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blookmallow · 4 years

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i dont have the energy to go through all my outlast 2 screenshots right now, i have one liveblog post drafted that i was working on before, and now i have a huge pile of screenshots to go through again so there’ll be. at LEAST two more... play by play type posts lmao

so anyway the order’s gonna be kinda weird but my brain is screaming and ive been going through wiki pages for like 2 hours so heres. some thoughts and a lot of questions and some observations i think im. sort of starting to get it,

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ok so... knoth believed the antichrist was going to be born, apparently he DID think it was going to be from one of his own people, but then. blake and lynn obviously aren’t from his people so i have no idea why he suddenly decided it was on them

marta was his “angel of death” hitman going around murdering people in the name of god

people who got sick (definitely STDs, believed to be the Curse of Sin or whatever but it might have just been anyone who was diseased at all) got banished to the scalled village where they all got HORRIFICALLY sick and infected and have completely lost their minds now abandoned by the church

val broke off from knoth’s church and started the heretics cult, they seem to be. satanists now and are trying to allow the birth of the anti christ but are also constantly trying to kill me to death too

according to the wiki val is almost definitely a trans woman, which. the Only trans character in outlast is a woman who is a violent sexual predator who might be a devil worshipper and has wet dreams about child murder. granted everyone in outlast is fucked up but THAT’S A PARTICULAR KIND OF FUCKED UP

lynn was not visibly pregnant when they crashed, blake claims they hadn’t been sexually active in months so if she was pregnant, it’s not his child. when he finds her again she’s not only very visibly pregnant, but actively going into labor. she calls it “our baby.” blake doesn’t have the chance to ask her how this happened. this is never fucking explained : )

like it doesn’t look like lynn was just like.... reverse c-sectioned and even if someone raped her to force pregnancy she wouldn’t have gone through an entire 9 month pregnancy in ONE NIGHT, so what the FUCK was that about

the wiki mentions its possible the baby isn’t actually real, it apparently doesn’t cast a shadow and lynn has the “there’s nothing there” line, but even if blake hallucinated the pregnancy and the baby (which. at least would explain how the process of “giving birth” took like 3 seconds and she became suddenly 9 months pregnant in one day) why would lynn be reacting as if she was pregnant too. or if they both hallucinated it why did she say “there’s nothing there,” wouldn’t she be able to see it too

anyway jessica, lynn, and blake were all friends in. high school middle school whatever age. it seems like there was some kind of love triangle going on, jessica seems into blake in the flashbacks, blake seems unsure

he starts getting lynn and jessica confused near the end so he might’ve had some kind of feelings for her though, the wiki mentions his complete obsession with saving lynn might have been partly fueled by “i couldn’t save jessica but im going to save lynn im not going to lose them both i HAVE to succeed this time” to the point that they just kind of became the same person in his head by the end

there’s some weird parallels with jessica playfully jumping on him and val pinning him down so its very possible jessica was acting... sexually aggressive toward him, on a much smaller scale of course, but enough that val’s assault triggered the memory

jessica was almost definitely being molested by one of their teachers/church leaders/whatever and blake seems to blame himself for not doing anything about it

i thought jessica killed herself and blake felt responsible for it, maybe figuring the abuse she was enduring from the teacher (and possibly her father, she reacts very afraid when he threatens to call her father) might have been one of the causes, and he didn’t help her

but the wiki says the teacher actually may have killed jessica and forced blake to help cover it up as a suicide, hence... finding her on the stairs. which i guess makes sense too

but the whole flashback thing is never explained?? i guess maybe it really was just trauma manifesting in really fucked up ways and like, that’s still narratively interesting but the fact that it kept crossing over into the real world (the recordings from the flashbacks showed up as corrupted files, so Something happened and it wasn’t just in blake’s head, frequently you get stuck somewhere you can’t escape from, get pulled into the other world, wake up somewhere else entirely) means it’s not just internal so why the FUCK is he crossing dimensions. they don’t tell you!!! i had to go digging on the wiki to figure this shit out

from the wiki:

“The "apocalypse" Blake had witnessed, as well as the nightmarish flashbacks to his childhood, were all just hallucinations induced by the Murkoff Corporation's local Radio Towers.“

WHAT???? IT WAS MURKOFF THE WHOLE TIME

but like. are you telling me it was all a hallucination that was just kind of vaguely mentioned Once. the big reveal/the truth behind it all was literally just hinted about in One Note/One weird encounter with a distant radio tower in ONE SCENE randomly in the middle of the game and never expanded on. what the FUCK kind of writing/game design is THAT

it looks like the “voice of God” knoth was hearing was actually the murkoff frequencies too, but like. fucking why. why were they telling this guy to kill babies and create a murder cult. was it just a “how far can we take this” experiment like the “how badly can we fuck someone’s mind up if we take away their meds and exacerbate their mental illness” thing at mount massive. i mean i guess a corporation that would do That would also probably fuck with a bunch of hyper religious hillbillies too but it just seems way too convoluted for “idk just wanted to see what would happen”

and “maybe if we hide subliminal messages in the radio frequencies we can convince some random guy we’re the voice of God” is. way too specific to actually Work, i guess maybe if they could induce hallucinations they could maybe manipulate peoples’ minds that much more efficiently but like. still. it doesnt fucking make sense!!!!!! why would it manifest as “flashbacks of childhood trauma” in blake and “suddenly im pregnant” in lynn and “God Said I Gotta Kill Everyone” in knoth and “satan said i gotta fuck everyone” in val NONE OF THAT MAKES ANY FUCKING SENSE!!!

APPARENTLY there’s a whole mess of comics that go along with this and hopefully explain shit a little bit more but “explaining what the fuck happened in your game by means of a side comic that isn’t mentioned in said game” is : )

I DONT KNOW. iM SO TIRED ITS 1 AM SOMEHOW

ill go through all my screenshots and shit later maybe that’ll help. something :’) god. I MEAN TO BE FAIR, outlast’s strengths have never been its story telling, it’s a great game for being absolutely scared out of your fucking mind and boy did they ever deliver on that front so like... i guess ultimately i got what i wanted out of it but im still CONFUSED,

i should really have expected this though lmao this is the same thing that happened at the end of outlast 1 i didnt understand anything until 900 wiki pages later and still hated the ending even when i finally did sort of almost understand it

#lucy plays outlast 2 #im losing coherency i dont know if any of this makes sense bUT NEITHER DID THE GAME

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swtorpadawan · 5 years

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OC Question Blog

1. Choose an OC.

2. Answer them as that OC.

3. Tag 5 people to do the same.

Thanks for the tag, @cinlat !

Tagging @chubbyooo , @greyias , @hightail-it , @greencrusader13

Corellan Halcyon. Post-KOTET, pre-Kira returns.

1. What is your name?

Corellan Halcyon.

2. Do you know why are you named that?

I was an orphan. For most of my life, I was told that this was merely the name some Republic soldiers put on my paperwork when i was rescued as an infant. No one knows what my "given" name was.

It wasn't until just recently I discovered that one of those soldiers was Rusk. He named me. He was part of my crew for four years, and he never told me what i owed him.

3. Are you single or taken?

Don't record this. (Pauses) Taken.

4. Have any abilities or powers?

I'm a Force-sensitive ex-Jedi. I'm skilled in lightsaber combat. (Pauses) Okay, fine. I've been called the greatest warrior in the galaxy. I don't call myself that, but i've ultimately surpassed everyone who has made that claim.

5. Stop being a Mary Sue.

I assure you, i'm not perfect. I've made many mistakes along my road. But i've stuck to my principles as much as i could.

6. What’s your eye color?

Pale blue, almost gray.

7. How about your hair color?

Light Brown.

8. Have any family members?

9. Oh? How about pets?

By blood, none.

By choice... Kira and Tee-seven. Maybe Rusk? I've grown close to many of my friends in the Alliance, but... that's all for now.

10. That’s cool, I guess. Now, tell me something you don’t like?

Tee-seven is not a pet.

He is my emotional support droid.

Treachery. And the willingness to sacrifice the good of others to fuel one's ambitions.

11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?

When i have time, i have taken an interest in archealogy. This probably started on Voss, when i was able to learn about an ancient conflict between the Jedi and the Sith. I have a team here on Odessen headed by Talos Drellik exploring the old ruins here. I stop in on them when i can.

I also like fresh water fishing, but i rarely have the time.

12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?

Much to my shame, yes.

13. Ever… killed anyone before?

Yes.

14. What kind of animal are you?

Most animals, regardless of nature, seem to live in a sustainable peace with their environment. I ... wish i could do that. But that's not me. I am all too human.

15. Name your worst habits?

There were things i kept from the council before my imprisonment. I've continued to keep things from those closest to me (Lana, Theron, Senya, Arcann) in the Alliance, and these people have earned more trust than that.

16. Do you look up to anyone at all?

Many people. I looked up to Orgus Din. I looked up to Satele Shan. I even looked up to each member of my crew for different reasons. Tee for his boundless optimism, Kira for her strength of will, Doc because he adheres to his principles as a physician, Rusk for his willingness to win at all cost and Scourge, who was strong enough to serve a being he hated for 300 years so he could help take him down to save the galaxy.

Since I was rescued, i've come to admire so many of the people who've joined the Alliance. Lana Beniko was the Minister of Sith Intelligence, but she resigned and spent years trying to find me because she believed that I was the one who would lead us to victory.

How should I even react to that?

17. Are you gay, straight or bisexual?

Those aren't labels used in my galaxy. I can tell you Kira was the only person i've ever thought about that way, for what that’s worth..

18. Do you go to school?

The Jedi well-educates its Padawans.

19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?

Everyone has a dream.

20. Do you have any fangirls/fanboys?

Kira once told me what that meant. I don't understand it, but i guess?

21. What are you most afraid of?

I have spent my entire adult life opposing tyrants of one kind or another. They who believed that they had the right to bring suffering to others for their own personal gain. All of them believed that the people they were leading, the people who were depending on them to give them direction, were theirs to do with as they pleased, and that it didn’t matter who was hurt in the process as long as they got what they wanted. Because all of them believed the galaxy owed them something, and that they had the right to take it by force. Because in their own minds, they were the only ones who really mattered. And all of them, ultimately, were the same. Some may have been mad men, others may have obsessed with greed, or power or even immortality. It didn’t matter whether they were some back-alley gang leader, or a corrupt corporate executive, or a rogue Senator, or a Dark Councilor, or a Supreme Chancellor, or an Emperor, or a god.

My greatest fear is i will become one of them.

22. What do you usually wear?

I used to wear Jedi robes with adaptive armor underneath. These days, i usually wear Zakuulan armor fashioned after that of Arcann's brother, Thexan.

23. What’s one food that tempts you?

I don't think i desire any food excessively.

24. Am I annoying to you?

No. Though i will thank you to be discreet.

25. Well, it’s still not over!

My stamina is the stuff of legends. Go ahead.

26. What class are you (low/middle/high)?

I don't have one. I was an orphan, then a Jedi, then a revolutionary and now... this? The aristocrats on Zakuul curry my favor for whatever that's worth.

27. How many friends do you have?

Hundreds. Thousands, even. I count everyone who joined the Alliance as a friend to one extent or another.

28. What are your thoughts on pie?

There is this place on Coruscant that Kira liked that served a good pie.

29. Favorite drink?

Blue Milk, i suppose. (pause) OH, you mean alcohol. Ah. Well, Doc one served me this Corellian Reserve Brandy after the Drommund Kaas operation. It was good, though i'm told its very expensive.

30. What’s your favorite place?

Odessen. It feels like home.

31. Are you interested in anyone?

Yes.

32. That was a stupid question…

Don't worry about it.

33. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?

A lake i suppose. You don't have to worry about the changing tides.

34. What’s your type?

Redheads, fair skin, deep blue eyes you can get lost in, distinct smirk.

35. Any fetishes?

What do you mean? (Pause) OH! Well, Kira was in to different things. (sighs) I miss her.

36. Camping or outdoors?

I'm good at camping. I rarely find the time.

#corellan halcyon #my swtor #my ocs #oc ask blog #hero of tython #male jedi knight

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