#still really insecure though

[yashley]

marisha said laura I see your GET THE GIRL motivation and I raise you KEEP THE GIRL

#cr lb #4 sided dive #marisha thinking she can pull a vax style doomed romance #as if she forgot vex undemoned perc and jester helped fjord with his squid #laudna I Know Doomed vs imogen Not With Me #I absolutely love the conviction of a cataclysmic belief like it's juicy because it does remind me of vax's conviction #though one is obviously rooted in insecurity but really you can't. Make someone get over that #so it would be like really interesting if this is actually going to be an ongoing conflict #because like laudna finding imogen and imogen falling for her and that love and comfort happening #and laudna Still believes she's such a dead end for Sure definitely maybe you get over it maybe you Don't #so it's like Something drastic has to happen for that to change either side and something would Have to

[happyvoltz]

they are a happy family

#EDIT: I DREW THIS BEFORE HIM HAVING A DAUGHTER WAS EVEN CONFIRMED WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #actually though #tracy is named after troy’s mom and i did that cause his mom didn’t like him and so he still wanted to honor her so here ya go #i said this on twt but tracy was an after thought do not look too much into her only holding nicks hand troy and nick both adore her #i drew her last #the recovering alcoholic bit is in refrence to my trick fic i’m writing but also a parallel to troy never escaping it #nick isn’t a violent drunk though he’s a depressed ‘i’m fucking done’ then proceeds to feel sick when someone talks to him drunk lol #i’m really insecure about my art be nice #fear the walking dead #ftwd #troy otto #tracy otto #nick clark #ftwd trick #troy x nick #anyway #my art

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I think the funny thing about my being a youth leader is that I basically just Hang Out with a bunch of middle schoolers. like I just pal around with them and play games and then sit down and ramble at the youth pastor when it's time to discuss the Biblical topic of the night and somehow this has charmed like half a dozen of them into considering me A Cool Person despite the fact that I'm actually Introverted And Awkward at all times

#actually part of my goal in youth leadership is to show that like... you don't HAVE to be all together and chill #like when I was in youth group (briefly bc I was only in a location where it was an option for like 6 months tbh) #all the youth leaders — especially the female ones — seemed so Cool and Calm and Put Together ALL THE TIME #and it made me (frumpy and 16 and trying so hard to make friends) feel REALLY inadequate and insecure #and like I still have to work through the insecurity that caused in me!! bc the girls a few years older than me #who were youth leaders all seemed so CALM and RESPECTABLE and MATURE #and I STILL don't act like that! and I'm certainly not cool and calm and put together skskfndksnf #so I just want to like... not hide my awkwardness too much with these kids. not try to project Coolness or Looking Put Together #because I want them to see that like... they're fine just how they are? I want to be an example of what it looks like #when you're NOT the naturally calm and organized kind of person! when you're Awkward and Loud and Goofy and Hyper sometimes #because if you're following God then that stuff really doesn't matter. He made us a certain way and that's fine #idk. I think about this every so often again though akdkdkfnsk #Lu rambles

[crystalis]

i took a cool shower this morning and brushed my hair and i feel good now. i feel soft

i think im probably a little too hard on my self in terms of appearence, idk why im so insecure of the way i look all the time.. i was looking at myself in the mirror from sorta far away and thought that i looked nice. id probably like myself a lot more if i was looking at myself as a different person

#i was gonna say something else but i forgot #oh yeah i bought new shoes a few weeks ago so i no longer feel insecure of my 8 year old shoes that looked like crap #i still really want new pants though its just so hard to find jeans that fit me that i like #im like stuck in this trap of wearing skinny jeans forever

[theprinceandthewitch]

TFW you get the biggest Huntlow jumpscare of your life while looking for art in a different fanbase 😭

#I got Huntlow'd bc I was looking up ship art for a game that just so happens to have a character named Willow... #you know even though TOH is dead to me fr fr this time - I will still come online to rag on it's canon pairings #bc oh my god. #its the way people will try to make up shit abt Luz and Hunter's dynamic being unhealthy #especially Lumity shippers bc its like... oh okay... you really want to play that dumb game? I can play it too #Like seriously. the audacity of these clowns is something else. Especially since Luz will literally lie to Amity #for no reason #and Amity has some insecurities with her relationship with Luz that are never properly addressed onscreen. #so i rlly dont want to hear people making shit up abt Luz and Hunter enabling each other #And with Huntlow its like - the writers didn't even bother to show Willow being genuinely interested in him until he got Flapjacks magic #so... #and dont even get me started on people misusing the term trauma bonding when it comes to Lunter... #i just wish the pickme bisexuals would stop going along with this fandoms biphobia tbh

[boltgunkiller-archive]

i find it damn near impossible to get mad at santana’s behavior in 3x06 and 3x07 because i genuinely do think she had the right to be lashing out at everybody. sue me idk

#idgaf if she was mean to kurt and blaine when they were “trying to help” in IKAG #they were the first performance & santana was put under the spotlight by the guy who fully outed her to the ENTIRE STATE OF OHIO & now she #-was expected to be just happy and jolly about some bullshit lady music week to celebrate women as if that has anything to do with wtf just #-happened to her by finn’s hands & of course she was upset because she was only back in the new directions because finn basically #-blackmailed her into rejoining like hello!!! so of course she was snippy with them… and tbh i don’t even think she was being that mean. #i think she’d have reason to be even MEANER actually. that reaction of hers was completely reasonable. and honestly it must’ve hurt seeing #-two people who are meant to Get what it’s like.. participate in that? especially when the last thing she wants is her sexuality that she’s #-still very insecure with Being broadcasted. to the whole damn club. it’s already about to be shown to all of ohio with names addresses #-details about her whole personal life etc like she really didn’t need that spotlight right then she needed to have space and love and #-support… none of which she got. #also the glee writers tend to make a character do a bad thing and then have another character do an INFINITELY WORSE THING #and then they’re like “oh but. the first character was being so mean. this absolutely deplorable and wayyyy too far reaction is definitely #-justified now because that was just so mean of the first character ugh!” and basically spins what happened into showing the first characte #-as the most evil person alive??? as if that’s even remotely true.??? and yes this is about santana cause they do this w her #and quinn. a LOTTTT. like a LOT. rn i’m talking ab santana though so i won’t cover quinn sorry fabrayers… one day! #like yes santana was being mean sure whatever. but finn didn’t have an excuse IDGAF what the hell anybody says about the body shaming stuff #it was mean. yes that’s true. but i don’t think you understand how different those two things are #they’re both bad but the outing is infinitely more despicable and personal and filled with malice and it’s so much more endangering in a wa #-that can’t even be compared to the dangers of body shaming you know. like they’re completely different and the outing thing is just too #-personal and Wrong like. idk. just get that through ur head they’re both so different and finn went way too far and personal. he could’ve #-just mocked her looks if he really wanted to get back at her. mocked ANYTHING else. but he chose the worst thing you could do to somebody #who is scared and in the closet and hurting #also yes santana’s written to be rude a lot of the time but her degree of rudeness in those episodes was Overplayed and def not in characte #like it didn’t feel much like santana’s brand of meanness it was 100% the writers trying to justify finn more because they continued to #-paint finn as the good guy who chose the high road… when that couldn’t be further from the truth thanks. he didn’t choose the high road he #-completely blackmailed santana and used her to make him look good basically. so you can’t change my mind on that Def being a writer issue #and just them Hating Women. especially santana. thanks. #also this is all coming from somebody who loves finn. so. 🤣 #i fuckingggg hate seeing people say santana was mean and had no right to be doing all of that in those eps.. BITCH YES SHE DID #like in other eps sure (<- nuanced topic/take) but this one? No. she was justified IDGAF. should’ve been meaner

[bloobydabloob]

Is there a reason ur drawings kinda look like someone stretched them in some direction. Not in a mean way. It's very silly imo /pos

Thank you, I’m glad you like it. I take inspiration from artists like @tostyart (twt) @robert_valley (insta) jasonlupas (twt) and several other artists, who do the same thing. I think it looks great. There’s no deeper reason sadly… just think it looks cool.

#third ask in a row about the skew. Hahaha #I get why some people might not like it #I love it though. I think it’s sooo sick #I deleted yesterday’s ask because I didn’t want to clog my page with asks but I’ll reiterate #I don’t think that imperfect art should be fixed or corrected #I struggle more specifically with rigidity in my art #I have a tendency to overwork the shapes in my art to the point where it’s just… stiff as hell #So I think also the skew helps disguise that a little. Maybe I’m a cheater #But anyways #I really like skewiff or quote unquote wonky looking art. #I love art and I love beginner artists and I love shakey lines and imperfections #I think it’s soo awesome. #I dig all art to be honest. Really honestly I just like art. I’m rambling here haha #but no… Some of the people listed get insecure about the asymmetry or whatever in their art. #I don’t think anyone should be ashamed of their art as long as they are doing something they enjoy and improving #without wonky art and without weird looking stuff #we wouldn’t improve. That’s what really sucks #But I guess that’s not why I do it. I wish I could do the skew on accident dude. #Please check out @tostyart by the way #genuinely probably one of my favorite artists of all time #I think you will enjoy their stuff. It’s so different to everything else and their characters are wonderful #they have such wonderful line work and are so great at working with composition and perspective. #Everything I aspire to be #Sorry for tag rambling. I did this exact thing yesterday too #don’t give me the opportunity to talk about art. I’ll never shut up. #still not on topic though #TLDR : I think it looks cool

[ineed-to-sleep]

My therapist told me today that I'm one of her patients who's made the most progress in the last two years and honestly I have a feeling I'm getting a good grade at therapy

#which is ofc something real and achievable #but fr fr tho I'm so proud of my progress 🥲 I think most ppl don't really acknowledge how much therapy is actually hard #like exposing yourself. being vulnerable. opening up about your fears and insecurities and really shameful things #and being open to try a new perspective and actually going through the motions of putting yourself out there #putting things to the test and feeling wrong and having your body react like a prey animal the whole time #and still push through and keep trying again and again until your brain finally assimilates that this is you now #this is how you want to think and live your life now and you're not gonna have it any other way #it's hard and you don't do it perfectly and you go back to your sessions and you try again #there's hard truths we have to admit about ourselves there that we aren't always ready for #but you just keep going and things do eventually change #even though sometimes it feels like a painfully slow process #and idk just hearing her tell me that she sees me. that she sees how hard I'm trying. man. it's. im not gonna cry #sleep.txt #it's been real. fr fr

[sonknuxadow]

i think that what archie sonic had going on with its portrayal of the werehog was really interesting but also it kind of bugs me that sonics first transformation was built up to for so long and they had this big dramatic moment of him going apeshit but said problem of him going apeshit was immediately fixed in one issue and nothing like that ever happened again

#i mean i know they had to move on with the plot but you couldnt have that conflict go on for just a little longer ? #like the solution to the problem was sonic accepting the werehog as part of himself but what if he wasnt so quick to do that #or what if it helped a lot but wasnt an immediate 100 percent fix to everything #idk . i just wish they had done a bit more with All That #also that whole thing of sonic being in that live fighting tournament but not participating at night #because he didnt want eveyrone in the audience seeing him like that #it was just a casual thing not a ton of emphasis was placed on it but like . i noticed . dont think i didnt notice #it felt like it was implying there was still a little bit of insecurity there. but again they never really did anything with it #i guess you could brush it off as him just not wanting people to worry about him when so much is already going on though

[mcybree]

Random limlife Scott rant, GO!

I got this ask and decided that I’d give it my best shot but got so mad on my skim through some of the moments I remembered that I gave up.

#Okay im half joking #I got angry enough for me to decide that writing a post without careful consideration would probably lead to an inaccurate little ramble #I need to like. actually sit down and watch limlife and do a full overall analysis #because the context for how scott acts each season is so important. a skim just wont do #The reason I dont have notes on him to share with the class already is because when it was coming out I was pretending that— #Scott grew as a person after 3l and I wanted to believe that so badly I started making stuff up about memory erasure and limlife being— #dubiously real so that I could look the other way when scott started being weird about jimmy again #I was like yeah they barely remember it thats why scotts being uncomfortably weird about jimmy this season #not because scott doesnt think about jimmy like a person and just wants to hear him say words that make him feel better about his— #rough relationship history #not because the idea of jimmy gaining independence from him makes him feel insecure or anything #sighs. sorry im just saying things. again its been a while since ive watched it so I need to actually. Yknow. Watch it before making posts #Its just crazy how he treats it like proving a point more than actually caring #“I mightve given you the 30 minutes last week if youd said love you” he wouldnt have. he was already leaving when he said it #he’s literally just trying to get him to feel bad about not saying it #pretty sure he kills jimmy in the same episode he lets jimmy kill him. Like. He doesnt really care like that #He just likes to pretend that he does. He is going through the motions of caring #Its like he needs to believe jimmy still needs him. in like a possessive way. Its really weird man #I will say though since I see this a lot: I dont think him singling out tango in the 30 seconds scene was intentional #because if im being honest. I dont think he sees the ranchers as anything serious #He assumes tango was just putting up with jimmy bc he had to. He doesnt think tango actually cares about jimmy #in his mind no one actually cares about jimmy. because if scott struggled to care about jimmy and Scott is known for being an amazing ally #that must mean everyone else struggles to care about jimmy. If that makes sense #rant over I think. tldr limlife scott analysis postponed until I get my life together enough to be able to sit down and watch forthree hour #bree barks so fucking loud #asks

[luobingmeis]

im back to thinking about wei wuxian because in the span of a night his life fell apart and he was rendered speechless again and again and within just a couple days so much grief and hatred filled him that he accepted the fact that mercy is no longer an option but he is for once faced with the overwhelming power of the wens and this was why no other clan ever tried anything and i am really thinking about how he met wen ning two years prior and was nice to him and defended him and then forgot about the whole situation because he just is naturally that kind and then they meet again and wei wuxian is angry and grieving and accepting the fact that he will kill this guy because there is no way a wen will just let him go and then wen ning helps him rescue jiang cheng and promises to find jiang fengmian and yu ziyuan’s bodies and takes them to wen qing, the best doctor of her generation, all because he remembered the boy who was nice to him two years ago.

like with wei wuxian’s impression on people, lan wangji is also the go-to (rightfully so), but like. so much of the plot kicked off because wei wuxian was nice to wen ning.

#and even with lwj like. despite how frustrated he would get with wwx and how they were at odds even before sunshot #and how lwj was going through his own things with wwx and his feelings and the reactions wwx would get out of him #and then. u know. uh oh cloud recesses! #but like. lwj still knows that wwx is /good./ he frustrates lwj to no end and constantly shows that he is good. #i wish i had more coherent wangxian thoughts i feel like so many people talk abt them so much better 😭 #i do think a lot abt xuanwu cave though like. how all that happened when lwj didn’t have his headband on. wwx realizing the set boundary. #wwx for the first time being insecure that he really has been annoying lwj only for lwj to thank him. #i have wangxian thoughts but i feel like they’re things everyone else has said before omg

[seonghwacore]

actually sad seeing those tiktoks saying men and women cant be mutual friends without feelings cus dudes, im sorry that ur friends have only ever seen your face value, literally.

#ann.txt #me and my circle are averagely attractive imo but the point is we never brings out the topic of “if we have to date each other-” #cus we value each other not only from appearance but the mutual adventures and misadventures and that we can actually stand each other's ass #in thise hard times and not being annoyingly clingy #and even though that their girlfriends still respect us the girl dudes. and we totally never have the idea to date each other #and all my dudes are generally more emotionally attached than me and my girl bff #if the dudes in ur circle ever bring out the “if we should date each other who would u date” game onto the table #its a sign from God to run #and more importantly #my dudes really feel more like siblings who hang out rather than acquaintances #im actually so proud of them we're not insecure about our respective relationship with our own lovers for it #to be a reason to stay away from this circle of motherfuckers

[moe-broey]

Something something about how Moe is both and neither due to its failure to perform or achieve "either" set of gendered expectations, regardless of its own personal feelings of gender identity (which is complex in and of itself), which results in it ultimately fitting in nowhere.

#moe tag #like moe's identity is exclusively masculine but its 'doing it wrong' on purpose. fag style. #and in this performance it still doesn't quite fit with the men. it's ultimately something else. #and ofc there is the failure to adhere to cis feminity/expectations. it's doing it wrong bc it was never capable of doing that correctly #even if it 'seemed' like it was. it wasn't. #i think this is why moe has become such a fascinating way for me to express and explore my own gender identity #where there are significant differences. moe is literally just more well-written LMFAOOOO #like what do you mean you're a feminine trans man. that you're exclusively a man when you look Like That. #moe just cuts to the chase by being genderqueer and therefore 'other' by default. #and the way that it is does very much feel like the way i experience my gender despite my own view of myself #even though i'm a man. i'll never be 'a man' in the same way the average joe is. hell i bet there are other transmen #who 'achieve' manhood in a way i cannot. which isn't really a judgement or an insecurity for me like more power to them #it's just me expressing objectively that no matter how easy it is for me to view myself the way i do #i'm always going to be subjected to the perception of others. some will get it. some won't. #and that's sort of what i mean about being 'othered' despite my own view of myself/ #despite moe's own view of itself. again it's just so much more easy and concise to explain w moe bc its identity #exists outside of the binary. while a huge core of mine is that it DOES exist in the binary. i'm just a faggot about it LMFAO

[whalesfall]

thinking Weirdly about that time an ex friend was telling me about how she shittalked me with one of HER ex friends about how I was pretentious and how like, deeply alien to me that was. like I refuse to talk down to people (or try very hard not to) and I have difficulty Distilling shit into shorter sentences because I hate reducing ideas or not being totally clear, which isn’t for everyone but. pretentious?

#and then she said that their friendship had fallen apart and this was probably the moment I should’ve RECANTED my 15th second chance #but the pretentious accusation is so funny. no idea why I’m thinking about it right now but it’s so funny #like I’m sorry I guess. I don’t talk to people like they’re stupid. #will do that next time boss 🫡 #I don’t know… being pretentious is so ew. I then sat and listened to two hours of ‘what I would do if I met the queen of england’ like what #what was I doing!!! this was embarrassing for us both. #I hate the ‘I AM pretentious’ culture though so it was really bothersome at the time #The life I lead is Not dark academia core I can only assume I hit some insecurity nerves and move on #now I have zero patience for cloying attempts at praise in the form of ‘are you sure I’m smart enough to talk to you 🥺’ so #maybe this was weird for everyone involved. #I am surrounded by some really smart people and I’m only grateful for it! #sometimes the conversation isn’t for me or it’s above my understanding but it’s still fine? #🍂.txt

[brain-bumbler]

I am. I am shaking the jar demanding more sillies. Can be about anything, just gimme 🤲

OH ho ho hmmm

I've been thinking about Raz and Dion recently. We know Dion is jealous of Raz's powers. He's been jealous since he saw Raz and Frazie floating rocks and playing their super secret special mindgames, no big brothers allowed! Dion tried to do it to, to be like them even if it was against the rules, he wanted to-

Either he was repressing too hard, or he just wasn't psychic. He cried and buried those feelings deep beneath resentment and envy.

Jealous too of how Raz got to escape and start a new life, follow his dreams. Dion loves his brother, but his brother managed to defeat the family curse and change his parents' minds about psychics and save the world. All within the course of, what, a few days?

Raz effortlessly bounces around on his little lev ball, higher than Dion could ever naturally jump, and Dion wants to punch something.

But my personal headcanon is that Raz has spent most of his life jealous of Dion.

Perfect Dion, always does every trick right, future ringleader Dion. He felt like trying to reach the bar his brother set was like clawing up the side of a sheer cliff. Dion who has lots of friends in the circus, or at least knows how to be friendly and charming when he needs to be, not weird lil Raz who was off-putting to other kids. Dion who, as the oldest, gets the best clothes instead of hand me downs, who Dad and Mom trust the most.

Dion who is Nona's favorite.

Dion can cook and clean and reads real books, not comic books. Dion who can always tell when his siblings are having a bad day and does their chores or sneaks them a candy. Dion who always lands on his feet like a cat. Raz loves him but he wants to scream sometimes when he does a flip he worked so hard on and looks 5 feet away to see his brother doing the same thing but better.

If Raz heard Dion was jealous of him he'd want to both cry and smack him. God just let them talk things out give them therapy

#psychonauts 2 #razputin aquato #dion aquato #also its not written explicitly here but #hc that raz really looked up to dion when he was little #and still does though he'll never admit it #though he's not a fan of how dion is acting right now #dion wants to be psychic! #He wants to be perfect! #he wants to be the best! #Raz just wants to be good enough #he wants to be himself #raz's arc in the games is probably about accepting himself and where he came from #so i think his insecurities and jealousy have improved #now its dion's turn #i personally prefer psychic dion #so that's how I see that playing out but #*waves hand*