#redacted what ifs

[pasteloctoz]

Redacted what ifs- Hero AU shitposting

might bring this series back i still need to write up mafia solaire clan.

They have the same powers as they do in the base universe, and unempowered people barely know about empowered people apart from heroes and villains, and D.U.M.P. is a corrupt government that controls people from reaching their true magical potential or whatever.

● DAMN Crew

-Vigilante Freelancer

Feel like Freelancer would initially be some kinda low level villainbc of how they were brought up, but then they meet Caelum and try to do more good than bad.

-Goofy Sidekick Caelum (i miss him so much)

Caelum would be Freelancer's gauge between good and bad. They'd probably become dependent on him at some point because they don't want to loose their temper.

-Hero Gavin

Gavin and FL have a complicated relationship initially and then find out abt eachothers identities and fall in love.

Also Gavin is probably the furthest thing from a hero he's just chillin with the lifestyle mandated by the corrupt government tbh.

Like he knows the government is bad but nothing compares to his life on Aria (forgot how to spell it)

-Support hero Lasko

Lasko is a support hero because of his relationship with Gavin.

-Civilian Damien

-Civilian Huxley

Lasko, Damien, and Hux are less involved in hero life bc they don't know about Caelum. Not to mention I like the idea of people who don't know about someone's trauma helping the person through it.

-Villain Vega

Hes more of a Vigilante but specifically for demon kind (i think ive barely listened to his audios) but in general hes a villain from FL's POV (cus he hurt caelum)

-Hero & Rival Kody

He's not enough of a bad guy to be a villain but he is enough of a parasite to frequent cameos in FL's routine.

● Shaw Pack

-Freelance Hero David

He takes jobs for money, and is indifferent to politics unless it effects his pack.

-Civilian Angel

Genuinely thought Davey was a normal guy (except for the moodyness n shifting). When they find out its about a year into the relationship and Angel isn't having any of that shit. Of course David told them about him being a shifter after a while but not THIS. Safe to say they'd be angry for a while.

-Civilian Asher

He's Davey's chairman, just cannot realistically be a full time hero because its too boring for him. Though he will help David any chance he gets.

Also probably the quipiest mother fucker ever-

-Civilian Baabe

They'd find out about Asher and Davey waaay before Angel and probably keep the secret too. Angel would be real hurt but heal a lot faster with Baabe.

-Hero Sweetheart

-Anti-Hero Milo

He definitely has SH realize the realities of government shit or whatever

Also Davey and Asher know about Milo being an Anti-Hero they just don't give a shit 😭

(I've lost all knowledge of what the fuck is going on with the vamps so im not caught up)

● Solaire Clan

-Support hero Sam

-Vigilante Darlin'

They're kinda on the run after getting a bit too violent with a villain. Then found out that the government is protecting certain villains because of the money they get if they do.

-Villain Quinn

Yes, the villain darlin' got too violent with is Quinn, who tf else would it be?

-Civilian Lovely

They'd still be a civilian after finding out they have magic, despite the government pushing them to be a hero. Although, they'd probably help a lot more after turning.

Another thing- the letters from the government asking lovely to be a hero would stop after their turning. They'd probably be even more angry when realizing that than when the government harassed them. Probably resulting in a breakdown and them thinking theyre worthless now.

-Hero Figure head Vincent

I don't think Vinnie would get too much into action unless absolutely needed.

-Hero Adam

Adam would've been a hero but gave into his cravings when lovely came around looking for vincent. But he wouldve been pushing his hero reputation a lot, if anyone knew of him before he died for good, they would've said hes a terrible hero.

-Hero Alexis

I dont think i need to say more, she'd still be on thin ice after sam's turning, though.

#☠️ hcs #redacted headcanons #redacted damn crew #redacted shaw pack #redacted solaire clan #redacted freelancer #redacted gavin #redacted caelum #redacted lasko #redacted damien #redacted huxley #redacted vega #redacted kody #redacted david #redacted angel #redacted asher #redacted baabe #redacted sweetheart #redacted milo #redacted lovely #redacted vincent #redacted sam #redacted darlin #redacted adam #redacted alexis #redactedverse #redacted asmr #redacted audio #redacted what ifs

[jacks347]

I was relistening to Vincent when a thought occurred to me. Well, a series of thoughts.

Do you think Lovely was scared when Vincent turned them at the Inversion because for a split second it reminded them of Adam?

Do you think Lovely refuses to drink from another person because they know what it's like to be drank from until it nearly killed you?

Do you think Lovely ever has nightmares and despises what they've become because they fear they've turned into the monster that tortured them?

Do you think Lovely regrets the choice they made?

Do you think if they could go back and redo their decision that they would change it?

Do you think Vincent has these thoughts too?

#asmr roleplay #redacted audio #redacted asmr #redactedverse #redacted vincent #redacted lovely #the what ifs #i ask too many questions #many thoughts head full #i should be getting paid for this #aaaaaa

[soldier-poet-king]

could my brain NOT react to every stressful thing by suggesting we go ***?? i dont WANT to do that. i have no DESIRE OR IMPULSE TO. im just sitting here upset and the only way out is through and i dont WANT to go through either. i want to curl up and cry and my body wont even let me do that

#EAUGHHHHHH #the duality of fran #emotionally fraught family my behated. uncertainty my behated. #self doubt and what ifs my behated. #also this would be so much less of an issue if REDACTED HEALTH THING could get it's shit together and stop fuckin my hormones up #I DONT NEED OR WANT A UTERUS. BITCH. GET IT TOGETHER. #FREE TO A GOOD HOME FR

[pyrriax]

hi tumblr im pyrr pyrriax and im in my trimonthly artist arc, lord help me and all the projects that are currently sitting in my drafts while i am lured in by the siren song of drawing

#haunted ecosystem #this is not helping with how much my hands hurt on a daily basis this is why i type and dont handwrite/draw very much. #im lured in regardless and i really need to find an artform that doesnt Hurt but for now. digital art <3 #like theres a difference between my dumb doodles (quick easy not much different from regular computer usage) and actual art #but im an artist at heart i spent sooooo long being an artist and thinking i was shit at writing. that is wrong! im actually kinda good #im rambling in tags today because i have been not social (my partner is in genshin hell and my beloved is. somewhere.) #okay but on another note i reread the first. couple chapters of wtds this morning? the pacing is a little weird and the tense is fucked #but its actually a lot better than i thought it was? you can tell i was fleshing everybody out in my head and i totally forgot about how #i described the watcher [who i am STILL redacting the name of until we get there] and just. ough. pandora being very logical #and then jumping to the latest chapter and fucking sobbing because i forgot about how it went and just. pandora and his. #whatever the fuck is wrong with him. #i have gotta start recommending people read that again. its surprisingly friendly without context because of how i approached it #that fic has taught me so many things its actually a little comical. it also made me relearn how to make and write ocs so thats fun #once i finish that main fic (and i WILL i am actually planning to sign up for a thing. im finishing it i swear.) i finally get to show off #more of the world and characters ive crafted. showing backstories and what-ifs and all these oneshots ive been keeping close to my chest #for like absolutely ages because i dont want any spoilers on my tumblr #and. im finishing that fic in pseudo-memoriam of somebody who deleted their accounts everywhere. still miss you dane! #ok this has completely gone off topic ily tumblr im going back to drawing and i might make a new pfp #it'll still be lavius but it'll be fray lavius since i think about him a lot and i like his color palette.

[yugiohz]

I have to say part 6 circles back to part 1 pretty well I think but also maybe I’m just having fun in general

#didn’t expect that tbh because everyone loves to pretend part one never happened #but the whole fate and luck and whatever is nice #like what would’ve happened if dio and Jonathan weren’t forced together and vice versa #what would’ve happened if pucci and redacted were never forced apart #the what ifs of part 1 and 6 are crazy #esp with dio being the drive of both parts like ofc pucci would feel so disoriented and then out like that lmaoo

[pawsandreflect]

rly hope this thing goes well and this other thing works out idk how much more i can handle this year lmao

#diary #what if i fail [redacted] #what if [redacted] fails and we have to start over #so many what ifs #rly hoping this one thing works in my favor bc the other one can fail and i’ll be fine w it but like

[itmightneverbetherighttime]

...

#i'm lowkey glad because it seems like finally after all these years have stopped being obsessed with [redacted] #and it's great because it was already as pathetic as it could be #i mean i guess i will always care about her & wonder how she's doing and maybe the what ifs won't go away that fast #but at least i no longer worry about her existence 24/7 #the downfall is... i am obsessed with somebody else #and i am very... scared #because i'm sure that it's once again unrequited #and something tells me this heartbreak will hurt just as bad #but i'm trying to make things different from the last time i was in this situation #at least a little different #i wish it'd be easier for me to just say what i feel and act like a normal person #like... i know i have so much love to give because it overwhelms me so bad #but i'm always afraid i'll get hurt #because i won't be able to deal with it #i just want someone to love me as much as i love them #it's been enough time waiting #talking to the wall

[evertidings]

Hi bestie I am asking my fave IFs around for this question

"What is one thing the ROs 🤭 want to hear, need to hear, and dread to hear from the MC?"

— [A] Devereux

want: “i’m on your side; i’ll be with you all the way”

need: “your passion is not a burden—it’s what makes you the wonderful person you are”

dread: “you’re too much for me”

— Blane Rekner

want: “you’re not a bad person”

need: “your trauma does not define you. it’s okay to still resent what happened to you, even if it was years ago”

dread: “you’re the reason [REDACTED] left you”

— N Alves

want: “you being in Blane’s shadow is not any fault of your own”

need: “you are not and do not need to be defined by other people. who you are is enough”

dread: “the only reason you stand out is because of other people—on your own, you truly are nothing special to look at”

— K de Vries

want: “you’re never truly alone”

need: “you’re not being punished for something you did, your immortality just is”

dread: “you think you’re protecting yourself but it’s actually the opposite—people dodge a bullet by not involving themselves with you”

— Rylan Villanueva

want: “you can just be yourself with me”

need: “i’m not going to run away if you decide to take off your mask”

dread: “no one you’ve left behind misses you—i know i certainly wouldn’t”

#ask:ros #you’re trying to kill me huh

[fat-rolls-frictions]

document added to your inventory. transcript below.

CW: referenced self-harm, implied teeth horror, torture, unreality. @fiddles-ifs

(The document is marked as CONFIDENTIAL with various administration stamps and handwritten notes on the top margin. Much of the dates and serial numbers are illegible.

A ring stain from a cup is clearly visible on the bottom right corner.)

PARANORMAL INTELLIGENCE AND RESEARCH AGENCY

TRAINEE EVALUATION REPORT

Trainee's Name: Nguyen, Kim

Subject: Mission no.06 - Simulated Interrogation

Handlers: A. Itamura, V. Wallace

(Scattered throughout are fragmented phrases. They read: "who were?" "do you even care? do you" "you did not" "remember" "do you ever? di")

Addendum-120320A: Agents reported "unexpected" degree of resistance. Preliminary injuries logged. Mission proceeded without further complications.

("They have pliers.")

Overview: Trainee's previously recorded paranoia exacerbated after preparation period. Roommates reported heightened stress unrelated to anticipation of mission; effect attributed directly to trainee. Arrangements for extraction made with regards to trainee's evals and Dr. (redacted)'s suggestions.

Proceeding:

Trainee exhibited remarkable contentiousness despite several injuries, including a fractured collarbone and mild concussion. Agents instructed to secure with force given trainee's well documented volatility. Mission hook revealed. Dr. (redacted) correctly predicted that trainee would fail to respond to accusations of collaborating, or otherwise spearheading, the information leaks. Agents instructed to proceed with physical methodologies.

Stalemate achieved approx. 0500 hours after agent Itamura di ("his hands on your this pulp is not yours"). Trainee made multiple attempts to ("retaliate / retribute / requiter / illegible text"). Evidently unsuccessful (See A-120320B below). Trainee continued to redirect attention away from mission hook, oftentimes inciting, and appearing to relish retribution from agents. Previous psychological evals point to this being a product of mere belligerence. [break] ("It's the only thing you're capable of.") Nevertheless, agents pursued this lead to its completion, as is protocol.

Agent Wallace discovered healing injuries unrelated to mission at the 0619 hour mark. Injuries appear to be self-inflicted in nature, located in both inner arms. It was surmised that [break] teeth [break] match ("you didn't mean to but it happened what kind of person do this it just happened" "you" "tear into" "fuck off") unexpected emotional and psychological reactions. Agents authorized to remove part of trainee's sleeve in order to continue the interrogation.

(Overlay in the break, nearly illegible: "they pour water down your throat and it comes spilling out then he (illegible) hands teach you again the shape of your jaws you know intimately someone stupider would say-")

Incident C133-120320 took place at 0922 hours when agent Itamura prepared to [break] after several threats to [break] if trainee did not ("repent"). Neither agents anticipated the outburst. Agent Wallace remarked that [break] ("pliers")

("-bunny". The word "bunny" repeats several times after this instance in the margins.)

("sometimes you see people they do not stop even when they should even when" "metal on molars on gum on tongue" "you are horror under a pin with not dead cells taken off piece by piece a stream of un-consciousness good for nothing but self-cannibalizing desperate for something to fill your detritus a hate for something you can't name" "a you that do not" "are not")

("sometimes you see people they forget that they are people. sometimes that is for the best.")

[break]

Addendum-120320B: Itamura submitted for performance review after mission. Agent demonstrated certain lack of discipline in carrying out the mission and was influenced easily by trainee's provocations. Additional psychological eval recommended along side with physical therapy.

Incident log C133-120320: You cannot forget how bone feels between teeth.

("something hungers in the woods somewhere and it always finds you among the trees." This sentence repeats in the background, going off the margin.)

Department of Training. 21/02/(redacted)

("you had bunny teeth. you remember

someone

calling you

puppy

though.")

#greenwarden #greenwarden if #maggiedraws #technically not but its still a creative work by me so! #kim nguyen #this has been sitting in my draft forever. releasing it at a dead hour bc im restless for a probably-uncomfortable trip in 8 hours !! #this was inspired by control the game my fondness of this type of. unreal? media? gw alpha demo and also FCU discord server funsies #1/ fiddles released a PIRA training program and i kinda ran w it 2/ this is when snags used to call MC puppy hehe

[ejunkiet]

something in the orange (asher/babe)

a sweet, fluffy chaser to the ride that was october!!

redacted audios: asher/babe. rated g for goodness.

 “Babe?”

 “Mmm?” Fuck, they’re cute when they’re like this: on the edge of sleep, their cheeks flushed, nose scrunching in a wide yawn that leaves them breathless for a moment. Swiping at their cheeks, they blink up at him, and there are the beautiful eyes he loves, soft and sweet as they meet his gaze.

 A slow smile curls up their lips, and they let out a hum. “You’re back.”

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something in the orange

It’s late when Asher makes his way back to the apartment. His feet are sore, the muscles in his calves are aching from the time spent on his feet, and it takes two fumbled attempts to pull his keys out of his pocket and get them in the door.

When the door finally clicks shut behind him, he gives into the urge to lean against it. Fuck, he’s tired. Tired enough that the thoughts won’t stop coming, a whirling mess of stress and what ifs. Worries about the schedule for the next month, the next week, and how they’re gonna manage it with Milo still working part time.

His head feels like a nest of bees - filled with sharp thoughts and buzzing anxieties, niggling insecurities. That he’s not gonna be able to handle this. That David is gonna have to pick up his slack and end up pushing himself past his limits - again.

Fuck.

He needs a distraction. He needs - his mate.

Pushing away from the door, he shuffles down the hall. “Babe?”

The apartment is quiet, although there are some lights on in the living room, as well as the tv, although it’s muted. Some cryptocurrency documentary is playing, he can tell from the subtitles scrolling along the bottom of the screen.

Closing his eyes, he focuses on his core, pulling on a thread of magic that’s just enough to heighten his senses. It fills him in a rising wave, a thrumming pulse that shudders as he focuses. Mate.

A slow breath, and he can hear a steady heartbeat, strong and familiar.

There they are.

Turning the corner, he finds them on the sofa, curled up on their side, cheek pressed into the cushions. The longer strands of their hair are tangled in front of their face, swaying with the rhythm of their breaths.

“Babe?”

“Mmm?” Fuck, they’re cute when they’re like this: on the edge of sleep, their cheeks flushed, nose scrunching in a wide yawn that leaves them breathless for a moment. Swiping at their cheeks, they blink up at him, and there are the beautiful eyes he loves, soft and sweet as they meet his gaze.

A slow smile curls up their lips, and they let out a hum. “You���re back.”

And suddenly, the shittiness of the day doesn't feel as bad anymore. Not when they’re looking at him like that: soft and loving, warming him from the inside out.

God, he’s so fucking lucky.

They shift, reaching for him, and manage to knock their phone from its precarious perch on the cushions. He catches it before it falls to the floor, his reflexes faster when he’s like this, his wolf still close to the surface, the magic humming in his veins. 

The display flashes as he relocates to phone to the coffee table, and he sees a text from David's mate. BIG GUY JUST GOT BACK, ASH WILL BE WITH YOU SOON. He snorts, clicking off the screen as he snags a pillow, placing it under his knees as he scoots closer to the couch, resting his head alongside theirs on the armrest.

“You look comfy there, babe.”

They shift again, turning to face him, that sweet smile is still playing on their lips as they reach out. Their hand finds his cheek, their skin warm and soft as he nuzzles into their palm.

“Want to join me?”

Fuck. Of course he does. There's nothing more he wants right now than to wrap himself up in his mate. But still, he hesitates. He doesn’t want to ruin the moment. “Are you sure?”

They’re watching him, grey eyes soft as they take him in, flickering across his features. They see so much more than they let on, they always have, and he doesn't have anything he wants to hide. He’s tired. The last year has been… a lot. More than that.

“Come here.”

They open their arms and he climbs into them, shifting his weight until he can rest his head against their stomach, his arms wrapped around their waist.

Their fingers trail through his hair, scratching at his scalp, and he feels the last of the day's tension melt away, teased away by their talented hands.

Leaning down, they press warm lips to his forehead. “Are you hungry?”

He hums out a no, twisting until his face is pressed against their stomach. Like this, he can breathe them in, sleepy warm, that blend of sweat and skin and them that curls inside his chest, makes his wolf rumble with contentment at the scent of his mate.

“Can we just stay like this?” He presses a kiss to that little sliver of skin above their hip, soft and chaste, although the thought of more does cross his mind. “Just for a little while.”

Their hands return to his hair, teasing it back from his face until they can meet his gaze again. Their grey eyes are creased in a soft smile. “Of course.”

Reaching over, they poke at the remote until they manage to switch off the TV, slumping back into the cushions with a soft sigh. This couch is good for cuddle sessions, it was one of the main criteria they’d checked when they bought it, and they’d decked it out with plenty of blankets and cushions besides.

It’s not long after that he realises they’ve fallen asleep again, their hands tucked against his neck and chest, their body soft and relaxed underneath him. He spends a little while just listening to them breathe, the easy rhythm of their breath, the steady pace of their heart.

Home.

In the morning, he’ll be ravenously hungry and likely nursing a crick in his neck, but he can’t bring himself to regret it. He wouldn’t trade this moment for anything else.

#redacted asmr #redacted audios #ej writes redacted #redacted asher #look #these two deserve all the fluffy goodness #i love them your honour #asher/babe

[pasteloctoz]

Ok we all know Hux is either two side of the spectrum.

Large muscle boi, or big pudgy plus sized boi.

(personally i prefer the ladder)

But either way i can't stop thinking abt him being transmasc ^^

And i feel like hed be overly proud and euphoric abt it too like-

He's just walking around shirtless post top surgery proud of his scars.

#AND THEN DAMIEN HELPING HIM EXIST POST TOP SURGERY #(I feel like his moms would probably get him on T asap when he really started feeling dysphoric but lets ignore the plot hole) #redacted what ifs #redactedverse #redacted audio #redacted asmr #redacted huxley #redacted damien #ftm trans #transboi #☠️ hcs

[newandcuriousswitch]

15 questions for 15 friends:

Thank you @cynfulworld for the tag (ha! We're friends no take backs!)

We're you named after anyone?: yes, my dad has a cousin who lives waaay out in the sticks, I'm not sure why as I've never met them but I'm named after him.

When was the last time you cried?: it's been years... I'll get misty eyed at a lot of corny movies and all that but a real cry was probably a few years ago.

Do you have kids?: nope!

What sports do you play/have you played?: uhhh... I've played tennis and bowling (does bowling count, f it ESPN 8 counts)

Do you use sarcasm?: *looks at the site we're on* that's a trick question right?

What is the first thing you notice about people?: how open they are or are not, wanna tell me the life story? Go ahead! Rather just say today's been okay? That's cool too!

What's your eye color?: it used to he green but I guess they got bluer now

Scary movies or happy endings?: I'm gonna go with happy endings... but only because I like series and movie universes that actually HAVE an ending. Scary movies just... keep... sequelling lol

Any talents?: car singing, procrastination, a natural inclination to sleep days away... I can twirl a stick (don't take that out of context 😉) and can do very quick mental maths (most of the time)

Where were you born?: oh that's easy. I was born in REDACTED

What are your hobbies?: I'm a gamer all the way. YouTube, video games, aforementioned twirling, and DND!

Do you have any pets?: we have turtles! 2 red snappers

How tall are you?: 5'7"

Favorite subject in school?: history. I adored learning about the ins and outs of what happened during certain time periods, and debating all the what ifs throughout history. Plus my history teachers were pretty awesome themselves.

Dream job?: ohhh what I wouldn't give to be an author, legitimately the idea that others might be transported to another dimension in their heads based on a story I wrote... I don't know if I'd be famous but if even one person was that pleased I'd be happy

Join in and pass it on if you can 🥰

@toadallytickles @cheriepickering @prettymeredith @dirtbagswitch @hayley1992 @hiddengiggles @julestheticklishkitten666 @tickleprincesa @thedarksideofthefoxthesecond @alex-gfd @tcklfairy @beautifuldisaster069 @blackmagiclee @lady-featherquill @lilspookylee @dominantprincesshere @puppytaytay @ticklishhucow

[intertexts]

so happy u enjoy beneath the mask... it means so much to me thst the song is leblanc's theme aaaaggggqgdfwhd (redacted akc+ akiren+shuakeism screams) i think.U also said no more what ifs was one of ur fav game themes at one point.Im so Normal abt ur tastes Ohhhmygof (LOUDER REDACTED SCREAMIGN(

Really Fucking Curious for your reaction to.Our Light. And the translations of the lyrics.... i am Tje Normalest ever ab that song Yep Yes Haha ha aa a

i enjoy it so fucking much dude oh my god... it's so. ahh. it's so important that it's leblanc's theme!!!! & also it's so important to me (cityguy) that it's the broader tokyo-at-night theme... it's such a warm piece of music it's so comforting despite the fucking lyrics. something really compelling 2 me about the instrumental version being the daytime theme + this being the night theme, u know? something about truths that can only come out at home in the dark or something.

& like. no more what ifs mirrors beneath the mask so heavily!!!!!! i'm dogshit at music theory i never have the patience for it but the instrumentation w/ the mellow synth & bass + lyn's vocal delivery is so so obviously the same for the both of them. the little synth improv riffs. not even fucking getting into the lyric parallels. (where have you been? / people come and they go... i'm a shapeshifter-- what else should i be? / i never really doubted myself, but tonight's got me thinking about it all... will it unleash me? burning down the walls? / someone once said burn my dread, babe, etc etc etc) ouuhhghgh.h shuake........ akechi my fucking miserable little guy. if i think about no more what ifs for too long my brain starts to tremble & explode!!!!!

& EYES EMOJI. ive been trying very hard to avoid listening 2 any of the ost that i haven't encountered in-game so far.. that counts as a spoiler 2 me!! but im VERY excited 2 here this one whenever it comes up... im sure i will get back 2 u ab it hsfhdgdfkgkf

#i would literally LOVE 2 here more of ur ost thoughts literally any fucking time even if theyrejust incoherent screaming.. #its SO GOOD. its so. aghg.h ahh!! fuck!!!! 🫠 #ky tag! #p5 lb

[xentari94]

Okay so I’m going to put in my 2 cents on the matter of the mwiii ending. I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t write some semblance of a theory post. Maybe I’m in denial. If so I don’t. fucking. care. Soap may not be my personal comfort character in the same sense like he is to so many others, but finding out about the campaign today has left me depressed as fuck over this ngl. I love Simon and Johnny so much 💀 🧼 ❤️ And quite frankly this was some steaming FUCKING bullshittery that I will never accept. So… without further a-due

SPOILERS!!!!

SPOILERS!!!!

SPOILERS!!!!

SPOILERS!!!!

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Now I haven’t watched all of the campaign yet, so I can’t get a solid feel of how rushed it is like people are saying. I started watching the first mission before I got distracted with the comment section on YouTube, and that’s when I found out what happens and the whole damn thing snowballed from there. Might go back and watch it later for the boys sake mainly, and to gather more accurate information. But I’ve seen enough to form a theory that Soap may not actually be dead.

Again… I know I’m probably just denial typing but if it helps then it helps ya know? And I like to put a bit of faith behind these, else there would be no point in making them.

So to start, we see Soap get shot and fall but to me personally our view of him was never close enough to determine if he was actually breathing or not. Man just got shot twice, at least once critical, any breathing gonna be labored as fuck I’d take it. Our only thing to go by is Price saying k.i.a out loud which- later I thought- Makarov may have been injured and ran, but he could still have men in the area watching the boys, reporting back to him anything that could have occurred after his bitchass self made his little bitchass exit. Soap could still have been alive, but in the moment the need to announce aloud that Makarov did him in was needed to keep his true status unknown to any potential unnecessary ears or planted bugs to help keep Soap that way until the rest of the boys could get him to medical.

The whole scene with Laswell redacting reports? At least I’m assuming that’s what that was, keeping information about the mission secure because the enemy is still out there. I tried reading it as it went, I’ll have to go back later and really pay attention to what was typed before it was marked out. Labeling Soap k.i.a again as possible cover up to keep him safe.

The ashes scene, while heart wrenching, is such an odd thing to jump to imo. Did Soap not have a family waiting for him? Never known otherwise unless I missed something along the way. I mean being realistic here the bodies of soldiers are usually sent back to the families if able. And Soap was still intact. So the team scattering ashes really doesn’t make sense if you really think about it, if Soap was actually dead. Just automatically cremating him would be cruel. Yes Soap was a part of their team family … but not letting a possible blood family get their son back… unless there was a time skip and they were allowed some of Soaps ashes… idk.

On the other hand perhaps a possible family couldn’t be notified of their son’s condition due to their safety potentially being in jeopardy. Now there is the matter of Soaps dog tags of course, who has those? Soaps family? Or maybe Ghost? I didn’t see them nor hear mention of them so it’s still too soon to say what happened with them. And if the boys needed a way to make soaps death look real. Needed to really send it and make it seem untraceable well… tossing what looks to be ashes would be the best choice. While Soap is kept hidden away under constant surveillance as he hopefully recovers. Makarov could have eyes always on them. I wouldn’t doubt that he did.

Just too many plotholes. Too many what ifs. Too soon to tell. Am I mad? Upset? Pissed? You betcha ass I am. I let my hopes get too high in believing the 141 would get some strong plot armor this go around. Ghost survived, can you blame me? A part of me just refuses to accept and believe Soap is gone. That my favorite duo is done. Big chance I’m wrong I know. But always a chance I could be right. A chance I’m willing to take.

#cod #call of duty #cod mwiii #call of duty modern warfare iii #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #spoilers #cod mwiii spoilers #cod spoilers #I WILL KEEP MY HOPES ALIGHT 😭😭😭💀🧼❤️

[soup-scope]

on todays episode of “rays redacted theories that make no sense and can never be canon”

what if instead of Fred turning Bright, it was Quinn

ok HEAR ME OUT the way that fred, literally two seconds after being turned managed to draw enough strength to turn Bright WITHOUT DYING??

like when sam used all his healing on Asher so he couldn’t use it on lovely/turn lovely without dying

cause why in the hell WOULD quinn, someone who’s supposedly so smart, linger in Solaire Clan territory (he isn’t apart of the clan from what I know) just to attack two unempowered humans??

i know darlin and sam ‘confirmed’ that quinn isn’t the type to want someone attached to him like that. remember some vamps want their own little legion of people who can’t lie to them and have to listen to their every command.

and who is better than someone like bright? they’d be like the perfect choice for quinn. he seems to like their type (cough cough darlin cough cough)

they’re closed off from everyone they know. even putting such high walls up around their supposed closest friend. they LEFT fred behind when they were running from Quinn. they’re shut off, rash, and becoming increasingly isolated. exactly what quinn preys on

i know this ‘theory’ makes absolutely zero sense but i’m just thinking of the ‘what ifs’ if bright had a more substantial role in the story again 💔💔

#because erik won’t continue their story this is now canon to me #i just think it would help erase that weird power dynamic between fred and bright as maker and progeny #it isn’t as rough when it’s vincent and lovely cause they were already partners when lovely was turned #and not to mention vincent got william to take away his ability to lie to them or invoke them so that they’re on equal footing #that weird power dynamic between fred and bright def does not help thier relationship at all 😭😭 #redacted asmr #redacted audio #asmr boyfriend #boyfriend asmr #redactedverse #redacted darlin #redacted sam #redacted tank #asmr rp #redacted bright eyes #redacted bright #redacted quinn #redacted frederick #redacted fred #i also just want more quinn #froths #still can’t get over quinn calling bright ‘little mouse’ #sedate me i beg

[system-of-a-feather]

My writing partner and childhood best friend, during a real talk hours, asked me: "I scare me tho. You're not scared. Why? Do you trust yourself?" following a kinda DID kinda whole self chatter

And I was thinking about it today this morning going to work. And an hour or two of thinking about it as a whole (Fei)

It both refers to "me and my parts" both as a system and as a single person in a more IFS manner

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"Thinking about this while doing work and driving this morning some

And honestly, its because I think I deserve to be trusted, given patience, and unconditional love even when I am being the most disruptive shit and acting out because I've already been given too much distrust, abandonment and conditional love in my life to be giving that to myself

I deeply want to be better than every adult has been to me and I want to give myself the warmth I never got

And removing all the details of DID and sitting with myself as a whole, thats what I feel

I dont need a reason to trust myself other than that I deserve to be given a real unconditional chance by someone to be loved and supported, and even if I've tried to sabotage and ruin my own life, I trust that somewhere even in that version of me, there was just someone trying to live, be happy, feel safe, and be loved

Even if I dont look like I need it.

Even if Id cackle at death and enjoy being isolated and on top

Even the most sadistic asshole parts of me could use some unconditional love, support and trust towards being happy

Id put a blindfold on and let them walk me into a volcano cause Id rather die being wrong about unconditionally loving and supporting myself than to abandon myself and force myself to appear in a specific way to be loved like almost everyone else in my life did

I dont know all of my parts, I have / had so many dissociated parts I couldnt control that I couldnt realistically count then

But ALL of them, I trust and think deserve the world

Because theyve all been through enough because theyre all me

And I deserve the world and Ive been through enough

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Followed by a redacted part I wrote for him and about him, but a thing I felt was worth sharing to the general public

"You deserve a chance to live a life not doomed by the plot and you deserve to have that trust and support [to change the narrative you've been given]"

#alter: riku #alter: fei #recovery #ifs #internal family systems #actuallydid #dissociative identity disorder #cptsd #ptsd #trauma recovery #doomed by the narrative #fav #save