#this episode man goddamn it

[onyour-right]

Nah, episode 7 was something. The way I'm so stressed about every damn thing lol. I'm so excited for the finale but i cant believe its come already. It feels like they should have 10 eps per season tbqh.

- Young Moiraine and Siuan are just so precious. The lightheartedness of their steps, their future plans and dreams. Then that damn vision went and ruined them ffs. I hope they'll have their happy ending!!

- Lan and Rand, do I sense a father/son duo burgeoning???

- Not Elaine telling Nynaeve what to do!! I'm surprised Nynaeve didn't tell her to piss right off.

- Moiraine is annoying me like crazy. Why is she taking out her aggravation on Lan. Tf??? He should leave her ass to wallow.

- Ugh. I really love Siuan. "A lone Aes Sedai can handle you like baitfish" LOL

- This Renna needs to be killed since YESTERDAY. "You will shine bright and everyone will know that you're mine" BR Uh

- DAMN EGWENE. She did all that??? My girl out here causing earthquakes even when she's in chains.

- That whole exchange between Elaine, Nynaeve and Loial was so funny. My new fave trio.

- "Is this a sex thing or a murder thing, either way I'd prefer you skip the talking" okay Mat, you ate that one little thing.

- Okay but why do I kinda like Ishamael 😳🤫

- Perrin and Aviendha and Hopper ❤️

- Uhhhh, I don't approve of this decision to shield Rand from the one power though, Siuan. Wtf???

- I knew I couldn't trust Moiraine's nephew.

- Lanfear is kinda great, lmao, I love her so much!!! And I also kinda love her relationship with Rand even though its manipulative and toxic. I think that says something about me 😬

- Angry Lan is really a sight to see. I also do feel a little sorry for Logain too.

- NYNAEVEEEEEE AND ELAINEEEEEE I CANT BELIEVE THEY JUST DID THATTT. IM SO PROUD OF MY GIRLS!!!

- So the two rivers gang are all going to meet up at Falme. Oh how excitinggggg.

- SEE HOW LAN HELPED MOIRAINE RECOGNISE WHAT HAPPENED TO HER AND SHES BEEN GIVING HIM NOTHING BUT ATTITUDE. I hope she feels the egg on her face!! (Rand I'm so proud of you for doing that baby boyyyyyyyy, and with very little training too)

- Oh no, the wives are in their divorced era. Can they recover from this? I don't think so.

#the wheel of time #g's thoughts #this episode man goddamn it

[honourablejester]

Okay, okay. As a girl who grew up on the old swashbuckler films. Can I talk about the fucking romance of Nydas Okiro. Betrayed and backstabbed by his crew. Holding his wound. Panting in effort and grief. Telling his traitorous underling that gold means nothing if you do not use it to lift people up. That gold is a resource by which mortaldom climbs. That they are going to save the people of Avalir, and that cause goes above any oath he ever made in a past life.

You can picture so clearly in this moment the kid who joined a pirate crew to climb the skies. The dream he must have had. The dream he shared with Laerryn.

And it’s the end, and he’s betrayed, and he’s standing on what has to be one or two fucking hit points remaining, and he stabs that traitor in the front, and uses every resource he still possesses to get as many people as possible out and to defend them in the process.

And he’s … he’s not only betrayed, he’s rewarded. For the man he’s been. Because Alessander steps up, Alessander thinks to save the sorcerer school, this other piece of Nydas’ dream. When Nydas and his conjured dragon are standing alone and surrounded by devil puppets, the fucking sphinx from earlier, the sphinx from the parade, busts in and rescues him, and has been protecting them the whole time from further tampering of the constructs. Nydas was the first to step up, to try and protect the tree, to try and avert catastrophe, to try and hold the line, and that ripples out. His people stand up around him.

And an entire army of constructs, on Nydas’ word, burst out of the Golden Scythe to defend Avalir as she dies. His ships fly to evacuate her people. The world might be damned, he might be nearly dead, but by Avalir, he and this city will go down fucking swinging, and saving everyone they can.

The romance of this man. I can’t even.

#exu calamity #exandria unlimited calamity #episode 4 #spoilers #nydas okiro #i can't #i grew up on pirate movies #my childhood heart sings for this goddamned man

[trash-and-trash-accessories]

Fox Mulder doesn't have the "I Want To Believe" poster there because he's crazy. He doesn't have it there to broadcast his beliefs or as a mantra or to remind him to always look for aliens.

Fox Mulder keeps that "I Want To Believe" sign above his desk to remind him of his own internal biases.

That sign hangs above Mulder's desk to remind him of his own shortcomings and flaws. He's aware that he's a hack with dangerous beliefs and prone to flights of fancy and maybe even delusions. He's aware that he's desperately searching for aliens and monsters where there are only men doing bad things. And he has to remind himself of that, constantly.

That's why he's thrilled when he meets Scully and she challenges his beliefs, says that logically aliens don't exist. He's thrilled when she tells him to cut the crap in the pilot episode. He needs someone to challenge him. He needs someone who won't take his shit and put up with his flights of fancy. And he knows it. He's been dealing with himself for years and he feels relief and joy when Scully comes in and says enough of your bullshit. We're doing this my way. With science and logic. He isn't smiling and teasing her because he thinks he's smarter and better than her. He's smiling because she's exactly the person he needs in his life.

That's why he tells her right away that he's a UFO freak with trauma about his sister and a true believer. Not because he's trying to convince her to believe, but because he needs her to understand where he's coming from and what's wrong with him. So she can understand that either he's a dangerous lunatic himself, or he's delving into a dangerous conspiracy and either way she could be collateral damage if she stays with him. He spends the pilot episode reckoning with the idea that either he's a maniac or he's pulling this young fresh detective into danger. When she starts agreeing with him he gets upset, talks her out of it.

Mulder keeps that sign above his desk to remind himself to look into the "reasonable logical" explanations. He keeps that sign on his desk because he knows he's flawed and biased and frankly, dangerous.

He tells Scully exactly what he thinks is happening and about all the crazy stuff he believes not because he's trying to convince her to believe too, but so she can be his sounding board. So she can throw his illogical bullshit back in his face and remind him to look past his own biases and paranoia and quasi-religious zealotry. Because he knows he needs that. He knows he's in a conspiracy brained echo chamber of his own making and having a slow-burn mental breakdown. And he sees Scully as salvation from himself. As another figure in his quasi-religious belief system. The savior.

As the series develops he relies on her more and more to reality check him. Literally reality check him and manage what he worries might all be a delusion.

Mulder pretends he's confident and all the constant criticism and sidelong glances don't get to him and that might be true because he doesn't respect those people but he respects Scully. And he needs someone he respects to tell him when he's wrong, when he's being biased or actively delusional. Scully is his salvation. She's compassionate about his trauma and the reasoning behind his beliefs, but confident and logical enough to tell him when it's all bullshit. She's his savior, his rock, and often his only real connection to material reality.

#in conclusion Dana Scully is Jesus #haha but for real she is #the x files #x files #fox mulder #dana scully #mulder and scully #agent mulder #spooky mulder #okay she might be more of an allegory for the Mother Mary #but she's actually more of a Jesus figure herself #in this essay I will #someone help the media analysis chip in my brain won't turn off #also goddamn this man loves sticking his hand in mysterious substances #in episode four he chases a coyote into the woods by himself this man is crazy #fox mulder is a dangerous maniac #and I love him #I love this whorish delusional man #oh and he puts his hand in and then tastes what he knows is probably poisonous foxglove #honestly there's no substance fox mulder won't stick his hand in and or taste

[becauseplot]

Anyway for entirely justifiable reasons (<-is a glutton for angst) I need Chayanne and Tallulah to be present when the hummingbirds come around or a note about the 'wise old crow' appears in their house, causing qPhil to have one of his derealization/reality-questioning episodes. I need it. I need it to happen SO bad. Because they’ve seen Phil get roughed up in a fight, they’ve seen him angry, they’ve seen him wary and even nervous, but they have NEVER seen him doubt like that.

People have already made posts talking about how the cage-for-a-cage/child-of-the-sky stuff has been particularly rough on qPhil, who relies heavily on his constant vigilance, keen senses, and hyper-awareness of his surroundings for reassurance. He's the kind of guy who walks into a room and has already charted at minimum two escape routes by the time he takes a seat, you know? He sees and processes and stores information on everything, at all times, and he uses this to act in the best interest of his and his loved ones' collective survival.

His kids see this side of him too, most significantly in the ways that he looks after them: always keeping an eye on the back of the group, never far from Tallulah, and constantly analyzing Chayanne's fighting style to give helpful critique to optimize his attacks. Chayanne and Tallulah know that everything he's ever done was to protect them. Also, he's always there to offer them advice when they're feeling lost, and even if he doesn't have all the answers they need, he gives enough reassurances and promises to put their minds at ease. Phil is confident in what he knows. In their eyes, he is strong. He is a fortress, safe and impenetrable.

You could say that about a lot of children's perceptions of their parents/guardians/mentors. The older, guiding forces in our lives always seemed strong and infallible to us as kids. That's why it was always unnerving to see them get sick, or get stressed, or cry. Observing weakness in those people felt so, so wrong because we never considered the fact that they were capable of it; it was just impossible.

So, the situation: Phil is suffering in a way that makes him question the very same reality that he was a master of not too long ago. Whenever it happens, he goes quiet, looks around, mutters to himself, breathes shakily, fidgets. He is visibly unnerved and uncertain.

If Chayanne and Tallulah are there, they're gonna notice---they're perceptive, just like him. I'd imagine they'd try to ask him if he's okay, and he'd reassure them that he's fine, and maybe that's enough the first time. But, as more incidents arise, and as time goes on, they start to see more of this out-of-nowhere uneasiness, fear, from him, which is worrying, especially because he won't tell them why.

NOW. Phil has been upfront about a lot of things with Chayanne and Tallulah in the past. For example, during the height of the code attacks, Phil told them everything he ever learned about the codes, every single new development, to ensure that his kids were well informed and prepared. He was frank about the threat on their lives because to sugar-coat anything would be doing them a disservice. It was important they knew all of the cold, hard facts, even if it took away even more of their precious childhood innocence. He values their happiness, but safety comes first. It has always come first.

But this is different. It's not cold hard facts. Phil doesn't know what to believe anymore. When the hummingbirds come around and his reality comes into question, he doesn't know what is real, what he can trust, what is fact. His senses have been compromised. Hell, he's still trying to convince himself that he's not going crazy when all evidence seems to suggest that he's losing his goddamn mind. He doesn't know what to tell his kids, so he tells them nothing.

So now here stands Chayanne and Tallulah. There is something that is scaring their dad, and he won't tell them what is, so on top of the knowledge that their unwavering father is, in fact, capable of true, genuine fear, he's suddenly keeping things from them. Their dad is keeping things from them because he is scared. And I can't imagine a realization more terrifying than that.

#goddamn i did not mean to write an essay i just have SO many thoughts about this #cw derealization mention #look idk if what qphil goes through when he starts questioning the presence of birds/if he's dreaming is like an *actual* dereal. episode #but man if it doesn't make him question his reality and freak him the fuck out #so im calling it 'derealization/reality-questioning' just to cover my bases #yall get what i mean though #dont mind me im just rambling #qsmp philza #qsmp chayanne #qsmp tallulah #actually super nervous to post this longpost so if it vanishes uhhhh you know why

[helielune]

zipper man //sketch

#vento aureo spoilers in tags #?????? like this season is Years Old at this point but anyway #my art #jjba #vento aureo #golden wind #bruno bucciarati #bruno buccellati #drew this immediately after bruno got impaled by king crimson i paused the episode with kc's fist still sticking out of bruno's torso #had to sit and stare at the wall for a hot second. went like man. #i need to draw him pretty and ALIVE before i know he dies for sure #lo and behold. goddamn part 4 made me weak to this shit #lured me into a false sense of security thinking the jobros could have a decent shot at survival <\3 #whatever. he is alive in my heart #uhh if uve been keeping up w the hel tag saga this does imply that i drew this a month ago and that implication is correct

[pheoflame]

The only thing I wanna talk about all day is just HOW beautiful this man is. 😫🤌🤌🤌

#my adventures with superman #maws #superman #clark kent #HE IS SO DAMN BEAUTIFUL GID #GOD #I SWEAR I WAS SIMPING FOR HIM EVERY FUCKING EPISODE THIS DUDE IS SO GODDAMN PRETTY HELLO #lois you lucky woman #man his face is like build by the most sexy ass looking gods in the whole universe i mean HE S kinda like a god I MEEAAANN #i mean what i mean #clark kent is a sexy mf

[nobodysgf]

lol someone said you either die a hero or live long enough to watch yourself become buzzfeed

#watcher #goddamn it man i've literally been on a mystery files spree lately #oh well at least it got to the point where i'd seen every episode 🫡 #the ghoul boys

[sparring-spirals]

🤔🧐 👀👀👀 i Must rewatch this dancer fcg reconciliation scene at some point... MUCH to consider........ maybe we werent a great team. i think these people are doing well for you, better than i probably did. trying to get purpose from you or a god or from in my memory banks doesnt really work. damn. damn.

if our paths cross again, that will be special but. thank you for sending me on the path.

you always were something special. just dont fuck it up.

#critical role #cr spoilers #c3e76 #cr liveblogging #fcg #dancer #i have obvs been missing hell and a half of episodes for a while now so this is QUUTE surprising to me but im so inclined to chew on it once #my phone is not. at 8% #GODDAMN thats. wowwww. man.

[noa-nightingale]

I am going insane over this. Imagine having him look at you like this and NOT immediately falling in love. No wonder Watson is so ride or die for this man.

#granada holmes #sherlock holmes #jeremy brett #dr watson #holmes and watson #i can't tell you how many times i had to stop an episode to slap my desk #because i did not know how else to deal with it #i am the most asexualest asexual who has ever asexualled but this man is so goddamn sexy in this role

[coconut530]

GET HIM GIRLY!!!!!

#Nevermore #Nevermore Webtoon #Webtoon #Well well well another week another episode #This one for the Annabel stans.. of which I am one #GOD IT WAS SO COOL TO JUST SEE HER GAIN ALL THE CARDS IN THE GAME LEAVING HIM WITH NONE #Will and Ada why do y’all still care about him #Poor Will he can barely speak! #Dude I don’t think this is something you can sleep off if anything doing nothing will make this worse #Prospero concerned little guy #“So be it.” GOD WHAT I’M CRAZY #SHE’S LIKE WELL HE’S PLAYING HIS OWN GAME LIKE ME WHO AM I TO GET IN THE WAY OF HIM??? ANNABEL YOU’RE SO COOL #ADA THAT MAN IS NOT FINE IT WAS ALL A RUSE #THE WAY SHE JUST MOVES HIS FACE WITH HER FOOT SHE DOESN’T EVEN USE HER HANDS AT FIRST GIRLYYYYY AND THEN THAT *LOOK* ON HER FACE GODDAMN #WERE YOU DREAMING ABOUT SOMETHING THERE MONTY??? OH LOOK EVERYONE CAN SEE YOU. IMPRESS THE QUEEN #oh no like that #No duh you’re in a bad spot oooooooh the angst I love to see it #JUST SPIT IT OUT MAN #I’M QUITE CERTAIN YOU’RE BEYOND HELP BROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO COMEBACK #hahaha joking hahahahaahaa #I wonder if she hates him bc he’s trying to have his own level of control but Annabel’s the one meant to have it all in the group #And he tested her in like 31 and 40 kinda going against her #And he’s overall just a thorn in her side when she’s trying to be a leader here he’s getting in the way of her Queen façade #But that’s an answer we can find out ✨next week✨

[spaciebabie]

bro i aint never watched a show that leaves me so emotionally distraught before the final episode like lucifer. you son of a bitch. GIRL IM SO NERVOUS

#THE WRITERS REALLY PUT THEY PUSSY IN THIS SHOW #anyways #im gonna throw up im so nervoyus #spacie spoinks #me and june just fucking screaming at the goddamn screen the whole episode like #''LUCIFER DONT-'' ''oh hes fine'' #''aww dan :]'' ''wait. whoahwohaohowhoah dan. DAN DAN DONT-'' #OH MY GOD DAN DAN YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE YOU FUCKING FORGOR?? WHO YOU WERE??? #AAUUUUUGH DAN 😭😭😭😭 #YOU SOPPING WET DOG OF A MAN

[fighting-naturalist]

“It won’t hurt you.”

Daniel in “The First Ones”

#daniel jackson #michael shanks #stargate #stargateedit #sg-1 #s4 #s1 ep8 #4.8 #***edits #god this is one of THEE daniel episodes #he's a brat AND a goof AND a badass AND compassionate AND he looks like GODDAMN THIS #'why do people want this man so bad' because he is the whole package!!! #ain't no other man like daniel jackson!!!

[nero-neptune]

NORTHERN EXPOSURE 3.07 “Roots”

“I don’t dream much anymore…Well, sometimes I dream, but they’re so mundane, so pallid. Like mailing a letter, mowing the lawn, picking up my suit from the dry cleaners. And I used to have really vivid dreams. I mean, dreams van Gogh would envy! Lush, florid, stirring dreams. Not anymore.”

#not the bernard episode being titled 'roots' lmaooooo #northern exposure #northernexposureedit #noexedit #grandmastv #uservintage #userrobin #userbbelcher #rob morrow #janine turner #jessica lundy #richard cummings jr #adam arkin #myedit #i didn't have it in me to gif chris stevens rocking the cornrows. i just. god!!! i just couldn't do it! #i'm giving him a pass bc it was the 90s (which was like. a Whole Thing culture-wise) #and also his subconscious was picking up his black kinda-sorta-twin brother's dreams via subspace hwy. telepathic wires got crossed #...or something #god chris stevens' entire existence is so goddamn weird. like sure maggie's a cryptid in a 'practical magic' witchy sorta way #but what is chris's whole deal??? mr. wheeling west virginia's got the strangest potent pheromones and telepathy powers known to man #and the best part is that he really doesn't give a shit!! it's not a priority what's going on with his whole existence!! #he just wants to get philosophical and play some funky tunes on his radio show. and spend time with his kinda-sorta twin bro! that's it!! #besides that i really do enjoy whenever chef bigfoot shows up! he's a delight!

[cheeseknives]

"He has kind of face that even the weird hair suits him" I think James might be some kind of wizard

#this was moms first comment #its been under 5 minutes in to the first episode and he has already captivated us goddamn #james may #Our Man In India #liveblog #no no but like #there are things I havent found attractive in men before #and then this wild britbongolian appears #???? #also finally getting around to watch this #as a little treat 😌

[the-ipre]

I always forget how much of a bitch nicholas waters is and then left of the dial hits ALSKDJGJ bitchiness levels incalculable and catastrophic

#listening to episode two and like. goddamn my liege ALSKDJFH #my names nicholas. again. if u even care. #and static man extending an olive branch of ‘huh wonder what that was’ after the heart thing #and Nicholas goes figure it out yourself :///// #archive 81 #love this bitch

[youllalwaysfindyourwaybackhome]

news just in: alternative browser ecosia is unaware of the tng episode sub rosa and honestly im happy for it

#that goddamn episode man #what a ride #star trek #tng #sub rosa