#so i definitely cant draw anything for my HW anniversary this wednesday like i thought

[frecklystars]

today was way too overwhelming... it didnt feel like a day off at all 😔

#vent #my irl friends roped me in the middle of their fight and i refused to comment on any of it #bc i dont want to pick sides theyre both my friends #and then my dad and i got into a fight and he yelled over me like he always does #just out of nowhere he blows up at me and wouldnt let me say a single word #work wont stop calling me. work wont stop scheduling me on the wrong days #i have to meet ppl tomorrow... i dont want to... i keep having to Do Things #i have to meet ppl on wednesday too even tho that was gonna be my ONE day off #so i definitely cant draw anything for my HW anniversary this wednesday like i thought #im going to push it one more week. feels stupid and pointless but im pissed off #i never get enough time!!! to draw!!! #and i want to draw HW at least once this month!! this year!!! is that so hard!!! #i rarely get time to eat or sleep or do anything im always just working #and you'd think i'd make money! bc im working! but im not!! #i dont even make $150 per week and im always so tired out of my goddamn mind #i didnt even get paid this week. i worked 30 hours and got nothing #i cant. keep going like this but nothing in my life is changing no matter what i do #im so tired it isnt fair i didnt ask to be alive i just want to fuckign sleep