy over vince choosing dante over him. because like, that's what it's all about! he can rattle off it's about dale's death all he wants but he normally lets that go otherwise. his raw visceral anger in that scene is truly about him trusting vince and expecting vince to trust him in turn ( also insane behavior btw! ) ... believing vince at his word even though vince is soooo clearly lying, and isn't trying all that hard to cover his ass actually. he sees the pager and the messages and acts like a wife who got cheated on and THEN he sees vince shake hands with dante and loses his entire shit. will ATTACK the guy literal seconds after contact. everything about the scene just makes me rear back in my chair and go oh, oh, tyler this is so embarrassing. you should not care this much. having friends and other relationships before this moment would've saved you a world of grief imma be real

#im normal about the pool scene ( lying ) #tyler really said you liked dante??? more than ME??? die #because. this is the one death tyler will execute and it's sooo purposeful #all his other murders are so instinctive. he shoots sam and then joyce out of a pure emotional response ( at a distance! ) #and when it HITS him what he's done ( because he didnt even really know he was doing it ) his whole tough guy act crumbles #but with vince he is consciously making the choice to murder him and hunt him down and chase him #like ... tyler is soo in his feelings and hurt. this is sooo personal to him and him only lol #hence why it's such a violent manner of death too!! like tyler has ample time to think about what he's doing #since drowning isnt instant and he's forced to be pressed close to vince the whole time #idk ... its just inchresting to me. double inchresting there's so many parts that almost read as a mockery of a loving gesture #vince can cradle tyler's face in his hands two times!!!! after they're stopped they pose in such a comfortable way ... #anyway i just. oh pool scene. you crazy bitch