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Ja var ju ett tag sen jag uppdaterade här. Och har funderat många gånger på att skriva. Men det blir inte riktigt av. Har inte riktigt prioriterat att sitta framför datorn så mycket men det kanske blir lite ändring på de. Nu närmar sig…
Var en tur till Hudkliniken i dag för ännu en behandling. Börjar se slutet nu. Kanske en eller två behandlingar kvar! Sen var det fika på Creperiet på Triangeln tillsammans med några gamla vänner som gällde. Trevligt att träffas igen. Sker ju inte allt för ofta, och det här handlar om några av de vänner jag känt allra längst. Typ fyrtiofyra år om jag räknat rätt.
"I'm just trying to be honest about my feelings. You should try it sometimes".
The first time I watched this scene, I felt hurt for Wille, I know this would've hurt me.
But I slowly realized that Simon has been trying to get Wille to be more brave and honest with himself since day one_ something that Wille desperately needed_ and I love him for that.
Simon was never content with "taking a hint" from Wille, he never agreed to just let things be, to speculations and assumptions, he wanted Wille to be straightforward, to voice his thoughts and feelings. He literally dragged that "would you like to keep me company" from him, not settling for a vague invitation.
I truly believe that Simon played a significant part in Wille's personal development (whether he realized it or not). He inspired him to be brave, to defend his feelings_ no matter how scary it might be, it will be okay.
_ I'm not trying to stop you, Simon, but it's scary.
_ I know, I'm scared too.
And it worked.
"I just wanted you to know that this is how I feel".
"Me too, I'm scared all the time, but that changes now".
Wille has finally learned that talking to himself isn't enough, and talking to his therapist isn't enough. He might be scared but he can work it out, he can still be brave and take risks and be proud of every feeling in his heart_ and it's okay to be himself, cause he will still be loved. 💜
For anyone who appreciates stop motion and stranger childrens movies, please watch this classic called Skrotnisse och hans vänner! (this upload has eng subs btw) It is perhaps the most swedish childrens movie ever made lol, bc i can't imagine a kids movie like this being made in any other country. It has no children in it, is dialog heavy, dark, uncomfortable and ‘‘ugly‘‘ looking. There is almost no music, is darkly lit and contains some frankly terrifying scenes and concepts in it.
The plot centers around brilliant scientis Bertil Enstöring, a recluse old man who does not feel that he belongs anywhere. So, after the villan (who is also an evil capitalist, very typical for older swedish childrens media) drives him from his little isolated lake house he goes on a journey to finds somewhere where he belongs. Only, he dosent. There is nowhere on earth where he wants to stay. Throughout its runtime, Bertil dosent grow less strange, dosent learn to appreciate and love the company of men or the world around him. He dosent want to go back home or to be with his one and only friend. He just gives up on finding a place on earth completely, and moves to a lonely planet where he can be alone forever. He never sees his friend again. And his friend never finds out if Bertil ever found what he was looking for.
At the end of the movie, Kalle, the son of Bertils friend Skrotnisse, asks his father about Bertil, after seeing him take a rocket up into space, never to return. It captures the gloomy, yet hopeful? spirit of the movie so well.
Kalle - Do you think he found a place? Where he feels at home?
Skrotnisse - Who knows. We will probarbly never see him again.
Kalle - Somehow...everything feels so melancholy...
Skortnisse - Come now. Lets watch TV.
In sweden, there is something called det svenska vemodet (The Swedish melancholy). It's a concept in literary circles, and refers to the overall melancholic feel that Swedish society can have. Some call it a national trait, lol. There is a bit of a difference in opinion as to whether or not this concept is just an old sterotype, but as far as swedish poetry, literature and lyrics go, it's quite prominent. With all that said, I cant help but feel that this movie captures some of that angst. Bertil will spend the rest of his life a hermit, alone. And yet, there is something so powerful about that. He dosent cave to what society deems as healty or normal. He wants to be alone, and so he choses to be alone. His friends never find real closure, and still, they move on in life. They adress the melancholy, then sit in front of the TV and laugh. They continue on as they have before. Its not exacly happy, but its life. I dont expect anyone to watch the movie after reading this post, but I hope that someone out there will know how much I love it. And why I love it. And I wish I could contact the people behind it and thank them. Because over the years Bertil has become very important to me. I just want them to know how much I love this movie.
Hej!! En fellow svensk här :) idag har jag suttit i solen, samt mätt trädgården för att se hur stora grönsakslådor vi får plats med i mitt kollektiv, sen ikväll ska jag spela dungeons and dragons :) ha en finfin söndag!
Åh vad kul med grönsakslådor (och att bo i kollektiv)! Låter som en riktig toppensöndag med rollspel och allt 🤩
a little late on the bandwagon but this analysis & insight is so cute 🥹🥹🥹 i never really thought about their tone or the way they deliver their sentences (i'm more caught up in what they have to say, rather than how they say it) and it was so nice to hear an interpretation on it
Inlaga klar, spännande omslag och möte med kompis - en grå dag med färg.
Frukosten kunde vi avnjuta på altanen. Men strax efter att den var avslutad, började det regna, och det lämnade resten av dagen som en mulen, stundvis regnig och tämligen grå dag!Under dagen besök av en av mina äldsta vänner – ja, alltså inte räknat till åldern även om hon är något år äldre än mig, men alltså en av dem jag känt längst.Eftermiddagen och en del av kvällen ägnade jag åt att…
It breaks my heart how love-deprived Wille has been, probably all his life, that he just got used to being on his own.
He was absolutely shocked that Simon actually came to save him, that someone cares about him enough to be there for him, that maybe_ just maybe_ he doesn't have to go through his grief alone.
Wilhelm lost his brother, lost the boy he loves, and became crown prince overnight, and he went through all of this alone, drowned in anxiety and without a proper support system he can rely on and trust, someone to hold him tight and help him while he can't think straight, and I never wanted to comfort-hug a character more.
I am suuuper biased but the swedish version of friends are always there for you is underrated and I need everyone to hear it because I think it's beautiful◝꒰ ' ˘ '♡ ꒱