#thats his whole character development

[i-would-get-in-the-water-naked]

Is there any debate on which dnd archetype would Odysseus from EPIC be that needs to be settled? Because at the start of the story, hes Chaotic Stupid and then he moves to Lawful Edgy, thank you very much.

#“ruthlessness is mercy upon ourselves?” no i think you mean “the chaotic stupid left my body now i become lawful edgy” #thats his whole character development #and im here for it #zachytalks

[jade-len]

luo binghe better than me fr i think i would've gone fucking apeshit if the person i loved with my entire soul pretty much said "fuck you" because of my race and pushed me down into literal hell for me to suffer for years

i've said it before and i'll say it again, i really don't think we give binghe enough credit. that man was on concerning levels of forgiving all the way from the start

#this would all be without xin mo eating at my brain btw #were the things he did wrong? of course. can you blame him? absolutely not. #like lets not act like at least half of us wouldnt go insane #i would be devastated #just.. place urself in his shoes ok #like he was able to still change for the better despite all the shit he went through #able to realize his wrongdoings and make up for them #thats fucking amazing and we should not discredit him ok #my ass would probably do the same thing as him tbh. or have a whole mental breakdown. or both #also same goes for bingge i wouldve done the same shit too probably. id fuck shen jiu up #again #not excusing his actions but i feel like people seem to focus on that part of him way too much when we literally see his character growth #and yeah hes still just a little unhinged but arent we all #hell some people are WAY more fucked up than binghe and they didnt even go through #i love him so much can you tell #so anyways yes if he were real i would date him hes so relatable #because then id now that he would actually change for the better and make things up and learn from his mistakes #yeah haha yes hes a red flag whatever all jokes and fun but are we just gonna ignore his development??? #im not a binghe apologist. maybe. #svsss #mxtx svsss #luo binghe #luo bingmei

[bonetrousledbones]

yknow i try to not actively hope for specific things for deltarune’s story because who KNOWS wtf toby’s plans are for that but if there’s one thing i genuinely really really hope for its that papyrus gets to be treated as an actual serious character instead of just comic relief or whatever

#trousled rambles #deltarune #papyrus #like even if hes not the knight just let him have some development i am BEGGINg #idk i was just thinkin abt how like. outside of the geno route undertale doesn't actually really have any serious scenes with him #almost every character has a scene where they talk to frisk about serious things and they're in almost every route #the only exception i can think is that u dont get undyne's Chat if u cant hang out with her but she still gets the geno route to be serious #papyrus has . a pretty short scene in the geno route that's mostly just overlooked for fanon sans angst. and thats it #you could argue the bit leading up to his fight and him just wanting a friend is more serious but its still comedic imo #i get he's a goofy character but if sans can have his whole Thing in undertale i think papyrus deserves to have a Thing in deltarune yknow #i really love him as a character but sometimes i really wish that he was written with a bit more development n dimension

[lecliss]

Sakura gets a second point for being the first to complete the tree climbing at being better at chakra control, but at the same time it just feels like she was made good at it so no extra training segment time would have to be put into her getting good at it and it can be all about Sauce and Nart. Idk that feels too pessimistic but also could totally be true.

#she takes on a very 'obsever' role. like kashi is the teacher watching over them. but sock is the watching and commenting from the same #perspective of nart and sauce and also the viewer unlike kashi. cuz he provides a lot of exposition and whatnot in his inner monolgues #and its like. of course the girl is just the observer who watches alongside us as the two main boys grow and develop #AND I DONT WANNA FUCKIN BE PESSIMISTIC ABOUT THIS BUT GOD ITS IMPOSSIBLE!!!! #but her whole character so far is 'i hate the class clown. im book smart. i diet and im in love' #and the way i see it is. 12yo girl TRYING to fit into the femininity she sees in the world around her so she forces herself to be like this #but she has inner sock who speaks what she really feels showing that she puts on quite a front and isnt really much like that at all #and you expect her to grow into wanting her to truly define herself. and she does with getting stronger and training under tsunade and #learning medical ninjutsu so she really finds a spot for herself. she does!!! but then she KEEPS hanging onto the love nonsense #and admittedly there are moments that push a very obvious trope of thinking she likes sauce cuz hes cool but finding out that the real 'gem' #is nart so i definitely understand where n@rus@kus are coming from #but then she just STICKS with sauce until its the worst ship possible and its an utter mess of 'ill never give up on him' #EVEB DESPITE HIM TRYING TO KILL HER!!! THEN THAT FUCKING WORKS OUT!?!?!? #AND TOO THIS DAY SAUCE STILL NEVER COMES OFF LIKE HE ACTUALLY LOVES HER #IM SORRY BUT ITS TRUE. SARD WE ARE GETTING YOU BETTER PARENTS. ON GOD!!!!! #so she just hangs on to this one little thing that she SHOULD have gotten development for to move on from BUT IT NEVER FUCKING HAPPENS #so its like half her development never fucking happens and thats why it #s such a fuckinf mess!!!!! #i fucking hate this show. i need to go back to watching mike's dino game vod. what am i doing here????? #i did this to myself btw. i didnt need to start yelling about that but thats just how it is with nart #start thinking about something good and then it reminds you of something related thats bad and now its like. yeah this shit sucks #remember when kishi said he regretted not making hina the heroine???? we could have lived in a better timeline. #but if i say that i will get assassinated #anyway. #sock count #personal

[waywardsalt]

now bc of that one post abt zelda getting fridged whenever that one guy directs a zelda game im thinking abt tetra just getting turned to stone in ph and like. what would it have been like if she were an actual character in ph. what would she have done how would this have changed the story

#not gonna do a whole lot of tagging im just musing. if you wanna rb or reply with ideas thats great #im not the person to figure this out bc i dont actually care much abt tetra #not like oh i hate her but like. i only played ph and what i see of her beyond that has not endeared me to her #shes fine i just dont get it. ig cuz i didnt play ww but eh #cuz like. ok. pretty much the majority of phs plot relies on tetra having been turned to stone and fixing that #and me being the autistic little freak i am the psrt that also makes it hard for me to wonder what could happen if #tetra werent stone and that making the game better is like. ok what about linebeck and his arc #listen his arc is so fucking good and hes great and i dont think his arc would have been so good if link wasnt the character he was put wit #cuz link is a great foil and despite having minimal characterization has just the right personality to nudge linebeck along #cuz hes def part of what inspires some of that change in linebeck so idk what might have happened #if tetra was an active player interacting with him in ph too. cuz like idk most of the time when i see people #do stuff where they interact its usually tetra one upping linebeck or whatever and thars like. ok thats whar ciela does #maybe im reading into it too much and focusing on linebeck. idk how you couldve done and changed #the plot of ph to include tetra without just straight up rewriting the whole thing or putting link away #bc look me in the eyes. i do not think linebeck would have developed the way he did without having met link specifically #salty talks #idk i feel like linebecks arc is the best bit of story in ph so i want that to remain more or less intact bc thats where a lot of #the emotional stuff comes in at the end. his dialogue in the ghost ship battle and the final boss. its important #i dont think about tetra much cant you tell. so id leave this to someone who actually cares abt her as a character

[fellhellion]

This part of the editorial from 2099 (pic sourced from this post) is so interesting to me because i don’t even think the idea of Miguel having these kinds of flaws is uninteresting or impossible, but I just personally would never have come to this conclusion just based on the text.

Like, when I personally look at how Miguel and Dana interact, I don’t see any indication that he emotionally condescends to having a relationship with her, when you’d think this strain of elitism should shine through in some part of their relationship at least initially in his arc.

I don’t look at Xina and Miguel’s interactions and interpret any sense him feeling threatened by her intelligence (even if we're just talking purely pre-spidermanning), when you’d think an element of that would be present, even in a flashback. He was a callous dickhead about the cheating explanation, but that alone without some corresponding behaviour to how he speaks to/treats Dana, even just as a flashback, just doesn’t offer the bridging piece to displaying what the authorial intent apparently was, at least for me.

Also, and by god we always come back to Dana’s writing being so damn lazy, but if Miguel - even if only at first - sought Dana out due to the emotional convenience she provided, what has prompted enough change that he is willing to bear and forgive actions like her seeking out the company of the man who drugged him when she wants to needle Miguel.

ALSO. PETER DAVID I AM SPEAKING DIRECTLY INTO YOUR EAR RN. ITS VERY SILLY TO ME TO POINT OUT THE MISOGYNISTIC STREAK INTENDED IN MIGUEL’S ACTIONS HERE BUT THEN LITERALLY JUST NOT BOTHER TO MAKE THE WOMAN THIS IS ABOUT MAKE LIKE. SENSE WHEN YOU WROTE HER. OFFER NO EXPLORATION INTO WHAT HER ACTIONS SPEAK TO IN HER PERSON AND DELVE INTO WHAT CONTRADICTORY ACTS MIGHT TELL US ABOUT HER.

#'a component to miguel's cheating is misogynistic thinking' AND IS THE MISOGYNISTIC THINKING IN THE ROOM WITH US NOW #idk idk...i genuinely have no issue with grappling w this as a character flaw of his i just would never have come to this conclusion on my #own PURELY from how he treated dana and xina. absolute asshole move w how he spoke of the cheating intially to xina #but that alone just makes him an asshole. not someone who felt threatened by her intelligence and THATS the piece that i dont personally se #in the text. #not to mention. the way dana and miguel's relationship is tonally depicted just. speaks of some lvl of sincerity to me. miguel isn't an #overly physically affectionate person and the times he does display that are really interesting (holding Gabriel when the abuse was going o #holding Xina when she blamed herself for Dana's death etc etc) #and then you have the way he holds Dana when he accidentally hits her while hallucinating from the rapture. he calls her lover and honey. #they cuddle in the bath that one time together. he recognises he hasnt been spending enough time w her and went to invite her out because o #it. and yeah. some of these we can absolutely chalk up to the character development hes having at the same time due to spidermanning but #even BEFORE that its like. it feels tonally dissonant to even try read Dana's actions at face value because the narrative doesnt CARE #about them making sense as part of a coherent whole person who thinks and rationalises actions to achieve a certain outcome or satisfy a #desire. it doesnt CARE enough to give her that sadly and so youre just left like. what does this relationship mean to these two characters? #for one party in particular i genuinely have no idea. and i dont know what to infer is the reason for a change from the mentality outlined #as authorial intent. because i didnt get that impression in the first place. #tunes talks 2099 #tunes talks critical #long post

[the-nameless-wacky-inventor]

@shychick-52 hiii answering that on this blog-

YEAH Blitzø DEFINITELY has some 17 Gyro energy it’s so silly. He’s even got the traumatic backstory where he was abused by a father figure and lost everything!!!! He’s the loud mouth shit talker who’s too full of himself but does actually care about people and has ALL of the attachment issues.

Ooohhh idk about Stolas for Mads tho. I think Stolas is too prince like? He’s not crazy enough to be Mads. Though his over-sexualization definitely has Mads energy (“we’re rich and we’re hot. People want our money and our bodies”). Ik some people have compared Stolas to 17 Gyro, but it seems mostly in his relationship with his daughter Octavia, that being similar to Gyro and Boyd.

Honestly I think that both 17 Gyro and Mads fit Blitzø, idk if either of them are too much like Stolas. XD

I think Mads does remind me a lot of Fizzarolli, which just goes to show I’ll get too attached to the same character every time (oh he and Asmodeus have definite NFenton madfen energy. hold oh oh fuck they are the royalty au-).

Moxxie is Fenton tho (and Gandra definitely isn’t Millie). XD

SLDLGLGLDL nah Blitzø is DEFINITELY too…. Blitzø to be Machete. Machete is more like Stolas. XD

#thanks for the ask!! #yeah blitz is if Gyro was in an r rated show and had absolutely none of his character development #shychick-52 #NAH BUT ASMODEUS AS A SIN LIKE NFENTONS THE KING AND FIZZ IS HIS SILLY JESTER BF #THATS THE WHOLE PREMISE OF THE ROYALTY AU SLDLFLFKGK

[fideidefenswhore]

anyone else watching the latest of the crown?

#anyone else going crazyyy from it … #idk apparently critics haven’t liked it but i actually love it #it’s much more understated than the other installments but i guess i just love it the more for that #also (unpopular opinion) despite the performances and chemistry being great and important and compelling of the first set of actors #as charles and diana… i kind of enjoy watching the second on screen more ? #idk if it’s that sense of development or that i just find relationships in that stage of life #and the relationship btwn ex partners more interesting #but damn they’re believable #and i just got to the opening scene where they hear news of her death and broke my fucking heart #i keep thinking of that last scene they had together before their last in the series of recriminations #where she describes herself as the runner up #and god it’s just perfect writing and character work for anyone that knows this story #bcus you KNOW there were very few at the time that would’ve thought of Diana as the ‘runner up’ #but even tho it’s cheeky it’s authentic. she means it and feels it and that’s why it’s so poignant . #*sad… bcus she LOVES his ass. truly. despite everything #*thats why their whole thing is so fucking sad . #he also loves her too. she’s just not the love of his life .

[kind-of-a-shitty-wizard]

i know this has been said before but it really tickles me that the other TAZ arc antagonists had to be corrupted by the relics before doing anything evil but that jenkins was ALREADY an awful person. this man killed people and took their money. he was NOT corrupted his ass didnt even TOUCH the relic

#jenkins taz #there is like a spectrum of grey moralities among the other relic seekers and one big black mark where jenkins' soul is lmao #this is also disregarding the fact that he somehow knew the grand relics existed and would be on the train. #like. HULLO how did you know that??? who is this man #i peer into his character expecting to find the equivalent of a shallow pool but its a whole ass cavern in there. and baby im spelunking #like. how much of him is an act...is he completely cold? is there a 3-sizes-too-small heart in there?? does he call his mother on sundays?? #WHO IS HE. i need to ruminate on this #...wheres that post thats like 'getting invested in a villain from a comedy series and giving them insane depth/character development' sjdf #jenkinsposting #enochtalk

[thelostboys87]

my beautiful autistic mind is so picky and annoying sometimes because my biggest struggle with writing at the moment is the fact i dont like how the name bobby looks written out but i like how it sounds and also know that is his name it literally cannot be anything else. but every time i look at the letters i'm like.......

#thing is it's literally a whole thing in the damn story about how he hates his Government Name so i have to honour his real name!!!! #actually this was one of those moments where a character came with a name #bobby was a moment of wait were you always there and i just didnt notice you because i saw a pic on pinterest #that gave me an idea for an RR storyline the storyline being a character dies from AIDS #which is something i have been SO apprehensive about this whole time because i didnt know if i wanted to write the AIDS crisis and include #death so directly...but then my mom died and i became hyperfixated on death LOL #(and realised the way i could approach it respectfully + in a way that honours) #anyway i was like wow with my better expertise on the AIDS crisis + personal experience with loss i feel like i can write this kind of #storyline but who dies?? and i have to make them a fully fleshed character bc i always do #but thats like especially important here. he can't just be a body + vessel for other characters' grief journeys #literally immediately my brain was like so his name is bobby he looks like this he was born in august and he loves this david bowie song #i dont actually know if he still likes the david bowie song (my first image of him had dialogue inspired by the song) so that is info FOR M #but maybe i should revisit that lol.....anyway he just appeared #more details + development came with time as always but i dont have like any conscious #memory of that it just happened #like i forget he's only existed less than a year bc he's on beau/felix/dorothy levels of developed. WOW! #was also never meant to be beau's bestie and i can't remember at all how i decided that it also just happened #oops i accidentally infodumped

[thewhizzyhead]

oki persona ramble time: AS OF SEEING OKIMURA SR. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THE GAME, I am honestly impressed with how this arc in particular developed Morgana's own development and inner conflict. like him feeling discouraged over being constantly undermined by the team as "just a dumb cat" has been building up for a while now even from his introduction and now that at this point of the story where there are more people in the Phantom Thief team + more time is spent away from Morgana + there are more instances of Morgana being ignored or dismissed (esp from Ryuji), it is nice to see a subtle running joke from the team in regards to Morgana actually manifest into an actual conflict. Same goes for Ryuji what with his rivalry with/constant annoyance at Morgana + the fame of the Phantom Thieves going to his head, causing him to really be consistent in his aggressively reckless pattern so far. Both character arcs are very much at the forefront in the Okimura chapter.

HOWEVER, I will say that Morgana's realization arc aka "Am I sure I'm a human? What if I'm the bad guy?" should've come sooner - and the same goes for the "Ooohh There Was A Mysterious Dude In The Metaverse Before You Guys" pattern. Both should've been a bit more hinted at because I've noticed that at this point of the story, those two plotlines have been received as stale due to constant allusions to the subjects but none of the actual development before the Okimura chapter. Morgana's character in particular suffers the most out of the staggered pacing because I've noticed that for some people, how he deals with his inner conflict became hard to sympathise with due to (1) the arc being rather sudden (an example being Morgana starting his "Am I The Bad Guy arc" through a dream of all things) and (2) because Morgana's character hasn't been well developed or explored further prior to the Okimura chapter - hence people adopting a similar mindset to Ryuji in terms of treating Morgana as a "dumb cat". Though it is possible that that take could've been done on purpose as to make Ryuji's demeanor more relatable, Morgana's entire arc and development suffers from it - which is rather sad because he could've been really compelling as a character for me personally if the pacing of the exploration of his character weren't as staggered.

#BUT THEN AGAIN I HAVE ONLY JUST STARTED THE OKIMURA ARC SO PLEASE DON'T COME FOR MY ASS WITH SPOILERS ABOUT MORGANA OR RYUJI PLEASE #but yea #i dunno #i've been watching rtgame's persona 5 stream and like #although i dont hate morgana at all - in fact in the beginning i found him quite endearing #i can get why rtgame hates his guts - morgana's whole 'i cant remember who i am' shtick has gone stale #and the development of his character has been rather lacking #when it should've been a bit more explored even a little bit prior to the okimura arc #so that the audience has more of a reason to be compelled by his story #i dunno its just really staggered pacing for me thus far #hOWEVER THAT MAY CHANGE WITH HOW THE OKIMURA ARC IS GOING SO PLEASE DONT SPOIL ME VJDJC #but yea thats all my thoughts rn: it should've been a liiiittle more developed before the okimura arc #persona 5 #persona 5 spoilers #persona 5 morgana

[soopysoap]

hey btw nothing will make me immediately start ugly sobbing like the rocket man scene from everything sucks

#lord. LORDDD. #i also think its so interesting that while kates whole character is finding herself in the midst of Truly Dealing with her mothers death an #like. truly living for the first time with the fact that she doesnt have a mother during the years when she's developing as a person #her dads character has seemingly like #moved on #throughout the whole show #bc its established from the beginning that her death happened 10 years prior? so like it Makes Sense #and the entire time hes presented as this Happy Go Lucky guy who just wants to be there for his daughter and is a little silly and naive #sometimes #and like yeah hes struggling a bit when it comes to raising his daughter and finding love again but not any more than any other single #parent would! #and THEN #all of a sudden #he and kates boyfriend get her to play a song on the piano for them #bc they love her and want to see her in her element!!!! #and right from the beginning its established that the song shes going to play is very personal to her and her dad. they dont even divulge #details. he just says- 'youre gonna play moms song?' and she says 'yeah. is that okay?' and he says 'yeah.' and its fine #and then she plays and sings this BEAUTIFUL rendition of rocket man by elton john on the piano. and good GOD is he keeping it together for #her. but hes not smiling anymore!!!!! and the camera is cutting between her who is tearing up but Not Crying because she cant fucking cry b #SHE chose to do this and thats lame and embarrassing or whatever and then it fucking cuts back to him. during the lines 'i miss the earth s #much / i miss my wife' #good LORD nothing broke me faster #and then he just gets up. and leaves to go to the kitchen. during his daughters song- someone he has been TRYING SO HARD to be there for #while she continuously pushes him away bc of her own fears #and he fucking walks away bc he knows hes gonna break down and he cant do that in front of his daughter and who does he call?? WHO DOES HE #CALL????? the woman he had recently gone on a few dates with who likes him for Him who is helping him relearn what it means to be in love #and experience life without fear and she doesnt even pick up it just goes to voicemail and he KNOWS its just gonna go to voice mail her #voice just comforts him #all while rocket man is softly playing in the background #my roman empire

[bonetrousledbones]

i’m glad for how much i’ve grown over the years but sometimes i look back on some of the writing decisions i made when i was 14 and just

#trousled rambles #i've been thinking about atbb's overall story a lot lately to see how i would possibly change things to work more smoothly in a fic #and like. man. oh my god you could really fucking tell my age back then huh #i am retconning so so so many things #like for one. i made russ a smoker solely so that he would be a bit edgier. like thats legit the only reason #granted i was just trying to show that he was an Adult and inadvertently telling ppl to Not Fucking Try It but. yeah thats a 14 y/o's take #while im talking abt russ i also wanna say he would NOT get drunk in front of a victim of an abusive alcoholic waht the FUCK were you DOING #this is the same man that felt the need to apologize after waking up from a coma bc he knew his yelling beforehand probably scared edge #like cmON #and also the whole fucking babybone au glitch arc...................i just did that bc i didnt wanna answer things too early................ #fluff's grandpa wasnt even gaster at first man it was just grandpa semi #not changing that one bc it IS a bit better for his arc & character development but . MAN #i could rant FOREVER about all the shit that's changed since i started atbb but i HAVE to stop here or i never will byeeeeeeee

[finely-tuned-line]

RP:

Log 236

FTL: ...No updates on either of the experiments. I haven't checked. I've been... thinking.

FTL: It's hard to say what I've been thinking about. Everything, I suppose. Echoes of a Paradox... Well, their rant directed at me has thrown everything off-kilter.

FTL: I don't- They're right. They're right. They must be. It all makes sense and yet- It doesn't. Well, it does. But-

FTL: Was I really that blind? Was I really that-

FTL: I can't think. I can't think about anything at all, it's all just going in circles, I need to figure this out, I'm wasting time.

FTL: Why am I wasting time? Why do I rush so much to get back to work, to keep- Because it's my purpose, it's what I do, it's why I exist. Therefore I must do my work.

FTL: I- I'd still be doing my job even if I didn't like it. Right? I mean, surely it's not just my- I have reasoning. I exist because of my purpose, therefore I must fulfill it, therefore I do so. That fact that I like my work doesn't matter all that much. Its doesn't.

FTL: I don't see any flaws in that logic, so how did I end up here? How did I end up hurting my family so much and not seeing it?

FTL: I need to get my thoughts in order. Pause. Don't think.

FTL: Alright, what did Echoes of a Paradox say?

FTL: They said that my mindset, specifically the careless comments, put pressure upon them and the other members of our Local Group to follow that mindset as well, despite the fact that that was not my intention.

FTL: Is this a possibly true thing?

FTL: Yes. Echoes of a Paradox has never lied to me before, they have no reason to do so, no outright falsities were clear within their words.

FTL: Was this intentional on my part?

FTL: No. I'd never willingly hurt any of them. My Local Group is my family, they're the people I'd never hurt. They're only joined by approximately two or three external others. I never did pause to see what the effects of my words were, perhaps because it was inconceivable to me that they could be harmful.

FTL: What else did Echoes of a Paradox say?

FTL: That my mindset of prioritising my purpose above all is unhealthy and pitiful and that I'm only harming myself by not breaking out of it.

FTL: Is this statement unique?

FTL: No. Echoes of a Paradox is not the first to share a similar sentiment and share it with me. The others being primarily LIFEGIVER and somewhat Upsilon.

FTL: Due to this not being an uncommon sentiment, is it a logical one?

FTL: No. No, it is not. Iterators are built to accomplish one or more tasks, disregarding that purpose even a bit renders the Iterator useless.

FTL: ...Do I apply that statement to anyone other than myself?

FTL: No. That belief is one that I hold only myself up to - others, whoever they are, can do whatever they wish to.

FTL: Is it logical to apply the statement to only myself?

FTL: No. I am not the only Iterator, that statement generalises all Iterators, which includes both myself and every other Iterator.

FTL: Why do I apply that belief to only myself?

FTL: ...I do not know. Perhaps it's a sense of only being able to control my own actions, of the fact that I'm the only one who appears to see that fact. If it even is a fact.

FTL: Why does everyone appear to be taking this mindset to be a negative one?

FTL: I do not know. It makes sense, there is no reason to disregard it the way that everyone does. It is a fact, denying it is rather pointless. We're - I'm - machines. Artificial Intelligences. Designed to fulfill tasks at the behest of our creators.

FTL: Why does anything else matter?

FTL: It doesn't make sense. That is the definition of my existence, why should I strive for anything outside of it even if my creators are long-gone? Why do irrelevant things, like relationships, emotions, personalities, anything matter? Why put so much stake on it?

FTL: Echoes of a Paradox says they pity me for thinking this way. I don't know why. I'm, of course, remorseful about the unintentional harm I've caused them, I don't wish to ever hurt them.

FTL: But why? Why, why, why?

FTL: Why do I care?

FTL: Why does it matter?

FTL: The rules of existence are laid out so clear, I follow them, yet why is that-

FTL: I don't understand. I simply don't understand.

FTL: I've had logical explanations laid out before me by LIFEGIVER. They make sense. But they also don't. It's unnecessary. I can accomplish my task well enough without emotions, or anything of the like.

FTL: I exist only because my creators needed someone to fulfill the purpose I was given. That is all I am, and that is all I ever will be. There's no reason to concern myself with anything else.

FTL: Why bother with, or care about anything outside of that? It's unnecessary.

FTL: So why do I do it?

FTL: I do not know. I simply do not know.

FTL: I have nothing to say. I am unable to figure this out on my own, nor do I care to inquire about it.

FTL: All I can truly say is that I regret what I incidentally did to the members of my Local Group, and as much as I wish to properly take Echoes of a Paradox's advice, LIFEGIVER's advice, anyone's advice, I simply cannot.

FTL: Perhaps it's a matter of viewpoints. Perhaps their external viewpoint of myself allows them to realise things I do not. Perhaps I've just been thinking this way for too long.

FTL: It just doesn't make sense.

FTL: As much as I wish I could follow the suggestions given, I can't. Not out of stubbornness, but due to the lack of sensibility.

FTL: I've been fine thus far, have I not? Despite my lack of care about my own safety - and I maintain: for good reason - I am alive now. I am as functional as the day I was given consciousness. Nothing matter beyond that, no?

FTL: I suppose the only thing I really can do is perhaps take LIVEGIVER's advice about how emotions are useful and not burdens. I am quite hesitant about that though, because I do truly doubt it. They're blinding. Irrelevant.

FTL: ...At this point, I am completely unsure what to do. Simply going back to my work seems- ...Feels incorrect. I can't cut down on the time that I spend working - what else would I do? Besides, that's only wasting time.

FTL: It's all I have to do.

FTL: Besides, I cannot simply abandon my experiments, bad things could very easily happen with a half-finished experiment. Such as the one I currently have in progress.

FTL: So, while letting it rot away would be very easy, that would be very counterintuitive. I'd rather not do that.

FTL: In the end, as always, all I can do is go back to my work. As always. Even after something that seems so world-shattering. I've done my contemplation, I've arrived at the same conclusion as I always do - other than the realisation and acknowledgement of the unintentional effects of my actions. Nothing can and will change, really. Beyond perhaps talking with my Local Group more often.

FTL: It's all I can do.

FTL: Back to work.

#this is disjointed as fuck yes #bcs the way i imagine that ftl even writes anything is sort of by... filtering his thoughts into a text thing?? #like iterators sure as fuck dont type normally #so if ves.. well ves thinking lik this then what gets written - recorded - has much of the same air bcs ves not filtering it to be sensical #i think that makes sense o7 #im too sleep deprived to word rn okay #listen im sorry i dont thinkni properly got ftls point across here #bcs. well its the same issue i have with expressing my own complicated emotions #words dont explain anything well enough #mmm listen this is shit bcs i cut it off before i projected onto ftl TOO much #(too late for that) #(WAYYYY too fucking late) #(this whole thing is basically an existential crisis of a rant - aka an overconvoluted vent on my part) #yes thats ftl making a pun #listen. i saw the opportunity. i took it. its funny. #to anyone who was actually expecting proper character development or whatever. with ftl changing his mind and getting Better or whatever #yeahhhh sorry but thats extremely unlikely #convincing him - or trying to - is pointless. no arguments could be made. #basically the only thing to do is show. not tell #if that makes sense #i dont fucking know #theres a very real chance that hell never change his mindset - if only bcs i cant figure out any answers either #ALRIGHT SRY FOR BEING DEPRESSING AS SHIT. I PROMISE IM FINE OR WHATEVER. 👍 #BACK TO STATUS QUO WE GO!! #except ve miiiiiight be better w emotions now but i doooo doubt that? unsure #well see... #rp #finely-tuned line #ftl logs #im sry the writing here is kinda shit

[waywardsalt]

im having more insane thoughts about making bellumbeck some kind of metaphor someone remind me to type that out at some point

#like. like. im tring to really tie it into linebeck's character arc bc im really feral abt him being the one who gets possessed #i literally do not care if it would make more sense for bellum to possess link or w/e its more delicious this way fuck you #salty talks #like. smth abt how bellumbeck is like threatening to roll back linebecks development threatening to have him returned to like #isolating himself putting himself above others valuing relationships based on what he gets out of them yknow the whole deal #like bellumbeck being a transitional period that has him rethink so so so much from how hes changed to his trauma to what he really wants #i have an essay thats due tonight and i have not done a lot of work on it. but as my friend says im the Writer i can do this. #just a little bit of bellumbeck insanity as a treat before i really begin tho

[leonbastralle]

day 12897419821 of wishing ppl didnt do leon bastralle so dirty

#that man exists the way he does just for ppl to ship him w a child huh #nobody wants to talk abt the complexity of his character? #of how wonderful it is to meet a side character who has his own development and life and u dont follow it along but u catch glimpses of it #but thats ok bc he is whole on its own? #no? okay