// 1, 3, 4, 11, 15. asking for a friend. me, i mean. i'm asking for me. i'm the friend
ask and ye shall receive....
what would completely break your character?
As infallible as he’d like you to believe he is ,there are two factors that hinges on for the most part. Firstly, Kamakiri is someone who needs a purpose in his life to function. If he in any way finds himself crippled, or unable to fulfill the ideals and goals he’s built his life around, he just...doesn’t see a point anymore. He doesn’t see his life itself as being inherently valuable. If he’s getting by just...existing, then it’d be better to just. Die.
Secondly, putting Kamakiri in a position where he opens up emotionally to a person, only to have those people yanked out of his life sets him on a quieter, slower track of self destruction. The voice that convinces himself he lives for one thing only tells him that nothing has changed--his goal remains the same, he’d never be so foolish to form lingering attachments to others, not in this line of work. If he were to admit that to himself, that he was weak, that he let himself love and trust people only to have that backfire on him, it’d be admitting the defeat of the very mindset that gave him a will to live in the first place. So he can’t. But he knows it, deep down, that he’s never been the person he’s strived to be. He keeps up appearances. Goes on missions. Does his job well. Loses sleep. Doesn’t eat.
It’s only a matter of time.
what was the worst thing in your character’s life?
The circumstances he grew up in, most likely. Not only were the conditions on the street utterly miserable, but Kamakiri grew up with not a single supportive or nurturing figure in his life. By the time anyone who could have mentored him came along, he was far too distrustful. Being disgusted and ashamed of himself, thinking himself pathetic for having to fight and cheat and steal every day to get food or a place to sleep--that’s bad enough, but it also enforced the belief in him that life requires him to be able to handle everything. All the time. Always. If you put your wellbeing in the hands of someone else it’s practically suicide. Vulnerable emotions are something to be quashed and repressed lest they lead you to your death.
...He’s lonely. He’s never had anyone before. And the slow forming bond he has with his two squadmates is reluctant and terrifying for him, because evidently you can’t just decide not to care.
what seemingly insignificant memories stuck with your character?
For all he’s tried to ingrain every detail of every mission into his mind for later use, it’s the downtime spent with newfound comrades that tend to stay in his mind. It’s not even particularly sentiment that keeps them there--be it a laborious debriefing or just a quiet, peaceful moment to himself in the woods, Kamakiri finds that even the most minute of details remains when he looks back on the memory.
Maybe it’s to remind him how far he’s come.
for what would your character give their life?
As detailed above, Kamakiri is very much singleminded when it comes to serving a purpose or cause, but in this case it’s not only his duty as a ninja he’d willingly give up for, but...admittedly, Mitsubachi and Chouchou--they’re skilled ninja, both with unique and widely-applicable ninpou compared to his far more straightfoward offensive capabilities--he’d want them to live in his place.
...He also just. Doesn’t want to see them die.
what is your character afraid of?
As you can probably guess, failure, uselessness and vulnerability are all things he’s terrified of, but on the more literal side of things, Kamakiri is deeply uncomfortable around deep bodies of water. It isn’t that he can’t swim, but a close brush with drowning when he was young combined with the uneasiness of not knowing what lurks beneath makes him....very nervous. He’ll endure it if he has to, but he’s not exactly a fan of the ocean.
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I was tagged by @successaesthetics thank you!!
Game rules: answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people (or however many you feel like lol)
LAST:
1. drink: ice lemon tea
2. phone call: my sister
3. text message: to my friend about how pissed i was about something
4. song you listened to: Down by Fifth Harmony (it was on the radio)
5. time you cried: uhh it was probably while reading a sad news article tbh
HAVE YOU:
6. dated someone twice: i get very confused with what people consider dating tbh but no, i think?
7. kissed someone and regretted it: lol i regret 80% of my life decisions
8. been cheated on: only by the government
9. lost someone special: haven’t we all :/
10. been depressed: yeah
11. gotten drunk and thrown up: i don’t drink so no :D
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12-14. Black, green, teal.
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. made new friends: yes!! some pretty good ones too <3
16. fallen out of love: idek tbh
17. laughed until you cried: honestly i’ve also just done this like, 4 days ago
18. found out someone was talking about you: OH BOY YEAH AND SHE WAS SPREADING LIES TO MAKE HERSELF LOOK GOOD
19. met someone who changed you: not entirely?
20. found out who your friends are: oh man, yeah
21. kissed someone on your facebook list: lmao yeah
GENERAL:
22. how many of your facebook friends do you know: i make sure i know everyone i add and sometimes i don’t even accept the requests of people i do know but am not close to
23. do you have any pets: I HAVE MANY CATS, half of them are missing but they’re still my cats y’know. atm i have 4: Lea, Gigi, Sagwa and Mot!
24. do you want to change your name: nah, i like my name as it is
25. what did you do for your last birthday: i had to do stats work on SPSS lol that wasn’t fun (and then the aforementioned person who talked bad about me took credit for it and said i didn’t do anything which is a blatant lie)
26. what time did you wake up: 10.30am
27. what were you doing at midnight last night: probably reading fanfic
28. name something you can’t wait for: to go back for my final year of undergrad! and to go to Malta with my friend!
29. when was the last time you saw your mom: like, 15 minutes ago? 20?
30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: lol my anxiety bc it keeps me from doing so many things just bc of the possibility of failure or looking stupid
31. what are you listening to right now: surprisingly not playing any music even though i normally would be
32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: do i know a Tom? I don’t know if i know a Tom... OH i have an admin worker in my school whose name is Tom so yes I have!
33. something that is getting on your nerves: when people use ‘triggered’ for literally anything like??? this makes it so much harder for people to talk about their actual triggers can you please all just stop?????
34. most visited websites: tunglr.hell aka this hellsite
LOST QUESTIONS:
35. mole/s: like,,, did i lose a mole? or do i have any? i do have moles. several tbh
36. mark/s: i’ve got a birthmark on the side of my knee!
37. childhood dream: i wanna go to space tbh
38. hair color: jet black. darkest shade there is.
39. long or short hair: just below shoulder length! i might get it cut again soon tbh
40. do you have a crush on someone: only celebrities that are too far away sigh
41. what do you like about yourself: uhh i’m stupid loyal when i get attached to people, and i guess i’m aware of my personal growth a lot?
42. piercings: not a single one since my ear piercings closed up (health thing so i can’t get piercings but i’m not mad)
43. blood type: A positive!
44. nickname: Shar
45. relationship status: single and loving it
46. zodiac: sagittarius!
47. pronouns: she/her
48. favorite tv show: SENSE8 AAAAAA
49. tattoos: i would but like, i’m afraid of commitment lmao
50. right or left hand: right-o!
51. surgery: not to my knowledge?
52. hair dyed in different color: yesssss i’ve done brown, green and ash grey! but only half my hair, not the entire thing
53. sport: i literally lose my breathe when climbing stairs, i don’t do sports.
54. where’s 54 (<–lol this threw me off at first but I’m leaving it)
55. vacation: i’m going to Sabah (Malaysia) soon! not looking forward to the plane ride bc i’m taken so many recently but we’re going water rafting!!
56. pair of trainers: got myself a pair of black adidas superstars and i need no other in life
MORE GENERAL:
57. eating: i last ate frozen yogurt (but like, with caramel syrup on top lol)
58. drinking: now i’m thirsty
59. I’m about to: take a nap i’m so sleepy
60. stop skipping numbers, dear author, it’s cheating (,<– lol again)
61. waiting for: the world to get better
62. want: can someone just plan and sponsor my travels omg, also a first class for my degree would be nice as well as funds to continue my studies
63. get married: fine if i don’t tbh
64. career: psychologist
WHICH IS BETTER:
65. hugs or kisses: i don’t like either v much, though hugs are fine depending on who from
66. lips or eyes: eyes!
67. shorter or taller: i’m short enough as it is so gimme the tall
68. older or younger: older?
69. COME ON IT REALLY IS CHEATING. at this moment is what, 89 questions to answer you lying duck
70. nice arms or nice stomach: ARMS ARMS ARMS
71. sensitive or loud: sensitive
72. hook up or relationship: neither please, let me live in an apartment with cats
73. troublemaker or hesitant: uhh neither
HAVE YOU EVER:
74. kissed a stranger: nope
75. drank hard liquor: nope
76. lost glasses/contact lenses: nope god forbid
77. turned someone down: idk?
78. sex in the first date: lol nope
79. broken someone’s heart: probs?
80. had your heart broken: nope?
81. been arrested: nope
82. cried when someone died: oh man yeah
83. fallen for a friend: eh idk
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
84. yourself: not as often as i should
85. miracles: occasionally
86. love at first sight: not really
87. santa claus: nope
88. kiss on the first date: not for me
89. *coughs* 88 questions
OTHER:
90. current best friend name: Sam! we celebrated our 10th anniversary 3 years ago holy shit what
91. eye color: dark dark dark brown
92. favorite movie: uhh Pacific Rim? Mad Max: Fury Road? wow how do i choose
uhh i shall tag @stawbeestudy and like, anyone else who wants to do this tbh!
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