#shes still too cold

[hazystars]

sourdough starter update: it’s still alive and doin ok but it’s been too cold for it even in it’s warm spot :( so it’s not rising as much as it should 😭

#kendra talks #i wanted to make sourdough bread this weekend but i don’t think i’ll have enough starter :( bc it won’t rise!!!! #too cold #idk what to do to make her warm i put her in a supboard next to the oven… wrapped her in a blanket #shes still too cold #but ik she’s alive bc she has bubbles every time i go to feed her

[foursaints]

hi <3

first of all, i wanted to tell you i'm always stalking your blog (in a non creepy way) because i love everything about it. mostly i love how you use your big brain™️ to share some insanely detailed headcanons about some silly dead gay wizards (i mean that in the nicest way possible. i'm a little bit in love with you actually . anyway i'm digressing)

second of all, i wanted to know if you could share some of your thoughts about bartylily🤲🏻 because i'm fairly sure you're the main reason i'm hooked on them

much love <333

ANYTHING for bartylily... lately i've been attached to the idea of a college au where they're Rival Campus Radio Station Hosts.

barty is a spectacularly unmotivated senior who dropped out of a prestigious engineering degree to study practical SFX for horror movies instead. everyone has vague, peripheral knowledge of him after an incident where he was found passed out naked in the campus fountain. his apartment with the slytherins isn't technically a frat house but there's a structure in the kitchen affectionately referred to as the "Leaning Tower of Miller Lite" & barty has a nearly imperceptible crescent-shaped chip in his front tooth from a keg-standing mishap. he wears a lot of chains and has several john carpenter themed tattoos and he REEKS like cigarettes. so many pairs of mystery panties turn up in his laundry hamper that his housemates have started calling it the Lost And Found.

he has a deeply beloved & charmingly unpolished radio show in the primetime spot which mostly consists of him having his friends on, spotlighting terrible underground bands, and making drily ironical, beautifully mean jabs.

lily is an overzealous sophomore who's triple-majoring in three equally unmarketable degrees (it's, like, polisci & international affairs & communications) who's blessed with the gift of taking every single thing that happens on campus WAY too serious. she runs their Model UN like it's the navy. she's the RA who is always marching around her floor in a spaghetti-strap tanktop & bunny slippers with a scrunchie on her wrist, shaking her fist at people. there was a period following her breakup with james where she was literally reading Machiavelli for inspiration. she's right on the precipice of the cool-girl academic meltdown that will lead to Serious Character Growth, but she isn't quite there yet.

her well-made and well-researched radio show is relegated to the midnight timeslot, and even though all her friends listen to it she probably got into a spat with them for saying something along the lines of "obviously i dont care if its just YOU listening to it, remus!!!". she hate-listens to barty's show which she considers (lily voice) An Affront To Collegiate Journalism

they trade barbs at every function and absolutely nobody but the two of them takes their insane imaginary Radio Beef even remotely serious whatsoever. but it's dead serious TO THEM!!! lily is probably camping out in actual bushes with actual binoculars to sabotage his show, and the worst part is that it's actually working. she ISN'T obsessed with him (shut up!!!!!), and barty is mostly just aggravated on principle that the Uptight Lowerclassman Ruining His Life has such nice legs.

and they absolutely bone like crazy about it

#a #this anon made me emotional... warming my ice cold heart #im in love with you too. sorry for getting carried away... they inspire me. #bartylily #t #my lily is usually kind of burnt out & has a shoplifting problem so its nice to have an au where she can be dorkier. #barty is the same as always & i need to **** *** **** about it #one thing about my bcj is that he will always be the worst man on this earth and i'll still love him despite #still a better boyfriend to her than james. sorry #im posting this one a bit late but I always trust that bartylily will find its audience #+ nobody come at me for calling those degrees unmarketable! i am an English major so it's friendly fire !!!

[theeflowerofcarnage]

they will never free my girl nina from that atrocious hair

#simblr #my sims #dina caliente #nina caliente #i think i figured out what was tripping me up abt thier new look #n its that i always thot sims 2 nina n dina had a more warm orange undertone this new one seems more cold or nuetral #w the hair n makeup it looks funky on them #it doesnt match thier undertones so they just look tired in this look i feel the same about what they did to bella goth she cant wear #bright reds like the first bella did shes a dark wine red girly now #im keeping my OG dina makeover just toning down the eyes i love her too much even tho she doesnt really look related to nina #ah well in my head thier still aliens but scary looking this is just thier human disguise #not making them real aliens in game tho it fucks up thier faces so im using cc costumes but shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[blenselche]

AU where Finn collects Fern's grass clippings after 3 Buckets and he pulls himself back together + vanishes for years to figure himself out in the Nightosphere? the three of them live out of his van? it's eating at me and my brain wont let me draw without context. OT3 x The Doom Generation screencap redraws cuz it's my favorite movie and I thought this would be funny but idk who this is for lmao

this movie was my poly/bi awakening it's such a comfort flick for me lol LOOK AT HOW CUTE THEY ALL ARE TOGETHER

#this is so niche and obscure i am so sorry lmfao #the fandom makes HW way too sweet but she still has magic madness MAKE HER SNIPPY MAKE HER SNIDE shes kinda cold and aloof thats okay!! #ferntress #finntress #finnferntress #fern the human #finn mertens #huntress wizard

[sunmoontruth-stiles]

I need a completely rewritten teen wolf series with Derek Hale as the main character. I think it would heal me.

#we follow Derek from New York. Laura left for beacon hills. it’s been six years since he was back but he hasn’t heard from her #and hes going stir crazy waiting. he packs up and travels back. it’s almost too much immediately. he still can’t get a hold of Laura #he can’t resist going home. it’s like a natural pull that guides him back. all at once he’s 16 again. staring at the wreckage of his life #deputy stilinski is sherrif now. it’s reassuring in the slightest that the police force seems to have moved on from how corrupt it was #he catches her scent and it’s putrid. bile catches in his throat. he seeks it out. still in denial to what he knows it means. #when he finds Laura it’s like the world ends all over again. he can’t stand to see her like this. he gives her a proper burial. #the best he can do at least #he visits Peter. he’s not the man Derek remembers- so full of fire and cunning. their relationship may have been strained at times. #often Derek felt more like Eve being swayed by the snake than a normal friendship #but this isn’t the sharp tongued uncle who guided him. this is a broken shell. all that remained of his family. he was so lost. #22 but he barely knew how to function without his family- his pack paving the way #Laura handled everything. she got the apartment. she made sure they had food. Derek looks back and feels so useless #he was so lost in his grief. Laura must of felt the same way but she never let them drown in it #she made sure he got his GED. even got him to enroll in community college classes. #he took them online. he never was able to warm up to people the same way. he used to be so full of life. now he just wanted to be left alone #he studied English. never finished his degree. doesn’t look like he ever will now. he can’t go back to Laura and his shared home. #can’t bare to see another shell of a home #he vents to the vacant audience of Peter and his cold fixed eyes #Derek leaves. he wants to promise he’ll return soon #but promises feel costly these days #he decides to go back to the reserve. maybe he can find some clue as to what happened to Laura #someone lured her here. someone who knew them and their history here #his mind went to the worst. Kate. why would she go through the trouble six years later. why wait so long. #Derek couldn’t stomach the thought of facing her. he focused on the woods. the scents were all over the place. #clearly multiple people had been through here recently. two scents were much stronger. Derek follows them #but when he hears the crunch of leaves he realizes why the scents are so strong. they’re still here #he ducks behind some trees. listening in on their conversation. but an echo of their scent catches his attention #he spots an inhaler on the ground. he puts two and two together and swipes it from the leaves. #he comes out once they’re closer. tossing over the inhaler- he figures they’ll leave. dumb kids messing around in the woods #he reminds them this is private property. though that may not be true anymore. he recognizes the scent of a new beta. interesting.

[antennatoheaven]

i really dont get why some people got angry when betty said "you were a wonderful experience". i found it a sweet line, especially with the context of them facing the faults in their relationship. in the end she was aware they both could have made better choices, but she doesn't regret what she did. she loved loving simon, loved being with him. they now acknowledge that they could have done things differently, but now its time to move on. even after all the heartache and tragedy, she wouldn't change anything. because every second spent together was worth it in the end.

they loved each other, and it was a wonderful experience

#fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #betty grof #simon petrikov #petrigrof #this just makes me think of that one tweet where someone was like “if you're not dating to marry ur dating to break up'' and like... #thats not how it works lol #i know this is rich coming from the person with the aroace icon but listen #relationships aren't just. a thing you do to get from point A to point B #you start them because you just enjoy someone's presence. you want to be together in any way possible because you just. #you love them. you care for them. you want to see them happy you want to see them live #whatever it is you dont just decide from the start how it's going to end #maybe its a language thing but betty describing simon as a wonderful experience doesnt seem cold or uncaring to me #to me it just felt like she was telling simon she was happy they were together #they were both moving on to the next chapters in their life. even if it isn't together she's still happy she had simon on her way there #she forgives him. and now its time for him to move on too

[sysig]

Strictly professional showering (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Alphys #Gaster #''Do Monsters even have showers-'' shhhhhh. Let me have this #Lol #And to think I made this because I Actually wanted to draw him miserably taking a shower! #Probably unsurprising but this was a shower thought lol #I knew as soon as I started thinking about the differences in Snowdin vs. Hotland's temperatures and what that might do to the water- #It was too late! I had to make something about it all my doodles are secretly just a way to smuggle unrelated headcanons out lol #Pipes bursting in Snowdin probably would be a problem for at least like kitchen sinks :0 Need reinforced cold-proof pipes haha #I haven't gotten to Hotland in my current playthrough but there was also the water cooler wasn't there! #Only Waterfall convenient to take showers in lol #ANYway so distractable lol #Gaster doesn't feel even a little bad asking favours lol casually waves it away as ''It needs to be done so it's fine'' #Aren't you worried about being an inconvenience! No he's not lol #And obviously Alphys doesn't mind hehe ♪ #Alphys is the best because basically no matter where you drop it in the timeline she's always going to be awkward and thirsty lol #They've known each other for a few months? They've known each other for a few years? Alphys will still swing-and-a-miss lol #She's really cute heck I gotta practice her more ♫ Curves! Love drawing curves #Really what were you expecting - why would he come out before he's dressed? This isn't his house it's not like he can just wander around #He brought everything in with him that he needed! Silly #If skeletons are fluffy do you suppose they shed? Would she find skeleton fuzz on one of her towels?

[bumblingbabooshka]

Janeway in 'Nothing Human' vs Tuvok in 'Resolutions' There's something here I know there is I can almost wrap my teeth around it.

#I can't watch Nothing Human bc the puppet really disconcerts me #but I cannot believe Janeway really came into B'Elanna's room after all that and the FIRST thing she says...her OPENER is #'Wow it smells awful in here~!' #DUDE....................TIME AND PLACE #HEHEHHE #C'MON MAN #B'Elanna: Is [putting it behind us] an order? / Janeway [normal!]: Yes. #'And what emotion is that?' C'MON MAN!!!!!! #Janeway & Tuvok #Kathryn Janeway #Tuvok #I can see why she and Tuvok are friends #'I understand you're upset but fall in line' #You can be upset but not if effects your work #<- Something which would be fine on a regular ship but is very difficult on Voyager #I think Janeway's certain coldness or ruthlessness which can be aimed at either friend or foe is an interesting #aspect of her personality #Ex: She and B'Elanna COULD have feasibly had a more touching scene together to close out the episode but they don't #I don't know if I'm explaining myself well right now I'm a bit ill and more than a bit tired #Something about uhh maybe....people under their command vehemently and emotionally disagreeing with them/their decisions?? #you can disagree with me but not if you don't follow me anyway #Voyager a ship full of contradictions #they have to all work together and they are all closer emotionally than any other starship due to their situation #but they are also still 'at work' and are expected to follow orders. It's like a 'casual' hierarchy but it's still a hierarchy #and you can't fall too far out of line bc you're someone dear to me #but you're also a valued cog in the machine #and even though you ARE valued you ARE still a cog in the machine #but you're also my dear friend. and all of these things are true at once. #all of that of course but also Janeway & Tuvok are displaying a very particular kind of shared leadership style in these moments #Janeway is obviously on the whole MUUUCH more charismatic and understanding than Tuvok but still - when push comes to shove...

[dirtytransmasc]

Alicent after her husband damns her children, the ones he forced onto her, the ones she carried and birthed and loved and spent her whole life protecting. after he leaves her, dying a pathetic death, leaving her and her children alone in the world, even more than he had before. after her children are robbed from her, meeting fates promised to them at birth, ones she tried so hard to change. after being left to roam an empty keep, the sounds of her children's antics now long gone. after hearing her own cries echo in the septs, but never reaching the gods, rattling the walls of her chambers, yet falling on deaf ears. Alicent after she decides she will be king, in her eldest's stead, she will weild her own sword in place of her most trusted friend and closest son, she will fill the world with her words like her daughter had, she will take revenge as she sees fit as her youngest had:

#she is just so King #I want scene (that we will never get in any universe) of Alicent mad. almost feral with grief. roaming the Keep in a ghostlike haze. her- #tattered. hair down and frazzled. eyes wet but cold and unseeing. her skinned mottled red by her tears. dragging around her dead son's- #bloodied sword. his crown hanging from her head. weighing it down. almost crushing her under its weight. her cries sounding like a- #wounded animal or a spirit from old tales passed around by children and the superstitious. #in this scenario she would be the only survivor of either side #no one dares to remove her. she wields her blade with her agony. of which she has plenty. its not worth the blood spill. #she's too deep in her grief to notice that life has moved on without her #she will continue on her haunting without threat if left to herself #so even once someone's claimed the throne. she still feels herself a mere stand in for her son. like she had been her husband. she was king #everything else had been stripped of her. but she was still this. #| #on another note #finding paintings of ladies with a sword that fit alicents vibe was actually impossible #very frustrating #hotd #house of the dragon #alicent hightower #pro team green #aegon ii targaryen #aegon targaryen #helaena targaryen #aemond targaryen #daeron targaryen #criston cole

[abirddogmoment]

Bird dog activities

#dogblr #rory borealis #dead bird #tw dead bird #cw dead bird #this was her second session on quail and third on birds and she was sooooo good #i can def see the beginning of resource guarding though #need to strategically work on that while its cold before we go out on birds again #the birds are TOO VALUABLE she does not want to share #i mean it is tiny little baby beginning stages #she was offleash and i could still get her and the birds #but i would hate for it to escalate #reminder to put meatballs and sardines on my grocery lisy #need some better trade offers for her while we train #hot dogs and dried chicken arent quite cutting it when shes in bird drive

[hypervoxel]

Enough discourse, I wanna post about headcanons

The Vees are a polycule to me, but in a way that I can't even explain without an entire slowburn fanfic (stay tuned. I'm a slow writer). But I will try.

Velvette:

I do adhere to the lesbian Velvette headcanon. She's dating Vox and still occasionally joins Valentino for a threesome with him. When she first joined the Vees, Velvette used to identify as bisexual (and still loves the bi flag colors the most) and all three of them used to date, before Velvette realized that she's a lesbian.

She and Vox are still dating, and they have an open relationship.

Vox:

Vox's response to Velvette coming out was, "So you're breaking up with Val?" Yes, his pronouns are he/him. No, he's not a man. He'd long shed the fleshy confines of humanity and gender along with it.

Vox is aspec, agender, autistic. To me. He's sex favorable of the 'I want to do it for my partner's enjoyment' flavor. Watching from cameras brings him just as much enjoyment, and he watches everything and everyone, living vicariously, a voyer through the screen. As a result of that, he's so so touched starved, but his sense of feeling is muted (the consequences of betraying flesh in favor of the machine). Soft touches to his synthetic skin don't really register, his sense of feeling restricted to mostly pressure and pain, so he's become a bit of a masochist in response because that's something physical.

Valentino:

He just likes sex. He chases pleasure in any form he can find, dopamine rushes from numerous drugs, orgasmic release, the rush of power from crushing someone underfoot. Anything and everything, he'll try it all. And none of it is really enough, so he'll never stop chasing more.

Valentino doesn't consider his relationship with Vox romantic, even if Vox totally does. They're friends, sure, business partners, absolutely, and fuckbuddies wherever Val is in the mood for it. But romance isn't Val's thing. That's hard work, and Val saves romancing for potential new hires he wants to sign a contract with. What Vox and he have is also written down on a contract, joining their businesses together too closely to be parted without blood, but it's not the same. Not to Val. So, he wouldn't call Vox his boyfriend, but he also wouldn't correct anyone who said they were. Vox is someone he can let his guard down with, one of the few people who would never want to get out of the contract their names are signed on. They work well together. That's better than any romance you can get in Hell, Val thinks.

Val and Velvette are catty besties. Pan/Lesbian solidarity and hostility all in one.

#the vees #hazbin hotel vees #hazbin hotel velvette #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin hotel valentino #okay i hate typing official tag. we're done here #not done with rambling in the tags tho #ace Vox vs Alastor having wildly different experiences with their sexuality so that even tho they are the same sexuality‚ #that only drives them further apart. is something that can be so meaningful #to me!! #also human Vox in my own little headcanon world had So Many body issues that becoming a TV was an improvement to him #but it's hell so he's still disconnected from his own body by the fact that his skin isn't flesh and doesn't feel #the nerves he came to hate have burned away and the fibre optics glowing inside of him are cold‚ unfeeling light #and now he would rather feel pain than feel nothing #he's rewired his sensors so that pain becomes pleasure - or as close to such that he can feel #velvette is the newest vee of course and she was dropped right in to Vox and Val's situationship #and she quickly found out that Vox doesn't just like watching - he also likes being watched. it was not shocking discovery #he likes her watching Val and him fuck‚ he likes Val watching her fuck him. #and he loves cuddling at the end. she loves it too. they can be so soft. i can make them be soft >:3 #so import to me that their relationships are so fucking toxic tho. they're soft and they're horrible <3 #Ace Vox

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i love haircuts. i cant stop petting the back of my skull

#ITS SO FUZZY!!!! #ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE IVE BUZZED THE BACK!!! #im so smooth and streamlined... like a Seal... #Yes my head is cold. oh but i feel so so free #and! AND! it will make wearing hairnets so much easier & more comfortable #it was very funny tho #the stylist gave me the rundown on what she did #and added that she kept it kinda soft looking to give it a more Feminine feel while still being a masc haircut #as i stood there. in my pin-covered vest. Not Giving A Shit lmaooo #like thank you??? i am going to make it look masc as fuck anyway #i Do appreciate her attention to detail tho! she was very thorough! #it should grow out nicely until i trim it again #absolutely unprompted #tho i miss my lil' sideburns... i let her buzz the sides/back a bit too short... #when will they return from the war... #man i love getting my hair cut tho #i usually Hate it when anyone is in my space bubble but... sigh. its nice #i can just sit and space out while my hair gets cleaned up <3 #its odd. i dont like being touched Except for when its my hair - which i am extremely particular about. i contain multitudes #SIDE NOTE TONIGHT I HAVE HEARD MY FIRST FROG SYMPHONY #opened the back door and!!! Frogs!!! whoa! there's Creatures out there!

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[supahstarrr]

dra girls girls girlllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllz

#dra #ayame hatano #kanata inori #sunny's art #yeah they're sketches but i decided to make it very clean for whatever reason #i hope people notice the pigtails and big strand on top - it was a (kind of) risky choice (had no idea if it would look nice) #(but its nothing too major methink) #i gave inori's hair those aspects since its suppose to hint to something- i wont mind if people ask me though gnoigjgpo #ALSO it was the perfect time to give inori some loose socks!!! i found it interesting that she wears socks with slippers but #although its most likely due to her less likely getting feet germs if she wear socks- i like to imagine her ankles be getting cold #like idk man maybe she just like me getting cold feet and ankles bc of anemia idk idk idk #anyway i havent added the cheek lines in a while... even tho its like a big aspect of my artstyle at this point. so i decided to do it here #ive drawn most of the girlz. unsure if i should just try drawing some of dra dudes or draw maki next #oh okay these tags are getting longer ahaha but anyways im very unsure if ill like. make a bigger piece compiled of all the girls #and finish the sketches. but im hoping i might make more dra art soon? since im still watching it

[hamartia-grander]

Jesus fucking christ I hate the US south

#Cw gun mention I guess #I was feeling super nauseous so I went into the kitchen to get ritz crackers #And we're at my grandma's rn for Christmas and she has windows in the kitchen that look out at the road/other houses #And NO curtains or blinds because she's old #And anyway I turned a small light on so I could see the crackers and I hear a fucking man outside shout “WHO'S OUT THERE” #In the heaviest southern accent. Mind you every fucking person in this area has a gun bc there's lots of trees with squirreld they shoot #And logically now that I am calming down I know it was just a bad coincidence and he was probably yelling at smthn in his yard #But jesus fucking christ I felt such immediate intense fear my head went cold #Ran to my baby brother's room bc I was certain someone was gonna come kill us #Then the rationality took over and I just told my mom about it. But now I'm sitting outside his room eating crackers bc I'm fucking paranoid #It is almost 4am and I haven't slept a wink I cannot do this rn #But literally the last time I went for a walk around here my dad told me not to go alone and also not to say anything stupid #And also stay far away from houses bc I could get myself shot #Literally what the fuck is this. #“Afearican” except I'm still very much in the US #Not to mention almost every fucking house has a blue lives matter flag and some have isr*el flags now too like #I fuuuuucking hate it here

[albatris]

o fuck I forgot abt the new vampire support group lmao

#i gotta. write that in there somewhere #alex already attends the group with [redacted] bc she's too nervous to go alone n now it has nat to cart around too #another extremely nervous new vampire #alex does Not want to be there #alex is a vampire that hates vampires it does not want to be here w these Babies #and yet. and yet #alex is perfectly capable of hating vampires it Doesn't know but ofc its too kind to leave nat and [redacted] out in the cold #especially cuz [redacted] ls still just a kid #alex hates other vampires* #*unless it is given the slightest chance to get emotionally attached