#running and thinking and thirsting

[captainstarsplitter]

Idiocy of the day:

Giving my number out (at work!) to an unbearably smoooooth mid-thirties guy that wore his ballcap backwards. I have no standards and no shame, but I also somehow feel vindicated (because I have no standards and no shame). Dude was a complete broski and the exact opposite of what I want. He also has a child, an aspect which I find even harder to navigate as of right now, both logistically and emotionally. Six hours later I can’t even justify my actions. He texted like five minutes after meeting to introduce himself at least. I’ll probably leave him on read after his upcoming work trip.

I’m still smitten with the same guy I’ve been smitten with for a while. I wish he would ask for my number, but he also knows what a dumpster fire my life is right now.

Thank God tomorrow is Friday.

#let me just make all of this a liiiiiitle more complicated #running and thinking and thirsting #i am awful

[daz4i]

sometimes i fear i am filled with too much rage but then i go online and see. people so dedicated to their anger it is practically their entire existence. are you not tired? do you not feel consumed by it? it's okay to let go. your passion can still be expressed through other feelings as well. flames of emotion do not always have to burn you to ashes. please rest a bit and let them just pleasantly warm you

#i think. people focus too much on their anger at other people for being wrong #rather than love to the people being wronged #alternatively; it is in the place of self preservation. a defense mechanism from the unfairness of life #but you can't run on rage alone. you will burn yourself out #and actively adding fuel to the fire by looking for things that'll make you angrier... aren't you exhausted yet? #if it's a thirst for justice you seek you should still take breaks here and there just to exist #or else what will be the point of achieving it. yknow? #...idk if I'm being coherent i am very tired #and as you can see. failing to suppress the 19th century poet

[seagull-scribbles]

By unpopular demand, 💕 Val

#hazbin hotel #Valentino #the vees #here he be #Valentino in my own style #I didn’t want to draw his wings as a coat because he wouldn’t look much different #and then I decided naked was more on brand ahaha #listen he is a moth AND he is from the seventies he SHOULD have atleast some body hair #I shaded him so much you can’t even see everything but I had so so so much fun with this #I’m embarrassed to say how long I spent on it when he isn’t even my favourite bee #but I do actually like him he’s a great villain #and I love that he genuinely believes everyone just loves him he’s so deluxe #he’s like velveteen and fox’s pet cat but he also runs the house ahahahaha #anyway here he is #I haven’t marked it as mature because he kindly censored himself #what a good boy…. #don’t…. #don’t think into the smoke and drool too much…. #can’t believe this turned into a bit of a thirst trap but also I can #he kindly whispered in my ear to give him some piercings

[hussyknee]

Okay who the fuck is the Al Qassam Brigade's media unit?? All their videos go harder than a freight train. Hollywood couldn't afford them.

#Idk whether I've just lost the capacity to be horrified by seeing people murdered by the IOF #but that ''time is running out'' video really fucks #and that ''you arrived too late'' tunnel video #and the trailer thingy where you keep zooming into drawings of Hamas clashing w the IOF #and that training montage video that was just a fully clothed thirst trap #i'm an extremely impressionable girl you can't just show me ripped men training to kill baby murderers and expect me to be normal about it #they really do understand the morale boost of watching the IOF get blown up #i think this is the feeling Inglorious Bastards wanted to evoke #except they couldn't because it was just white Americans fapping to their own sadism #glory to the resistance #knee of huss #free palestine #al qassam brigades

[sleepynegress]

Not me just remembering that Charlie Cox was on the Thirst Aid Kit, way back in 2018, which means he knows about fandom imaginings and was very cool about the female gaze of desire in media...

BONUS: in-studio footage from TikTok. https://www.tiktok.com/@nici.murdock/video/7249798473107705115

#...does he talk to his friends??? #I really think many celebs play ignorant #anyway have your dose of serotonin for your sunday #i miss this podcast so much #the thirst aid kit #just learned almost all the original daredevil cast is returning and I'm in full ted lasso celebratory running man mode #charlie cox #a sweetheart #every actor who appeared on this show is a real one #when celebrity and fandom intersect #daredevil #Youtube

[non-un-topo]

Kind of obsessed with this nickname actually

#context: chapter 2 of my wip summerwind. 8 or 9 year old nicolo unwillingly receives a prophecy from a leper and it's rather terrifying #the man tells him he will 'fly on red wings for Christ's love' #also this: #'The streets will run rivers of blood and in it you will be baptized anew. Will you feel Christ’s love then boy? I should think not...' #i COULD just share the whole snippet but i'm insecure lol. and it's 700 words. i'll share the whole scene if ppl want but i'm shy #how does the old leper know all of this? idk it's fiction man. he can See it in his Eyes #also the thing about prophecies is that sometimes words like these stick with you for life - #- and your actions after hearing them begin to manifest that kind of future. or something. #yusuf does not get a creepy fortune teller. but he DOES develop a thirst for justice in this chapter #and begins to realize things about the world around him. about injustice and prejudice and expectation. #anyway i feel like i plagiarized 'hell bird'??? but i like it so it's mine now #also i love just sharing awful screenshots of my documents lol i don't know why i do this

[emblazons]

I want anyone who has ever taken the Netflix social media accounts as even a remotely accurate representation of the content of a film/show (or as having even a modicum of reflection of the intention of the creator) to see what they just posted as promo for May December given the content of the film—and then never use them as a reason for anything, plot or ship, happening in any canon ever again. I’m so serious lmao

#thirst traps of Charles Melton (who plays a man married to someone who groomed him at 13 in this)? more likely than u think #I’ve told people a million mf times whatever social media manager runs those accounts has never ONCE paid attention to the media and yet #people still having ‘why the Netflix acct promo means byler endgame’ posts like JSLLSJSJSND #‘we won’ ‘we lost’ girl you got PLAYED #everyone who believes these accounts mean anything for the things they promo has lost the plot. 200% #but they’ll still say they were lied to because they didn’t take the warnings seriously LMAO #it’s what happened to the one space transformers show kids too so. it’s not new. but GOD #anyway. eff whoever runs those socials for this post especially cause…wtf #the me tag

[epicdogymoment]

dream log: movie theater. and hachi was there.

#leologisms #sprinting to record this down before i forget it forever. #in the desert or some otherwise hot sandy place. arrive at a theater. everyone goes in. i stumble back outside for water because i know #theres a dispenser outside. i am delirious with thirst and getting more and more delirious. a person outside at the dispenser tells me that #theres no water there (because they have to run the air con too high? i dont remember.) in my delirium i accidentally imply that im related #in some way to hachi (who is specifically called hachi in this dream) the person takes me into the theater and calls for him. because hes #there. in the theater. hes sitting near the back and he waves. i realise my mistake and walk up to sit close to but not next to him (hes #with a group and near to the group i was originally with.) the movie starts. its an animated something or other. i think hachi was there #because he was in the movie somehow? i woke up before finding out what happened next

[aezyrraeshh]

; OC AS A LOVE LANGUAGE

tagged by @indorilnerevarine to take this quiz for some of my ocs; thank you so much for the tag! <33 tagging @arklay @aartyom @risingsh0t @steelport @devilbrakers @liurnia @florbelles @shadowglens @calenhads @aelyosos @jillvalcntines @shepardgf @swordcoasts @cultistbase @brujah @girlbosselrond @camelliagwerm @reaperkiller @faarkas @veisshaupt @celticwoman & whoever else wants to do this!

; a knife called grief

You have left your house, you have left those people behind, but what are you going to do about the memories which have taken root in you? You can run but not without them. You want someone to sit with you on this cool marble floor while the sun burns everything. You want them to cut your rotten heart and theirs too. You want to sit with it in front of you, let them see you with all your flaws, which haven’t been your fault but you have been made to believe so, and you want them to love you anyways. Because you know you’d do that for them.

; an undoing influence

Can someone tell you what to do? You have been carrying so much love within you for so long it is starting to turn into anger (why does it matter, all you see is red anyways) and you have been dragging this body through each day and every night you are split open on your bed and it is so so so lonely. If someone were to walk in while you were on your bed that way and they stitched you back in a new way, lining the seams with their love and kisses, you’d probably find this dreary world a little more bearable. You want someone to turn you over and over until you look in the mirror and see yourself looking back at yourself with a gentleness which has been lacking in you since forever.

; violent devotion

Everyone seems to think you are faithless, but the thing is you haven’t yet found someone who will bring you to your knees and make you raise your head in reverence. This world has stopped bringing you joy, you want more of the divine. You want to dedicate your entire existence to someone; you want to make them realise they are not something terrible, make them see just how much beauty they are bringing to this world. You want to be the only one for them, the only one they have chosen to love. There’s a god shaped pit inside of you and only they can fit in it. And what if they choose to walk away? Didn’t I say this was violent devotion?

#ty again for the tag !! #THESE OH MY GOD THESES HIT SO HARD I AM #''you have left your house you have left those people behind but what are you going to do about the memories which have taken root in you'' #FOR LUNA I AM SCREAMING BC HER FAMILY? AND JOSIE? SHE RUNS AWAY FROM HER EMOTIONS BUT SHE STILL REMEMBERS THE GOOD TIMES EVEN IF SHE WISHES #SHE DIDNT #she will always remember the good and the bad but she wishes so badly that she could forget and be stronger than this #she is in a grip of longing and she cant escape AAAAAAAAAA #she likes to think she longs only for power but there is a thirst for connection too screaming and crying #and josie............................. i am dead #her result hits esp hard considering luna left her after josie had confessed and it's like.... her feelings drove away the person she loves #and even if she is angry at luna she is also angry at herself bc she should have known better than this #iwish someone was there for her to comfort her that it was not her fault oh my god #the anger.... screaming and crying x2 #ALSO I HAVE THE WEIRDEST WAY OF INTRODUCING OCS BUT MEET ELIAN #not going to say a lot abt him bc mystery lmao but *violent* devotion fits them all too well #too too well #anyways i am going to think abt these for the rrest of the day now #♡: tag games

[ilkkawhat]

3.07 Fight Night

#csiedit #csi cbs #nick stokes #george eads #george eads thirst club #mk.op #mk.gifs #mk.edit #csi 3x07 #i think i've accepted that i'm not going to have any fic finished for monday #though i know it doesn't really matter in the long run but i was just idk. #selfishly hoping that i could get something done #i think i made a mistake keeping track of my word count last year #because i hadn't even gotten a quarter of the way to that number this year when i stopped keeping track #there were days there were weeks i'm sure there was a few months i didn't write #and it just...hurts

[satansfavoritestripper]

👏🏻

#my first post to crack 1000 notes in about 4 years was a shit post 🥹 #i was really worried it was going to be a thirst trap 😅 #thanks guys i can keep deluding myself into thinking i run a meme blog now #sfs #text post

[bigthingsforeverintheworks]

Minecraft feels like it's missing something and i'm pretty sure it isn't "add a bunch of new items"

#i do think jay exci's vid got me thinking about a lot of it like beds and food #but also i just don't feel super extrinsically motivated though like it's probably better to seperate sandbox & adventure minecraft #also like i want to play on servers with my friends but i don't know what to do #and like a lot of things are kind of broken like elytras (particularly with mending) #like you're always going to run out of things to do #also like you can't add things without adding items #but like if you have food with seasons or thirst just ... why? #probably some just like “this feels different and is bad” #also play with graves it's a based datapack

[roachmattea]

is it weird if i say matt looks like he smells good

#thats my honest reaction #no. i dont think thats weird #talia theres a whole tiktok subculture devoted to matt thirst edits #it was going during his og run #idk if it still is. probably not #talia tag #ask

[todayisafridaynight]

when aoki ryo gets a tiktok account to appeal to the younger generation and get higher approval ratings, what kinds of videos do you think his pr team would post?

i cant answer this ask seriously cause all i thought about was hillary clinton going 'im just chillin in cedar rapids'

#snap chats #HELP I JUST REMEMEBRED BESTIE AND I WERE JOKING ABOUT BLEACH JAPAN RUNNING THE CRINGIEST TOK EVER #aoki's screaming from his office but he cant do anything about it #who's making fancams of the governor #onea them bitches watching all of aoki's tv appearances and making official fancams idc #my god these fuckin noodles are so good hang o i have to interrupt this ramble #ugh anyway what the fuck was i talking about #aoki's cringe ass tiktoks #i want to live in a reality where tiktok exists in the 90's just so soemone can unearth aoki's cringe thirst traps #but back on topic uhhh i think theyd just post like. funny interview moments or moments that make him likeable #yk the usual

[blujayonthewing]

man, posts like this make me feel so fucking weird. like, thanks for the shoutout, I guess, but people just Have Tastes, and no amount of moralizing fingerwagging is going to change the fact that much fewer people's tastes will be inclined toward bodies that look like mine. Beauty and appeal are subjective but it's fucking weird to pretend they don't exist. Like, I dunno man, it sucks that I'm not as pretty as other people! It does! But it's still just a thing that is true and that's fine! I want people who give me attention to do so because they actually fucking mean it, not because someone scolded them for not having morally correct enough tastes in women on tumblr dot com

#'it SUCKS to see women whose features are statistically more likely to appeal to others getting the most attention' yep sure does!!! #but like!!! of course they are!!! I don't know what to fucking tell you!!! #I don't actually want anyone's obligatory pity thirst but maybe that's just me lmao!!!!! #like I dunno man it's a complicated thing because broad cultural ideals about beauty are shaped by a lot of different influences #and it's not fair and it's not right and I'm sure it's at least some part of why people who look like me generally aren't seen as beautiful #but man I dunno I don't see how getting mad at the people who have been effected by those overehelming cultural forces helps anything #people are gonna like what they like and mostly it's probably not gonna be a tall fat woman with a flat chest #do you run YOUR libido through a diversity checklist or is it just something you feel instrinsically? #anyway. actually been having a lot of feelings about not being beautiful lately lmao #and 'it's wrong for people who don't think you are to not at least pretend otherwise 😤' isn't like. making me feel better. #no one's looking at your pics rubbing their hands together going 'I think I'm gonna withhold attention to make this fat girl suffer >:)' #SORRY!!! I DON'T WANNA GUILT PEOPLE INTO LOVING ME SORRY!!!! #about me

[yioh]

struggling to enjoy jjk now that nobara and nanami are nowhere to be seen🥲

#i didn’t realise how amusing i found nobara until she disappeared😭 #like even though i don’t rly agree with her morals she’s just so profoundly interesting to me #i love seeing her interact with other characters and how she adores and admires some but LOATHS others #also just . her energy is like wild fire #it brings such a balance to the chillness and calmness of megumi and yuuji #like . it feels like there’s a massive gaping hole with nobara’s absence #it’s . low-key boring 😭 #they kinda brought in yuuta as nobara’s substitute and ehhh #tbh i’m so surprised that yuuta is so well loved lmaoo like i think he’s a chill guy but i’m ?? not that interested in him ???? #he’s just … there …….. #nobara was much more emotionally involved i think and i think that made me find her much more intriguing #same as nanami #nanami was SO emotionally involved #every action of his rooted from his current strong moral compass and personality and his motive was so clear to me #in fact nanami and nobara’s motives interest and intrigue me a lot #whereas for a lot of other characters … i just don’t find there motives as interesting #i think yuuta in vol 1 was enough imo because his back story and how he related love to curses beautifully paralleled the running theme in #the story #but now it’s just like …. why u here bro fjdhdjbd give me nobara back 😭 #also i think i’m sick of seeing everyone thirst after yuuta #also this is petty and stupid but i see yuuta/maki as a more popular ship than nobamaki and that makes me smad #through nobamaki content i could see more of my chaotic girl but 🥲🥲🥲 don’t even see that anymore #i meant vol 0 earlier*