#i never get enough time!!! to draw!!!

[frecklystars]

today was way too overwhelming... it didnt feel like a day off at all 😔

#vent #my irl friends roped me in the middle of their fight and i refused to comment on any of it #bc i dont want to pick sides theyre both my friends #and then my dad and i got into a fight and he yelled over me like he always does #just out of nowhere he blows up at me and wouldnt let me say a single word #work wont stop calling me. work wont stop scheduling me on the wrong days #i have to meet ppl tomorrow... i dont want to... i keep having to Do Things #i have to meet ppl on wednesday too even tho that was gonna be my ONE day off #so i definitely cant draw anything for my HW anniversary this wednesday like i thought #im going to push it one more week. feels stupid and pointless but im pissed off #i never get enough time!!! to draw!!! #and i want to draw HW at least once this month!! this year!!! is that so hard!!! #i rarely get time to eat or sleep or do anything im always just working #and you'd think i'd make money! bc im working! but im not!! #i dont even make $150 per week and im always so tired out of my goddamn mind #i didnt even get paid this week. i worked 30 hours and got nothing #i cant. keep going like this but nothing in my life is changing no matter what i do #im so tired it isnt fair i didnt ask to be alive i just want to fuckign sleep

[lunacias]

these are the silt verses, and I name our disciples thus

#the silt verses #sister carpenter #brother faulkner #paige duplass #james hayward #not 100% happy with this but I've been working on it for uhh two months and wanted to get it up before the next ep #cannot stress enough this isn't necessarily how i picture these characters but moreso what I can draw LOL #every time I try to conceptualize them it's like trying to look at someone without my glasses #in that i get vague forms etc but nothing concrete #it's weird bc it's like. the more i relisten the less concrete image i have of them /thinks #though I will say i will die on curly haired + freckles faulkner #and I usually picture carpenter with a simple wavy ponytail #also in terms of scars i like the idea of faulkner having a scar on his hand from the glass in the s2 finale #and hayward having a scar on his forehead from hembrey! #also i don't think hayward smokes but i liked how it looked when paired with paige and her alcohol! #also something something he might have tried once to blend in with the other police officers but never took to it #been wanting to draw something for silt verses for forever so!! #edit: added an alt id in the image description! #uploaded this last night and completely forgot to i'm sorry! #pls lmk if it's too long or not really a good description!

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

At the start of this project all I wanted was to 'learn how to draw' using comics as a medium and the MDZS audio drama as inspiration.

I've come *very* far from making simple, 3 panel black and white comics, and I truly do intend to go even further. Thank you to everyone who cheered me on throughout 2023, it has been an incredible year in so many ways I never could have imagined. I look forwards to drawing throughout 2024 B*)

#poorly drawn mdzs #art summary #It's so interesting looking back at how my style and technique changed throughout the year! #I used PD-wwx as the consistent factor (October is an exception) and you can see so many processes going on. #My little petri dish amoeba (with a little red bow to tell him apart from the other amoeba) <3 #Whether it's getting new markers or trying out a new shading style - it's cool seeing a snapshot of my journey like this B*) #There's certainly been a slower curve to my overt improvement *but* I have become so much faster! #My life outside of drawing has been hectic and at several points extremely stressful this year. For all the work this blog has been- #-It has truly been a life saving anchor when the darkest of times have hit. #Love is hard work. Change is even harder work. Sticking to a goal I set out for myself and striving to keep going was worth it. #And I love drawing. I think there has always been something in me that longed for this. And it is finally tangible! I can draw!!! #I wanted to make a more elaborate year reflection where I looked back at my favourite comics and jokes. #but I'll leave that to the one year anniversary. #I have also been collecting a ton of statistics throughout the year and I am desperate to share them. I'm that kind of nerd B*) #I can never say it enough: Thank you all for the kindness and support. I wish everyone a lovely 2024!!!

[only-lonely-www]

So basically ATLA brain rot has hit me like a truck

#atla #avatar the last airbender #zuko #toph beifong #what happened was I was forced to watch the live action #which is actually pretty good if you get past the first few episodes #and if you don’t have someone in your ear telling you it’s awful the whole time #first episode is definitely the weakest and that’s 50% gran gran’s fault #aang and katara are also pretty flat but whatever #sokka’s good and zuko’s fantastic actually #they did goof on a few things but overall I think it’s a fun time #just don’t expect it to be as good as the cartoon and you’ll be okay #ANYWAY it got me missing toph #so i rewatched the blind bandit episode #and then wound up watching the entirety of books 2 & 3 in a few days #and now I’m brain rotted #which is especially weird considering when I first watched it I was like #yeah that was good! and then never thought about it again #i dunno what changed but i need help it’s taking over my life #wanted to draw Sokka too but he looks hard to draw #and i had enough trouble with these two #maybe someday #sorry for rambling in the tags goodbye

[todayisafridaynight]

#rgg #crossover #persona 4 #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 2 #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza 2 #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #daigo dojima #koichi adachi #tohru adachi #ryotaro dojima #snap sketches #area man draws his old faves for the first time in years more at 5 #im cringe and free #not cringe enough to put more effort into these but i just needed to get thes out there cause these are so dumb #this wasnt even the main thing i wanted to doodle today i just figured id do em real quick while i have time lol #it feels so illegal drawing ryotaro shorter than someone when ive always drawn him as the tallest back then.. lol #never drew him next to kanji. evidently. anyway

[mango-peach-strawberry]

eepy

#mango’s art #hades game #hypnos hades #artists on tumblr #I was hating this drawing for a while while working on it but I like it now #this is the fifth time I’ve drawn him and I feel like it’s the best #I dunno I think he’s hard to draw… can’t ever get him quite right #I mean I don’t think this is perfect but it looks enough like him for me to post it haha #he is babygirl never let anyone tell you otherwise

[pepperpixel]

💖STRANGE LOVE!💖

“the lightening’s not frightening when u r w me, oh cuz love is not always what u think it’ll be!”

CROMA!!!! Croma art!!!! Cuz I forever and ever adore these two together….. they’re so good…! 🥺

#soul eater #maka albarn #crona gorgon #crona #croma #doodles #the song is strange love by Karen O #it’s a very good song… I first heard it on this rlly sweet mtmte video on bilibili… #and it gives me rlly sad happy mushy feelings whenever I hear it… it just makes my brain go EVERYWHERE GHG #but I love it!!!! I love that it does that ghgh #and yeah… I thought it was fitting for these 2… #anyway. ​I love crona!!!! and maka!!! and I love them kissing and holding hands and loving and supporting each other!!!! #I will never get enough of that shit!!!! these 2 are living in my brain till I die!!! #o also!!! tried drawing maka without a reference this time! usually I look one up for her #cuz I don’t have her every detail permanently stamped into my retinas like I do w crona ghgh- #but! I felt confident enough to go without a ref this time! which… is why her bangs are a lil screwed up gHG #I forgot exactly how they worked so I kinda just bullshitted them as best as I could. and! I actually think they didn’t turn out bad! #but. they probably would have looked better if I just looked up a reference lol

[candycorncartooncat]

um um I wanted to draw Them because I can't stop thinking abt these emotionally stunted timeclones. some things are easier to talk about with yourself!

#isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #i hope im being thorough enough? #anyways the context is loop joins them for traveling 💙 #i have a lot of thoughts abt the postgame #and i might draw more if i have the energy #honestly im surprised at myself that i made this dkfhkejf #i think itd be funny if loop got saddled w the sisif nickname #since siffrin never got it #but theyll talk to mirabelle and isabeau abt it to get some ideas dw

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[natsmagi]

femstars keito hair hc ive had for a while

#I THINK IT SUITS HER IDK! #also dropping hints that i really enjoy short hair #theres so much u can do with short hair i dont think people realize this #(also i just have an easier time styling it than i do long hair funnily enough) #(ud think itd be the other way around bc w long hair theres more to work with) #long hair is good for fancy styling but short hair is good for casual statement styles. Do u get me #anyway. #theres more charas i have ideas for. Maybe ill draw them #(aka 2wink i wanna draw fem 2wink so bad) #but never expect anything from me #my art #femstars

[skunkes]

guy liker moment

#a doodley #once again very difficult times for the has never been touched community #also recently some fictional men have me questioning things further and its making me sooo miserable #in the sense of like. it wouldnt be enough to t**** a beautiful man i want to be one. too. #i want someone to feel the same way ykwim. eager excited. witnessing beauty. crawling into each others skin. #i want you and i want to wear your face and be desired too. #ugh ugh ugh ugh #i probably wont ever even draw it but the lino piece i want to try making is based off of like. lately... #my skin burns when i see even the imitation of a human body. When i think of it. its so dire #or like i love the human body in general i love studying it bc its so beautiful and interesting no matter what #but i do studies and its like ahh i wanna get closer i wanna get closer im at the zoo i want to jump into the enclosure and get clawed apar #t. (saying this as metaphor bc obviously humans are not things to be owned) but i want my own model to pose and study #closer. and closer. look and touch and examine. #<- 3 seconds away from drawing nefarious shit with talon in this nature but i didnt say that #talkys #🌺

[failedcoinflip]

one solid week of this bullshit please thank unsaved spike pit run for resetting what was like 2 hours of struggling ... siiigghh... (day 7)

#daan von dutch #fear and hunger #fear and hunger daan #fear and hunger termina #fear and hunger termina daan #if you saw me post to this blog about the spike pit at the late hours of the night no you didnt #i kind of like how this came out hopefully you guys like it too #somewhat unrelated but thanks for 200 notes on day 2 i didnt put nearly enough effort into it compared to what it got #i guess the shittiness kind of made it more appealing... #no matter how many times i draw this woman his hair never gets any easier #heres to another week more! #im never finishing this game ... 😭 (kidding! i have to because thats the gimmick...) #also to commend a week of commitment #i think ill personally tell you my favorite termina character #it's o'saa #daily

[plulp]

yknow kylar isnt my favorite character but the owl plushie really raised the bar by like maybe 30%

#my art #dol #harper the doctor #whitney the bully #kylar the loner #colors are a little WACKY because i was using a brush thats CRAAAAZY (not crazy. pretty normal but its okay) #sorry i dont post EVER #i have more dol sketches but im just a guy and i get embarrassed if i dont like the drawing enough LMAO #every time i have to test draw something i always draw harper #if i save every harper i draw this account would never be dead ever #anyways im having my own personal dol renaissance (playing it again) #if you want to reblog just send me an ask and ill unlock it but im a little nervous about people rbing my art still :( sorry #thank you for everyone who was like 'please let me rb this' for my harper thing i appreciate it so much but i dont like that piece enough #to set it free. #i drew another harper as consolation but i never posted it because i didnt like that one EITHER. im crazy #turning rbs on. for you.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

First appearance

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#poorly drawn mdzs #MDZS #lan sizhui #lan jingyi #Wei wuxian #lan wangji #season 1 #annnnd that's the end of ep one #definitely could have added a lot more panels and comics due to how much happens #but I would never finish this project if I did that #I spent SO long trying to get LWJ looking just overly bishonen enough #Im a little proud of it to be honest #Hands are still my enemy #oh and don't worry-he does NOT stay like this. I have to draw him too many times to put this amount of detail in each time #Also! im trying out linking these comics together #it might be too much work but this is just a test

[padawansuggest]

Obi-Wan, 14, after exactly one explanation of how to shave, in which his eyes were glazed over and he seriously considered a gender change so he could backtrack on this specific puberty and try the other one instead, -he heard Stewjoni periods aren’t that bad and he won’t have to upkeep his face every day, how long does it take to cultivate a beard so he doesn’t have to shave again???- takes the razor from his master, disappears into the bathroom, and then appears in the doorway straight outta Qui-Gon’s worst night terrors -the ones that were real and involved waking up to a Padawan having had a vision while still speaking dead languages and asking for flesh holding JUST SAY HUG YOU LITTLE SHIT- and they stare at each other for like twenty seconds straight without blinking before Qui-Gon’s shoulders sag and he lets out a sigh they’re gonna feel in the force all over this temple for days.

‘Where did your eyebrows go?’

‘They were itchy too.’

#star wars #obi wan kenobi #qui gon jinn #padawan obi wan #was Obi trying to itch without letting go of the razor or did he just decide it was time to go?? #he’ll never tell you you can’t waterboard that one outta him #autistic Obi wan #Qui should have been more specific with him #he’s gonna end up getting facial waxes like once a month till he’s old enough to be trusted with sharp objects #feral Obi wan #my sister and I also get itchy eyebrows #also one year I found an eyebrow clipper and spent the next month with .5 eyebrows #and yes that does mean I only had half an eyebrow on one side #and I don’t wear makeup so no I didn’t try to draw one on #this was in HS god idk why teachers didn’t question my life more lol

[b4kuch1n]

hi! birthday. which means it's finally time t

yo what the itch store is fixed up now

damn what? I don't know where this came from. look all the comics I put on g*mr**d a year ago are back here again with all the formatting and typesetting by @fireflysummers as well as the exclusive bonus art wtf who did this. my werewolf comic on here too what the hells!! that one also got re-toned for printing if u want to AND an exclusive cover spread !!! what the fuck!!!!! come see for urself I can't make this shit up

#bakuspecial #comic #itch.io #bakugoods #<- made up a tag for when I sell things that aren't commissions just now #for folks who still remember me talking abt a physical run of these comics: I'm so sorry this year and the last have been brutal #and I live in a well and suffer a curse of international mails never going well. so the logistics became Very complicated #I still think abt it tho! I've prepped up all the assets just bc I thought abt it so much... we picked out a gift print for the orders #And a bonus print for the pack #but I couldn't gather my brain enough to make it happen. yet #it takes a bit of overhead so I gotta build that up. which is. right now talk for after the shit that just happened to me got smoothed out #but I do want it to happen. I've been sitting on this exclusive custom print for like two years now #I really love that drawing its so cute. I still hold that project close to my heart #anyways uhh itch store! happy birthday to me! #last year this time was so rough I didn't even Want to think about my birthday lol #strangely enough with this small little fragmentation grenade we just got I became more motivated to fuck around on my bday lmao #probably out of spite. hammer philosophy #my parents love making a whole thing out of me and the brother's bdays lol so dinner's gonna be something #but for now I can still chill. and prep up stuff. and do my thang #if u look thru the itch store and get something from there thank u so much! I hope the comics treat u well #and now. I make hot drink. have a good day lads! do a little jig for us let's go