#she really does look exhausted

[beanghostprincess]

Sanji has arachnophobia but like. The type of arachnophobia that makes you have panic attacks even if you only see a little, tiny spider around you. And I just know Usopp would love to have a pet spider. They go to an island and Usopp finds a hurt spider and takes care of it because of course he would, and decides to keep it because of course he would.

So, uh, Sanji doesn't like his boyfriend's pet. It's not like he's going to tell him, because what would he say to him? Sanji hasn't told him his fear of spiders is that bad (he definitely knows, though). And he doesn't want to get in between Usopp's excitement of keeping her. So the spider stays and at least Usopp is aware that Sanji doesn't like her, so he doesn't let her go close to him (she's very polite so it's okay).

But Usopp loves having her around. On his shoulder, his head, his hands-- The guy brings her with him everywhere. And the little thing is smart and somehow seems to understand what Usopp says. They're happy. It's cute. Luffy absolutely loves her. Robin is literally thrilled to study her behavior. And Sanji can't even look at her because he will start hyperventilating the second he notices her.

He'd try to get over his fear of her because Usopp wants them to get along but he won't force it on Sanji. Sanji just knows he wants them to be friends. The spider lives in Usopp's terrarium, which he keeps in his workshop, and so Sanji goes there without telling his boyfriend.

And he tries. He really, really tries. He's shaking when he sees her there, even if she's inside the terrarium. He's barely able to breathe when he tries to get her out of there. Again and again repeating the words Usopp constantly tells him "She's more afraid of you than you are of her" (which is bullshit, in Sanji's opinion) and "She only wants to be your friend! She likes you because I like you" (something extremely romantic but Sanji's brain doesn't process it that way).

He's about to call it a day and try to calm himself down before he actually stops breathing for good. But. You know. The terrarium is on the edge of the table that's already full of Usopp's stuff and the tablecloth is long and- And the terrarium falls and breaks and the spider ends on Sanji's foot-

He doesn't want to do it and it happens in instinct and regrets it immediately, but he kicks the spider. He doesn't know where she lands and he doesn't react immediately to it because he's too focused on trying to learn how to breathe again. He sits on the floor around broken glass and dirt and doesn't realize what he's done until he starts looking for her again. It's not even because of Usopp anymore. She's just a spider. She hasn't done anything but... Existing. She shouldn't be blamed for that. Even if Sanji is afraid of her.

Sanji looks around for her without getting up and finds her alive and well and crawling around avoiding the glass, but also trying to stay away from Sanji as much as possible. That breaks his heart because he might not know what she thinks the way Usopp does, but he knows when someone is scared.

At least she's okay. She's alright. That's a relief.

"I'm sorry, I-" He feels a bit stupid talking to her like this, but he knows she gets it. He hopes she does. "It's not you. You're- He loves you, okay? You're a good girl. I just- I just can't."

He feels his chest tightening when she approaches him ever so slowly, but he knows she won't do anything. His heart doesn't share the same sentiment, but he quiets it down. She looks almost apologetically as if she was the one reassuring Sanji and not the other way around. "It must be tiring." He holds his legs close to his chest to make space for her to walk next to his feet. He feels like he's about to pass out, but she's respectful. And nice. And kind of cute, even. And she's Usopp's. Sanji thinks she tilts her little head confusedly. Thinks, because he isn't quite sure if they do that. "It sucks, right? People being afraid of you all the time. I- I can't say I'm not scared but- But you haven't done anything wrong, little one."

She stays there and doesn't move much for a few seconds, until she ends up crawling up and resting on top of Sanji's shoe. The same way she does when she spends her time on Usopp's shoulder. Sanji isn't that afraid anymore. He's overwhelmed and exhausted and really, really anxious, but he trusts her. Somehow.

Sanji looks around the room, his heart clenching with blame. "I'm sorry- For your home. I'll build you a new one. Well. Not- Not me. I don't know how to. Usopp will. Shit, he'll hate me after this..." But before he can start dwelling on it, the spider moves a little on his leg. And It isn't as bad as he thought. If she's going to murder him in his sleep it's a bit deserved after all. But she won't. He hopes she won't. "You know, you're kind of cute." She tries to crawl up to his knee, but it makes him jump a little. "Don't- Not really ready for, like, upper body touching. Please?" And somehow, she listens and goes back to her position. "Damn, you can understand what I say, can you? Smart girl."

And she doesn't say anything, but Sanji takes it as a yes. Both because he likes talking to her and also because he doesn't want to feel so damn stupid.

A few hours later, Usopp goes back to his workshop and finds Sanji asleep on the floor, lucky he didn't touch any shards of glass, and the spider rests on his foot happily. Or at least it looks like that for Usopp.

He'll ask what happened later, for now, it's time to clean the mess without waking up his boyfriend. He's been brave enough for a day.

#i mean not really CANON but this is canon #i've talked about this before i know idc #i saw a spider today i thought about this #and also i have arachnophobia so sanji does too #'spiders can't be happy or empathetic to human-' i do not care she's my friend now #she loves her dads that's sanuso's child #please imagine a cute little cartoony spider #cutest thing ever. sanji makes her food for spiders with. idk. whatever spiders eat #honestly i know nothing about these little bastards i'm too afraid to look for info if i see a picture i'll start sobbing uncontrollably #sanji falls asleep talking to her bc being afraid and crying is exhausting #she can't sleep but she's there supporting protecting him yay #one piece #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso

[mayasaura]

I see a lot of meta talking about how the John Verses are John telling the story of the leadup to the apocalypse with the most sympathetic biased self-justifying gloss to make it sound like nothing was his fault, and I guess that's why so many readings go for a hardline worst-faith interpretation of them, but.... I don't really see it.

When he tells about how he murdered everyone who had a gun, he could have played up the self-defense angle. He could have claimed he was scared, and he did it to protect everyone. He could have emphasized that he was killing cops, instead of emphasizing the civilians. He could have stuck with the story he told at the time, that he freaked out and made a mistake and hadn't meant to kill them all. He doesn't. He admits to mass murder, and he admits to having done it because he was angry. And he admits to still not regretting it one bit.

The story John tells just doesn't paint him in the best possible light. He does include all of the justifications he used at the time, he does explain why on earth any of this ever seemed like a good idea to anyone, and he does want to be understood, but he doesn't really try to sell it as having been right.

I really don't see the verse chapters as being John's justification. They're his confession. That's why they feel so good to condemn.

#the locked tomb #emperor john gaius #ntn spoilers #nona the ninth #he isn't even really looking for absolution #whenever Harrow/Alecto says she still loves him he HATES it #the last time he says there can be no forgiveness Harrow asks him for whom #and he doesn't answer #he knows exactly what he is #amd whether there can be forgiveness or not does remain to be seen #just feeling like shit about it does jackshit #he hasn't done a goddamn thing in his life to try to make up for or to even stop ACTIVELY CAUSING harm #amd that's where the real challenge lies #but it's exhausting to me to see him engaged with as a Symbol Of Evil rather than as a human being #he was a person and he got very very very angry for aot of very good reasons and some not so good ones #this is the big boy all grown up version of the scene where Gideon strangled Harrow to the brink of death #the part where I hurt you #and how do you come back from that? #john has decided that you can't #you can't come back you can only double down #and it just doesnt feel right to agree with him on that

[gregoftom]

scenes that make you go hmmm

#tomgreg #okokokokok before i go abso nuts. what is this like. what is it. #shiv is trying to seem coy saying ah i hear you and greg are going around... is he your WINGMAN *eyebrow raise* #shiv is almost straight up asking tom if he's fucking greg like i'm sorry but she is. #and tom says exhaustedly we sometimes grab a drink shiv #can i just. like i really want to be normal about this but this conversation is so fucking LACED with side piece vibes. #bc tom is kinda cagey and then he says well we agreed we could have a look around while we had a think right? #after she talks about dating. #which. is just. sus as all hell. #idkkkkkk idk god i'm trying so hard to be normal about this but how can i be when it sounds like she's asking him if he's fucking greg. #WE SOMETIMES GRAB A DRINK. what the fuck does that even mean tom. since when did you get drinks with greg. #that sounds so pedestrian for you. you would take him to fancy rich ass restaurants and all that shit. but a drink? #oldest reasoning in the book for not saying yall are fucking like i really am sorry but come tf on. #when will shiv straight up ask are you and greg fucking? #and when will tom exhaustively answer so what if we were #just the way he answers is so.... #so if he's not your wingman what is he tom??? #much to think about

[softquietsteadylove]

For the bodyguard AU:

A crazy Fan attacks Thena with a knife on stage. Luckily Gil is there to protect her👀

The crowd was roaring with enthusiasm for her performance. She was coming off the high of a few straight shows that had gone well. The audience was feeling excited, and it had even spread to Thena, penetrating her pessimistic shell.

Thena waved to them as they applauded her efforts. She swallowed, feeling the fatigue in her vocal cords after the full set she had performed. Nothing like a full concert, but evident none the less. She backed up from the microphone.

"Athena! Athena, you're my goddess!"

Gil looked out from backstage, trying to find where the voice had come from.

Thena also scanned the crowd, but couldn't find anyone who might have been able to be heard so above and beyond everyone else. She tried not to let it show on her face.

"Athena, I love you!"

She looked closer to the front, wondering who possessed that voice. It was male, deep, rough. Everyone close to the barricades seemed to be younger fans jumping and waving.

"Athena, be mine!"

Her chest rose and fell more quickly. This was becoming more of a situation by the second, but she couldn't pinpoint the source. She took a few more steps back, her hand subconsciously reaching behind her for a comforting presence.

Gil emerged from backstage to meet her halfway. Usually his code of conduct - per the label's insistence - was to be present but not seen. But this was an exception, "come on."

"I said you're mine, you bitch!"

Gil pulled Thena behind him, holding out his arms and making his surface area replace Thena's tiny frame behind him. He searched the crowd for himself, with eyes trained to detect problems like this.

Security dove for the man, but he must have had training in something. Because all they did was provide him with a staircase of bodies he could use to launch himself onto the stage.

"Athena!"

Gil's eyes focused in on the knife in his hand. There were worse weapons to face, but the best one to disarm was none. He held out his hand, "put it down!"

The assailant charged at them, fuelled by either delusion or a more powerful, more tangible substance. He came in swinging, "she's mine!"

Thena curled up behind Gil, not able to do much else in the given situation.

Gil moved only as close as needed to grab the assailant's hands by the wrists. So long as he could overpower him, he could keep the threat minimal. "Don't even think about it!"

Gil was stronger than the freak jumping impossible distances up onto the stage. He raised their hands above their heads, not leaving much room to get stabbed in the crosshairs. "Let it go!"

Bodies in yellow and black polo shirts came rushing out; better late than never, at least. The venue security rushed the assailant, enough of them piling on the threat that it didn't matter what was in his system, he went down hard.

The knife clattered away across the stage. The crowd screamed.

Gil didn't wait to see what would become of the animal, or deliver any last words. He turned around, pulling Thena into his arms and rushing her off stage, "come on."

Thena clung to him.

"Move, move, out of the way!" Gil barked at anyone who so much as came near them. This was his job, this was his protectee, his client: this was Thena. "Make some room!"

He led them straight through the backstage and out of the building. He wasn't making any stops in any dressing rooms, Kingo would bring them anything they had left behind. His priority now was getting Thena alone and safe with him.

She followed him silently, clinging to him.

Gil held his jacket up and in front of her face as they made their way to the car waiting for them. As always, no matter how they tried, there were still fans clambering to get a glimpse of the Goddess of War in her human form. "Back up!"

Thena climbed into the SUV, immediately sliding over in the backseat so Gil could slide in after her, no need to go around to the other door. He jumped in, nearly cracking his head on the frame in his haste. He slammed it closed and leaned forward, "drive!"

The ride service didn't ask questions.

Gil put the divider up immediately, looking over at Thena, "hey."

"I'm okay," she exhaled, with only some trembling in it. She pushed her hair out of her face.

"Thena," he repeated, moving until their legs were squished together on the hard and uncomfortable leather seats. "Look at me."

"I'm okay, she repeated before he held her cheeks, guiding her gently to meet his eyes. Her face crumbled.

"I'm sorry," he whispered, pulling her into his shoulder as he rubbed her back. No matter how expected or calculated a risk it was, it was still someone threatening her safety and life. He never blamed her for feeling rattled by the actions of those obsessed with her persona.

Thena shook her head against him, still pressing her eyes into his suit jacket. She was dismissing herself.

"Hey, no one would blame you," he said gently, holding the trembling songstress. "He came at you with a knife, Thena. It never should have happened."

She let out a breath, even more shuddery than the last. "You shouldn't have to keep doing this."

Protecting her? "Thena, it's my job to do this. I'm certainly not gonna let you fight these creeps by yourself."

"I mean it!" she lifted her head, pursing her lips in that stubborn way she had.

He brushed away some of her tears, careful of the eye makeup she had on that was admirably still in place. "I do too, Thena. I'm not going to let anyone get away with shit like that."

Thena pulled back, brushing more of her tears off his lapel and clearing her throat, which any vocalist usually did their best to avoid doing. She sniffled, "this seems to keep happening."

Gil let her fuss over him, if it made her feel better about it, "a couple times in a year is a pretty bad streak."

Thena looked at him in the dim light of the back of the limo. "I know you're saying it's not a big deal, but I've watched you had to fight a few too many psychos for my liking. And I still haven't forgotten when that mob of Eros' little fan-children mobbed you."

Gil chuckled, "that was a pretty bizarre fight to have."

"I wouldn't call it a fight," Thena grumbled but sat back again with a sigh. She flicked some hair over her shoulder, "at least the show was good. Although I'm sure Kingo is already bursting a blood vessel over the coverage of that attack."

"It was pretty open to see that the guy was nuts," Gil shrugged, already reaching into his suit jacket for both their phones. "Limo's taking us straight home. Do you want delivery?"

She looked up from her phone as he handed it to her, giving him the saddest, greenest eyes, like a kitten in the rain. She nodded.

How could he ever say no to that? He opened the app, "mood?"

"Surprise me," she sighed, looking down at her phone to check what Kingo was saying.

"Okay," Gil chuckled, already knowing to order her a comforting bowl of ramen with some dumplings on the side. He claimed one of her hands with his, even though it hindered her texting greatly.

She did visibly have trouble texting Kingo back with only her left thumb and a phone wider than her slim hand's width. But she gave him a squeeze back, grateful for the comfort.

#Thenamesh Bodyguard AU #it always feels nice to revisit these #because I never feel out of practice with these two #hopefully they always feel in character in this universe for you guys #Gil really does have a lot to deal with #but he's made for this #this is the job #and he takes it very seriously #Kingo does text them like wtf was that? #Gil tells him to look it up he's sure all the fans caught footage of it #also please bring Thena's stuff to her place for them #he's not leaving her side because obviously #They're both exhausted from the adrenaline #she walked into the building in costume and everything #door guy is like hey Thena hey Gil normal thursday night huh? #Gil does get delivery and basically feeds her all night #runs her a back #rubs her feet for her #the ultimate malewife #but he's your security guard #what is this booktok? #just kidding I don't read books I write this instead

[enka11]

tianyi my beloved

#luo tianyi #vsinger #vocaloid #flosart #/ #tagged as vocaloid but this is technically ace ai LMAO sorry #also originally i was gonna draw the hologram version too but i got really tired lol i wish i didnt get so exhausted so fast #but im gettin there #anyways ideolo had the best vsinger designs i love love love their stuff esp their tianyis #no one will ever be able to capture tianyi's charm like ideolo does so if you didnt know check out ace ai tianyi they did the design n art #for her she looks so nice

[quenthel]

i hate transcribing interviews so so much but at least to avoid working on it i made a list of things i have to do with my data so i have a detailed plans for the work i have to do for MONTHS. So even if my supervisor never fucking replies I can keep working until eventually she does lol

#quenthel special #if she does not reply for a week i will text and call her #but also i stressed abt her and my progress so fucking munch these past 2 years at this point im too exhausted #i dont really gaf anymore...and now i have that house project to look forward to #and ofc i have an upcoming surgery too so thats on my mind a little...

[jpriest85-blog]

(cue Nasira's Spidey-sense going off)

Samira, concerned: Habibti (darling) are you okay? You're shivering really bad, are you feeling sick?

Nasira: Oh, ah I'm just feeling a bit cold. I'm going to head back upstairs to grab a jacket real quick. You head on out, I'll meet up with you later.

Samira, with Mom BS sense going off: Just don't take too long. You've been so absent-minded lately I'm worried. You've been running late and forgetting appointments without so much as a call or text. You were so responsible when you were still in school...

Nasira: No, no! Wallah (I swear by God), I'm just going to grab my jacket, and head straight out.

Cut to Nasira pulling on Spider-woman costume while climbing out a window: This better be something quick like a robbery. If I got to fight another super villain in city traffic, and show up late. Mama's going to be so pissed!!

After watching Across the Spider-verse with my family, I've been inspired to create my own Spider-verse oc/spider-sona. Introducing Nasira bint Asim Najjar aka the Amazing Spider-woman, aspiring Palestinian-American Archetect by day webslinging superhero of New York by night. She's intelligent and driven, but like most superheroes, she has trouble balancing her Spider-woman identity with her family obligations and internship at an architectural firm. Her dating life is nonexistent, other than attempts at matching making by well-intentioned but nosey relatives. Who's got time for that?! Nasira wants to start her own Archetect firm and make safe, affordable housing for NYCs rapidly increasing homeless population before she's 45! She doesn't have time to worry about dating or acknowledging the complicated feelings she's developing around her two dearest friends, MJ and Harry, or why certain villains she encounters leave her flustered like Black Cat, and this new Green Goblin acting like he's got an obsessive crush on her!

I've included traditional Tatreez embroidery onto her costume, and the pattern on her hijab is inspired by mosaics found at Hisham's Palace in Jericho.

I've also created concept doodles of iconic webslinging poses and a little chibi version of her in a hard hat and vest mimicking those little construction site figures you see on safety signs. I've also included little concept portraits of her parents and friends.

Asim Najjar, Nasira' Baba (dad) he was a construction worker who often took his daughter on tours of his construction site when she was little. Helped inspire her desire to become an architect. Tragically died when he and another construction worker, Flint Marco, were building an expansion to a laboratory and accidently learned about some shady experiments the scientists were performing. So, an accident was staged to keep them both quiet, but Flint survived and became The Sandman.

Prof. Samira Najjar, Nasira's Mama, and a teacher who works at a prestigious private school in New York. Samira got her current job when Nasira turned 13 and transferred her daughter to the private school. It would offer her a better education, and Samira's position as faculty means they can get a much needed reduction on tuition. Nasira had a hard time fitting in at first. Unlike the rest of her classmates, she was raised in a working class family, and her mommy is a teacher. Until she befriended Harry Osborn, he was also picked on a lot, and they shared similar interests. Samira has been worried about Nasira's changed behavior recently. At first, she thought it was Nasira grieving after Asim's death. Samira herself was also a mess for months after the funeral. It wasn't unreasonable for her normally responsible daughter to start showing up late or even forgetting appointments... but still something is off. Nasira's keeping secrets and even lying to her, and whatever is going on, even MJ has been keeping things from her as well.

Mojdeh "MJ" Mahri, Nasira's BFF, MJ is a redhead Iranian American girl whose family attend the same mosque as Nasira's, and they've been friends ever since they were 7 years old. MJ eventually starts working as an investigation blogger for The Daily Bugel and helps Nasira investigate the truth about her father's "accidental death" when the facts don't add up. During this investigation at the accident site, Nasira accidentally knocked over a terrarium containing an experimental spider, and the rest is history. MJ is one of the few people who knows Nasira's secret identity and helps her endeavor as Spider-woman, with her journalist connections. As well as trying to counter act her boss, J. Jonah Jameson's bias against Spider-woman when she can.

Harry Osborn, Nasira's school friend and Oscorp heir. Harry never had many close friends until Nasira transferred to the private school they both graduated from. They both shared similar interests and her mother, Prof. Najjar taught his favorite class. They grew close over the years, especially since Nasira's family treated Harry better than his own distant and domineering father. A few of their classmates and even MJ would ask if Harry and Nasira were dating, but they both denied it repeatedly. They're just friends! Although after high school, Harry started dating women that greatly resembled Nasira: tall, with dark hair, very career driven and intelligent. Nasira is the only one who hasn't noticed this pattern to Harry's love life. She just assumed he has a thing for Amal Clooney! Harry hasn't said anything out loud about his feelings, but the fact that his friendship with Nasira is the only functional relationship in his life is telling.

Norman Osborn, Harry's father and CEO of Oscorp. Norman and Harry have had a very strained relationship. He expects a lot from his son and worries that Harry doesn't have the stomach to do what's necessary to make the company successful after he's retired. After all, you don't become as wealthy and powerful as Norman Osborn without doing unsavory things to ensure success. Although he's noticed his son has become more serious and hardworking since he's befriended Nasira Najjar. In addition to having a good influence on Harry, Nasira is a very driven and intelligent young lady herself, if a bit idealistic. Still, Norman prefers her to the other girls his son used to date and would often half "jokingly" ask them both when Harry will make Nasira his new daughter in law. Of course, they're both very embarrassed and uncomfortable whenever Norman makes those kinds of jokes. Sure, they insist they're just friends for now, but Norman is willing to bet money, Nasira will probably wind up his son's 2nd wife in 20 years. Don't think too much about what might happen to your hypothetical 1st wife Harry. It's nothing the police can prove anyway...what?! He's joking, of course! Although it is a shame her father was involved in that tragic "accident." Norman genuinely felt bad about that, but he couldn't risk it getting out that his company was secretly connected to the lab they were expanding. It would have stayed secret too if Filnt Marco had also died instead of getting mutated and getting that meddling Spider-woman involved. Sure, she's been useful, especially when she saved Harry when he was targeted by one of his many enemies, but he can't risk Spider-woman connecting Oscorp to those experiments!

#spidersona #spidervers oc #character headcanons #mc concept art #got all the classic spidey stuff #webslinging #spider bites #grieving over the loss of a loved one #dumbass excuses to fight crime #Jameson being a hater #although I'm not sure if Nasira would be considered a disaster Bisexual 🤔 #she does develop attractions to folks of different genders #but she's juggling too much as it is to really acknowledge them or try dating #she's more like an exhausted Bisexual ig🤔 #look she's trying to fight crimes and become an architect #she doesn't have the time or the energy to freak out about a cute people

[ayakashibackstreet]

You know things are bad when your mum comes back after a week and she's so concerned with your physical and mental health that she starts waxing poetic about how lovely the weather is and how gorgeous of an autumn we're having, all in an attempt to get you to go outside

#that of course came after cries of 'you're so pale? why are you so pale? you look exhausted?' #for the record my mum does -not- like autumn and she hardly ever waxes poetic about anything #she also offered me money so that I can go to the teahouse without feeling guilty #but honestly we've once again entered the sort of mindset where I feel guilty over literally everything #besides the last time I went on a walk it only made my mood way worse and I'm in no physical condition go to very far anyways #I don't really know what to do with myself #then again I'm in pain so for now maybe I should just stay in bed #I did a bit of the next chapter of the kanji book for class #but I only got discouraged by how many words I didn't know #and now my mood is even worse #I wanted to work on my thesis but I'm halfway sure if I do it now it's only going to lead to me writing a sentence #and editing that single sentence for a hour #before giving up #either that or hating everything anyways #I don't know I don't know I don't know

[elegyofthemoon]

today was good!!!! but i am!!!! very tired!!!!!!! :D

#i thought today would be bad bc of certain past stuff #so i was kinda bracing for it #BUT IT WINDED UP GOOD.... im happy #good day at work but i think i got more exhausted that my brain just kinda kerplunked on itself #i got to see my friend but we didnt talk much he was just passing by :] #worked w my director who is honestly really nice ajfjdjdjs #tbh i thought she hated me when we first started and wELL I KINDA STILL THINK SHE DOES #im such a dumbass at work so i feel like i just get in the way all the time but #today actually went pretty ok and smoothly jdjdjd minus end of the day #OH AND IT SNOWED BUT I WAS STUCK INSIDE #i basically looked out the window like 🥺🥺🥺🥺 wanting to go out but nooo i couldnt #the consultants all went out to take photos iTS UNFAIR (STOMPS THE GROUND) #anyways. i cant believe i have to study after all this. how cruel 🤧 #there wasnt snow when i left sad chirp noises :< #it wasnt enough snow to cover the ground so it was a very :< walk back home. and freezing but you know #anyways its been nice so :) happy. #i need tea. #its near 5 but i need energy to study fjdjdjsk #work logs #snow speaks

[porto-rosso]

Anyone else find it weird when people get super up in arms about saying one of the bats is the best at (insert something here like martial arts/detective work/acrobatics)?

#like theyre all good at everything so pointing out areas where each may shine particularly doesn’t bother me? #calling cass the best martial artist doesn’t mean the others aren’t extremely skilled martial artists #saying babs is the smartest doesn’t mean the others are stupid it just means she’s slightly more advanced in a specific field #I think i see people take the most issue with claims that Tim is the best detective #which when he’s being dubbed as ‘the detective’ of the bats I completely understand as it does somewhat imply the others aren’t very skilled #but specifically saying he’s the best detective doesn’t (to me) erase the other bats being good at that #it just kinda gives him a niche #which most of the bats have one way or another #it’s kinda all in phrasing like each can have a speciality but it’s important to word it in a way that doesn’t erase the others skill #as well #that being said I completely understand general exhaustion with oh-look-at-how-good-Tim-is esp with how much dc itself has been pushing that #Tim gets pushed as being the best in general way too much and especially in a really weird way that’s often done to put other robins #(tho particularly Damian) down #which absolutely should be criticized #so this is more about when i see people being super aggressive at the idea that any of the bats could have specialities #sorry this was long and rambley

[ceruleanmage]

telling people “oh yeah im writing a book!!” except i haven’t touched the doc in many, many days

#writing #this post is more or less a joke #see look. #been exhausted so it’s fair. rest is important #I get is hung up over the idea that this can be done quickly… which is just… so untrue #for different people at least #some people can write a book in a year. some people wrote multiple books a year #and some people write one book in five years #so on and so forth #what is possible for some isn’t always possible for others #i saw a post from an author i really love and she said when she used to write six hours a day as practice #like after school she would lock herself in her room and write/plan/outline. rinse and repeat #and for a moment i was left in complete awe. but also complete envy #I told myself i was inadequate because I don’t do that. I’ve never done that #and the truth is that that’s simply not possible for me #I physically cannot focus on something like that unless it’s a hyper focus which happens only occasionally #even if it’s something I truly love and enjoy. I am not able to do that #but that doesn’t make me any less of a writer. taking longer does not mean your work is invalid #not writing every day doesn’t mean you’re not a writer #so yes. even if i haven’t touched my doc in a week. I am still writing a book #mage monologues

[milo-is-rambling]

My mother really out here telling me “you just make all the plans for driving and I’ll work around that” and then a couple days later once I’ve made plans and talked to people about shit she’s like hey actually you should come up a day earlier so you can get your grandparents (who are practically falling apart mentally and physically and my grandfather pisses himself and if he pees in the car that I am both sleeping and driving in I will be upset!!!) in the middle of Maine and drive them to New Hampshire for me bc I will be too tired from getting a three hour flight to go drive them :’( AS IF IM NOT DRIVING SIX HOURS OR MORE EVERY DAY FOR A WEEK HELLO??? YOU CANT DRIVE FIVE HOURS AFTER SLEEPING THE WHOLE TIME ON A THREE HOUR FLIGHT LIKE I KNOW ITS CRAMPED AND MISERABLE BUT YOU’RE GOING TO GO FROM A PLANE TO A NICE RENTAL CAR VS ME SLEEPING IN THE FUCKING TRUNK FOR A WEEK LIKE GIRL WHAT YOU ALREADY TOLD ME TO PLAN EVERYTHING AND NOW YOU’RE MOVING SHIT AROUND AND SHES ALL LIKE “well your aunt is gonna be visiting on the 11th so I have to get a flight on the 12th and then graduation is on the 13th early in the morning so I just won’t have time to go get them” LIKE GIRL THIS IS THE SAME AUNT THAT IS COMING TO OUR HOUSE FOR ONE SINGULAR DAY AND THEN WE WILL SEE HER AGAIN IN NEW HAMPSHIRE WHILE WE ARE ON OUR TRIP LIKE YOU LITERALLY TOLD ME “oh don’t worry about missing her we’re gonna do the graduation party at her house when we’re up north” AND THEN YOU WONT SHIFT YOUR PLANS ONE DAY TO FIX ALL OF THE SCHEDULING CONFLICTS BUT YOU WANT ME TO TWEAK A WHOLE WEEK OF DRIVING PLANS BACK A DAY TO MAKE IT MORE CONVENIENT FOR YOU and also I simply don’t want to. Also the garbage truck just passed bc I slept in and I don’t think we got the garbage out and I know we definitely didn’t get the trash from my room or bathroom out of the house and so now moms gonna be pissed at me for that god fuck this is so infuriating I am not planning a trip while on my period ever again I want to bite my mothers head off for even suggesting an alternate plan what is wrong with me I am such a bitch what the fuck no wonder she fucking hates me okay I am going back to bed she can figure this shit out later when she’s not slamming doors and yelling about work

#I want to rip my hair out #why does she say yeah we can work around whatever plans you make and then immediately she’s like oh haha nevermind #and I know I’m overreacting I know I’m being a bitch and I should fold to my mothers needs or whatever but like simply put I don’t want to #deal with my grandparents (if they were dwarves in Snow White they would be called Naggy and Pissy) and I don’t want to deal with their huge #looming sense of dread bc they both know they are old and losing it and that their kids are dead and we are the only family they care about #and I was already nervous about spending any time with them at graduation and now my mom wants me alone in a car with them for HOURS #like I simply don’t want to and I don’t want to think about dad and I don’t want to think about them and I don’t want to drive the extra #hours or anything like ugh I just don’t want to. I want to get high on Millie’s couch and have a relaxing day after driving that much on the #way up and I want to only have to drive three hours to my brother and I want ti already be there for graduation that morning I don’t want to #go any earlier or later than I had planned bc I planned distances by how much driving I thought I could take at a time and If I add an extra #day of driving I will be exhausted and add emotional exhaustion to that from seeing family and add fucking bitchy mood and being judged on #my music or my driving or being asked about what I plan to do with my life or what have I been doing since dad died or are you okay? is your #mother struggling? (and not being able to talk about my mom going out and dating and getting laid and ignoring my dead father and their dead #son bc it’s the only way she’s coping with any of this anymore) #I just don’t want to. and I hope my mother will step up and change her shit to deal with them but if they don’t I’ll have to deal with it #and just get over it but fuck I really really really don’t want to #it just annoys me that my mother would rather move all of my plans back a day than not see my aunt for what six hours here when we’re #literally going to see her up north like five days later #like can’t you just wait to see her. like she has seen the house before. she knows what a screened in patio looks like. they’ve seen the car #before like they will know if they want the car or not before they see it they know the model and they know it’s sat in our driveway for #months and months like they are aware of the car so you don’t need to say that’s the big important reason for them to visit #I’m such an asshole what the fuck is wrong with me I’m really unwilling to have any changes made to my plans #my brother would fucking bend over backwards and do whatever my mother asks and she is so mad that I’m not like that and I should be why am #I not like that why don’t I do all the shit she does for me why am I such a bitch what is wrong with me #I am already exhausted today I only slept for four hours #I just want to skip to me being on the road already. need to smoke a cigarette at a truck stop out of state it will fix me honestly

[gentlethorns]

jesus christ i hate my body. it's like owning a shitty used car all over again except that I CAN'T SELL IT AND BUY A NEW ONE. unless you would classify orthopedic surgery as doing that and even then that's far in the future and does me no good whatsoever right now

#she bork #tbd #i try to love my body. i really do. i don't like the way it looks but i could get past that and appreciate its function IF IT WERE #FUNCTIONAL. which it is not. #no idea whether my body is punishing me for throwing the truck yesterday or buckling under the hormonal strain of my upcoming cycle or just #deciding to be a dick but the bottom line is that i am exhausted and my body hurts so bad. my wrist my thumb my legs my neck everything. i'm #even having a recurrence of the nerve problems i had in my foot neck in like. TWENTY-TWENTY-ONE. why why why why why. why does my body exist #ONLY to spite me. i swear to god if i get home and i can't put in my fucking words bc of how my body feels i'm gonna freak. i am SO CLOSE TO #THE END DO NAWT NERF ME AT THE FINISH LINE #*my foot BACK in like 2021 lol. even my typos mock me #jesus i just can't emphasize enough how fucking bad my body hurts. my wrist and thumb feel like they have fucking ground glass in them (idk #about my wrist but ik my thumb has a bone spur and that's probably close enough lol). my foot feels like someone is stabbing it w a dull #knife right in that tender spot by the inner ankle bone and making it ache. i feel fucking exhausted and a little sick? idk how even just #like Not Good or like just Off. and i'm STILL at work and then tomorrow i STILL have to run the truck again and then i'm finally off #thursday. jesus fucking christ if i have to spend all weekend sleeping to get over this bullshit i am gonna be SO mad

[multeasers]

It's still a headcanon as far as her lore on the blog goes and it's not fully fleshed out still either, but I've slightly amended how aq knows abt wrh bring her dad and I need to wrote it down before I forget so into a tag dump we go

#🌊 ( ooc ) : mun talking #I'm writing a fic ( in my head mostly ) that features the hc #so ofc I was thinking abt it too hard and I realized to try and have her born at any point PRIOR #to the sunshot campaign didn't really work ( especially going off the idea that it lasted several years ) #I'll put this to post or her blog page eventually #but she was born at some point DURING the campaign . her mom ran away with her shortly afterwards #but aq ends up in the hands of other ppl ( not wrh bc he can't exhaust men or time to go looking for her ) #it's likely through a letter Jia Mu wrote they know abt her parentage ( she expected to die getting aq to safety and she does ) #aq still ends up on the streets at a young age though . I'm not changing That #she's just never actually met wrh like I had initially decided before #I know hcs dont have to line up 1 to 1 with canon but after thinking about it it bothered me too much #anywayz the fic isn't where my time has gone . I've been playing games ( mainly deltarune somehow... )

[guideaus]

theyre married...

#personal #vinland saga lb #i cant even really be happy rn. im like whats going on. u blink and a man and woman are married #i complained abt them only knowing each other for 5 months but the series makes 2 years pass and doesnt show any of it and theyre #together... while acting the exact same they did 5 chapters ago. i feel exhausted trying to care #and she does look different but i'll say thats bad. i feel like shes an entirely new person.

[wallabywannabe]

Took less than 10 minutes after getting home from the vet visit for Petra to resume her normal routine without fear. So proud!

#Delilah wasn't scared of people like her and she would hide under the bed for a day after her annual exam #She did so well she registered her complaints with the situation about 10 minutes into the car ride in a meow I only hear once a year #but at the actual vet she was starting to get curious and looking out the window and stuff #and even though they were strangers she liked the vet tech petting her #she didn't expect the bloodwork though and she came back to me after with WIDE eyes #but then she was exhausted and slept the whole way home #I had to take off her bandage and she didn't like that #but then she gobbled down a second breakfast and sunbathed for the rest of the morning #they gave her a b12 injection because she has some unresolved diarrhea #and I think that also made her feel GREAT #Might be something I give weekly if her bloodwork indicates which would be easy #she does have gingivitis so I really need to work on this teeth brushing #that will NOT be easy #here's hoping Purrcy is just as good for his in a few months #(he will not be #but his teeth will be clean because he loves chewing at least)