for the longest time, ctommy has been awful with words. he has always had issues articulating himself. instead of being direct, he usually conveys his feelings through metaphors or some "walk around" of how he truly feels. he's definitely gotten better at articulating himself over time, but he still usually sticks to metaphors because they show how he really feels. however, when speaking to wilbur's revival spot, tommy said, "I love him." and that's it. no punchline, no "like" or "as," no figure of speech. it's just that basic for tommy at this point. in a situation like this, metaphors are too complicated because what you want to say is simple. tommy loves wilbur. there's no literary device to make that any clearer.
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badboyhalo october 1st stream recap
okay okay quick recap for anyone who couldn't watch the stream/can't watch bad's vod (tw discussion of derealization, paranoia (being watched especially), hallucinations, bad having a BAD time, etc. if any of this stuff super bothers you then you may want to avoid badboyhalo's livestreams for the foreseeable future, he's a long-term storyteller)
Bad started off his stream with a black screen and white text.
"Welcome.
Dear cucurucho, why are you in my [the text went offscreen]
I just want to talk please come say
hello
I know your there cucurucho
come come
come out wherever you are
cucuruchoooooooo
CUCURUCHSOFIOOGI"
[note: keysmash not exact]
When Bad turned his screen on, he was in dapper's room, rocking back and forth. he was calling for cucurucho and talking about it living in his house. He kept jumping at nothing. He spoke to the pictures of the kids as if they were real, and asked "richarlyson" if forever was the one in his house.
he didn't want to leave dapper's room because it was his 'safe room,' but he eventually did. His base is now covered in GIANT signs that have red text and cucurucho's model that say "NO FEDERATION ALLOWED" and "YOUR BEING WATCHED" and one more i can't remember. he put up cameras everywhere and said "Look! I have cameras! Now I know when someone comes in... and when someone leaves." which isn't super important but it was an awesome line
he ended up going to spawn to look for cucurucho, and it was full of scaffolding. bad didn't take this well. It's unclear if the scaffolding was part of his hallucinations or not, but he fixated on it 'being' cucurucho. He suspected forever, cellbit, and foolish were also cucurucho. He questioned what was and wasn't real- including himself.
Bad started SEEING cucurucho in the distance, watching him, before it would disappear again. When it came back, sometimes it was renamed. "ENJOY THE ISLAND" and ":)" were some of the renamings, and I cannot remember them all. Bad started out by chasing cucurucho, shouting at it and asking if it were various items/mobs. He saw two of them at once at once point and was lead up into slime's hold house, through flippa's room (where there was a single block of scaffolding), and then out off of jaiden's balcony.
As the chase went on Bad started to become more frightened. Cucurucho was flying. he started to lose sense of where he was (shown by the admins teleporting him around) and hallucinated a nether portal he threatened to go through.
At some point Bad questioned if Dapper was cucurucho, too.
Eventually Bad retreated to the wall to cower in a 1x1 hole that went beneath the wall. cucurucho broke several blocks in front of him and appeared, revving its chainsaw. when it disappeared again there was a hole broken into the floor that lead to a cave and LONG tunnels beneath the wall. the visual was terrifying i promise.
cucurucho chased bad through the tunnels. he was screaming “please please stop I’ll be good I promise please go away.” At one point cucurucho appeared behind bad with the name "Bad?Boy?Halo?" and bad freaked out about potentially being cucurucho.
cucurcucho chased bad through a cave system until two cucuruchos cornered him to blow bubbles. their names were "do you?" and "YES". bad ran from them and found some scaffolding loose on the ground, (which had been built up to lead him out of the cave), said "this is it, this is you" and threw into lava.
Bad warped back home, insisting, "You can't come here, you can't come here." He was calmer in his house, but then was hit by the blindness effect and started yelling about the signs and "NO FEDERATION ALLOWED." he sang a little song about it
short story short: cucurucho appeared in his house. he saw it behind a glass wall. he was furious and terrified and growling "you can't be in here." he ran into dapper's room, where it appeared AGAIN with the name "WITHOUT M***" (last few letters were in the wall lmao). bad started sprinting around his house trying to find a safe place. cucurucho chased him with a chainsaw down the aquarium hallway.
Two cucuruchos kept popping up and disappearing, both with different names each time. Bad asked them "who let you in my house?" and went through a series of names such as: foolish, forever, tina, cellbit, baghera, antoine, fit- and finally settled on Ron.
Bad went to go see Ron. The hallway was dark, and Ron's room was unlit. When Bad opened the door, Cucurucho, with the nametag "RON" above its head, looked back at him. Bad said, "I knew it. It was Ron. He let you in." A second Cucurucho appeared with the nametag "ALWAYSHERE."
Bad was given blindness again, and he started to laugh as a chainsaw whirred. We heard bubbles blowing. Then the screen faded entirely to black, and Bad said, "Come here, Ron. Come out, come out, wherever you are..."
We heard rapid damage sounds, and then the sound of eating.
(the END of his stream had black and white text "SEE You NeXt tIme :)" as an example. The other messages were classic streamer "thanks for watching" and "make sure to follow" messages with similar fucked up cases, but this was supposed to be a fast recap lmao)
TLDR: Bad's paranoia has increased to the point of hallucinations. He's now frightened of Cucurucho, and suspects that everyone on the island is/could be helping Cucurucho get into his base. He associates cucurucho with scaffolding now. He is NOT sound of mind. He ate Ron Lemons.
If I missed anything important, feel free to add on!
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mildyly affected by an edible BUT i got really emotional thinking about c!tommy for the first time in a long time. it’s just…..he was just a kid!! a child!! and child soldier that was thrust into a world that didn’t want him and didn’t want him to succeed and all he had were his connections to his friends and his brother and all he wanted was to great a HOME!!!
ALL C!TOMMY EVER WANTED WAS TO GO HOMEEEEE AND HANG OUT WITH HIS OLDER BROTHER AND GET IN TROUBLE AND JUST GENUINELY BE A CHILDDDDD
like he sacrificed EVERYTHING literally everything he could to build out this home with the people he cares about safely in their own nation and he was still left behind or betrayed by everyone in the end so it was ultimately for nothing
he was a child soldier trying desperately to keep his family together and safe despite literally every adult character on the server being actively harmful to him and he was the one responsible for keeping himself together
like i think back to exile all the time and this might just be me reminiscing and wanting for that period in my life and that feeling back but i was genuinely so affected by exile, logging on everyday to watch as this child soldier slowly loses more and more of his will to live until he tries to kill himself, rethinks half way, and escapes to techno, probably one of the last people he could even think to trust
and god i miss technoblade, i think back to his stream and his videos all the time and am getting a tattoo as tribute to him and his contribution and i loved his content and god he committed!! like the dsmp was CRAZY in which the streams you watched were (for most creators) ENTIRELY in character and techno and tommy deserved OSCARS for that fucking acting like their confrontation at both the festival and doomsday was POWERFUL BROUGHT ME TO TEARS and outside of dsmp content they were so good together!! literally i was obsessed i watched streams almost everyday i felt so connected to people and to a community (in general terms)
i just, i miss that time. i miss the art and the fics and being so intertwined with fan made content for a plot line that while not always thought out was full of flawed characters and themes and motifs it was crazy
and while this might make no sense as i am slightly high rn i just wanted to ramble about dsmp bc i feel like i never got closure on that part of my life and i want to go back and finish all the fics i opened on an extra tab and never went back to read like i missed that era so bad and i’ve been looking for one like it ever since
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