#she was so damn convincing

[bojackhorsemanobviously]

):

#there's all this talk in the show about the power he had over people but none about the women who had power over him #note im not saying that it excuses his shit either im just saying the eshow never really holds the women accountable #as a woman that annoys me #esp as one with a mom who has often made me feel worthless #i also found the writers to get way too insecure in s5 about how people viewed their main character that they felt the need to double down #give mc a sympathic backstory and will feel bad for him what were they expecting? #heck i felt kinda bad for beatrice and i dont hate her but her dad sucked you cant help but pity her esp as an old lady #angela diaz #scary women #she was so damn convincing #for a show about accountabiity its justall on one mans shoulder and it just doesnt feel like it was that fair shrugs #dont believe me? #ana his publist sexually assaults BJ #this is ignored and brushed off as if it never happened #beatrice his biggest abuser next to his father is given the sad old lady treatment that he acutally ends up being kind too #diane fucks pb who is with pickles and is mostly absolved of any wrong doing on her end #pc agrees to work with vance gets bj to a doc that gives him the opiums and does nothing to stop him from hurting gina #angela is gay the whole time and still fires herb then berates and offers a man who is mentally unstable more alchhol #it also felt tacked on in ep 10 of s5 to me like it came of super insecure #oh he def did shitty sshit that is unforgiveable but it felt like they were just throwing a bunc of random x//a/s to double down

[nightswatchdisbandmentera]

Melisandre is one of my favorite minor POVs mostly because of how GRRM plays with the all-powerful mage trope. See the deconstruction with her is that despite her antics, she’s actually very powerful and all her visions are legit. It’s just that she absolutely sucks at interpreting said visions, mostly because she has all these preconceived notions and is very stubborn about them. And even when the answer is staring right at her (literally), she just doubles down. And it can be very frustrating as a reader, to be quite honest.

Like she’s been super gung ho about Stannis Baratheon being Azor Ahai/the Prince that Was Promised, though only R’hllor know why, to the extent that she will flat-out ignore any evidence to the contrary. Her visions in ADWD essentially scream that Azor Ahai is someone different (not Stannis!) but good ol’ Mel just won’t budge.

There’s this very hilarious interaction in Jon’s 10th ADWD chapter that essentially spells out all of her problems with visions and prophecy, with Jon serving as the reader’s proxy in some ways.

This interaction happens during Alys Karstark’s wedding feast and Patchface drops some of his weird jingles, which Mel very unsettled by. So she’s turns to Jon and is like, “ugh that dude is so creepy, all my visions tell me so”. And Jon’s reaction to this is super funny, because he’s like:

“You see fools in your fire, but no hint of Stannis?”

Wow Jon lmao

He just had to call her out like that, unprovoked. But his frustration makes sense. He’s constantly been asking about Stannis’ whereabouts but Mel’s responses just aren’t very satisfactory (in his opinion).

Then we get this next line which really just says everything about Mel’s stubbornness and perfectly embodies the deconstruction of the all-powerful seer trope.

“When I search for him all I see is snow.”

So Mel looks for Stannis, whom she believes to be Azor Ahai, in her fires but doesn’t find him. Instead she sees “snow”. And this part tracks with her POV too. We know from her chapter that she constantly sees Jon in her visions. It’s how we get the very interesting “I pray for a glimpse of Azor Ahai, and R’hllor shows me only Snow” line.

So one would think that Mel might go: “Hmmm I look for the prophesied savior, but I don’t see Stannis. Instead, I only see Snow. I don’t doubt R’hllor’s power so if my visions are true, then maybe I need to rethink a few things”.

One would think…

But nope!

And Jon’s like “Hey maybe you’re not seeing Stannis because he’s super dead, ever think about that Mel?” And she proceeds to spout the usual Azor Ahai stuff and even mentions Dragonstone:

“When the red star bleeds and the darkness gathers, Azor Ahai shall be born again amidst smoke and salt to wake dragons out of stone. Dragonstone is the place of smoke and salt.”

To which Jon’s replies, “uhhhh news flash Stannis was not born on Dragonstone so that doesn’t track”.

Obviously this is Jon’s skepticism but I like to think that he took the reader’s place here. Because many of us have asked ourselves, why oh why would Mel think of Stannis just because she saw Dragonstone? Like yeah, he’s the Lord of Dragonstone but he wasn’t born there. It’s quite a valid question and how does Mel counter it? She doubles down and twist herself into a pretzel to make Stannis fit (even though he doesn’t fit at all!)

Really, Jon’s reaction is essentially what would happen if someone dropped me into the world of ASOIAF and gave me the chance to meet Mel and ask her a few questions. I’d be quite frustrated, just as Jon is here. And to be fair, the reader has a lot of auxiliary information (e.g., Jon’s parentage) that Mel doesn’t have.

But then the next few lines really illustrate just why poor Mel can be so frustrating. Because Jon’s follow up is,

“And what of Mance? Is he lost as well? What do your fires show?”

And what does Mel say?

“The same, I fear. Only snow.”

…??!

Mel!😭

Seriously, I cannot! This is the exact same situation as with Stannis. She looks for a king but only sees Snow. This makes me wonder then, based on previous wording, if she’s specifically looking for “the King Beyond the Wall” (not just “Mance”) and only seeing Snow - at this point, Jon has all but supplanted Mance.

So once again, one would think that Mel would go: hmmmm I look for the King Beyond the Wall but I see Jon Snow and not Mance Rayder. Seeing that Mance’s power has been diminished and Jon Snow is now taking control of the wildlings, maybe I should re-evaluate a few things”.

Yeah, one would think…

Homegirl is trying her best, she really is. But sadly, her best can only get E for Effort.

And at this point the reader is just done with Mel, and Jon is too:

“You are seeing cinders dancing in the updraft.”

He doesn’t even bother to phase it as a question lmao. He just calls her out and doesn’t care.

And we’re in his POV so he’s thinking of the lower case “snow”. Also, why in the hell is Mel referring to Jon like this?

Anyway, this is why I think Jon serves as the reader’s proxy in this conversation because it’s like a thinking exercise (facilitated by the narrative) that ultimately goes nowhere because Mel is so, so stubborn.

Because if we really break it down:

R’hllor/the Narrative: Who do you see when you search for the king/Azor Ahai?

Mel: Jon Snow

R’hllor/the Narrative: Ok…and who do you see when you search for the King Beyond the Wall?

Mel: Erm, Jon Snow…

R’hllor/the Narrative/the Reader: Great! So say it with me. The king you’re looking for is J-

Mel: STANNIS BARATHEON!

R’hllor/the Reader: …?!

And before anyone claims that this is a misdirect, Mel really is seeing Jon Snow. Straight from the horse’s mouth:

“I am seeing skulls. And you. I see your face every time I look into the flames.”

Friend….I don’t even know what to say anymore…

#jon snow #melisandre #azor ahai #asoiaf #valyrianscrolls #Red Rahloo going: girl be so fr rn #He literally crafted a giant 70ft billboard with Jon Snow’s mugshot on it #Coupled with a giant red arrow and flashing lights #And said: hey Mel THIS is Azor Ahai! THIS is your king! #And Mel saw it and went: damn so Stannis is Azor Ahai yeah? #Ok let me be fair to Mel because she doesn’t know of Jon’s parentage…yet #But wow it really can be quite frustrating because she’s just so…Mel 😭 #But I guess the narrative just wants the reader to know if anything else #I think this exchange and Mel’s POV chapter #Are kind of emblematic of the whole “prophecy will bite your prick off” thing #Because imagine you’re Mel and you’re super convinced that Stannis is Azor Ahai #Because you’re taking aspects of this prophecy so literally #In a way that you really shouldn’t be #But then your visions are saying #well akshually Jon Snow is Azor Ahai #Truly the night is dark and full of errors #canonjonsnow #my stuff

[carbonateddrinks]

“And I mean, hell. If you’re have to live the rest of your life in a memory… ya might as well make it a good one.”

#RvB #Red vs Blue #red vs blue the recollection #RvB the recollection #rvb church #guess who finished season 3 #no spoilers for project freelancer btw I’m gonna bawl my eyes out and then watch it #I am so glad im going in this blind #like yeah. some of it didn’t age well but dear GOD this was so good #AND THE FIGHT SCENES???? TEXAS KICKING ASS??? #she was making sure griff was the last of his legacy dear god #AND THE GLACIER BOMB TRAP SCENE MADE ME LOOSE MY SHIT she is my favorite #it’s moments like this that make me proud to be a Texan #god. and. just everything. SARGE’S DAMN SPEEECH i was so convinced he was going to die and I was gonna lose it. #the griff death fake out gave me a heart attack. AND SIMMON’S REACTION TOO LIKE BRO WAS SAD #AND. GOD. HE (church) REALLY DOES CARE. HE’S WILLING TO SPEND ETERNITY WITH THESE GUYS WHILE WAITING FOR TEX. ur honor im. emotional

[half-a-hetero]

i honestly dont hate the ATLA adaptation but im definitely not entirely happy. when comparing it to the original they made a lot of the core ideas, arcs, conflicts, and characters kind of just….flat. and they also changed a lot of central motivations for characters and the things that made them so excellent, and misinterpreted a bunch of them, so yeah. some things were too rushed, and it all took away from a lot of the things that made atla such a meaningful show and a powerful teacher

that being said, it was kinda expected because they had to condense the whole thing into a few episodes, and ATLA is rly not a show for which you can do that easily, so i gotta cut them some slack. nothing will live up to the OG and thats that. BUT there were also some GREAT bits of acting in there PLZ can we talk about it because certain characters were captured really well (FOR THEIR ADAPTED SCENARIOS.) as well as great representation

i would honestly not mind a second season because it really was not all that bad as a show, independent of the original. it was engaging and had just enough humor and anger and sadness to be a well balanced show overall, i dont think its aim was to be a perfect recreation of the original

#to the acting point—ZUKO???? #HELLO???? #his actor kinda devoured and it was honestly a really convincing zuko #THE LAST EPISODES I WAS LIKE OH MY HOLY FUCK #also kiawentiio is my QUEEN i love her #anyways back to zuko the agni kai ep and the last ep and other scenes were DAMN. #idk if everyone agrees but i honestly found that zuko in the adaptation was one of the only characters i didnt really find MAJOR flaws in #or things that i had like a moral objection to. and the acting was great for zuko. but lmk what yg think #ALSO SUKI #SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI #SHE WAS SO GOOD #some things yadda yadda but i did really like the way her actress portrayed her #AND YUEEEE they gave her a little more oumph and i liked it honestly #CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW BEAUTIFUL ALL THE WOMEN IN THE SHOW WERE. #avatar #avatar the last airbender #zuko #katara #suki #yue #sokka #aang #LIEUTENANT JEE #. #atla live action #oh shit i forgot about jet. what was he doin there errmmmmmmmmmm that whole arc and omashu was quite rushed lets be real. #if i hadnt watched the show beforehand i would probably have half the criticism but then again … #but ya it could definitely have been worse

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

is putting mcr in this too self indulgent or are my standards for this fic low enough

#i'd put smth better but i just dont know a lot abt music so its hard to like #pick good charaacterisation bands for yaz #she doesnt listen to anything i listen to im pretty sure abt that but other than that fgkgjghjgh #just gonna write this scene for rule of funney rather than rule of entirely convincing maybe #i just think it'd be funny to make the doctor play black parade like saviour of the broken the beaten and the damned i just think itd be fu

[bumblingbabooshka]

Voyager B Plot: B’Elanna Torres builds a television and it puts it in a common area (that couch section of the mess hall maybe) because too many people want to use the holodeck and are bored while waiting. Many people become invested in a certain soap opera, including her. When the main plot concludes the mysterious figure they’ve been helping pulls off her helmet, revealing that she’s actually the lead actress of that soap opera (there is appropriate soap opera camera work at this reveal)! Episode ends with her giving the crew of Voyager several autographs and tossing a rose to B’Elanna, her signature move.

#also Neelix is convinced that it's her the entire time but B'Elanna's like Neelix c'mon...what are the chances??? <- secretly hopeful #The television stays for the rest of the series it just looks progressively more and more beat up/taped together #It only gets delta quadrant shows and you have to be there on time to see them #so it becomes a Voyager Thing to be like 'God I hope Ensign Xrathia taped this week's episode of The Haute and The Damned for me....' #st voyager #fake voyager episodes my beloved #really it should be 'B Plots my beloved' HEHEHE I love shenanigans and character stuff~ #I think at least one episode after this should have visiting delta quadrant aliens like 'blablabla diplomacy blabl- OH MY GOD IS THAT??? #SHE WAS HERE??? OH MYGOD!!!'

[starlightandmagic]

Listen, LISTEN, what makes Kanej such a compelling and unique ship is that they IN FACT don’t need skin on skin contact to love each other. They don’t need what other couples have to feel how they feel or to show their affection for each other. They have so much trauma and issues they have to deal with but that does not stop them from being willing to try to be together despite their struggles. They can barely hold hands but that does not erase the yearning and the love and devotion they so clearly feel for the other.

Kaz is willing to try to put himself together for her. He shows he cares by giving her everything she ever wanted: her freedom and her parents and a ship to hunt slavers.

And Inej canonically states she doesn’t think she could ever have a normal relationship with anybody else, she doesn’t want that, she’s not made for that life. What she wants is Kaz being willing to try to open up for her. The “I will have you without armor” is not about her wanting him to remove his gloves for her and give her physical affection. SHE DOESN’T EVEN KNOW IF SHE COULD EVEN HANDLE THAT.

What she wants is Kaz being willing to try for her. If she was going to make herself vulnerable and open her heart to a relationship with him she needs him to meet her in the middle. She knows what she deserves and she was not going to try if Kaz was going to give her nothing but his usual emotionally repressed self.

That’s it. It’s not about skin on skin contact, it’s not about Inej needing a man without trauma to fulfill physical needs she cannot even handle just yet because she was the victim of human trafficking and repeated SA in the Menagerie. And I DESPISE the writers for completely erasing that aspect and daring to imply something between Inej and Tolya. Tolya who canonically states he has no interest in romance, who literally says his books and his poetry are more than enough! That one writer with their stupid IG post, I swear they don’t have even the most basic understanding of these characters and what make them so unique and special. LITERALLY NO ONE ASKED FOR A LOVE TRIANGLE WHERE ITS NOT NEEDED STOP THAT SHIT RIGHT THIS INSTANT!

#kanej #shadow and bone #six of crows #sorry for the rant but that ig post literally made my skin crawl #how dare they?! #even if it was just a stupid plot device to make kaz jealous like lmao have you met kaz?! do you even know him AT ALL?! #that man would 100% give up if he thought Inej would be happy with someone else #like we’re talking about the man who bought a whole ship for her to leave even when he desperately wanted her to stay in ketterdam #knowing damn well she might not ever return #if he thought Inej was happy with someone else #he wouldn’t even try he’d just brood from a distance and try to convince himself it’s for the better #he is so self deprecating he would instantly be like: you know what? yes she deserves so much better and he can give her everything I can’t #like srsly if that is the direction they’re going with I don’t want it thanks they can have their garbage bye #inej ghafa #kaz brekker

[teaandinanity]

It continues to give me the warm fuzzies that basically every person at work has said they'll miss me. And it's not really utility, even if I'm useful; I am not in a critical position. There are many people who can do the things I do, even if the majority are less experienced. I'm not management, or a lynchpin, just a long-time worker bee.

But people like me, and I just handled a Crisis Situation well enough that the AD took the time to personally thank me, and my manager was like 'not only am I willing to be a reference you can use my personal phone number if that's easier' and even some of the newest additions said they're going to miss me on desk, and I just.

I love my job and my coworkers and it's really nice that the people there know it and love me back.

#I told mom about Crisis Situation #and tonight when dad got home she was like COME IN AND TELL YOUR DAD #and then both of them were like WHEN COMPANY COMES NEXT WEEK TELL THEM TOO #haha #I mean dad did follow it up with 'no you may not drive across the country alone we will figure something out' #I'm gonna work on him about it we tried the thing where all of us are in one vehicle #Tuesday screamed the whole time and mom wanted to kill her and also me #I shall remind him of that #I think he will probably come around #if I could convince someone to come with I would probably make it an actual road trip #'come to TX for the eclipse!' #'we will drive through the deep south and hit some Neat Shit and then go up the coast!' #like you could make that a fun drive #I'm not gonna do the long version if I'm solo tho bc my parents are convinced I will be murdered #which is silly; I have not infrequently been in Situations and strangers have been kind #also the odds of getting strangermurdered for no damn reason are SO low #and the incentives to murder Me Specifically are also very low #and if a white cishet-passing woman dies 90% of the time it's a romantic partner and I'm aroace so like #I really wonder what they're imagining is gonna happen #babble tea (blacklist this for less chatter) #tea writes tag novels

[creatively-cosmic]

missing numbers lore

#not a queued cause its a shitty doodle but yea #we're rly excited someones expressed interest in the story so we might try to write and explain more #id love to do more stuff like Palette Glitch. writing excerpts for important scenes #but yeah this is everyone's position in a nutshell #red. well youve seen him. damned to a hell of glitches for eternity because he has no place in the new world #leaf as the warden. similarly broken but given new purpose in exchange for loyalty so long as she keeps the glitches at bay #being manipulated and convinced that she is doing the right thing and that this is the way it must be #blue knowing a semblance of truth but being unable to fully comprehend. so he fights and fights because its so unfair isn't it? #kicking and biting and stabbing stabbing stabbing stabbing stabbing #because playing by the rules never changed anything #and fire. red. the chosen one. the protagonist. the hero. the sacred poster child of this whole world. who cannot be killed #and cannot be broken. #'arceus' in this is much greater than a pokemon. it isn't about what it is but what he represents. he is the God of this reality. #a reality dictated by the will of beings above and the logic of code and data #giggles. #missing numbers

[tea-cat-arts]

Kevin is a fun character for me because the character the game repeatedly tells us he is and the character the game repeatedly shows us he is are just… blatantly two different characters, but regardless of which one you choose to believe is canon, he’s still one of the most sympathetic mf in the game and I will be very upset if he’s actually killed off

#honkai impact #kevin kaslana #where are my fellow Kevin enthusiasts at? #‘the only person he cares about is Dr. MEI-‘ hoyo you literally introduced him by showing us him repeatedly reliving one Sakura’s death #and the guilt that consumed him because of it and the various other sacrifices he had to make #those are not the actions of a dude who doesn’t care!!! #he built Hua a god damn sanctuary to keep her safe! #he chose saving Su’s life over completing project stigma (you know… Dr. MEI’s frickin legacy) #the Kaslana stigma version of him shows that he fucking loves his family and values their accomplishments #he cried over Elysia’s death #the ER version of him fucking risked it all to save her sim #hell he even recruited Mei just to honor Ely’s legacy and show her she won #in ‘the demon’ rememberance vessel they explicitly say he was desperately trying to keep Su out of the fight all together #and also did his best to keep Mobius away from Su #and in EE he only talked to Aponia just so Su didn’t have to #Mihoyo these are not the actions of someone who doesn’t care #also he kept Fu Hua’s feather safe and gave it back to Senti so she could get her body back #Kevin deeply loves all his friends and family and nothing Mihoyo says can convince me otherwise #he did everything for them not just for Dr. MEI #I can’t even judge his actions #like he’s literally just some guy- how is he supposed to know how to save the world #these aren’t even his plans. he’s just trying his best #I’d also go a little insane if I was powerless to stop most of my loved ones from dying and the world from being destroyed in front of me #I can’t blame him for not immediately trusting the power of friendship #man makes sense to me

[5mcsinatrenchcoat]

Karlach and Sera are the "they put us in different universes because they knew we would be unstoppable as best friends" kinda characters, methinks

#listening to Sam talking about Karlach being the working class kid unlike some tories #just brings up some thoughts #listen - helping little people? check #class solidarity - check #would Karlach like pranks and chaos - I bet she would #definitely would agree that people need to lighten the fuck up #Sera can also be on fire via the tempest potions so that battlefield would be crazy #tieflings are not qunari but a big buff woman with horns is a big buff woman with horns you dig #(so they might also kiss about it if both aren't taken) #also they would have damn competitions over who swears more #(we all know Sera would say 'fuck' much more often if DAI allowed her to) #they would 100% come up with the same 'what if I throw you' - 'NO how about I sit on your shoulders instead' strategy #like Sera and Bull do #also Sera hears about Gortash ONE time and that man turns into a fucking hedgehog with arrows for needles #consequently anyone who's nasty towards her gets yeeted into the sun #there's probably something to be said for tieflings also being a looked-down-upon race but I don't think they're #comparable to DA elves in any way enough to draw any parallels there #I'm definitely not qualified either way #ah right they're both kinda convinced they're broken and unloveable so that's. a fun common ground we (they) do not talk about #also tbh I think they could both stand each other's tempers pretty well #anyway idk that's my vision

[moe-broey]

SORRY this tag completely undid me LMFAOOOOOOOO

He needs to buy some fucking shirts........

Sketch vers under the cut bc I was originally just gonna leave it at that but. I was possessed I think.

#fire emblem #feh #secret deeplore i gave alfonse a flip phone bc i misremembered the og vid (was convinced they had flip phones) #but i just. kept it. idk it's just such a funny accidental characterization like it just fits. to me. #also baby vero bc. i haven't finished book 6. love her new design but she's still baby to me. #+ i have a better feel for her baby characterization vs her renewed self. bc. i haven't finished book 6. #book 6 bruno death isn't real it can't hurt you. #ANYWAYS I. HAD SO MUCH FUN W THIS LMFAO???? #i love inventing new and creative ways to avoid digital art LMFAOOO #not even cause digital is hard actually like. it's not. that is the medium i taught myself in for 'finished' works. #but like idk what prompted it but i was just fuckinh sick of it. this shit sucks actually!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #it took a bit but i really love working traditional now! it's engaging and rewarding! #always some damn learning curve too LMFAO but that's actually fun too! when. it isn't devastating #high risk high reward i guess. #but genuinely i am SO happy w how this came out it's SO fun to me #fe alfonse #fe bruno #sharena #fe veronica #my art

[chidoroki]

May 16th - Happy Birthday to Vanessa Enoteca

(with one Vanessa from almost every chapter she appears in)

#black clover #vanessa enoteca #rouge #bc manga #my edits #years ago a friend tried to convince me to watch BC & though i refused at the time he predicted that vanessa would be my favorite. fast #forward until last year when i finally decided to watch it and he was 100% correct. & im completely okay with it because DAMN she is #absolutely PERFECT! aaahh she's so gorgeous & i love her magic (& Rouge) and how deeply she cares for her family. her backstory gives me #some TPN vibes too. literally everything about her is wonderful & she's so fun to watch. i cant wait to see her again in the movie next #month. oh & speaking about timing..i almost forgot to post this because for some reason i thought her bday was next week?? i wouldve been #so mad at myself if i missed it. especially since i had this done months ago! literally started this right after i finished nozel's so this #has been chilling in my drafts this entire time. ooohh TotK definitely distracted me but it's still the 16th for me so it counts. huzzah!

[kimtaegis]

haven’t had such a nice day in so long

#visited my childhood friend of 20 years in the city she had moved to #she picked me up from the train #then treated me to a delicious lunch and cake #we watched the start of the new gntm season #then she made my nails and omg I’m in LOVE #I’ve never seen her be this focused on something before agdhgj she did such a good job #we also had wine while doing that and listened to fun music #after we went to a cute immersive light show exhibition thingy #and then she borrowed me some of her clothes bc she had convinced me to go out #and my god was she cute and supportive and sweet about it #and I really really needed all that #she’s that friend that always gets hit on when we’re out if you remember That story of me being miserable #WELL the queue in front of the club was too damn long so we just went home again so that was great for me ahdjgj #all in all such a lovely day I adore her lots she made me feel so loved today

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#my therapist teaching me a mindfulness technique: so what do u think? #me: this is like how vulcans deal with their emotions. they recognize them and set them side. acknowledge and accept #also i need to send these thoughts away on icebergs in the ocean instead of on clouds in the sky #its the exact opposite of what u were saying but i think abt the terror so god damn much its infected me down to the bone #literally anything she tells me i gotta b like: how can i either relate this to media or fold this into a metaphor? #bc i guess thats just how my brain works idk. #ugh. saw the psychologist and psychiatrist today and now theyre perscribing me ab1lify #hope it works. i dont have the perspiration in hands yet. i wish my brain would just b Normal #but i feel generally better than i did last week already #they think im sensitive to medication. either my body or my mind. ie. i freak myself out and my body reacts #so i convince myself im having a reaction. they haven't said that but im sure theyre thinking it bc im also thinking it lol #cant pin me down. my mind is too slippery #things i did not think would happen to me: a bip0lar diagnosis and prescription for anti psychotics #unrelated

[running-in-the-dark]

my mother just told me that she used to take small scales into restaurants to weigh all the food she ate :)

#oh I wonder why I've always had disordered eating habits. couldn't possibly be her views on this stuff #she's convinced she eats normally now. (she eats the same amounts as a small child 🙃) #it'd be funny that she's caused all her children and grandchildren to have issues with this stuff if it wasn't so damn sad #tw disordered eating