#the middle one is me after today

[starry-bi-sky]

Danyal Phantom Doodles uhhh i’ve got a handful of Danyal Al Ghul drawings that I like enough to share.

#dp x dc #dpxdc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dpxdc crossover #dp x dc crossover #mediocre starry art #danyal al ghul au #danyal al ghul #dpxdc art #jumpscare appearance of shoddily done digital version of phantom done from mobile pocket procreate #he's looking at vlad fyi. that's why he looks like he's .5 seconds from committing a violence #second row middle is that one popular screencap of danny looking at lancer and iirc kwan. the fourth row middle is from a scene #where valerie as huntress tells phantom 'you're not the boss of me!' and he without saying a word. yanks off her mask right in front of #her dad. revealing her identity. before smugly sing-songing “no. but HE is~” and it was so funny i had to attempt to redraw it with Danyal #phantom was doing the soldier 'arms behind back' pose too which is like. somehow makes it funnier #those first four are recent. i drew all but the second one today. same with drawing 6. the rest are weeks old #anatomy practice is helpful but ANNOYING. wdym drawing the back profile is HARDER. why is it harder #also drawing front profiles my beloathed. how do i stop drawing you Prepubescent #out of all things Vlad was expecting from Jack's adoptive son. a sword was not one of them #shot myself in the foot with digi phantom by not doing lineart. but i guess him being hard to see is. Kinda The Whole Point LMAO. his suit #IS. after all. mimicking his dad + the whole assassin shtick. #its the brat himself. the bastard. he likes to climb things over flying.

[lunarharp]

into the deep end - 30k T orufrey fic, focusing on memory trauma, disability, and romance.

the sweet oblivion of the victim, the poisoned freedom of the other.

for one moment - it had felt like two parts returned - the needed reunion of two disparate halves. no more secrets, no more pain.

the moment you get to give back what you never wanted to take. that moment, under the night-blooming flowers, when they had both let out the same single broken sigh of relief.

but they were never whole to begin with, were they?

qifrey swore he wouldn't say 'sorry' to this man any more if he could help it - sorry is cheap now. he didn't want to be in a position ever again where you only have 'sorry' left. so he just looks down into the threads of his blanket, strains his eye until it hurts, feeling his insides - his throat, heart and head - burn with pain. he expects more, but olly says nothing.

olly says nothing.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #sorry i wanted to make a new post for my fic since the first illustration is new. #*stands in the middle of a desolate field in the pouring rain* Please Read My Tale...Blease..Oh god please..*collapses to the ground* #someone asked if there's spoilers in it. Um...yes. Sorry...it's about everything #maybe i should describe it more? it's about qifrey becoming more and more disabled - as i feel is his canon trajectory #and both of them processing the choices that have been made. it was necessary for me to explore this in order to fully understand orufrey #and for them to have the cathartic conclusion-that's why this is important to me for my witch hat fanwork making life. this connects it all #and having dived into qifrey's mind and lived through oru's feelings i was able to get to a place that is possible for them. #the hit/kudos ratio is so pathetic idek what happened. ppl opening it realising its long and saving it for later or just bailing lmfao #idek any more i hate advertising my writing i hate trying to get more ppl to read my long fics it's so hard 🥲 #i'm so much prouder of this than my art...i was able to sink deeply into the orufrey feelings i had always wanted to fully explore #so. it's there lol.........i reread the date/kiss segment today after trying to forget about it thinking maybe the fic is just BAD lol #and like.....nope! i like it very much and this is what i was trying to get across. and it's always there to be read by anyone who wants to #and i will always remember the bliss i felt while writing when i was just lost in their world and living as them. dear GOD i love them. #i'm grateful to myself that i put in the work and love to make this so that i can always come back to it. i wanna illustrate scenes properly #but i'm never satisfied with drawing things i've written because i just can't capture the vivid experience in my mind. maybe one day.

[sidsinning]

Twitter is so bad for artists guys 😭

#dont got perf anatomy get roasted #dont know how to draw certain body shapes get roasted #god the way western fans treat foreign artists is so foul #you dont draw this thing i want? die #+if your art doesn't immediately get likes and rtwts the day you post it gets lost forever and no one sees it again on their tl #when i was in middle school I was so lucky to have just 1 person who saw my art of marco from svtfoe #and kindly told me I should color his skin darker for proper rep #i took that criticism and improved #if I posted this drawing as a 14 yr old on twt today i wouldnt ever wanna share my art again after getting lambasted by a mob #ppl on twt be like #take criticism to improve #then the comment is #“LMAOOOOOO BE SRS DUDE😂” #rant #sidrabbles

[averlym]

"what could possibly go wrong?"

#oops <doodles a cairo on the bus. and the train. and miscellaneous other public transportation> #cheerwives part two because i drew a riley and got obsessed ig #i had to go to School and Travel today (it is the middle of the school holiday week break to study. i'm mildly annoyed) #so this is me coping via the blorbo system #also i've realised rendering on my phone is Fun and so is painting faces #lowkey iffy about the proportions on this one but shhhb the sentiment gets across #part of this was based off how someone liked a very old watt post of mine so while i was looking for a watt doodle to render for funsies #up came a very old image of cairo asking what could possibly go wrong and so. repaint over it i guess! if you go into the artchives #(haha art archives) you might be able to find it #we are the tigers #watt #not driving the narrative not doomed by the narrative but a secret third thing(in the narrative nonetheless) #thinking back to the hadestown watt au that i never made proper stuff for #it spins in my head and gives me a bit of happiness #anyways i think my physics teacher is very Done with me submitting assignments at 2359 but unfortunately i haven't learnt. going to go back #(because i'm still at the mall. gotta walk back) and finish up stuff! yikes the revision season be upon ye i guess #there's another version of this digital painting with cairo half smiling and mouth clearly open to say smth #but unfortunately i dislike the colours in that one a bit and it looks too similar to this one to warrant posting them tgt #so ​instead of a before and after thing you simply get a cairo portrait haha #yes okay bye *disappears into void* #initial caption for this was. nooo don't ask what could possibly go wrong?'' you're so sexy aha #if it matters to anyone. just fyi

[derpinette]

i hated airpods & phones with those big fugly cameras in the back when they were announced as a concept & i hate them even more each time i see that hideousness in person

#i remember when i was 11 ( sorry for being a zoomer ) getting into an argument with an online acquaintance #over airpods because i thought they were retarded but she thought they were cool as if bluetooth ear pieces were a new invention #remember how the world used to make fun of them not even that many years prior. she was like nooobut you can hide them for cheating #& against thievery ( OK the only fair point I GUESS ) but they are just so ugly to me & stupid not practical too easily lost & damaged #especially with that pricetag like they could have made something COOL or Kawaii but of course sleek Nothing design is “in” #still after a decade now ♯MAKEITSTOP #honestly only like bluetooth for file sharing when necessary anything else is devilwork #as for the new giant multiple cameras design i mean use your eyes has there ever been an uglier decision #even if i had money i could never own a touch screen phone without a middle button & a normal camera lense in the back #like just looking at them makes me angry BUT mostly apple products i think android ones are less hives inducing #but TBH i have no headphone jack so... on my old broken phone i did but not this one -_- where are my principles...... #well i will wear this one down until it dies i already have a cracked arse screen so until it breaks i will downgrade #also remember how cute silicone phone cases were in the early to mid 2010s ♯BringThatBack #honestly can you even i think phones today are just too damn big Not mine Doe 🦌 mine is almost perfectly sized for my hands (iphone7) #at least people have more charms than ever in my city at least i see people with cute lanyards & zoomer style JesusBeaters so great ^_^ #sorry for complaining all the time but also if you are not here for my Kvetching then what else could you be here for... #*jumps into a well from shame*

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

So this episode was about teachers committing to and caring about their students, and district people too, and I love that :'). Sometimes all you need is a district person who will keep putting in the effort like that, and I love when it happens for people <33

Anyway! I'm so glad they got the interpreter for Amani, she so deserves it :'D. Everyone does :').

I'm glad Gregory decided to let them stay :') I think he can really help these kids out and be a good place for them :)) :D

Also proud of Tariq for finally calling Nick his name :'D hope they do get close :)

Poor Barbara though xD

And once again proud of Janine for fighting through it to get the ASL interpreter :')) and the way she did it was so iconic xD same for the parents lol, going to a reporter that already doesn't like the district LOL, but yeah I am so happy for them :D

Also I love Jacob and Janine <33

With going out for drinks at the end, I hope Janine doesn't leave them behind :((

Btw the reason for the boys being in Gregory's room being that the Mortons are in couples therapy is hilarious xDD

And lol hopefully it's just like, upkeep, because they just got married xD

Anyway!! I am distrustful of districts but I hope it works out (with the issues obviously) on the show :). And even though I am I know this side of the story needs to be seen as well so it's nice to see, switches it up on me a bit more than usual. Like, makes me a little more uncomfortable and see it a different way more than usual. Which is good :)

Loved the episode!!! I'm so excited for next week :D

And also terrified :')

But I almost definitely won't be able to watch it lol so, I'll see y'all a little bit after that lol

Bye y'all!

#abbott elementary #oasis's ae chatter #such a good episode :)) #honestly still just so happy for amani #and once again jacob looked so happy for her :') #I love them all <333 #poor melissa having to manage like 20 middle school relationships xD girl is going through it lol #oh yeah I just realized they could've made this episode a valentine's day one lol #eh they have done that before xD #but premiering on valentine's day would be pretty nice lol #anyway!!! love this show :D #happy valentine's day y'all!!! #(thinking about saying that was what made me think about the episode lol) #I love you all so much :DD #and I'm so grateful for you :')) if you need a valentine today it's me <3 #anyway yeah a great episode :D #so nice to watch after a long rehearsal lol #coming back with an edit: my bad it's mostly episode 5 I'm scared of #byeeee!!! :)) <333 :D 🥰🥰🥰❤️❤️

[roitaminnah]

the fuvsjcdking VEST on noelle

noelle lei fashion icon <3

#butterfly soup #ppkm #um that last little comic came out so sweet i'm sick. a bit sick over them literally the only thing in my mind #my fav noelle fact (lie all noelle facts are my fav) is that she dresses like a middle aged programer dude <33 #therefore all the outfits I put her in are inspired by my father. help. #sketchbook #did these all today after receiving this ask thank u anon . my warm upies for the comic I illustrated... u will see that. tomorrow? #teehee. it's . tee hee another fanfiction comic :3 er. i ramble so much in the tags #whoops it's purple again! sorry not sorry #also sorry one more thing. Idk where people got damn last names but supposedly from somewhere. someone please tell me if u know. sobbing #roi draws

[todayisafridaynight]

One of my fave jackets is this green jacket with a fur hood im wearin rn because 1.) its green 2.) my dad gave it to me 3.) it reminds me of saejima. Who also reminds me of my dad

#snap chats #p sure i talked bout this jacket before but idc read my diary #sorry that every other middle aged man i see i say reminds me of my dad its a compliment #tbh love how i clowned on ichi for being on premium copium bout arakawa but highkey i woulda done the same bout my dad.. i get it ichi.. #anyway :) i legally get to talk about my day with him now :)) HE SAID THE FUNNIEST SHIT UPON SEEING ME #HE SAID ‘oh wow we dress similar :)’ and keep in mind. he was wearing a latte brown coat with a black turtleneck and pants and shoes #meanwhile. i approach With Black Pants And Shoes Admittedly but then im in this goofy old ass jacket with a red scarf #and a crane-decorated dress shirt that i got two buttons undone on like DAAD you are senile. hes so funny #so fun my dad actually recognized this was the jacket he got me- it was one of the first things he bought for me after i told My Secret 🙈 #also i finally asked how tall he was and i can’t believe my dad matches the criteria to be an rgg character he’s fuckin 6’1 like i thought #AH but today was really nice- i got to hang with my sis and her husband as well as my dad’s wife :) #it was awful tho cause the second my sis saw my dad’s outfit she’s just like ‘it’s so kdramacore’ AND SHES RIIIGHT 😭😭 #we later found out dad’s wife loves kpop…. and she bought him his new clothes…. so we are no longer surprised….. AWFUL. #honestly i could write a drama based off my dad’s life i really could it has elements for it. i mean ig i kinda do that already dont i #i borrow. anyways. today was fun :) even if i almost lost my mind trying to take the train the first time #this train system was weird… it wa worth tho it was great seein popop again #yeah….. ugh i have to still drive home from the station. and hope my car is still there #i get very paranoid leaving my car alone so openly i dont like it… #anyways. bye bye :) i might nap til my stop or work on a fic i started #‘snap what happened to’ dont worry about it i need to look at something else or ill scream #ok bye 👋

[astriiformes]

I am almost definitely just having a bad mental health day in general (as is my wont, as of late), but that plus having had a few days to sit with the most recent TOH ep means that The Narrative is currently hitting me like a truck right now

#like. brain broke in general for sure #i started crying in the middle of my norwegian class today and one of my classmates took me to her place after to calm down #and i'm very behind on homework and scribe's health stuff has been especially bad the last few days so. everything happens so much #but uh. a suspicious amount of that is manifesting as crying about a bird #would love a brain that could be more proportionate about crises but alas i am a frequent victim of 'sometimes the story consumes you' #anyways. it is a weighted blanket and hot cocoa and crying it out kind of night for a whole pile of reasons #toh spoilers #(obliquely at least)

[da-proti-toku-grem]

sorry i needed to say this somewhere and my mom isn't home rn so here it goes because this is making me too anxious

#honestly wtf? #i was going back home by bus right #and no one usually gets off in the bus stop where i get off because it's a bit in the middle of nowhere #but it's the one closest to my house so i get off there #and today was the first time i took the bus at this time so it wasn't either of the two drivers that i usually see #and this one was literally shouting 'do i have to stop in the next one?' and people shout back if yes #(which is not usual because there are buttons to ask for the bus to stop anyway but oh well) #so when my stop was the next one she asked and i said yes AND press the button just in case #also note that i was already standing next to the door by this point #but she just passed by my stop and i was like 'excuse me i had to get off there' #and she got SO MAD at me and started saying 'then why don't you answer when i asked?' #and i told her i did respond and she didn't believe me until a woman that was there told her i did in fact say it #so she went on saying 'i'm not going to do this again next time i won't ask and let everyone tell me when they want to get off #because it's already happened to me twice today' #like girl if it happened more than once i think it's nit my fault here yk #and also the next stop after mine is literally in another town so she got mad again because she couldn't go back #(technically she could bc there was a roundabout only a bit further away but she didn't want to anyway) #so she literally stopped IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD. opened the doors and went 'are you going to get off or what? 🤨' #tbh i was so shocked that i didn't even know what to say so i just got off the bus #thankfully it wasn't too far away from my bus stop and there are not too many cars so it was safe i guess #but honestly wtf was that #like maybe i'm overreacting or something becuse i'm so exhausted after 12 hours at uni today #but that's NOT an appropriate behavior #i'm so fucking tired rn and idek how i went through 12 hours of uni with only one 30 minutes break w/o having a mental breakdown #but this was the straw that broke the camel's back #anyway #ranting #venting #random #maca speaks

[anitalianfrie]

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#God I can't fucking do it. My sister is in the middle of a manic episode and I'm the only one that can kinda convince her to idfk #calm down a bit and my mom keeps pushing bc she isn't able of not pushing and keeps asking me what she said and she didn't say #anything it took me one hour to bring her home do you think I'm going to try to convince her that it's false our parents hater her? #God I was barely able to get her home #I don't think I can make it #This and d being so anxious i had to miss half of the last month of lessons and seeing him like that tore me apart and school and I'm #fucking clinically depressed and I have to take all of this on my fucking own bc mum is too stubborn and then there's also fucking school #And I don't want to go bad but it's too late now isn't it? I tanked my English grade 100% after today and it's only gonna get worse

[bunnihearted]

🌌🗯️

#ughhhh i had a very very unpleasant nightmare and now i just feel awful :< #it was like all dreams super weird and made no sense. like i was in this GIANT obnormous building and was in the elevator #and suddenly i was in a large room where u like went to be accpted to get a job there??? #someone told me to change my outfit so this room could get accepted bc it was too revealing #then a man - the big shot - came in and the leader of the room introduced us one by lne #but when it came to me he asked the two of us to introduce ourselves #but when it got to me he said 'now it's eden's turn' & i was like haha im eden but u already know that ;3 #he just forcefully moved the convo along and asked me (and no one else) 3 questions #the last one was like 'if u werent here (at work) where would u be?' i hesitated for a moment and he said that if i hesitate too long #it doesnt look good. 'i'll give u one last chance. if u werent at work you would still be here in this place. with your family. #'we will be your family now. that's your answer. do you want to be part of this family?' #it all had an eerie tone to it but i just said 'yes i do. i really want to be part of the family' #and whoosh i was accepted and 'hired' to the very mysterious omnious building (the building was like miles long and big. like an entire city #anyway... this was just odd but then the thing that fucked me up for today #i dreamt of my two old 'friends' first there were just many moments where we talked and did things etc #but then came a part where // tw for SA // i was raped and then.... #they both chose to leave me and abandon me after #like they in the middle of the night made sure to bring me home. they werent completely heartless haha.... #and i in the nightmare felt safe. like i thought i could count on them #then the next day they were gone and they had also unfollowed and blocked me on all the apps #hmmm... yeah so both of those two things were just so horrible to dream about #and now i just feel like.. yeah. checks out. that's very similar to reality skskks :')) #i feel so lonely and like.. unworthy of care or love or support. ugh not a nice dream to start the day

[miercolaes]

fancy tags are making me sad so as of rn, everything will be simpler. i just want to write and for some reason i always create smth that just's sucking the enjoyment with a biodegradable straw. until i find smth easier to tag that doesn't make the brain juice sad, i'll only tag the user.

#♱ vero stfu. #brain juice is now happy and thinking thoughts enough for me to respond to some stuff #also TRIGGER WARNING RANT AHEAD #irl i am always first to approach guys to talk about classes and whatnot #and today i was reminded why #the two girls i asked if the seat was taken said that it was (even though the seats ended up not occupied) #and there's this girl who has some health issues whom i offered to sit beside me since i was in front row #it's safe to say she walked away took a chair and stood like in the middle of the room #just so she wouldn't sit beside me #and whenever i try to talk to someone they look at me weird and dont say a word until i go away #at first i thought it was just inside my head the chronic anxiety and whatnot #but boy oh boy am i beginning to think i wasn't imagining things #a guy did sit with me and i could share my bad jokes so it wasn't exactly one of those days i dont say a word to anyone #but idk it just makes me second guess maybe smth is wrong with me #is this normal adult behavior im learning only after two decades???

[talentforlying]

there's a gif of matt ryan covered in blood that i have been staring at for at Least fifteen minutes now and getting very emotional about. legends of tomorrow took the pledge to fuck constantine up so seriously and now i am undone, like i still can't BELIEVE they did a version of his dangerous habits arc in live action. i'll never not feel like a kid at christmas about it.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #idk when i started reading hellblazer in middle school i would Never have conceived of a live action portrayal #and i'm still very emotional about having one sdhjk #i remember So clearly the way i felt when i learned first about the nbc show and then about legends #and now coming back to him after so long & seeing all that's happened on legends....all the new material.....godddd #like how am i supposed to be normal about this they made him REAL!!!! he had a voice & an actor who loves him & he's been in Situations!!!! #for all my nitpicky disagreements re: the adaptation of canon we have just. been So Well Fed in a way i would never have conceived of #don't mind me i'm very emotional about constantine today

[its-captain-sir]

This girl from one of my classes keeps actually calling me instead of just texting me her questions and stuff and idk maybe I am too used to electronic forms of communications but I'm like. can you stop actually. I'm not gonna pick the phone up

#I'm in the middle of stuff and i don't actually want to talk about school stuff with you while I'm at home??? #why can't your one sentence question just be a text #i might actually have the energy to answer that rather than mustering up all my social skills again for a physical convo #anyways this is twice now today I've just let it go to voicemail 💀💀 #she does actually still text me after when she can't reach me so I'm like. can't you just do this first #megan.txt

[curiosity-killed]

on the bright side, i got the work done i needed to get done post-teaching AND finished the scene i was noodling on in the plant fic i accidentally restarted and my single glass of wine post-dinner is having the intended soporific effect

on the downside. i so so so so so so badly don't want to have a meeting at 8 AM with a client who i am mostly neutral towards but about a project that is the bane of my existence atm

#WHY did i offer an early meeting #i KNOW its bc i feel bad for folks outside of eastern time zone always getting shafted with shitty meeting times #but for fucks sake #8 AM #and i have another client meeting immediately after!!! #i will be SO useless tomorrow #and i have not been particularly. sparkling. for the last week #that isn't totally true i am in fact really fucking good at my job #to the point that no one notices when i slack off and spend an entire tuesday afternoon doodling #BUT STILL #i have to fill out my timesheets! i'm so behind in expense reports!! hnnnnnnnnnnnnnn #personal #anyway. #my current wips are tcp revisions + trigun girlies terrible road trip #and APPARENTLY tristamp plant fic (but with the rotisserie chicken heart bodies and wings bc. i have taste) #and i am actually slowly chipping away at all of them #which is a mild but pleasant surprise #i read so much fic today #god i do not have the motivation to fight the gravity drawing me deeply into my very thin couch cushions #this futon really has not held up well considering its. only 2 years old #if u sit in the middle it literally is painful #no thanks to baloo aggressively deforming the cleft between cushions #okay. enough stream of consciousness tags. it is time. i am Going to Get Up #hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnmdsfgkhad