#small world and all that haha

[neriyon]

Me: *sets up alarm in the middle of the night* Now I can go sit on the Cloud server with other Azems and watch us get sundered together!

Game: uhhhhh 4am is a great time for your sub to run out right?

#neri.txt #no sundering party for me i guess #< gets their sub by gametime cards. forgot to get nee one and it is indeed 4am :c #oh well i got some cute pics of eleos and i did make it to their discord so uknow #kinda unrelated but everyone's been posting their social medias there and i've actually seen couple familiar names #like in “hey i know my mutual follows/is mutuals with this person!” #small world and all that haha #i'll check then out later for now i guess back to sleep since no cloud sundering for me

[screwpinecaprice]

Just a silly guy, with silly silly thoughts.

@glowweek Day 2

Casual | Surprise

A casual surprise?😬😬����

#Hooooo boiii this lad is about to get funky. #He was internally screaming the whole time. #It's in my core memory as a connverse fan. I'm never truly going to let this up I believe. haha #Our boy really one day went out there wanting to get married as a teen like a true classic Disney princess. 😭 #It was honestly endearing but sad and also pretty embarrassing. 😔 #Secondhand embarrassment aside. Steven is pretty much lucky in the romance department. Which. Deserved by the way. With all the other #crap he had to deal with. #connverse #Steven Quartz Universe #Connie Maheswaran #SU #my shiz #comic #SU comic #glowweek #connverse week #I have no idea if whatever Connie is spouting are actuallt true in real life. Good thing this can be chalked off as just a thing in their #fictional world. #Also I'm glad part of that was covered by Connie's body because I had to take a few notes from chat GPT to add in her enumerated rambling. #I had to make the glow bracelet float like that because I couldn't draw his hand holding it quiet right in that angle. #And yea that size difference is no error. That's how small Connie's wrist is compared to his hands. Or at least something like that. #teal

[logicpng]

studying the brand new raptor hand harlequin

feat. Caroline from the excellent re:curse. yes this is yet another re:curse propaganda post if you like digital clowns you should play it go go go

#tdac #the amazing digital circus #tdac pomni #pomni tdac #pomni #re:curse #caroline re:curse #time to make an au where pomni is just linda being put into caroline's shoes /j #eyestrain #eye strain #bright colors #<- all because of the last image lksdfjdlf #haha similarly shaped clowns jokes aside there were like. two moments in the pilot that very distinctly brought curious contagion to mind #makes me wonder it there's a chance it could inspire pomni in any way #small world kind of thing! #doodle post

[rendside]

your art is beautiful im rly curious about your wc ocs as well!!! what happened to harpy?

Harpy’s injury was by an attempt to drown him on the day where he was supposed to become the leader, by the previous leader. (Leaders in greater way are known as crown holders.)

#my art #until it tastes like prey #harpy #screech #this story takes in a post apocalyptic world where humans have died out and everything is mutated but thst isn’t the focal point . #this story is about cats constantly discovering god but they do this to make sense of their place in the world #this story is about discovering about how infinitely small they all are… #anyway. harpy isn’t a main character. but he is important as he leads Greaterway’s clan. #one day I’ll get into detail! have you seen that post that tells you that math was constructed #by god just to show humanity how infinitely TINY they are compared to everything.. that math is so vast that it exists to act #as a complex form that reminds us that we are #fleshy disgusting tiny crying pissing puking digesting creatures that r inherently… just that #THATS WHAT THIS STORY IS I THINK… haha… #it’s post apocalyptic because these cats stare in the wake of the creations of humanity and it’s scary. #they can not make sense of it. and it’s really scary. #god.. waow. #greaterway #warriors oc

[payasita]

I just want to say you were my first introduction to slay the princess so I partially blame you for my current hyperfixation/j thank you I am deranged over eldritch horror princess and Just Some Guy eldritch horror bird (they are everything to me)

OH I will ask: who is your favourite princess/voice and why? Mine is voice of the contrarian bc he just like me fr, and thorn bc 🫶🫶

WOO glad you're into it! Definitely up there with my favorite games of all time

god I'm gonna have to give you a list. this was a much much longer answer because I have several paragraphs to say for Many Of My Favorites but I'll spare this blog the vomit for now until I can structure parts of it better

fave princesses: Witch and all its routes, Specter and all its routes, Nightmare and all its routes

Fave voices: Stubborn, Skeptic, Smitten. special shout-out to Opportunist for consistently having the best dialogue in the game tho, he sucks and I love him so much

Favorite routes: Razor, Thorn, Damsel

LEGITIMATELY it's so hard to pick but for the sake of giving Some explanation, the razor has to be my favorite for how it exists as the purest subversion of both the story the game is telling (which is itself a subversion of classic monsterslaying fairy tales) and it sort of has to get kind of meta, but it leans into it SO joyously. you as the protagonist being constantly split because the story plot twisted itself so fucking hard that it just. Broke Everything

and the result is absurd and horrifying and slips away from any kind of growth or cogency until both protagonists are stripped completely bare, and it's weird and it's hilarious and no one is having a good time except for the very AGENT of shifting perspectives, no longer constrained by any world or singular force that matters!

and also. How could I not pick the route that gave us The Look™.

#slay the princess #slay the princess spoilers #I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS AND MY HANDS ARE SO SMALL AND COLD #stubborn is right tho. she is the Perfect Woman #i have a soft spot for damsel and thorn for reasons very similar to each other and a lot less interesting haha #fairy tales and romantic heroes were a childhood fixation of mine and that drew me to the game in the first place #the damsel and the smitten are so fucking silly. i love the idea of THOSE two being unleashed on the world #literal gods who can remake reality because they adore each other so much with all the innocence of disney teenagers. like #DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW CATASTROPHIC THAT WOULD BE FOR THE WORLD? #THEYRE SO STUPID. THEYRE GODS. HIS FIRST ACT AS A FREE MAN WAS TO TRY AND PLUCK ALL HIS FEATHERS TO MAKE HER A COAT WHEN SHE FELT CHILLY #IM CONVINCED THEY WOULD MELT EVERYTHING #Okay im done for now i mean it this time #i wrote all this on the clock<3 #edit: dont get me started on the narrator also. I forgive him

[sysig]

Beautiful gilded cage for a beautiful gilded bird (Patreon)

#Doodles #Helix #Max Vyer #Dexter Favin #Every time I reread Helix I'm just like ''Max is a bad person (affectionate)'' #I love him!! He's terrible!! ♥ #And for all the talk of how much he's been given - and it Has been a lot make no mistake #I just can't get over how often he was failed as well ♥ #Idle rich indeed ♪ #Honestly a lot of these thoughts are around Dex specifically but he only shows up for a few of them! #But a lot of Max's circumstances in general apply - his family and name and environment and what he's given passes on #Still thinking about the kind of life that would cultivate him! 'Cause he certainly doesn't have it haha #Also somewhat inspired by Aishite Aishite Aishite - always #Specifically the line ''No matter how large you grow the necklace stays small'' - here a cage rather than a necklace #Maybe he started small - maybe he's still small! But the expectations built around him with nothing to grow himself or his life #It does not encourage him to grow larger. It encourages him to stay small and satisfied with the small world erected to hold him in #Personally I don't think he ever got to the point where it would crush him haha <3 I love him but his motivations..... #He's a hedonist ♥ I love that about him tho - I deeply enjoy his characterization hehe #But I think if he ever Did grow he'd still have been stifled - simply a different tragedy from what actually occurred #Finally back to Dex haha - it's not just that Max was raised in a beautiful cage! His keeper(s) did just as much harm as good! #I don't think Dex ever intentionally tried to push him down but I can't help the feeling of....enjoying? Max relying on him #Feeling useful - Being useful - being paid to care for the little lord and growing a genuine affection for him #Coddling him and not letting him spread his wings because have you seen Max? He'll only hurt himself! Never letting him fail not really #It's something I'm familiar with. How it kills the soul even with the most admirable intention. #And by the time he finally escaped he was molded to the shape of the cage - even when he really hurt someone he was put right back in #Max is not a good person ♥ But I really wonder how much of that is 100% his own fault ♫

[rivilu]

While we all know about Hawke's character-assasination in inquisition, I personally remain.. preplexed? a morbid kind of impressed? with how that game also managed to butcher my Warden with only about 5 lines of dialogue referring to him and a letter.

#dragon age #dai critical #mostly everything leliana says #because look. they were friends in origins. But it was doomed from the get-go #and that's kind of the beauty of it in origins isn't it? The setting of war makes a lot of room for relationships that would in any other- #place in time- any other scenario be impossible- to happen! #for Orion this applies to Sten and Morrigan too. #The whole thing of- one day you will walk out of Denerim and into a life that will entirely contrast my every value; #Stealing Dalish artifacts. Becoming Arishok. Working as left hand of the Divine. #Next time we see eachother chances are we will no longer be on the same side #we both know this but tonight we still gather around the campfire. we still sing. we still laugh; exchange gifts and talk about the world. #it's bittersweet yes but it's the type of tragedy that feels like everyone involved already knows and is at peace about it #So when inquisition comes around and Leliana tells me Orion is still a close friend of hers? It feels like it cheapens the whole thing #Yes the devs can't possibly account for every possible way either installment can be played just for those small moments #But that is WHY they should either be bringing the old protagonists back as playable or simply not include them at all #The warden I made would not even leave room to question that he and leli are now on hostile terms #and he CERTAINLY would not send a polite little letter to a force whose purpose is to restore the chantry to power #And then you have the throne room chatter. which i straight up hate im not going to be poetic about it #the fucking da keep remains horrendous #oh we desperately need to have shithead npcs shittalk the hof . what? your hof did NOTHING that would warrant that? haha too bad #you simply can't pick what you actually DID in those quests #You found Bevin didnt take the sword and just gave them 5 gold out of the goodness of your heart? No you didnt #You just persuaded the random mercenaries in the gnawed noble tavern to leave? No you killed them #it infuriates me

[volivolition]

what's the theme you're fucking going for here voliiii!!! what are you fucking getting at!!! what are you trying to say, what's the point??

#still working on this drama chapter in Swept Up. they're. confusing to work with? from an empathy standpoint at least. #skill who is trying to honestly understand the other skills VS skill who is just always lying and putting on an act. #and then theres the whole thing that im not going to spoil yet but the dynamic. fuck man. i dont even know what im trying to say here #lying is bad? no i dont care about that. honest communication is important maybe? i feel like i need a central theme for this. #and i dont want the theme to be ''empathy good'' because low-empathy people are also good and i love them!! and also: #empathy is a flawed character!! i try to portray this. i dont like moralism/centrism which empathy believes in and is the main skill for #empathy you stupid centralist (affectionate) i know this is just because you don't know how to make everyone happy. who can fix this? #you dont think you can fix this! you feel too much debilitating sadness to make meaningful change!! responsibilite to others more capable #still. i do depict empathy as often kind on a small level because i think that's in character. empathy just helps you understand. #i guess this fic is also a ''empathy doesn't mean kindness. kindness is a choice you can make afterwards but empathy just means empathy'' #but that's not a centralizing theme that all the chapters share. its also about vulnerability and the mortifying ordeal of being known #urgh. i'll think about it some more. knowing me its probably another ''love (in all forms) is the meaning to life'' type story lmao <3 #i need to make a skill chart for this harry. all i know is that Volition is his skill signature but Empathy is his highest stat #hyper-empathetic harry with the rsd that comes from adhd!! haha!! suffering. everybody fucking hate you. this is based on me btw lmao #i was working on voli's chapter which has a flashback and child empathy! new to the mindspace looking out through harry's eyes and crying #the world is full of sad people and it's just too much for a lil guy! the backstory i have planned for this like. huh okay. wild. anyway!! #oh shit ive made a fucking breakthrough with the drama chapter. its not a theme but its something i figured out at least. we stay winning!! #chemi chats #task: swept up

[fellhalcyon]

finally watching triage and i love how tin is implied to be really great at saving people’s lives but absolute shit at every other method of interaction. obviously i understand what he’s doing but this is ep3 and i’m amazed tol has not called the cops on him yet

#*walks into a university building all gaunt and pale like a ghost in his er scrubs* #*stops the resident it boy* You Will Die Tonight #later on: *just happens to be around the corner ready to save the day three times in succession* haha yeah what a small world !!1! #oh no it's my fRiENd who has a crush on you !!!! #nooo we're facebook friends this is clearly not a stranger danger situation please please please come over to my house #please #i have a cat??? do you want to see the cat?????? #does tol possess a self-preservation instinct at all is the question #triage the series #triage tin #triage tol #tintol #tin x tol

[galaxseacreature]

Last week I helped with a training for one afternoon and we were in a lovely little park by a lovely little stream and many of the salmonberries were ripe! And I couldn't figure out how that snuck up on me so completely. Someone pointed out that it's June and I just laughed it off as how time flies by. Only many hours later I realized-it’s because of my new job. I started at the beginning of May. A month of not being significantly outside near daily after two years of it. That's all it took. Such a short time to come so untethered

#I really am happy about my job! but I have been thinking melancholy thoughts about this #I've really come to value the low key awareness of natural rhythms #Not for a purpose just in general like oh the osoberry leafs out first in the spring and watching the relative order of things #I don't want to be like one of those white girls but when I volunteered on Kuaihelani we had a huli 'ia practice #And regularly communicating our observations of seasonal changes across the landscape legitimately improved my ambient awareness #And...idk I felt like that skill made me more...in context as a creature of the world #So yeah 2 years outside almost every day and I didn't have a log or anything but the general awareness has been a part of me #So to be blindsided so badly #To miss all the middle stages of salmonberry ripening. Not to have a first day of seeing a ripe berry in the field #It's grief. A small petty tremendous grief #Like I'm ok and it's a valuable reminder I need to figure out how to get myself outside closer to every day again but on my own time #But it's real #And so is being happy about my new job genuinely! I just needed to express this too and I don't have great spaces to do that #So here we are! Thanks for listening if you're still here haha

[broodygaming]

So I finally finished watching Steven Universe. Watched the movie and the last season (series?) in like a day haha. Feeling really ??? about it??? In a good way. I enjoyed it. It was so cathartic and I totally sobbed etc etc

In a very unflattering way I am terrified I feel like I relate a little too much to Spinel. The fear of being overbearing, being left behind. Someone close to you lying to spare your feelings but ultimately being more hurtful because of that. I often feel I’m just Too Much for those around me. I want to talk a million miles a minute about all these hyperfixations and shit and most ppl aren’t up for that. I just keep thinking about that look that Pink gave her right before she lied to her to leave her behind. Those tiny indicators of annoyance just flying over Spinels head. And then when she shows up to seek revenge her whole song has this very big kinda FOMO energy to it. “What did she say about me what did she say?” Gods that is such a relatable feeling.

And something a friend told me a little bit ago, that maybe just maybe…. it’s not that I’m inherently annoying but that I’ve often been surrounded by ppl who just aren’t that kind to me. Like, I have a fear that statistically speaking at some point it’s my fault haha. Like everyone I’m close to gets tired of me, gets exhausted or feels like they have to tolerate me. But maybe, just maybe that’s just a big coincidence and out there are ppl who might just like me for me. All my spazziness and excitement for things like DnD and kids shows and all.

Anyways having a lot of normal feelings about that and also !!!! The whole “I’m a monster” thing really reminds me of Made of Stone from the off Broadway version of Hunchback of Notre Dame and BOY do I have emotions about that!! Jfc I could literally write a book!

#this is all over the place #and I just don’t care haha cuz this is tumblr where I’m allowed to be Extra #the whole scene with Connie’s mom explaining to Steven that he’s been through trauma and his body is reacting to small stresses #like it’s the end of the world? holy shit #HOLY SHIT #and him saying How do I live when I constantly feel like I’m dying?? #omfg omfg omfg omfg #my heart #i just feel so stupidly seen hahaha #this is why kids media is the best #show me that solvable problem #I’ll do the hardest part with you

[penisliker-moved]

CHIHUAHUAS R SO IMPORTANT OK!!!!! THEEEE BEST DOGS IMO....

#im biased bc i had s chihuahua mutt. but like genuinely #ppl who HATE chihuahuas and other small dogs #what the avtual fuck is wrong with you. get a life #'THEY LOOK LIKE RATS !!!' ok so do u ugly. at least th chihuahua doesnt ALSO have a shitty personality #whatever #im so passionate sbt chihuahuas i love them sm they deserve th world #and.like. its fine to not like them its fine to prefer other dog breeds #but the fucking Hatred you guys have for a little fucking animal. whats wrong with you. GET A LIFE!!! #like th favt that bringing uo chihuahuas. 80% of th time somebody will be like haha yeah ^-^ I wanna run a chihuahua over i wanna strangle #one. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!! THERES NO FUCKJNG WORLD IN WHICH THATS FUCKING NORMAL. #PPL WILL JUST FUCKING SAY IT THO AJD THEN SMUGLY LOOK ST YOU LIKE. WHAT! WHAT! WHAT! #i have problems with social cues fuckjng believe me but if somebody mentions their beloved childhood dog im not gonna tell them #abt my weird fantasy of brutally murdering that entire dog breed. thats fucking freak behavior #Cnnyou tell this hss happened 2 me. multiple times #like maybe im judt oversensitive bc my dad hurt my dog a lot. But i judt dont see how its funny. Like at all #even if i didnt have like. a history of trauma surrounding chihuahuas specifically being abused. Its still fucking weird. #ive never had a golden retriever but if somebody talked ovsessively abt wanting to kill one thats Also fucking gross and disgusting #and everybody would agree. why sre chihuahuas the fucking exception. whatever #animal abuse #animal desth #a2t #sry.

[byrdblood]

listen sometimes adulthood is cutting potatoes for soup in your bed at 4:49 am because your tiny apartment doesnt have a kitchen, the desk you usually cut soup ingredience at is dirty, and you're too tired and depressed to clean, but you still need to eat

#keegan talks #i mean im cutting them on a plate not my lap obv but like #man. i do be feelin like a gremblin #side note; small vent: #i hate it when i watch jacksepticeye play any sort of home renovating game #and he looks at an apartment thats huge and very nice #just like maybe with some third world typical paint chipping or shoddy plaster work #and he gets SO judgemental bout it #and im like #haha yeh #*looks at my apartment which is for all intents and purposes worse* #*feels judged* #like leave me alone bro i dont got the moneys #this lil conc creat box may not be much but it's mine :( #and its better than my last place #my last place i didnt even have a bed or an air mattress #here i got a bed and a desk and fan and a good bathroom and a lil portable stove for cookin on #im doin pretty good!! #get out of here with ur shallow first world ass #at least i dont have fuckin termites and i dont have to worry about my cheap ass wall insulation catching fire and burning everything i own #just conc creat babey!!

[tedhugheshater]

i had a dream with gerard. i miss it already and i just woke up

#so #i was in mcdonalds with my best friend and my bf. and they were saying that gerard was upstairs with some fans #but i didnt want to go upstairs and bother him or sum. so i just go and look for a table (were not actually tables and were school desks) #and in the second row i see him sitting there totally alone. he was like tbp era yk and he looked at me and idk what we talked #so i sit next to him and we start talking. but wait we are not talking like face to face which would be the obvious thing to do bc hes next #to me -we were talking via twitter. like he tweeted something snd i answered and so on. i dont remember exactly what he was saying but it #was very gerardesque bc in my dream i went like god hes really back on twitter this IS gerard. at a moment a fee fans were also answering #to his tweets obvs and there was like a conversation between me and g and the fans made comments and casually joined every now and then #we were joking with him ablut blood and he said something smong the lines 'i havent listened to all of my songs in some time but you guys #sound as if you listened to all the vynils and then consumed them with ur mouth and swallowed them' normal clearly #they bother him (friendly bc he isnt bothered) with saying shit like haha u r a kinky bitch and thats when he says that #and he says he doesnt even remember what he said in his songs because 'i have written so much' but that he does remember not writing about #girlhood and being a woman -he was joking. so i answer 'gerard. gerard. look me in the eyes' and say abt the times he sang abt girlhood #and i mentioned revenge and not that kind of girl and he laughs like uuuhh u got me i was just joking hehehe. then we continue talking but #now face to face. i ask him what he thinks about argentina (im argentinian and in the dream he was here) and he says he likes it a lot bc #1. its small (????? we are literally the 8th biggest country but okay??? i think he meant like buenos aires is very. narrow streets and cool #like the way its built its weird and unique) and 2. its the only place in the world where it frels like its still the 90s #i know we talked some more but i dont remember by now. next thing i know i am with my mother saying i need her to give me money #because they were playing a concert that night and she was like i cant #and i think i was like damn okay ill ask gerard themself if i can do it free if i go with them but then i woke up #rad. the first part felt very real btw #then i was just showing symptoms of illness and being chrinically online /j #but yeah. that i guess. i never remember when i dream eith him #music #mcr #emo #gerard way #we didnt even eat at mcdonalds we were just sitting there

[fiery-is-in-pain]

writing a lovely fanfic and I am going to make several madou fans cry their eyes out <3

#madou fans: NOOO YOU CANT JUST HAVE PRIMP AND SUZURAN AND MADOU BE ONE WORLD AND MESS UP THE TIMELINE!! #me having all the primp and suzuran be toddlers and have schezo travel with baby arle and rulue: haha lol #comtext: little baby 14yo schezo takes care of little arle (small) and rulue (6-7) and travels around l #this means I simply HAVE to put in the puyo cast. found family bitch #talking with fiery

[itsukicoded]

🥀.

#looking at these job listings……..i thought i was better adjusted to life since three years ago.. #the thought of having to speak with other people is really kind of stressing me out a little bit……ahaha #i just am not good with other people with their unpredictable thoughts and emotions and tendencies to misunderstand me when im talking with #them…and im just so so tired….and stubborn haha im already rooted to the spot where i am i have to so careful about that sort of thing i #can’t help but cling to anything i touch w a twisted sense of responsibility im not atlas but it certainly feels that way sometimes #people places things survive even without my clumsy touch i both don’t believe that statement but also build all my insecurities on it. ig #the reason why i can’t move on is because i never solved the problem to begin with—there is such a big world outside of the scope of my own #walls i haven’t truly recognized that yet…bc the thought is still so terrifying; the unpredictable world while ive gripped white knuckled to #the small environment ive controlled and shaped to my own liking shooing away potential guests but no matter what if i don’t want to keep #stumbling through this time loop ive been pretending is life i have to pull my heels out of the sand and turn my head in a new direction……i #have to say hello and smile and laugh and scowl at people tangible people that have potential to ruin me or rescue me or even both at the #same time even tho the right rope is only a foot off the ground my balance is still poor :/ idk there really has to be some kind of balance #that i can reach….but i know my biggest hang up is that fact that i still have these people pleasing tendencies i have yet to sever #completely. there are parts that i want to showcase but don’t know how bc it’s so simple to just lean into whats familiar running away and #running myself into the ground…i can’t never collect myself out loud the way i can on paper #im too tired to try and make this make sense but i haven’t done any sort of growing at all! all ive done is listened to some music and #download an app game everything about me is exactly as it was three years ago except now i can fucking drive how disheartening i……..like i #have a dream so so out of my reach…..but i need human connection to reach such a point? i wish i could do everything on my own i don’t #really want friends at all im enough for myself #or maybe it’s just midnight and i can barely hold my eyes open bc of how much ive been working lately #personal