#when im sitting in silence

[tinymoves]

i dont think you can describe exactly how magical this band is to people who got into my chem after the reunion.. which isnt to be mean its just that its been four years and i still feel like someone is going to pinch me and im going to wake up miserable. its like if you got up one morning and the deepest most fragile wish that you kept closest to your chest had come true. and there were suddenly skirts involved. i cant describe it not everything feels like something else...

#When i said. now that im disengaging from posting about my chem as much i just sit in silence and get crazier.

[oldworldwidgets]

either someone at bethesda had their epiphany for this railroad character's name while listening to this song OR, and hear me out: livin' on a prayer and, by extension, jon bon jovi is canon in the fallout universe and deacon thought that shit would be reeeealllll funny. where r my meta essayists

#had a MOMENT when this song came on the radio yesterday #had to turn the radio off and sit in silence for a moment #whoever you are bethesda employee. im looking directly at you. #fallout 4 #fallout 4 railroad #fo4 #deacon fallout 4 #deacon #oldworld.posting

[drowsystarlight]

ZRS2 SPOILERS !! (ish)

Im on the app so i dont have the Keep Reading break

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I love it when he flips the Batshit Crazy switch on when Runner Five is in danger

#zombies run #zombies run fanart #zr art #zrs2 spoilers #…ish? #dialogue is from s2 ending #but hey sam gets pissed in general when five is in danger #soooo #shrug #ANYWAY . IM SO ILL #i love hearing him FURIOUS i love OVERPROTECTIVE SAM YAO #guy mustve had a hard time sitting in that silence…. #*cough* Worst Case Scenario by Loveless playing *cough* #neeks draws #i want to draw more angry radio man but it is 3 am #3 hrs late from bedtime once again….. #oh WELL IT IS FOR LOVE #i oove little batshit angry men when the potential love interest is in the shits #(we will ignore that Five is mostly a self insert for ppl) #(not me tho i made an oc for it but 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️)

[mokutone]

i think in the new year i might not post as frequently as the last two for a while—while my ds9 cube comic was very much a silly goof, it's not inaccurate to say that i'm a little burnt out! (and that i should probably start taking up some more sports or games)

it's a weird burnout too, because i'm not like, tired of drawing (i still enjoy it) nor am i tired of drawing naruto stuff (i'm very comfortable and happy drawing my yamatos)

but something has shifted a little bit, and i do feel some kind of strain—i'm not in as much of a doodling mood as I have been the past 2+1/2 years, I'm feeling a craving for Projects, I think.

things that test me more, and take more time. Things that give me more direction, and less aimless creative meandering—well, we'll see! we'll see what happens.

#blogkeeping #part of the burnout may have been that like. with the holidays i havent had time to sit at my desk and draw #so i felt strained and rushed whenever i did try to draw #but i think there's also a bit of growing confidence and hunger in me—and the last thing i want to do is try to silence that #if hes got something to say well i ought to hear him out #but also. i could only be listening for what i want to hear. so im gonna take it slow for a while anyhow + give myself lots of #breaks and rest when i can #i'd like to eventually open commissions this year as well! i think that would be a good exercise

[skeletons-in-ur-closet]

i AM a violent dog i DO know why i bite

#ok to rb #vent in the tags its a lot u dont have to read #nah but ive been so angry lately #im constantly fighting w my mom and brother but...like im justified every single time #its just like...ive always been the scapegoat of my family (except to my dad) but now hes dead and my mom n brother have been targeting me+ #nonstop. literally 24/7 #for example my mom has not bothered to check on me ONCE since it happened...yet shes constantly treating me like a therapist + #and she always comforts/checks in on my older brother AND she critcizes me for how im handling things or how 'long' everythings taking #all the while they dont lift a fucking FINGER to help me with anything and im doing everythings on my own #while going to school and working full time....to pay THEIR BILLS #idk it just feels like im so fucking alone and yet they just continue to rag on me when im literally doing my fucking best #im not allowed to greive bc im too busy doing their fucking work all while they criticize how i do their work...FOR THEM.... #god forbid im not as talkative as usual bc im stressed (i wonder why) and im the worst person on the planet #literally i will b sitting in silence in my room and theyll find something to make fun of me for or get mad at

[mayathescientist]

wyd when both alternative versions of you are terrible fucking people in their own respective ways but they're both hotter and more successful than you (yeah this is like the different simons from fionna and cake but for my oc)

#maya posts #maya art #maya's aa oc tag #bleh idk what else to put here #maybe i can just vent #since idrk if anyone reads these #im kinda upset that even when my art kinda blows up it ends up being forgotten after a while anyway #and people pretty much never have anything to.. Say? #that must mean something but idk what #but I don't know on tumblr people leave tags on everything but not on my art #and when people don't have anything to say it upsets me because i always have something to say about my art i can talk a lot about it #but i want other ppl to think something and not just sit here and talk in a self centered way i want to engage in a conversation instead #but people have nothing to contribute so I either just talk my ass off in awkward silence or i have to shut up and forget about it #idk maybe im just too self centered

[puppy-steve]

nobody warns you about the loneliness that comes with working the night shift

#you get home and you've still got some energy so you don't go to bed right away #but your friends are either already in bed or heading there #and you're left to sit in silence for another three hours until you finally trudge off to bed yourself #i realized on the way home that im paying $50 a month for unlimited talk and text #when i don't call or text people near enough times for unlimited to even be useful to me #nobody's exactly blowing up my phone for a chance to talk to me #cj talks #ignore me its 3am and im sleepy and i want someone to sit and look at the stars with me

[sodrippy]

guys we are so fucking close. t minus 36 hours until im free again

#sorry i have timeblindness so this has been the longest week of my fucking life #think when a toddler has to sit still for 10 mins and theyve never done that before so its torture #except im a grown up and have definitely been in longer situations than this before #im so fucking exciteddddddd i cant wait to sit and rot in silence once more yaaaaay

[the-yearning-astronaut]

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#worst thing about my brother moving back into the house is that #im basically stuck in my bedroom when im home #unless I want to sit upstairs in the living room where I get to listen to whatever new show my brother is watching #which wouldn't be a terrible thing #except for how he ONLY watches shows with extreme violence #i can only handle hearing the sounds of women screaming and flesh rending and yelling and gunfire and fuck knows what else for so long #like pls I don't want to hear any more torture scenes 😭😭😭 #he has a tv in his room why cant he watch it up there why must i listen to the sounds of his shows at all hours of the day #i was just getting used to going upstairs and drawing or reading while sitting on the couch and listening to silence or my audiobooks #now im stuck in the basement again or i have to leave the entire fuckin house #i fuckin hate it #i love my brother dearly but jfc #☉ #tbd

[brainrotdotorg]

Thinking about gay sex on the clock because i am already too got damn tired today ,, not even three hours into my shift and im ready to . Be done .

#i cant believe i have to stay here until 12:30 #the 16 year old boy that is training me is nice enough but also #sorry man. youre fucking annoying. im being annoyed #you keep talking and i just want to sweep popcorn in SILENCE #i feel bad he jist wants to be a good trainer #and he is im learning a lot . #but like………. hey can you shut up for like a few minutes and let me sweep in peace . #also we found two people fucking in a theater #i sidnt see anything graphic but we saw two people sitting in a seat together #girl on top of a guy #and when the guy got up he pulled his pants up. not even discreet! #i cant believe they were able to look me in the eye afterwards. unreal #anyway the queer film festival is still going and i just want to talk with the attendants there so bad

[virgincognito]

ive started to become friends with 2 coworkers that ive worked with for 2 years (it takes me a LONG TIME to warm up to ppl) and we took our breaks together inside the building that was fine until another coworker came back (they are better friends with each other than they are me) and they take their breaks outside bc the returner coworker is a HEAVY VAPER but i HATE going outside bc it takes too long to come back and quite frankly i dont want to be subjected to flavored air so i guess ill just kiss my new friends goodbye fr ill miss what we had

#im not beating the tauruses are stubborn allegations imo #and sitting in silence when they talk abt baulders gate was kinda draininggggg

[trollbreak]

SITS HERE

#been slowly swinging a pendulum between bill and beastly all day #and um. sits on the floor. bill is able to read folks as well as junie she just. doesn’t really know what to do #with that. sees how Ethann and Beastly are and is like. hm. I’m. not fond of the way you grew up. but one of you treats the topic as a live #explosive and the other can’t seem to conceptualize how anything was wrong. she’s like. that’s not right. but the fuck could I do abt it. #she’s just lingering in a room with Ethann while the both of them work on deparate things in silence. they’re very close because of the. the #‘shows trust by being nearby and letting themself not pay attention to u’ #like the. the making a point to go hey. you’re not a threat to me. and im available if needed. #bill talks to herself while she works sometimes and when she does Ethann comes over to watch. do u fucking KNOW how Ethann is slowly learnin #abt ships and upkeep from this… bill helping him wash grease out of their fur at the end of the night…. beastly doesn’t live with bill ofc #but he’s a regular visitor and bill makes sure to let him know he’s always welcome… sometimes when he’s feeling particularly unmoored her #house is one of the places he goes to find a room to sit in silence for a few hours. maybe nap till things feel a little more real again. #SIGHS ALL BIG #bill 🤝 junie. shes Ur dad #junie is happy for him to be ur mom #bill never signed up for this shit and is sitting there staring into her coffee going hm. wel shit when did that happen. like she’s Gonna be #a helpful figure but she’s also like. when did that happen?

[bylertruther]

sorry for being that guy but absolving a character of any and all flaws or accountability and ignoring the parts of canon that are proof that this character is (thankfully) complex and human aka capable of making mistakes and doing good and being smart in some ways and dumb in others and so on and so forth is just like. sorry but i always imagined that to be the most boring way to enjoy a character and yet.........................

#personally i love when characters are intelligent and idiotic and mean and kind and i like when something isn't their fault and when #sometimes it is very much their fault and so on and so forth blah blah. just like how ppl are in real life. #live and let live i don't care what anyone does unless it's hurting people and this isn't but in my eyes ...... #it's like i've just watched someone be handed a beautiful delicious chili cheese dog and they go ''thank you'' but then proceed to #scrape off all of the chili cheese and wipe the wiener down with a napkin to get all the remaining seasoning off and then switch out #the bun to a dry one. like girl what's the point of getting a chili cheese dog if you're jus gonna do all tht..... jus get a hot dog.. 🤨 #i think my fandom life would be so much easier if i enjoyed characters like dustin. or enjoyed media tht was 100% lighthearted all #the time with no fucked up characters in it. but alas.... i am forever fascinated by the cunty freakazoids.... 😔 #the dichotomy tht exists within certain characters is The Point. you'd think tht ppl would be happy tht characters aren't one dimensional #but apparently that's what many someones actually prefer lol #i stay scrolling through the tags just scratching my head looking like my icon like girl............. whatter u talkin about.... #i swear it rly makes me wanna jus go through whatever show it is this time and reblog their post with screenshots of all the scenes tht #contradict their bold statement #but im not THAT annoying so i jus sit and stew in silence.......... well. semi silence bc here i am talking abt it but—

[hanzajesthanza]

there are many good and even superb and even life-changing scenes in the witcher books, when asked “favorite scene?” we of course hear the classics — the striga fight, the death of essi daven, geralt leaving ciri outside of brokilon, geralt and ciri reuniting in something more, ciri at kaer morhen, shaerrawedd, ciri at ellander, yennefer and geralt at thanedd, the thanedd coup, the mandrake distillate, the horseshoe, the fish soup, the battle of the bridge, the slaughter of the rats, brisingamen, the ice skating on tarn mira, the stay in beauclair, ciri travelling between worlds, the battle of brenna, the assault on stygga castle, rivia…

but there’s also just the scenes you like that are not so grand or epic or even relevant to the main plot…

i have to have played and reread the conversation and philosophizing between regis and the rest of the company in chapter 7 of baptism of fire at least twenty times by now… and more, in my head

#the audiodrama added a running/bubbling water sound effect which is just so nice #this is like legit my bedtime story like i listen to this when im having an anxiety attack. its very special to me #regis: [describing how his life went horribly wrong and his severe alcoholism led to a stupid death-suicide] | me: oh so cozy… 😴🥱💙💤 #i am making this post because i have repeated the ‘that is to say Me — and my Myth —‘ phrase over and over in my head for the past hour #embody all of your fears… #sit. and think. in silence. | don’t admonish him geralt… #do lustra? #i dont reflect in mirrors… #the emphasis his VA puts on dzień and noc … :) <3 #does the explanation satisfy you my dear milva #UMNA będę. socjologia aktywocja srututucja wilkołacja… #txt

[hiya-itsamber]

im stressing so hard abt this now.

#as if i didnt already hate this class enough #now i have to sit through library sessions and communicate with these guys when ik for a fact im gonna be sitting in silence the entire tim #amber shut up

[wowshiny]

if i had a nickel for every time a hair stylist recently

1. thought i was a high schooler

2. after realizing i am in fact older, asked what i study(/studied) in college, AND then

3. fell completely silent after i said materials science & engineering

i would have two nickels :,(

(maybe three if i count the last yr or so but definitely two in the past couple weeks sigh)

#plz i am begging ppl to ask me about materialsi love mse so much its so cool and interesting to me #i am dying to talk about it at all times #lemme tell you about what matsci means bc i know its not a very recognized major and i only really learned abt it after coming to college #materials are so cool and i am always thinking abt them now #also i feel like im doing something wrong when i go to hair places then bc i feel like its expected to be holding a conversation?? #but i am unable to and then we just sit/stand there in total silence while the rest of the ppl are chatting away and i am a ball of tension #(tension HAH snuck some materials sciencey stuff in there lolol) #materials in tension hmmmm get it??? tensile testing is so much of basic materials characterization lol #ok ill stop now i should go to bed anyway i just keep thinking abt this #random #personal