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miyarii · 3 years

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-crash and burn-

Pairing: Kei Tsukishima x Reader

Genre: Angst (bc i like to feel like a lil shit)

Summary: He loved you- emphasis on 'loved'. Now he's tired and breaking it off, but why is he so hesitant when he hears your heart break- and his? Is it you? Or is it his own demons?

Note: ok so i started this like last week, and i just left it in my notes for the whole time and chipped off when i thought of something, so yeah that's my kind of writer's block (if i'm even considered a writer or smth. idrk lawl.). originally, i intended for this one to have mean tsukishima but my brain said "no, let's give him ✨feelings✨". so... i apologize for my brain. we're not really on good terms rn HAHAHA also the main contributors to my writer's block is genshin and jjk since i only started the anime recently after i read the manga like 2 or 3 months ago hehehe so sorry (• - •)'

"Let's break up." The wind carries his quiet voice to you, only three words yet they hold so much meaning- melancholy laced in every syllable, seeping into your soul and weighing you down, stopping you in your tracks.

"...W-what? Why? Did I do something wrong? Is it... me?"

You always thought it was a miracle that Kei noticed you, even more so that he agreed to date. You also expected that this relationship wouldn't last long- even though you always hoped that it would, your doubts of your relationship lasting strayed in your mind since the start. You were just surprised at how sudden it seemed to end.

He stayed silent, not having the energy to talk back, to answer you. He was just done with this. Can't that be enough reason?

You only looked at him in silence, waiting for an answer out of him that he knew wouldn't come. So he stared back.

He wonders to himself. What's making him so hesitant to just leave there and then? Was it his inability to answer you? The pain he'll cause if he just left you there? His own guilt? Or you and your love for him?

Kei wasn't a fool. He might close himself off and act insensitive, but he wasn't oblivious to how you loved him. And he loves- no, loved you too. But then, loved means it's in the past tense, right?

He remembers grumbling about your infinite energy, little study dates at a cafe with your favorite and his, poking fun at you every now and then just for the fun of it because he was bored. A small smile etched into his features at the familiarity of it all, and it quickly disappeared as fast as it showed. Despite all that, he still got tired of it in the end, the routine of doing things with you continuously exhausting him and leaving him with no air left to breathe, crushing and suffocating him until it consumed it whole.

Maybe it wasn't even you who caused this. Maybe it was him. His insecurities of being too harsh to you to the point of you leaving him. Of you finding someone better than him and comparing them. Of you leaving him for someone else. Of not being enough.

Oh, so it was him. How stupid.

"Kei? If it's me, we can talk about it. Am I too noisy? Do I not let you breathe? I'm sorry. I'll stop if you're bothered. I thought you didn't mi-"

"No. Don't say that. It's not you. I just... I can't do this anymore. Don't think you're the problem here." Huh. This is all he could say? How much more of an ass can he be?

"Oh."

"So... you're sure about this? You're really going to end this- whatever this is- like that?" He's resigned to this. He sees your pained smile, struggling to remain strong, willing the tears not to fall. It's as if he can hear your heart break into shards, pieces that would take a long fucking time to heal.

Maybe you should get someone better to put those pieces back together, since he's clearly not good with holding your heart in his hands.

And as he watches you walk away from him and his life, Kei swears he can hear his own heart crash and burn.

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woozi · 3 years

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henlo yza <3 ,

hdjdkd i don't really have much knowledge abt different techniques & kind of dances so when the steps match the lyrics i'm like '!!! wow yes i love it' fhdjdjskks also bc i've grown up watching these kind of dances only so my that's what i tend to notice first hdjdjddk it is also one of the reason why i decided to stan svt dwc, oh my, thanks & our dawn is hotter than day's choreo details really impressed me.

maybe vincenzo is your svt club & ur so valid for that <3 hddjdjekek also pls don't say sorry!! you can talk abt it as much as you want i like knowing what you think. i'll let you know how was it for me when i complete it. & no homecha hasn't ended yet (idk if there are 16 or 14 eps i haven't checked) it does come on weekends, counting this sunday's ep, we're at 12th rn.

i get that fjdjdkkd i used to be the same 😭 always waiting for dramas to end so i can binge watch because not knowing what happens next would kill me. but idk when this happened, my will to watch anything died down bc the eps are just there, available for me to watch anytime. im like 'i'll watch it next time' but next time never comes 💀. this year i've watched no-air ones only hdjssj very surprising for me ( also my wack memory & svt content supports me by forgetting abt it after weekend ends dhdjdkkd) anyway i'm very excited to see how you like homecha!

CHURCH BOY JOSH HDHDJDDKKSLSDJ church boy josh, cringe domestic boy, joshua numbers. we've come up with so many nicknames for him in few asks only 😭😭 dbdjksksk deserve actually. BUT SO TRUE I STILL HAVE NO WORDS FOR HIM. THAT WAS- JUST- WOW OKAY WE SEE YOU 😭😭and dino lip piercing and hoshi eyebrow slit..... so sexy of them. cb concept pictures haven't come out yet & they're already shinning!! love to see that. also now we have gyu and hoshi's wedding reception pictures & cottagecore hannie (with that collarbone picture right in middle >:( wth mister but also hbd ig <3) being added in the equation.

IM CRYINGGGGGG THEY LOOK SO CUTE THEY ARE SO CUTE NOO 😭😭💔 HOW HAVE I NEVER SEEN THESE COVERS WTH (being the ex-directioner and all dhdjkdsksk). I SMILED SO WIDE WATCHING THEM <///3 it's been so long since i heard one thing wow lol. but! this means they know who zayn is. thank you for this jdjssk this is going to keep me happy for some time hdjdke. SUNDAY MORNING EHJEJEKE 😭 thank you <3 dndjdj

IKR???? IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS CB I'M ALSO EXCITED TO EXPERIENCE IT WITH YOU. agreee truly bless svt for helping keeping us from losing it over life (by making us lose it over them) tbh sometimes it worries me too with the way contents keep dropping but just now in these unit interviews being released, perf unit shared how they have ppl who encourage them to be okay with their tiredness. things like that put me at ease. hope they rest well from time to time too. honestly just looking at their tour schedules i used to get tired because these dudes used to have more shows and less day offs and some of them being used to just move from one city to another. i hope in coming years pledis changes that lol.

sameee for the poster release hdjdkeek. also even though there was scheduler, i forgot abt the concept trailer 😭 it was raining & bcoz of that power was out as well & i don't use data dhdjdkdk. i think 5 minutes after 12 kst power came back (you can say joshu's sparkler brought it back hdjdjdks) it literally left me speechless. yk that meme ' everyone remembers what they were doing & where they were when it happened ' that's me & you with this cb hfjdkd honestly that's everyone with this cb me thinks.

seventeenies bringing the grass to you w their posts djdjkd ( btw you can always tell me if silly little jokes get out of hand i wouldn't ever like to make you uncomfy) but seriously i hope uni doesn't give you hard time. don't worry much just keep moving forward, at some point whatever is making you feel stuck will move away eventually.

is it that obvious? 😭😭😭😭 no i don't like rain at all dhjddk (i actually didn't dislike it as much during teens) mostly because road drainage system sucks here & we live in lower area so even moderate rain causes water logging. i'd give you some rain but this one's bad so i won't </3 ( as if i could if it were the good one 💀) stay hydrated!!! drink two sips of water everytime you hear dino laugh, i hope it cools a little soon.

that's what being on tumblr since 2012 does to you 😭 ALSO UR SO FUNNY PLS, SO ARE THE MEMES YOU USE FOR ASKS DJDJDKD. *hands you bunny headband dino* it's dangerous outside take this, you too stay safe out there 😭😭😭😭 love you too <3 and thank YOU for hanging out w me hehe :3, also dw tbh these asks have become one of the highlights for me now & i'm only using my free time excluding resting time, i hope you are too, no pressure at all! dw about being late - 🪂

ps - did i tell you i actually followed your svt blog around the time everyone was guessing your biases hddjkddj i sent mingyu & jeonghan dhdjdj that was my first ask :3 - 🪂

henlo, 🪂!! <3 <3 <3

honestly it doesnt matter to me tbh <3 if people enjoy the dance its all that matters!! and omg i can see that!! i love the svteenies always bring something fresh to the table

omg that means you're near the end 😭😭😭 i keep seeing gifs of it on my dash and it makes me feel a lil lovesick ngl HJFHJFHD why is it so TENDER????????????????

ok but that's so valid too bc that's me rn with in the soop.... i literally have not watched the 6th ep yet 😭 and i'm getting the feeling youre mentioning w swf now because i literally always look forward to tuesdays just for the next ep HJDHJDS also i am dumb what are no-airs HJDHJDHHD and ur not alone tbh <3 i have also been super forgetful lately and that is not like me fdhjdfjhdfhjdfhj we're rotting in this hellsite ig

love bullying him i just wanna know how he'd react if he gets upset <3 i dont think we've ever seen angry josh and i wanna make him angry sm HSDHJSDJ im glossing over dino lip piercing to directly go over hOSHI EYEBROW SLIT BC HELLO??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? ive never really liked eyebrow slits but he makes them look so- i want him to hurt me HJDSHJDHJDS ALSO THE LATEST SET OF PHOTOS OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD they're giving me what i've been asking for i love being here sm <3 soonyoung's so chummy w everyone have u seen his photos w jihoon last night 😭 he's literally tamed the actual tiger icb this. and no oh my god i do not Know what Collarbone Jeonghan is i have erased him from my memories thank u

HDSHDSJDSHJDS the ex-directioner is so funny to me 😭 i think we have all been there one way or another <3 and ofc omg <3 i'm glad my core svt memories make u happy HSDJHJDFHJHJDSF

they literally said escapism hELP ME 😭😭😭😭😭 i think they're also just workaholics in general. i would be too if i actually enjoyed what i did for a living 😭 and are we even gonna get tours in the near future.... this is so sad i havent even seen them irl </3

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OMG that's terrible, i hope u guys were okay though :/ AND NOT THE JOSH SPARKLER FDDHJFHDFHJFDHFDH now i have to think about him oh my god i think i passed out a little when eyebrow piercing josh came on screen and just full on blacked out when the match scene came on tbh 😭 JKSDJKDSKDS ITS LIKE THE PANDEMIC!!!!!!! WE WILL RMB!!!!!!!!!

ALSOO NOOO OMG i dont feel uncomf at all and u should also tell me if i do make u feel so <3 thank u for even mentioning that!! also love that they're Doing It All for us we dont even have to go out to touch grass anymore HJDSHJSDJ i've actually been v happy w uni omg!! just that i often feel stressed bc they give us sm things to do </3 thank u for ur kind words!!

that's the price of being an adult JDJSJKD now we gotta think of things like.. idk the effects of rain 😭😭😭 i used to even love it when it flooded as a kid HJDSHJSDHJ now i get anxious too!! i love all kinds of rain though so i wont mind JKKSDKJSDKJD just that other people might be affected </3 wish i had my own rain cloud on some kind of leash lmao. ALSO IF I DRINK WATER EVERY TIME I HEAR DINO LAUGH FDHFDHJDFHD gonna be bloated but hydrated af ngl

oh my gOD YOU WERE HERE SINCE 2012???? we're literally sick bestie <3 i genuinely think tumblr has changed something fundamental in me and my way of thinking has not been The Same as idk.. regular people ig JDSHJSDHJSD THE OFFLINE PEOPLE!! smth about tumblr is so <3 sick but also i love this hellsite so 😗 AND NOOO NOT THE MEMES FDHDFHJDF its my broken sense of humor and inability to convey emotions properly HHSDHJDSHJ

BUNNY HEADBAND DINO?????????????????????????????????????? honestly he'd bring me more harm than protection i'll say that much 😭

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 that genuinely made me feel so warm & fuzzy, i always look forward to your messages too <3 <3 <3 i hope u always have good days u deserve it for being such a sweetheart

WAIT HELLO???????????????????????? YOU'VE BEEN HERE FOR SO LONG THEN 😭😭😭😭😭 and im so impressed you didnt get weeded out ngl HFDHJFDHJFD icb you've been witnessing me going more ill everyday <3 ur a soldier

and u are partially correct abt mingyu & jh <3 at least during the time JSDJDSJKSDJK i think i've been desensitized to mingyu now but i still love him sm <3 he's just so cute and cutesy boys kinda infuriate me in an affectionate way so HJSDHJDSHJDSH

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mysticwhatnow · 7 years

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Hello you wonderful lil human, I was wondering if you do male Mc stuff, and if you'd do something with RFA + v + saeran first date thingy??? Sorry if I'm bothering you,,, p.s. ily

Alright, male MC it is!

Yoosung

he was super nervous!! finally getting to take mc out on a date

he had spammed you the previous night before and all morning

“are u sure u wanna go” “are u all ready” “you’re not gonna get sick?”

he’s a worrisome boy

but when he arrived his nerves got worse and worse

he was legit bouncing in the car

when you walked out of the apartment and saw you he nearly fainted

your short brown hair was brushed nicely

and you were wearing a nice sweater that was like your normal one

and shoes and nice jeans

you looked really handsome!!

you guys had both planned to go on a picnic, out at at the park at night!!

when you got there you laid out the blanket and food and you cuddled with your boyfriend

when the stars came out, he ended up kissing you!!

he was so shy about it tho

like help this boy

but all in all it was a great night!! you told him you would love to do it again

Zen

okay okay okay so

i really really imagine zen taking you out a nice restaurant?? just somewhere small? excluded?

he wanted alone time with you, not with just his fans and you

he arrived at your apartment around 5 pm

he wanted to walk with you, not take a car

romantic walks, ya know??

he waits patiently at the door until he sees you walk out

hes totally in love

you wore a nice shirt, hair combed and the wild mess it usually was combed down

black jeans and brown boots cause yes

he walks with you holding your hand!!

hes all blushy cause aAAA you’re his boyfriend!!!

once you guys arrive at the restaurant you guys are led to the back by some people

he didn’t wanna hide you from EVERYONE of course

just the crazy fans

he holds your hands as you smile at him and you guys talk and talk

it’s just consistent rambling about whatever

he loves your voice, tbh

once you guys leave he drops you off at your apartment and swiftly kisses you

he talks to you obv on the chatroom tho

but will forever be red faced from that kiss rip

Jaehee

okay okay but like

coffee festival

she like gets all excited at the store and hands you a ticket

and is like “we should go, mc!!! definitely!!”

you’re all for it cause she looks adorable tbh

so you guys end up going and jaehee looks adorable!!!

she has a nice skirt that flows and a t-shirt and her long hair is braided and she looks cute

you decided with simple jeans and nice t-shirt

both are shy as heckle

but you grab her hand and you guys hold hands the whole festival!!

she shows you all the nice coffee and u buy her a cup from each different type

she’s super happy omg u love her

when you guys head home you kiss her quickly

she squeaks and it’s super adorable

ur both blushing but she says goodnight and leans up to kiss you before scurrying off

yOU NYOOM OFF TO SCREAM INTO A PILLOW

Jumin

what,,, where does he take you

he legit calls jaehee for help

she says to take you somewhere you love

so he always lays down hints and stuff

and he’s so bad at it

but he eventually figures out that maybe a aquarium would be nice?

he doesn’t know but he knows there’s this nice place that his company owns for some reason

probably for some sort of cat reason

he informs you to get ready early and so you get ready at 10:30 hair ready and dressed nicely

the usual sweater and jeans!! and converse cause their life

jumin is actually dressed somewhat casual, the poor boy tries

but he leads you into the limo and he refuses to tell you where you guys are going

it’s a surprise

he can remain calm surprisingly

but when you guys arrive you get really excited!! so many creatures!!

and the place was somewhat empty, so

jumin took care of that

he is very excite cause you seem excited

he’s happy to make you excited

you guys go and look at all the animals!!

he gives you head kisses and tells you you’re amazing and it’s just

aaa!!!

he’s such a sweet boy when he’s not kinky

u love him

after the date you guys go home and cuddle a lot

much cuddles

Saeyoung

this is set after his ending

when he finally stops doing his hacking stuff

and with so much free time now

he wants to do everything with you!!

he takes you out on fancy dates, cheesy dates, or just cuddles in bed

it’s always a surprise

but ur first date was when he took u to mcdonalds at 3 am

and u were in your pajamas

and he was begging u to order smth so he wouldn’t seem lonely

so you go with him tired and order fries

and he parks in the parking lot and eats with you and just leans on you

and surprisingly?????? it’s not??? half bad??

sure you’re tired as hell but hey it’s a date somewhat

and it’s with your favorite bean so

you’re not complaining

turns out these 3 am dates occur a lot now

he takes you e v e r y wh e r e

every fast food restaurant he can go too

he’s there, with you, at 3 am

he finds it cute and you don’t complain, so

Saeran

is just like jumin????

has no clue???

but he eventually decides on the park for you two to go to

and honestly you both enjoy it!!

you’re wearing your normal outfit and he’s just decked out in his normal outfit too

he’s happy

ur happy

he ends up kissing you at the end but then be like “u have a shit face”

you’re like??? what

but he ends up getting distracted by the tiny dogs

like ‘these are the only things i wouldn’t mind killing’

saeran no

when you guys go home tho

he’s super cuddly once more like he usually is when you go home

like “we just went on our first date saeran”

“the more reason to cuddle you”

V/Jihyun

okay but the first date would definitely be to a art/photo museum or smth

you still dress nicely for him even though he can barely see you

he likes to feel your short hair though and kiss your lips

and sometimes feel ur muscles but shh shh

you end up driving the both of you but he keeps talking about how nice it is

though you’re still upset he can barely see all the art!!

when you guys get there you park and lead him in

some art he can barely see so you describe it for him

and it’s just all romantic and you flirt

“all of these are so amazing.. not as amazing as you tho”

he holds your arm/hand the whole time and leans on you sometimes

when it’s over you stand by a nice romantic picture and you kiss him

it’s kind of messy at first but you guys learn how each other work

and the kiss ends really nicely!!

you guys go home (you stay with him since the hacker), and cuddle cuddle

he’s like a cuddle bug like jeez v r u okay

There you go!! I hope it was how you like it!! (Also, sorry I was taking a very,,, very long hiatus).

#mystic messenger #jihyun kim #zen #hyun ryu #jaehee kang #yoosung kim #saeyoung choi #luciel choi #seven oh seven #seven mystic messenger #saeran choi #unknown mystic messenger #v mystic messenger

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