#we’ve been friends since school despite me being ultra prone to dropping off the face of the planet for sometimes years at a time

[vigilantejustice]

my one (1) friend invited me to her sister’s place for games night a couple weeks back so (in a move that was very true to myself and very transparent to her) i said sure knowing it would be super easy to back out but then she responded by asking me to pick her up (scuppering my exit strategy) and she just let me know that she cornered me into driving specifically so i couldn’t bail because she knew i’d have fun if i went 🥺

#we’ve been friends since school despite me being ultra prone to dropping off the face of the planet for sometimes years at a time #she’s looped into all the food stuff + she’s not afraid to ask questions #not in a blunt way more in that i’ve let her know that she’s cool to ask whatever she wants to know because a) i’m not easily triggered #or whatever and b) i’m super aware that it’s interesting in a morbid curiosity way #i’m always fine to talk about it if anyone has respectful questions because #because i understand the curiosity but also because it can be helpful in terms of identifying it in other people and widening the typical #view of what an eating disorder is and/or looks like y’know? #same reason i was always cool with med students sitting in on any of my appointments or whatever #like good for them to see someone who’s at an ‘’average’’ weight be treated #and also someone whose body looks kind of outside the norm having been as big as i was #anyways. this was so super sweet of her to do and it was so nice to be outside of my own head for a bit #and also nice to just hang out and have a fun time #personal