#what if it isnt gallstones??? what if they cant find out whats wrong? so it is not only the waiting it is the uncertainty

[silenthillbunni]

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#ok sorry i've done my best to not obsessively talk abt this every single day for the past TWO months but..... #i just wanna eat normally again bro #i wanna eat healthy stuff bc i can always FEEL how much my body appreciated it and it gives me energy #i also wanna eat more unhealthy things just bc they're yummy and thats ok sometimes too #and i want chocolate bro.. im dying from chocolate deficiency #but anyway it is 1) extremely boeing to eat the same things every single day for 8 weeks #but 2) i can feel that i dont get enough nutrition. im super tired and dizzy and short of breath. also i am sooooo fkn cold #3) it is mentally exhausting to get home and be like damn im so tired i just wanna eat cereal but nope i have to make my bland food #i am just sick and tired of this. esp bc it takes SO long to get medical attention. so for rn i am not even certain it is gallstones #and what do i get as a treatment if it is??? like should i just live like this forever now?? will i have to wait months for a surgery? #what if it isnt gallstones??? what if they cant find out whats wrong? so it is not only the waiting it is the uncertainty #but most of all. im so hungry all the time and i dont wanna think abt what im eating anymore. i just wanna eat normally broooo fml