#today it is working on forms as well

[gideonisms]

figured out a new hot tip today which is that if you are a chronic book/fic/project unfinisher, you can just start more and more things and then eventually you'll get bored of what you're doing and remember one of those things and finish it leading to a 50/50 chance of making it all the way through something Eventually versus like 30/70

#and if someone asks if they can see something you've written you can. quickly finish something vs being like. no for reasons that are secret #today it is working on forms as well #for some reason if i think i am going to have to fill out a whole form i panic but part of a form? fine #this is also why ppl get responses from me either right away immediately or 3 days later #gotta do it while you're thinking about it #i am reading 3 books and listening to a pocast bc at any given moment *one* of them will distract me enough to make it worthwhile

[cinimuffin]

#pokemon #halloween #pokemon halloween #halloween palette pokemon #moltres #regional form #galarian birds #galarian moltres #I timed out my drawings pretty well I guess with my early start #I actually just finished this one today #and tomorrow's is pretty much done #let's pretend this is a fire/dark type #but actually I will be accurate with my tags #dark type #flying type #working on the weird lava in this one was not fun for my eyeballs #pkmnart

[knowlesian]

gonna snap one day and run through the halls of media critique screaming A PLOTHOLE IS NOT WHEN THERE IS AN EASILY EXTRAPOLATED AND OBVIOUS ANSWER TO A QUESTION THAT THE WRITERS DID NOT THINK EVEN NEEDED TO BE EXPLAINED OUT LOUD BECAUSE THEY EXPECTED YOU TO USE YOUR BRAIN JUST A L I T T L E

#i swear to god this is going to make me lose my mind #“um they didn’t show us how this character who has access to multiple forms of transportation travelled a short distance to get to a place” #motherfucker unless there’s a reason they shouldn’t be able to travel that’s not a plothole #you’re being a nitpicky cinemasins trained dumbass who actively seeks to make stories worse??? STOP IT #don’t even get me started on how another lane here is people who just don’t pay attention to media #and then go “well how could i be expected to remember things in a story they should simply reexplain everything to me every single episode” #fuck ooooooooffffff #today’s annoyance brought to you by “why isn’t taissa at her job being a state senator” (because she hasn’t been sworn in yet ftlog) #and “how could people arrive at the same destination at roughly the same time after leaving at different times???” #when the answer is TWO OF THEM DROVE FROM OHIO TO UPSTATE NY AND THE OTHER FROM JERSEY #ONE DRIVE TOOK LONGER! BECAUSE OHIO IS FARTHER AWAY? LITERALLY THIS IS HOW GEOGRAPHY WORKS

[saviourkingslut]

not to be about opera again but to be about opera again. as an art form it has the reputation of being super stuffy and something for snobs who don't know how to have fun only but honestly this was one of, perhaps even THE main theatrical entertainment for centuries. i wish people knew how hard these things can go and how engaging they can be. like characters kill and die and fight wars and (almost) commit human sacrifice left and right. characters fall in love they mourn they're ecstatic they cry they're furious it's an extremely dramatic and emotional art form! and i understand that opera does not appear approachable bc of the general conventions of the art form but i promise old works can be fun and engaging if you go watch them with some preparation beforehand (reading the libretto helps) - not to mention not all operas are old bc there are so many modern operas which engage with topical events! also the music slaps.

#le triomphe de trajan (1807) out here calling for a man's execution with this banger: #point de grace pour ce perfide; que tout sons sang coule sur un autel #(no grace for this treacherous man; let all his blood flow on an altar) #this is also annoying to me when people write historical fic and the characters treat the opera as this elitist thing #that they don't know anything about. #you know when they go to the opera reluctantly and then they have no idea what's going on on stage or who the composer is. #which is. very unlikely for anyone with the money to attend an opera in certain opera houses in the 19th c. tbqh #like im more of an expert on paris and vienna idk what it was like in london #but if you were decently (upper) middle class or nobility (esp in paris) you went regularly. this was like a whole social space too #i recently read a fanfic and one of the characters was like 'oh it's in italian. i don't know that' and the other character went like #'it's by a man called donizetti what did you expect' #(this was situated in 19th century london) #like first of all. donizetti was NOT a librettist he was a composer he did not write the text #and second of all. he worked on french operas ?? so did rossini. and spontini. #opera was an incredibly international art form. also bc productions would be performed in different countries all the time #(sometimes changed and/or translated but not necessarily) #and again like i said. this was one of THE main forms of entertainment. people were familiar with its conventions! it was well-liked! #ofc bc of the seating prices it was not very accessible to lower classes most of the time #but lbr most characters that get written into an opera scene in fiction are at the very least decently bourgeois lol #i wish people knew how to properly historicise forms of entertainment whose reputation has changed in the modern era #from what it was a century or more ago #very adjacent to people 'cancelling' old lit bc of 'bad takes' like idk how to tell you this but people thought different back then #completely different world view from what we have today. that does not make lit from that era irredeemable it is just from a diff. time #acknowledging that and reading the text critically but also still enjoying it are things that go tgt here #ok rant over (it is never over) #curry rambles

[kim-ruzek]

So they're completely setting it up for Celina to become Lucy's new roommate right? Which ngl (even though I actually really don't want Tamara to move out bc I love that they live together) I actually don't hate the idea

#ree has thoughts #the rookie spoilers #I've had a long day so i won't be able to write out all my rookie/chenford thoughts tonight like planned #(which is okay bc that means I've had a very good birthday!) #but i did have to say this #although i do have further Thoughts on this whole matter anyway #but that's a job for... later #I'd say tomorrow but I'm actually having my proper birthday celebration in terms of Doing Something tomorrow so if I'm tired today... #but we'll see #i have sorta drafted the posts i wanted to make #they're just not very coherent/well formed #and rn I'm too sad to work on them

[kira-light0]

Happy Trapper Tuesday everybody!!!

(Reference + closeups under the cut)

#mash #m*a*s*h #mash 4077 #Trapper Tuesday #trapper john mcintyre #hawkeye pierce #my art #traditional art #Putting less effort into the eyes really helped me out #I don't know why Hawkeye looks evil though #And looking back his hand is kind of wonky but I'm ignoring that. I'm really happy with this #This seems like a different style than my usual art and I don't think I can recreate it #but it might be the fact that I was working in a sketchbook twice the size #Sorry about the lack of detail on Trappers chest. That was just not working out #Today truly is a happy Trapper Tuesday for me because I'm so genuinely pleased with how this drawing turned out! #I started out really frustrated because I've been utterly tired and thought I wouldn't be able to recreate the reference image #but after a lot of sketching and erasing this finally started to take form! #I haven't had a lot of time to draw recently and when I do sit down to drawI'm never happy with what I make #but I really like this drawing and I hope you all enjoy it as well!

[leviiackrman]

Did I choose to start redecorating my room this evening? Yes. Have I only just finish for the night? Also yes. There will be more tomorrow tho…

#personal* #jess talks #started the day really keen to draw Chika in her anime form but in different ages #was going really well until my new years plan gripped me SO MUCH I had to do it today lmao #and if I decide I now don’t like it (cus it’s less cosy) then I have time before I go back to work to rejig it again! #anyway it’s cute #more practically for when I’m working #doggy will hate it tho cus she can’t lay on my bed and look out the window anymore #might have to invest in a crochet/reading chair that she can fit on #also feels weird cus I don’t have any wall art or pop figures out🤯 #this was all to make more space for my shelves anyway technically #so once I get another bookshelf I can dedicate it solely to pops!! #I think my depression is hitting again tho #cus I always do this before a break down #‘need a change’ is my tell lmao #anyway pray for me

[send-me-a-puffalope]

THAT FUCKING BOOK GODDAMN I CANT DO THIS WHY WOULD THEY WRITE THAT. WHY. in tears never going to recover HER HUGGING HIM AND THE KNIFE AND AHHHH. normal about the one and only vanessa afton. soooo so normal. 😊

me when the fnaf movie feeds me angst breadcrumbs and the movie novel feed me the whole meal just as i’m about to gnaw my own arm off,,,,,

i can’t believe Scott loves his Vanessa angst as much as i do. i’m gonna need the next movie to have a baseline of the movie novel amount of Vanessa angst please and thank you. i’ve been spoiled, i’ve seen the light and now i can’t go back into the cave

#WAUGHRHEHRHRHEHHEHEHRH HHRGRGRH WAIGHDJS #do i totally get why they didn’t do this in the movie?? #absolutely i mean vanessa gets stabbed for like 10 minutes 💀💀💀 #BUT LIKE IT WORKS SO WELL IN WORD FORM #IM FROTHING AT THE MOUTH AND SOBBING #also i’ve had to rewrite every post i’ve made today twice cause the service here is so bad and tumblr keeps deleting my posts #ask!!! #viarayy01-blog #v!!!

[seaweedstarshine]

Eleventh Doctor Chronicles: Sins of the Flesh is really good. Really really good. Experience with certain attitudes can be so isolating, surrounded by people who won’t bother to understand the impact of growing up in that environment (because the world's so progressive now, right), and so — I'm so glad it exists. I also liked the discussion in the interview commentary about how being a monster and doing monstrous things are not mutually exclusive. Like most things, homophobia is pervasive because it is structural. Religious fervor is not inherently bad — “your god is love,” Valarie says to Lily — but as soon as hellfire is brandished around, it's used routinely to empower monstrous things, in a way that becomes unsafe to debate. Especially for young & dependent people who can't escape it.

Conditional love. Moral panics. Purity culture. Self-hate. Mob mentality. This audio. It's timely.

I appreciated what they said in the interviews about not only about the research, but the four rounds of sensitivity readings. I wish the TV show had that level of care sometimes…

#actually the whole Everywhere and Anywhere boxset is excellent #tw homophobia #valarie lockwood #eleventh doctor #so I listened to the second audio in a muggy headspace when it came out and comprenhended none of it and thought what. #then I listened again today and understood it perfectly and cried the whole way thru. I love Valarie's husband ngl #they SHOULD have a poly marriage with Roanna on Medrüth to add to the timey wimeyness. totally normal to the Doctor #the Doctor emotionally saying Rivers death breaks his hearts in the same episode where he says- #'she looks drained. I guess marriage does that to you'. honestly all of the yowzah refs in eleventh doctor chronicles are kind of gold. #and the first story!!!!!! Valerie's dead mother!!!!!! the Clara mention in the summary was fully clickbait tho #oh and the Doctor telling Valerie about the Ponds at the end? SCREAMING- he didnt tell Clara about the Ponds! #in other audio news im slowly gettin thru eighth doctor audios while working. Neverland/Zagreus/Scherzo were as great as ppl say! #the anti time arc made me finally love charley (and find her interesting) #words by seaweed #this post just lowkey a subtweet at rtd. no offense to rtd for always thinking hes right without consulting the groups he talks about #in ADDITION to the story being cathartic. Cybermen running gay conversion therapy is a *chefs kiss* concept. I'm so glad it exists #I might delete this post later its making me feel low key vulnerable *ramble ramble* #by the way I don't think religion is mostly or uniquely responsible for homophobia. #I think it's like any bigotry or hatred. plus religion is an easy way to claim that god is on their side for ANY hatred they have #which means religious homophobia is a form of homophobic abuse that's not only mental and emotional but spiritual as well #it hits different when they invoke god. the entity who made you the way you are #finally watched Barbie and cried because even tho the message was simple my parents will never understand it #my dad who thinks patriarchy is exaggerated and my mom who thinks god made women to serve men #I’m in my mid 20s now it’s fine. I feel so alone its fine #im fine :D or I wouldn't be subtweeting RTD :D :D :D #I should sleep I have work in the morning ~time to listen to some eighth doctor and charley in the divergent universe~ #why is 2024 busier than 2023 #anyway sins of the flesh was kinda surface level ngl but I don't think anything deeper would've worked as well #it got the emotional beats (and it doesn't need to be a complex argument to point out the hypocrisy long as the listener aint brainwashed) #the doctor telling the homophobe his hatred killed his daughter and he'll never be forgiven

[n0phis]

Tham your befuzzling words have befuzzled me have I lost the ability to comprehend this generations speech already

if this is about the funny job posts today i work in petsmart dog grooming and i just like to call the daily toils the hamburger mine. like that post. kgb spy. i wont give u the satisfaction of linking it

#tham talks #well. worked in petsmart dog grooming #ill probably still have a few weeks of shifts but they let me transfer to pet care thank god #too many angry dogs today.... my poor weak heart and i making eye contact with the little beast holding my hand firmly in her mouth... #also love big dogs but we arent necessarily allowed to use proper form when handling bc it goes against regulation #so malamutes and gsheps and having 2 litchrally carry their weight while hunched kinda fucks up ye old baxk #back

[indiangp]

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#sorry ranting again but #tw weight #i shouldn't eveb have checked my weight yesterday #i feel so disgusting doing anything today #like everything that i generally donr associate w weight is now reminding me like oh youre doing your daily walking but ur still overweigt #i cannot do anything normally without thinking about it #and its been so long since i hated myself this much this is so annoying #im scared whike filling uni forms because i think oh they will reject you cuz youre fat #even though it has nothing to do w my appearance at all #i didn't feel like cleaning my room today but then i was like oh youre ugly and disgusting at the same time ??? atleast clean your room #im trying to reason w myself but it's just not working #i skipped class today but i have to go tomorrow and im so scared cuz i dont really have friends there #but theres some nice girls i talk to once in a while and they have told me things like 'youre so pretty' 'i love your hair' etc #and i know because i usually do well in mock tests and dont annoy anyone... nobody really hates me #theyre pretty chill #but im still like oh these guys are gonna laugh at me or talk like did you see her today she couldn't have gotten worse #thankfully our break time bw classes is shorter now so i wont be eating during break because i always refuse when someone else offers me #i think the one girl i do share food w and talk to quite often is skipping tomorrow so im extra scared #i dont eveb know anymore #og

[vriendenboekjes]

was really fucking difficult at the doctor's office today because i found their healthcare lacking and now i havent received a confirmation email for my appt. tomorrow and i'll need to call them like heeeeeyyy what appointment did you actually schedule for me. kms.

#🌬️ #doctor yesterday didnt actually submit the form for my blood test so today me and my mom had to FIGHT for me to get blood work done and #tomorrow im coming in for additional tests because THATS when yesterday's guy is working again. and then the assistent can ask what he #wanted to test. and i might have a call with him to see if i'll stay with him for now or get a different dr on my case. #because this guy was shit the previous time i saw him as well. i was deeply unwell and he was like oh can you make a log of how well you're #sleeping 🤪 yeah man im sure at the time my inability to sit up for more than 2 hrs a day was caused by bad sleep #i think i'll call towards 3 or 4 hopefully they work in shifts and i won't have to talk to the same ppl 😭😭😭😭

[hzrnvm]

emotional. happy, pissed off, all that.

#hzrn #im cool with being annoying hypothetically but the real kicker is that no form of communication exists that i can really use comfortably #every single form of communication out there. i can't use it. i can't fuckin talk bc the sounds are too hard. #i can't fuckin type bc the buttons are too hard. #i can't fucking body and hands bc motions are too hard. #i can't fucking art because art involves all those things. #damn fucking WORDS are too hard. i put so much work into them and i get nothing. nothing! #who made the world this way?! why is it that all communication and socialization is so. fucking. hard!!!! #i tried! i really really fuckin tried man! all last year i tried so so hard. #i fell FLAT on my face. NO ONE liked me. they called me a retard! they said i was scary‚ awkward‚ hard to be around! #they did coordinated social attacks on me! then when i come back to school this year and i even *think* about trying again‚ they say #'nobody wants him here. and he should stop caring' #well right about then‚ is where she gives up! she has closed her eyes‚ she has given up hope! #i gave up trying to exist socially at school. the two paths are being myself and getting bullied‚ or not being myself and getting nothing #today was a good day for me all in all but idk. #the only reason i dont hold grudges like crazy is because of my object impermanence shit #although this might as well count as a grudge. i think it's somewhat justified though‚ because in my case it's more like #if you hurt me seriously then i'll think about it pervasively until you do something to redeem yourself in my mind. #probably that's part of the reason im so scared of being myself and shit #this is probably the reason why im so scared of being myself. bc everytime i tried i got bullied‚ mocked‚ demeaned. and that shit piles up. #i just spend mosta my time not thinking about it! just like i spend mosta my time not thinking about who i am‚ my future‚ my past and on! #siiiigh. sigh sigh siiiiiiiiigh #it's ok to like this post by the way #in fact it's encouraged. im directly and clearly asking you to. #im not making this post for nothing. im making it in the hopes that someone will read what i said. #although really no one will. why the hell would anyone fucking read this. get fuckin real. #i know for certain i'll wake up tmrw with this at at maximum like. 1 like. 2 if im really the luckiest girl in the world. #and i know how i sound caring about likes and shit. but really all it tells me is someone read this. and i really fuckin need someone to re

[fearandhatred]

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#fearandhatred #on the canvas syllabus for one of my modules our ta included pre-tutorial instructions to form groups and bring an item to share #but the thing is i have no way of reaching any of my tutorial classmates because i don't even know who the hell they are #and i missed the first tutorial which was on zoom anyway so like. useless #also we haven't had a face to face lecture in the past two weeks. the first time was because of chinese new year #but the second time our professor didn't even give a reason so like what the fuck #anyway i don't think it's that big of a deal because this isn't like a graded presentation just class participation at most #but idk whether the rest of my classmates have already formed groups if they know each other (none of my friends are taking this module) #so yeah i have been mildly nauseous for the past 2 days because of this. thanks prof #anyway the tutorial is today! in 12 hours. we will see how it goes. maybe i'll just derealise and then i won't feel anything <3 #not giving af is not going well #hell week lol. goodnight #actually no fuck you there's a reason no other professor has ever done this and why it's always pre-allocated groups at the very least #how do you expect communication between students from like 500 different majors with no actual main communication channel #that is not how it works in our college bro i'm about to start insulting you in malay i'm so serious. bodoh

[emdotcom]

I tried my whole life to fix my emtirely fucked sleep schedule & couldn't do it, so i said "fuck it" & picked up a job w/ night & overnight shifts. Going all well & good, except for the fact that, for some fucking reason, none of my family can grasp the concept that I NEED TO SLEEP, I NEED TO SLEEP, I NEED TO SLEEP, I NEED TO SLEEP

#gale chatter #what the fuck is it about my sleeping form that makes these assholes addicted to knocking on my door & asking me to run errands #i haven't slept 8 hour straight in fucking months #vent #negative #somebody knocked on my door with the volume of a cop with a warrant #literally JUST to ask 'do you have work today' BITCH. #i am a fucking adult & if i have work i will handle that shot myself #I'm so fucking tired i haven't felt well lately #yesterday i got up at 8am to run some stupid mail #today i need to wake up at 12pm to buy sugar free candy #it can't wait? it can't wait until i wake up naturally? until i have slept? #it can't be donr by ANYONE else?

[mer-se]

I loveeeee having pets but the trauma that comes with having them that is inevitable . fuckin blows

#like leaving the vet er at midnight #I never want my niece to call me hysterical at work ever again #this is the second time now #I got legit flashbacks….was so similar to crybabes and felt like the same bad dream repeating #me and my niece sitting on the floor in trauma man #this time was obviously different though and scarier #I also maybe am weirdly protected sometimes because I was in the process of speeding home #and this extremely slow ass car immediately got in front of me and stopped me from driving fast #like legit stayed the entire drive and it annoyed the FUCK out of me but looking back like #shouldn't have been driving fast definitely not stressed out #he’s not in the clear yet and I definitely won’t sleep well tonight but he’s stable #thankfully. #wasn’t sure there for a while #when we got to the vet the woman looked in at him and started running #and gave me a DNR form and was relaying my answer over the phone to the back #fucking traumatic actually #also my beta fish died this morning too #I don’t like februaries . cursed ass month I swear #I wrote this all half asleep last night #but he went to the vet today and it’s still not great so #poor chubbies #sweetest boy ever too #I wish I didn’t have to go to work today #just wanna go sit with him all day