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highly-opinionated-nerd · 5 years

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Hello! First, I love your writing! It's so good! Second, do you have any other gintama fusion ideas or just gintoshi because I'd love to see more in your style! Obviously, if you're working on other things it's fine, but I wanted to let you know how cool I think the thought you put into them is and I'd love to see more!

Oh my gosh, hi! Hello! Thank you so much for the kind words, I’m so glad that you liked Gintoshi. I had tons of fun writing that fic. So much fun, in fact, that I later went on to write a whole 54 chapters of platonic One Piece fusions, so! I definitely agree, platonic fusions are the BOMB. As of this point in time I am working on other things, and I don’t really have any plans to write any Ao3-worthy Gintama fusions, but that definitely doesn’t mean I haven’t thought about them. You can have these bullet point rambles, though:

I think I mentioned this in the Gintoshi fic itself, but the various members of the Shinsengumi have definitely fused before. Right? I mean, no matter your views about platonic vs romantic fusion, there’s no denying that it’s an instant power-up, and those boys do a lot of fighting. Sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do, and by that I mean swallow your pride and agree to fuse with your coworker so you’ll both live to see another day.

Hijikata+Kondo (Hijikondo? Konhiji? Konkata??? Names are hard) is pretty stable, pretty chill. “Awkward older cousin who wants to be supportive but doesn’t know you that well and is kinda shy” vibes. But he’s also the very epitome of Lawful Good. He’ll turn on you in a second if he even thinks you’re gonna do or have already done something illegal. And you don’t want him as an enemy, because he can and will lift you with one hand and toss you like a ragdoll.

Hijikata+Okita you also don’t want as an enemy, but unfortunately for you you don’t really have a choice because to him, EVERYONE is an enemy. He’s definitely a more unstable fusion, but one of those ones that you have to work to talk into unfusing. If left to his own devices, he’ll just start swinging until there’s no one left to swing at. The very, very few people he trusts completely (Kondo, Matsuraida, Mitsuba) have his unfailing loyalty though, and if one of them said ‘go jump off a bridge’, he would. Basically what I’m trying to get across is that he acts more on instinct than actual intellect if that makes sense

Kondo+Okita is somewhere between those two extremes. In my head he’s actually kind of similar to Zenzou, the ninja guy??? A sort of scruffy, chaotically unpredictable guy who doesn’t care as much about protecting the law as he does about protecting himself and his people

In one of these ‘fuse to get out of the fight’ situations, Hijikata tried to fuse with Yamazaki. It Did Not Work. They were not compatible. There may have been a few small scale explosions as a result. They never tried to do that again.

Similarly, Gintoki definitely fused with the rest of the Joui Four during the amanto invasion. He’s most stable with Zura, but has no trouble fusing with Sakamoto. He and Takasugi were always a bit more unstable, but again, a terrifying enemy to have in battle if they ever shared a common interest long enough to fuse about it.

I’m a sucker for platonic fusion as a way of coping with angsty situations, and to express feelings that you have difficulty putting words to, so I like to think that they (the Joui 4) also fused in noncombat situations. As a show of solidarity and support. Gin and Zura probably still do, every now and then.

Once (one singular time) all four of them fused together at once. It was an act of sheer desperation, and it really took a toll out of them all mentally and physically, but the amanto never suffered a loss so dear as they did that day.

Kagura and Shinpachi can fuse more easily with each other than either of them can with Gin. He has too much weight on his shoulders, things he doesn’t want them to see. Kagura+Shinpachi is a lighthearted, sweet person, in my head, and I love them

There are tons more possibilities for fusions when you look at the rest of the cast of characters: Gin+Zenzou, Shinpachi+Yamazaki, Otae+Kyuubei, Tsukuyo+Hinowa (!!!), Kagura+Soyo (!!!!!!!!!!!). Really as long as there is touch and intent to fuse, even if it’s just the unconscious need to share your thoughts or feelings with someone else, anyone can fuse. You get to smash the two (or three, or more!) characters together and decide which elements of their individual designs are present in the fusion, which is GREAT fun. I think everyone should try it at some point, it’s awesome.

BONUS bullet point here at the end to make a small confession...there’s always two parts to the fics I write: the stuff that I think is acceptable for publication to the world at large, and the stuff that will only ever exist inside my head. The latter category is mainly stuff that I decided was too far out of character, too far removed from canon, toooooo self-indulgent to be published and taken seriously by anyone. But I almost, almost included a second part to the Gintoshi fic in which Hijikata was seriously injured (I always seem to do this to Hijikata...baby I’m so sorry) and Gintoki fused with him as a way to save his life. Kondo and Okita and Shinpachi and Kagura and whoever else happened to be around rushed him to the hospital, of course. Once there, the doctors told him to unfuse so they could treat Hijikata, and he refused. Gintoki, specifically, refused, because he was worried that Hijikata wouldn’t make it if he separated from him, and that thought really panicked him. Eventually he does, and Hijikata gets stitches and medicine or whatever else he needs. The doctors come back the next morning to follow up and they find Gintoshi there again, stubbornly refusing to unfuse. Again. Anyway, ideally that scenario would lead up to the two of them realizing their romantic feelings for each other, and there’d be a big confession scene and they’d spend all their free time as Gintoshi from then on. Ideally for me, at least, haha!

ANYWAY anyway, in conclusion, fusions are good. Thank you so much again, anon, for your compliments and for giving me a chance to blather on for a little while about a subject that is near and dear to my heart ❤️

#gintama #fusions #answered #CAN NOT BELIEVE I got an unsolicited ask #ANON I LOVE YOU #THANKS

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rike-with-love · 6 years

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Out of sight, out of mind? (chapter 1)

Summary: Okikagu week 2018 day 2: Unrequited Love

Pairings: Okikagu

Rating: T for bad language

Disclaimer: I don't own Gintama or it's characters, Sorachi Hideaki does. I only own this story.

Author’s notes: I have a link to my fanfiction masterlist on my profile. Please check it out for more chapters and fics!

Chapter 1

The terminal was packed with people. Left and right, everywhere Kagura looked, humans, amantos, friends and families reuniting. There was even an overly sweet couple kissing and hugging each other. ”Yuck! Get a room, yes!” Kagura yelled at the couple and acted like she wanted to hurl.

”Kagura-chan!” Shinpachi said and covered his face with a hand. ”You're embarrassing us.” Kagura rolled her eyes and tightened the grip on her umbrella. She didn't need Shinpachi's complaints today, she didn't need to see any annoying lovebirds anywhere, she just needed this day to be over.

”Yare, yare. Calm down you two,” Gintoki said and picked his nose without any shame, like usual.

”Gin-san, please don't do that in public.” Shinpachi said and poked Gintoki's arm a bit. The older samurai yawned lazily and stopped walking.

”Oi, oi! I'm not doing anything, what are you talking about?” Gintoki said and flicked his bugger behind him. Shinpachi stopped walking too and went on to rant something useless to Gintoki. After a short while Kagura noticed that her earth-family had vanished somewhere. She stopped her movement and looked around for them.

Few meters behind Kagura, Gintoki and Shinpachi were having a stupid argument. She couldn't hear what they were saying, but she didn't really care. Kagura glanced at the big screen showing departures. It was almost time, time for her flight to leave.

Kagura had finally made the decision on her 18th birthday, she was going to leave to space and become the most badass alien hunter in the whole damn Galaxy. She though that somebody had to continue the ”family business” Umibouzu had started. Kamui already held the title of craziest baka aniki and Kagura thought that he should stick to that.

Umibouzu had promised Kagura that he would come and pick her up one month after her birthday, and that day was finally here. Gintoki and Shinpachi were first against it, but they knew nothing would change her mind. Shinpachi had asked Kagura about her sudden decision to leave. She told him that this was what she needed right now, more than anything else she needed to leave earth.

Kagura closed her umbrella and placed it next to her bag. She let her eyes roam around the terminal. Big windows of the terminal revealed parts of her beloved home. She had so much there, friends, family, ”a job”, everything a person would need, she had here. So why was she leaving?

Kagura glanced at the clock on the terminal's notice board, time was running out. ”Oi you two! I'm going to be late, thanks to you two idiots!” she shouted, but Gintoki and Shinpachi didn't hear anything. ”Geez...”

Those two had insisted that they wanted to escort Kagura to the terminal and see her off. She liked the idea that her family would be the last people she would say goodbye to.

For the past week Kagura had seen everyone she knew in Edo. Many wished her a happy trip and pleaded for her to return. To return, she asked herself. Kagura hadn't really thought about her return to earth, maybe it was an option, maybe it wasn't.

Otae and Soyo had been the most difficult ones to see. A lot of tears were shed and beautiful words were said. She had said her goodbyes to everyone important to her...everyone but one. Him.

Kagura got fed up with Gintoki and Shinpachi. She cleared her throat and inhaled. ”LET'S GO IDIOTS!” she yelled. Amazingly, they still didn't hear her. All the people around her sure did, but she didn't really care if strangers looked at her weirdly.

”China?” an all to familiar voice asked behind her. Kagura gasped a little and turned on her feet. There he was, the man she had been avoiding since her 18th birthday. Her rival, Okita Sougo, the prince of all sadists. ”Yo! Where have you been hiding?”

Kagura looked at Sougo and tried her best to act casually and pretend that she hadn't been hiding from him for the past month. ”What's up Sadist?” she asked and crossed her arms over her chest.

”What are you doing here?” Sougo asked.

”Nothing much,” she said and shrugged her shoulders. Kagura had gotten so used to see Sougo in his Shinsengumi uniform, so it was quite weird to see him wearing normal clothing, a greenish yukata that suited him well.

Sougo eyed her suspiciously, his eyes dropping to her bag, then returning to look at her. ”Are you going somewhere?” he asked, face as deadpan as the bottom of Gintoki's shoe. ”China?” his voice slightly demanding this time.

Kagura turned her eyes away from him. ”So what if I am?” she muttered quietly, hoping he would just leave her alone.

Sougo's eyes widened for a micro-second, which went un-noticed by Kagura. He placed his hand on his neck and stroked it lightly. ”I didn't know.” A small silence landed between them, both wanting to say something that had been left unsaid. ”China, I-”

”Sougo! There you are!” Kondou said with a cheerful smile. He was approaching the young captain. Sougo glanced at his superior gorilla over his shoulder.

”Just a sec Kondo-san.” Sougo said and shifted his eyes back to his rival. Kagura was looking at him aswell. ”China, I don't know what you've heard, but-”

”I don't know what you're talking about Sadist,” she said to cut him off. She couldn't take it, this wasn't a thing she wanted to talk about. ”In fact-” Kagura said, but her words got stuck in her throat. Sougo frowned his brows a bit in confusion. Kagura's eyes were looking past him, over his shoulder. Her eyes are wide from...shock, he thought to himself.

Sougo turned around to see what was something so surprising that the loud-mouthed Kagura couldn't even speak. As he turned he saw Kondo and someone else. There was a young, fair-skinned woman standing next to Kondo. Sougo took a closer look at the woman. She had cerulean blue eyes and black hair, she was simply stunning.

”Here she finally is Sougo! I'm so happy!” Kondo said and squeezed his hands together and pressed them against his cheek. The young woman bowed shyly to Sougo and giggled sweetly. ”Sougo, meet your fiancée, Haru.”

Sougo bowed out of good manners and stared at the beautiful woman. He realized what or rather who Kagura had been looking at. His suspicions were confirmed then and there, Kagura had known about the arrangement. Why else she would have avoided him for the past month?

Sougo turned quickly to check on Kagura. Unfortunately, the only thing he saw was a crowd of people with meaningless faces. She was gone...Kagura was gone. Sougo wondered was he going to see her ever again, the thought pained him. There was still so much to say.

”Sougo! We have to get going now,” Kondo said and motioned for Haru and Sougo to come with him.

Kagura had run as the first change came to her. She was so shocked to see that woman, Sougo's fiancée. It was a very confusing feeling to experience, her heart couldn't bear the thought of him fit another woman. She didn't stop running until she saw her father standing near the gates.

”There you are! My daughter,” Umibouzu greeted Kagura. She ran to hug her father tightly, tears watering her eyes a bit. She thought that he would think that the tears were for him and nothing more.

”It's good to see you Kagura-chan,” Umibouzu said. Kagura pulled away from the hug and flashed a small smile.

”Are you ready to go?” Umibouzu asked. Kagura lifted up her luggage and hummed.

”Kagura-chan!” Shinpachi's voice called behind her. Gintoki and Shinpachi had finally managed to stop their argument and had tracked her down. ”You're really leaving, huh?”

Kagura turned to face her earth-family. ”Uh-huh, but I'm going to miss you guys so much.”

Gintoki pulled the trio into a huge bear hug. ”We'll miss you too Kagura. Just, remember to pay us a visit every once in a while,” Gintoki said. Kagura remained silent, focusing on their family hug. She didn't want to admit that never returning was an option she had in mind. Kagura pulled away and walked to her father's side.

”Let's go, yes!” Kagura said and put on a brave smile, covering all the conflicting emotions. Umibouzu grabbed her luggage and the Yato duo entered the gates to the security check. Gintoki and Shinpachi were left watching the disappearing back of their beloved Kagura.

”Gin-san, why did I get the feeling...that she isn't coming back?”

”Have faith Shinpachi, I don't think this is the last time we'll see or hear from her.”

Kagura entered Umibouzu's spaceship after her father. She sat down on one of the passenger seats. ”Kagura, are you okay?” Umibouzu asked. She glanced at her father and silently lifted one thumb up. ”Good, we'll depart shortly, make yourself comfortable.”

”Yes papi,” she said and played with her short ponytails. This was finally happening. No-more seeing Sadist, no more thinking about him. The problem was that he seemed to be the only thing on Kagura's mind. She remembered the day that ruined everything, the day of her 18th birthday.

It had been a fun night, Kagura's friends had thrown her a surprise party at Otose's bar. Even Okita Sougo and couple of Shinsengumi members had been there. Drinks were flowing all night, Kagura had taken some, but not nearly as much as Sougo.

Kagura was supporting Sougo on their way to the Shinsengumi compound. He was rambling the entire way, he was telling her about his greatest plans to snatch the vice-commander position and how he loved fighting. Kagura listened and laughed at him, he was quite mellow when he was that drunk.

”CHIIINA! You're a great person you know. You're helping me home and I'm so drunk. You're so nice and pretty.”

”Shut up idiot!”

”So pretty,” he said and chuckled to himself. Kagura shook her head, she tried to remember that he was drunk and drunk people say whatever comes to mind.

”We're here Sadist,” Kagura said as they reached the gates of the compound. ”Let's get you to your room.”

”SHHHH! Remember to be quiet! You're not allowed here. No women, said Hijibaka-san,” Sougo said. Kagura shook her head again, feeling very amused about his dumb behaviour. They made it inside the main building. Sougo stopped their walking and lifted Kagura's arm away from him. He straightened his posture and dusted his jacket a bit.

Kagura stared at him, his eyes were no-longer drowsy, he seemed to be fine. ”What's up Sadist?” Kagura asked quietly. ”Sobered up already?”

”Heh, I observed how much you took and followed your lead,” Sougo said, voice quiet but perfectly clear. ”I don't get drunk so easily.

”Huh? Well I thought you were. On the way here you were mumbling such weird things, yes,” Kagura said.

”Such as?”

”You said I was pretty...” Kagura said and blushed, luckily the dim hallway hid her face.

”True, I said that.”

”Then, if you aren't drunk, why the hell am I here?”

Sougo smirked and glared at her so deeply that Kagura felt small shivers. ”I wanted to give you a birthday present, privately.”

Kagura had to swallow, her heart began to beat faster. ”Oh.”

Sougo moved a step closer to Kagura. ”Do you want your present, China?”

Without a moment of hesitation, she answered. ”Uh-huh.” Sougo inhaled at her answer. He took another step closer to Kagura and traced his fingers on her cheek.

”Are you sure?”

”Uh-huh.”

The he pressed her against the dark hallways wall with his body. Kagura gasped slightly, but not in a bad way. It felt good to feel him so close, like it was something she had been wanting for a good while. ”China.”

He cupped her cheeks and leaned to kiss her. His eyes were closed, but Kagura's were wide open from surprise. His lips felt soft on hers and her heart jumped at the feeling. He opened his eyes and stopped the kiss. ”Close your eyes.” Then he kissed her a bit more passionately. The pure feeling of his kiss forced her eyes to flicker close. She placed her hands on his waist.

This wasn't a birthday present she was waiting for, but it was the best one by far. He grabbed her hands from his waist and pressed them against the wall on each side of her head. She arched her back from the sensation of being under control, it was surprisingly exciting.

Sougo broke their kiss and Kagura opened her eyes. He was breathing heavily and Kagura couldn't help but smirk. ”Mmh, China?”

”What bastard?”

”Do you want to stay the night?” he asked. Kagura stared at him, eyes telling him of her surprise and slight hesitation. ”Don't worry, I won't do anything you don't want me to.”

Sougo let her hands go and she let them drop to her sides. Kagura thought about his sudden suggestion. It seemed a bit rushed, but her curiosity won. ”Maybe I'll stay,” Kagura said in a coy voice. He smiled at her and took her hand.

”Come, but quietly.” Kagura nodded and felt her heart racing faster. He lead them deeper into the hallway. When they reached a two-way turn Sougo stopped them.

”China, my room is in this direction,” he said and pointed her the way. ”Last room on the left, I'll be there in a moment.” Sougo let go of Kagura's hand and went to the other direction. Kagura sneaked quietly towards his room. She had to pinch herself. At that moment, everything felt like a dream.

She finally reached his room and was about to slid the door open. Kagura heard voices and froze on the spot. They were coming from a room across Sougo's room. Her curiosity won again. Kagura sneaked closer to the room and slid the door open just enough to peep in a little.

Hijikata and Kondo were sitting side by side, backs facing the door. ”It's best for him Kondo-san,” Hijikata said.

”Yes. I think so too.” Kondo said and nodded his head. Kagura wondered what they were talking about. ”She'll calm him down, I'm sure of it.”

(”She?)

”An arranged marriage is the best choice for him, he isn't going to settle down with anyone if we don't make him,” Hijikata said.

(”An arranged marriage? Poor guy.”)

”Then it's settled Sougo and Haru will meet in one month, we should let him know as soon as possible.”

”I agree Kondo-san.”

Kagura's eyes widened as Sougo's name came out of Kondo's mouth. They had arranged a marriage for him. Kagura felt sick to her stomach, she had to get away from the compound, quickly. Kagura ran, she ran across the halls and by instinct she found her way out. She ran all the way out and to the street.

He was spoken for, belonging to someone else. He never was hers in the first place, but still it hurt to think about it. For months before Kagura's birthday, there was something blooming between them. After the kiss, that feeling of something got bigger, but after what she heard, all of it came crashing down. Kagura wanted to get home, to escape the pain.

Meanwhile Sougo reached his room and slid the door open. ”China?” Unfortunately, no China anywhere. Sougo got worried and stepped back into the hallway. He heard voices coming from the room where Hijikata and Kondo were. Sougo opened the door and the two men turned to look at him. ”Yo! Did you by any change, hear or see anything out of the ordinary?”

Both men shook their heads. ”Sit Sougo, please.” Kondo said.

”I'm actually busy and it's getting a bit late so...”

”Sougo, sit down. We have something to tell you.”

”I really have to go-”

”We have arranged a marriage for you,” Hijikata blurted out. Sougo looked stunned. ”Would you sit down now?”

Sougo entered the room and sat in front of his two superiors. ”What are you saying?” he asked. Kondo and Hijikata explained to him all the details and why he had to accept the marriage. Sougo felt sick to his stomach. He wondered if Kagura had overheard Kondo and Hijikata. He hoped that wasn't the case, maybe she just got really tired and left...maybe?

When Kagura got home, Gintoki was already sleeping. She slipped into her closet and laid on her bed. She had expected the pain to go away as she got away from him. It actually felt worse. After hours of tossing and turning in bed she made the decision to leave. Escape the pain to space, become the best alien hunter and forget about him.

Kagura wrote her father a letter. He answered quickly and promised to pick her up in one month. She convinced herself that leaving earth was going to heal her heart. For the last month Kagura prepared to leave and made sure she avoided seeing Sougo. She seriously couldn't bear to see him.

She knew they only shared a kiss and nothing more than that, but it had been something that felt like it was bound to happen sooner or later. They had been partners in crime and rivals for such a long time already. Maybe she had been in love with him for much longer than she had thought. It wouldn't have felt that horrible if there wasn't love for him in her heart

After 3 months of intense alien hunting, Kagura felt a little better, still fragile but better. Umibouzu saw that her daughter's heart wasn't fully on the hunting business, but somewhere else. He tried his best to show her the most interesting planets to hunt and Kagura saw his effort and appreciated him for it.

The Yato duo was on their way to planet nearby earth and Kagura was watching her precious planet from the spaceship. ”Kagura-chan, I have something for you.” Kagura turned around to look at her father.

”Yes papi?” she asked. Umibouzu fumbled something from a pile of papers he was carrying.

”A letter from earth.”

Kagura's eyes lit up and her lips curled into a smile. ”Who is it from? Gin-chan? Shinapachi? Anego? Soyo-chan? Who?”

”It says, from the Shinsengumi vice-commander Hijikata Toushiro, for Kagura of the Yorozuya. Urgent matter,” Umibouzu read. ”Do you know him?”

Kagura snatched the letter. ”It's from Mayora, but why he would write for me?”

”I don't know, it came today.”

Kagura sat down and ripped the letter open and began to read.

”Kagura,

I'm asking for your help. So, Sougo is missing and I know you two were sort of close. Maybe you know where he is. Yesterday was his wedding day. When I went to get him, he was frantically walking around his room, rambling that he couldn't do it, that he absolutely wouldn't do it.

I tried to calm him down and told him to stay in his room. I went to get Kondo-san to remind Sougo why he was doing the wedding in the first place. There were some political and financial reasons, but I won't bother you with those.

After one minute me and Kondo-san entered Sougo's room, he was gone. There was a small note on his desk saying: ”Sorry, I can't do this. I'm going to find her.” You are the only alive woman I know he cares about. So, I'm begging you Kagura, please find Sougo and make him return to earth.

His bride's family is long gone, they left on the same day Sougo disappeared, so he isn't getting married anymore. We are just worried. Bring him back to us, please.

Sincerely, Hijikata Toushiro of the Shinsengumi

PS: Kondo-san is crying here non-stop because he blames himself. I can't take it any longer.

Kagura was shaking as she read the letter. She was speechless. Sougo had run from his own wedding. Did he do it for her, Kagura thought to herself. She felt a rush of adrenaline pumping in her veins. There was no longer any pain, only enthusiasm. ”PAPI!”

Umibouzu almost fell off his chair. ”What?”

She ran to her father and jumped up and down. ”We have some hunting to do! We have to hunt down a missing person!”

”Okay, where was the person last seen?”

”On earth, he's actually looking for me.”

Umibouzu looked at his daughter and a smile forced it way on his face. His daughter seemed more like herself again. ”Let's start from earth then, buckle up.”

Kagura jumped on the co-pilot seat and squeezed the letter in her hands. ”I'm going to find you chihuahua,” she said quietly and smiled from her heart, something she hadn't been able to do in months.

#okikagu #gintama #okita sougo #kagura #okita x kagura #fanfiction #okikagu week 2018 #okikaguweek2018 #sponsoredbytaemin

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soyochii · 9 months

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Half the fun of posting on tumblr is writing a essay in the tags 😭

#Its so fun to me #I get to brain dump my thoughts without bothering anyone #Soyo rambles

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yuzuria · 6 years

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I-Z-U-V :P

Thanks~! :p

i - has tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why?

If we’re talking about not liking fandoms anymore and not the series/franchise itself, of course, gintama fandom attitude drove me off its fandom and made me dislike a huge portion of content in the series because of a lot of toxic people, even people I had never talked to have me blocked for some reason, because I dislike their waifu then gotten me involved in their shit talking in their public platform which is hilarious if not I feel sorry for that deranged person, no bitter feelings attached personally but I dislike that person because of them attacking my friends but since it still has a special place in my heart as one of my favorite series, i still enjoy the content exclusively with my friends and I refuse to search for fan content anymore unless I happen to see it in my dash/timeline. Other than that I haven’t liked the series itself because of tumblr, gintama was the first series I became active in in fandoms and tumblrr, I was a lurker most of the time in my previous fandoms and didn’t get myself involved with drama or loud people so I just naturally stopped liking them.

u - three favorite characters from three different fandoms, and why they’re your favorites.

Komaeda Nagito from Danganronpa: My ultimate favorite at this moment, to make things short he’s all in one package I’ve always wanted in a character: soft demeanor, sparkling fake that’s not considered charismatic by others ^_^✨, morally gray with idealistic view that eventually destroyed him, contrasting complex personalities that I never get tired of analyzing and each day I learn new things about him, has a tragic past that didn’t hinder nor trapped him forward but rather shaped him for who he was and moved on (he honestly gets little appreciation in this department, this boy had been through so much but smiles and accepts what was to come in full arms, in a way makes him so emotionally strong yet fragile at the same time) and ultimately, his death broke my heart the most, not because he died but his intention behind it made him capture my heart and crashed it literally with spear.

Toph Beifong from Avatar: My childhood sweetheart

Imai Nobume from Gintama: I fell in love with her even before I caught up the first episode she’s in. She’s so gorgeous and I love girls introduced to be ruthless and deadly, and her first appearance did that. She’s trained as an assassin as a child and had been cutting down people since then, even though she appears to be an emotionless killing machine, she has a sense of humor fitting to the series, has a childish streak and with that she gets along well with other (sadistic) girls (kagura and soyo), doesn’t give a fuck to senseless uninteresting things, and will bring down people she deems bad with no hesitation. Her story with sasaki is really emotional to me, the most this series has ever made me feel, I love them and their found father/daughter relationship. I love how her development went too in farewell shinsengumi arc, how of all people it’s kagura who understood her and saw her tears, telling her to stop fighting and live how she wants, that she can be more than assassin she grew up as and no one can stop her, not the organization who raised her to be a killing machine and not the promise she had with sasaki where she’s the one who’s going to end him as an assassin. I love the moment kagura told her too that earth is the star of freedom.

v - which character do you relate to most?

Ahh this is difficult, I never try to see myself in a character and ~relate~ to them, as much as possible I make myself disconnected to the characters, not associating them to myself. The only time I ever considered relating to a character was punpun lmao, I relate to his pathetic-ness when I happened to read oyasumi punpun during dark times.

z - just ramble about something fan-related, go go go! (prompts optional but encouraged.)

okay, i haven’t considered making a fanfiction ever but there’s an AU i’m fond of, AU with no hpa and where Komaeda and Servant(Meshi) are brothers and kamukura and hinata are twins :D In this setup it’s focused to meshi and hinameshi with kamukoma in the sideline uuuuu anyway it doesn’t go well, i have no concrete plotline and ending, all i thought of are sad stuff. Komaeda in this AU still has his cycle of good and bad luck but with meshi’s presence as his older brother(a year or two, i’m pretty undecided), and not so good relationship with their parents, he swore to never leave komaeda’s side so he’s the one who caught all the bad luck komaeda’s cycle produced, marking him the “unlucky child” in the family while komaeda is credited with the good luck he brings, although it doesn’t necessarily means he’s treated much better. (Anyway it’s my hc komaeda doesn’t experience bad luck himself unless there are no people around him therefore the bad luck he experienced with the kidnapping and diseases was because he already lives alone in that time) So with that, it was Meshi who experienced and endured the terrible things to keep Komaeda and other people from harm. I’m undecided if I’ll also include the cancer and dementia...

Things are rough from here, I’m still contemplating how Meshi would act in this setting and how similar it would be from dr:ae so i could change stuff from here. izuru, hinata, and komaeda were high school classmates where they all met each other. all of them have their internal conflicts which is similar in canon but with no hpa presence, meshi has a complicated relationship and attachment with hinata who feel overshadowed by his twin, meshi doesn’t like izuru, izuru and komaeda kind of get along as outcasts and hinata is intrigued with the komaeda brothers. Four of them used to hang out though, meshi and komaeda can’t cook so the twins come over from time to time to keep the house from burning and feeding them. Sometime after meshi graduated, there’s a shift in his relationship with hinata and the two started going out, meshi told about him and komaeda and hinata wanted to change it but how? when the three graduated, komaeda and meshi moved out and disappeared with no contact. Time skip happens and few years later, and things get even messier, komaeda is in uni and part times as a librarian while meshi doesn’t and works as a bartender (possibly fools around too), i’m still not sure what hinata does besides being in uni but he stumbled upon komaeda one day and brought the news izuru is in coma for overdosing. Hinata and meshi tried (or not) to reconcile due to their disappearance for years, and later komaeda took his own life... aha...

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