#why can't he just tell me what's up

[starryarles]

he said goodnight tonight but i didn't,,,,, i hate that this is affecting me this much:( do i not deserve to be happy

i'm gonna talk too much in the tagss

#he asked for a pic of me brushing my teeth yesterday but i had already brushed my teeth so i told him to remind me today and he just said #'kk' and then didn't say goodnight after that #he also never says kk normally:/ #he normally talks to me in the morning even before i wake up he sends me messages while he's at work #and then he talks to me during the day and especially when he's on his way home from work and after he gets home #but the last few days he hasn't been doing that:( he still messgages me while he's at work but then when he gets off and gets home he- #doesn't:( #especially today:( #he did a few days ago i think it was on valentines day but the day before that and yesterday he didn't and he didn't today:( #he also didn't say goodnight on the days that he didn't talk to me after work:( #today i sent him the pic of me brushing my teeth after we barely talked today and he called me cute but i can't help but feel that it was- #somewhat forced:( maybe i'm just forcing myself to feel like that because i'm tired of feeling naive and believing everything he says #i didn't respond to him saying that #and then half an hour later he just said goodnight the way we say it to each other but with no heart and no :)/:3/:> or a sleep well #and i replied with a 'sleep well' after another maybe 20 minutes and at that point i'm guessing he was already asleep or left his phone #we'll see how this plays out #honestly i am just tired #i am tired of confronting him about things like this instead of him just telling me whats wrong #i'm tired and i don't wanna have this discussion and i don't wanna argue abt smth like this #why can't he just tell me what's up #he was doing so well with communicating and then this just happens #i'm really hoping it is just stress and it'll pass #i also said love u today and he said it back with a :3 but again it really didn't feel genuine #he's just making me sad #not tears sad but just sad:( #i hope this passes #i don't feel like having this discussion #why can't we just be happy why does it have to be complicated

[egophiliac]

CROWLEY SSR THOUGHTS

there is zero basis for this, but I can't get this thought of my head

I don't know why I decided to draw it this way

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #(these will be relevant in a moment) #this isn't going to happen. but WHAT IF. #anyway i didn't get him (damnit birdman come home) so i had to look up his story #and let me tell you friends my findings were SHOCKING #crowley canonically likes vegetables which means that the crowley is revaan theory = BUSTED #crowley is sailor venus = CONFIRMED #(i know 'whip of love' is a saying but that's where my mind always goes) #DISCLAIMER: this is (mostly) a joke please continue to hold whatever theories and headcanons you want #but look. c'mon. look over here at this whiteboard i've covered in red yarn. #revaan being a picky eater has come up multiple times and there is an entire whole bit about how much he hated jerky and refused to eat it #and now they've made a point of talking about how crowley will eat almost anything and loOoOoves wild game meat especially #it's SO stupid but i can't help but read way too much into it #(this is tumblr if you don't want to see incredibly stupid overanalysis of anime guys then why are you HERE) #and i gotta hold on to something because otherwise whenever malleus and crowley are onscreen together i just keep going 'same hair color... #unless this is like. some kind of deep cover thing. #lilia doesn't recognize him because he saw him eat a green bean once and revaan would NEVER #crowley's secret is safe for another day #(serious hat on: i do think they're probably connected in some way) #(but there's something deeper going on that we're just not clued into yet that will hopefully explain things) #man forget revaan what if crowley whips off his mask and it turns out he was meleanor this whole time #wait hold on meleanor loves jerky. IT ALL FITS...

[hychlorions]

i have some Thoughts on apollo's experiences at gavin law offices. mainly that his boss was a pretentious ass bitch

#apollo justice #miles edgeworth #kristoph gavin #ace attorney #ace attorney fanart #.png #sorry about the composition i know it's ass but like. when drawing at 5am it's about getting the point across. #this is directly in contrast with that other thing i want to make though #about miles not giving a damn about what the fuck tea is. he just keeps it up to fuck with people #'i couldn't care less if it's tea bags or leaves or if the tea came from the queen's asshole herself. i can't even tell the difference' #kristoph: why are you telling me this #then edgeworth: because no one will ever believe you (leaves him to rot) #in other news! how do i make 'apollo justice is a closet tea snob' in character? #you make it so that he's a tea snob because he desperately wanted to be praised at his job<3 #he doesn't even know he was the tea snob all along... press F for respects

[lunar-years]

I like to think Roy leaves little notes for Jamie around the house. Some are for little reminders like "don't forget to pack this..." or a list of meal prep instructions on the food he's left for Jamie in his fridge, etc. and some are just general well wishes like "good morning beautiful, meet you at the club x" or whatever. Except Roy's handwriting is so tragically bad, and this combined with the fact that Jamie already finds reading difficult results in Jamie never having one single clue what the hell that man is trying to say to him. He keeps all the notes in a shoebox anyway because they're from Roy and because Roy always signs them off with "I love you," the one sentence in Roy's handwriting that Jamie is never not going to recognize 🥰🥰

#he also doesn't tell roy he can't read his handwriting because he likes receiving them too much and doesn't want it to stop #one day roy finds the shoebox and is like. babe. #why the fuck do you have a stack of post it notes from me telling you to microwave for 3 min on high? #and jamie is just like wait awww is that what that says? 🥺 #roy is suchhhhh a note leaver. in my head. #like i completely made that up but it's so real in my head. #he's also putting little notes in phoebes lunchbox and notes in Keeley's work bag for her to find at the office. xx #royjamie #ted lasso #roy kent #jamie tartt

[beskarfrog]

when your partner bails on bigfoot hunting to go out to dinner with some guy

#dinluke #the mandalorian #digital art #dinluke art #xfiles au #luke's not jealous he just can't understand why anyone would prefer dinner to cryptids #at least thats what he's telling himself #the real question is who is going on a date with din #sorry i haven't drawn anything in like a week #school meds and new job are killing me quickly #so i wanted to do a classic xfiles moment to cheer myself up

[aimasup]

throws up my hands in mock resignation but also a hint of frustration Okay Valentino is a cool villain I guess

He's like. Genuinely unsettling. Wish the show struck a better balance with his character sometimes (like sometimes when he's onscreen I have to skip over because I feel queasy and sometimes he's so unsubtle he feels more like a prop than a guy who's going to be a Huge Deal in s2)

#why yes I have been reading some phenomenal fanfiction lately #a lesser me would be agonising over my inability to ever come close to matching the #masterfully characterised works of these talented WORD WEAVERS #but envy is a spoilt housepest and we must spend less time unleashing it upon new targets #instead let's talk about how these fics discovered its possible?? #to write Val as not only a 3dimensional character but a deeply horrifying person to WITNESS #to depict how he thinks and what he wants and what he contributes to the people around him #while acknowledging that his actions are supremely messed up #also without dumbing whatever the fuck is wrong with him down to just 'can't do math and needs a sippycup' #those jokes are funny but he's also a dealmaker #he doesn't need to be studied under a microscope! he needs to be gawked at in abject horror! Oh the Potential! #he needs to tell us more about how depraved hell can be by linking us to a portion of the culture full of the dead who cannot die! #anyways. rant over. uh I think I like valentino now? in the same way I like the old man villain from hunchback of notre dame. #just. (gestures) what is this dude. ew. oh my god #my post #personal stuff #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel valentino #is this anything #again I am entrenching on dangerous territory of 'expectations for this media I consume' #he really doesn't need to be written all shakespearean-like #too attached mayhaps #delete later #honestly worried that if the show does reveal his backstory or whatever it'll try to paint him in a sympathetic light #and then the online arguments will be a headache for a month #villain with tragic backstory ≠ sympathetic villain

[lover-of-mine]

It's been 62 episodes since the last time Buck and Eddie hugged. If you even care.

#im sorry i saw an edit saying that Buck wanted to go home and he went to Eddie #and now im crying #WHY WOULD YOU NOT LET THEM HUG????? #both of them almost died multiple times #Eddie had a whole mental breakdown #you're telling me they don't need hugs????? #is it because you can't have them hug because they wouldn't let go?????????? #WHAT IS UP WITH THAT?????????????? #I JUST WANT THEM TO HUG #AM I ASKING FOR TOO MUCH?MM #FRIENDS HUG EACH OTHER #AND THEY ARE TOUCH PEOPLE #LET THEM HUG #UGH #911 #thoughts thoughts thoughts #buddie

[lunarharp]

"Found out" set in kind of a made-up chapter where the girls are in trouble, or something.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i hate having a strong cinematic image in your mind for months..working hours on it..& at the end looking you have to be like “Sure. :/" #i'm especially unsatisfied with the beginning and the end and how i can't get eyebrows to work as i want #but i dont care any more... this is probably the comic that has given me the most trouble ever i just dont care #i barely even care whatsoever if anyone even sees this..Ugh..but at least i can move on to the next era now #i'm just annoyed i cant get out good enough my image of qifrey flinching bc he thinks oru will hit him but then he is not hit #i feel like sensei will do something along these lines. i want to see what she will do. #there are also other variations i have in my mind. i just want to know #i just don't want it to happen with qifrey on his deathbed or something. but it possibly will. I DONT EVEN KNOW. #i have another very cinematic image in my mind for something sort of along those lines which i will do soon. it never ends... #btw after this is probably my fics. yeah.... i think it has to be my fics. jasmine sort of goes along these lines #i need that space for dialogue. look - i'm a writer. this is HARD for me. so i am really glad i had the space and freedom of words #to process all the feelings. but i tried to get something out in a quick visual space too. <- me defending myself to myself at cai court #anyway going along the lines of 'Jasmine' - they talk this out and argue and cry and oru pushes the hat at him and tells him #why not just erase every memory i have of you then. That would be easier for us all wouldn't it? #they kiss and sob and kiss and lie outside in the flowers for many hours in that one. and then there's 'Deep End' where it turns out #way way way way more time and words is needed for this actually and that's upsetting for everyone. #the destruction of the hat is certainly another path to take. Can you make this work without that hat going up in flames? #something you have always had and have been clinging to will have to be destroyed. You have to lose something now. This is the crux qifrey #I CANT GET IT OUT IN ONE COMIC!!! I CANT DRAW IT OUT!!!! I NEEDED THOSE FICS!!!! PRAISE WORDS!!!! whatever im going to have dinner now

[firelxdykatara]

idk i just feel like the more pressing matter with sokka is the fact he’s been played by a white dude than whether or not he still hates women or whatever. and it’s so weird too because the casting for everyone is pretty spot on at least broadly speaking and then you get to sokka and it’s just (karen smith voice) if you’re from the water tribe, why are you white?

Well, for starters, we don't actually know that he is white.

I'm reluctant to relitigate this at this juncture, since there's been a lot of speculation with very little evidence, and frankly, even if he is white, the cast is still a damn sight more diverse than any installment we've ever had. The original main cast of the show was white--with the exception of Zuko and Iroh--as was the main cast of the movie adaptation (again with the exception of Zuko and Iroh, funnily enough), AND the creators were white AND all of the writers were white (and almost all of them were men), which means that there were approximately zero poc with storytelling authority involved with the show. Even if Ian Ousley is white (which is still an if! and I'm not gonna be out here demanding his 23andme results), that's one flub against an entire cast of Asian&indigenous actors, showrunners, writers, and directors (of which there are also considerably more women than the original could boast).

I'm not willing to throw that baby out with the bathwater, so to speak, and I'm going to err on the side of if the rest of the cast is ok with his presence, then it shouldn't bother me too badly. They have excellent chemistry in interviews and on screen, and, from what I've seen, seem to be friends, and that's good enough for me.

Also, I just want to take this moment to point out that trying to rely on looks to determine who is or isn't a poc is problematic at best--and I think that, without bias, Ian doesn't look out of place next to Kia, Dallas, and Gordon. It's not like he's Jackson Rathbone, guys.

#atla #atla la #The Sokka Thing #sokka #ian ousley #even if it is true that he's white it's not necessarily true that he lied to get the role #him believing what he was told growing up about his ancestry does not make him a villain trying to steal roles from actors of color #and i shouldn't have to explain why relying on US validation of a tribe to determine who is and isn't native is. a problem. #but all of that just can't compare to the opportunities that have been given to the other actors&writers&directors who ARE poc #and are getting a chance to tell this story #me: i'm reluctant to relitigate this #also me: AND ONE MORE THING #anyway

[recitedemise]

𝗚𝗮𝗹𝗲 𝗼𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗻 𝘃𝗶𝗲𝘄𝘀 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗺𝗶𝘁𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗲𝗻𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗳𝗮𝗶𝘁𝗵. That said, when speaking of his paramour with the mention of Mystra, it is not a slight. After all, Mystra, the goddess, wasn't just his lover; she, as she'll remain, controls the Weave.

As a scholar of magic for all his life, Gale is thoroughly enamored with it. He's always had the Weave, casting spells and enchantments for as far as his long memory goes, and there's no power on earth that can pale that devotion. When Gale says Mystra's name, in love, it is never with yearning. When he tells his lover that he forgets his goddess when he stands beside them, he means quite literally that he foregoes his faith. He doesn't mention her like a quality benchmark with which they've somehow surpassed, but to punctuate how wholly he has fallen for them. With a new, honest love, he is turned entirely from Mystra. In fact, so utterly bewitched, he's like a born again man. He isn't besotted by his goddess, held stalwart in her sway and seemingly, abundantly, and frustratingly stubborn. After that disastrous relationship, I promise you, Gale spares not a single thought toward her. She might have control of the Weave, and as such, stands still his only patron deity, but his new, doting lover? They become something of a new religion for him; he is most devoted, taken by, and so loyal to them.

He does not see Mystra. Do not assume he still feels for her.

He's a man of one love, and they will have all of him.

#HEADCANON. #Never go into the Gale tag because the fandom has such bad faith interpretations of Gale 24/7 #I say as another bad take makes me type this up. #Gale isn't still hung up on her GOD. Stop. #Stop saying 'Gale keeps mentioning Mystra when we're being romantic and it's so annoying.' #Dude. Mystra is his LITERAL god. He is saying YOU ARE HIS NEW FAITH. #Oh my god. Stop misinterpreting it. He isn't still ENAMORED with Mystra. #UGHHHHHHHH. #He got out of an abusive relationship and is finding out THIS is what love is #that this love IS something he can put his faith and heart in. #And you reduce him to... guy that can't get over ex tee hee? #Tell me why I shouldn't make your milk curdle. #Someone: the astral sex scene is just him reliving his moment with Mystra. #Or get this... he himself has basically largely only had sex and intimacy through that realm #and knows it to be pleasurable. He wants his partner to know pleasure beyond all imagination. THAT'S IT. #People make me [semi truck comically long honk]. #This man makes it a POINT that his heart is made ONLY for one and you all just?!?!? Talk like this!?! You wound Dean. [third person talk] #Anyway (breathes). I'm normal now. I will be on later cuz big things cane up at work. peace.

[todayisafridaynight]

no ones ever gonna understand how much i love daigo doin this stupid shit after dissolving the tojo

#snap chats #is this a gaiden spoiler. its been like five months catch up you nerds #ANYWAYYYYY NOO I LOVE HIM ....... this whole bit is like four seconds long but i love it so much #i just reminded myself i should probably make gaiden/y8 videos for daigo.. i'll make it a JP/ENG comp or somethn.. one day #not soon tho like its barely anything since he's not in those games Long At All but still. im lazy 💀 #excuse me while i gush about daigo for twenty minutes now because hehee HE'S SO CUTE I CAN'T GET OVER IT #this is literally the middle aged equivalent of going yippee like YOU CAN TELL HE'S SO RELIEVED IT'S SO CUTE #got the energy of a student with crippling anxiety after they somehow get through giving a presentation without throwing up #AND his lil smile ......... thank you gaiden you made me wanna eat drywall with daigo's sad puppy dog eyes about kiryu #and then immediately made up for it a minute later #sorry i keep scrolling up to look at him and i love him so much. what if i threw up #i dont like using babygirl lightly but this is actually the most Babygirl frame of him ever ive decided #thats my boy .... i love my boy so much ..... he's so cute ... come so far in life congratulations king ..... ily ... #him lookin up at the sky for a minute just to breathe i know he thankin god for the fact he somehow isnt dead yet #im gonna ignore the fact all of this was for naught so i dont bash my head against a wall anyway stan daigo #im gonna be sick i love him so much #if i redraw this later shut up. i love him... #this is why i try not to look at cutscenes anymore cause when i do i feel my brain being put in a microwave and start to melt #its not my fault i love my guys so much .... ok bye i have work to do .... #and then when i finish that work i can go back to loving my guys YAAAAAY !!!!!!!

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

Macaque about Wukong: he’s selfish, he only cares about himself, he always wins, he always gets exactly what he wants, I let him use me, he knows exactly what he’s doing and every decision he makes is purposefully made to make the people closest to him miserable until he’s done using them to get what he wants, and what he wants is power- get out while you can

Azure, about Wukong: he’s selfless, he cares so much about his people and his friends and puts them before himself, that’s why I followed him, he’s powerful, he would make a glorious ruler of the heavens, but he doesn’t know what he’s doing and he fails and was tricked into making the wrong decision but that’s why he needs me-

(i’ve only watched up to ses 4 episode 8 please no spoilers in tags)

#love these unreliable narrators telling us all about monkey king #:'D #lmk s4 spoilers #Monkie Kid #LEGO Monkie Kid #Azure Lion (monkie kid) #Six Eared Macaque (Monkie Kid) #thinking about changing up how I tag things #ANYWAY THO #its crazy how just two different peoples takes on monkey king can contradict the other so much #this is why we can't trust what literally anybody in the show says about monkey king at this point because everybody seems so freaking #unreliable #NAYWAY GIVE ME AN UNBIASED NARRATION OF MONKEY KING I BEG O FYOU ITS DRIVING ME INSANELGNMLSMFWE #who is monkey king? we'll he's a selfish unselfish thoughtful thoughtless self aware oblivious unsaken by others easily manipulated monkey!! #:D #WOW ITS SO CLEAR #VALUES HIS FRIENDS SO MUCH #WORST FRIEND ALIVE #its just interesting how different they both see him #Macaque viewing him as the capable smart disloyal powerful terrible friend with only his own interests at heart even if it hurts others #and Azure viewing him as this selfish almost perfect figure who just needs to be corrected slightly because he was lead to the wrong truth #its like he's seen as a villian vs being seen as a toddler #W I L D #Monkey King: a villan. a toddler. an agent of chaos. a hero #WELL WE KNOW WHAT EVERYBODY ELSE HTINKS OF HIM CAN WE PLEASE GET A NARRATION THAT ACTUALLY TELLS US WHAT HE IS IN THE SHOW #W A I LS #okay i'm rambling now MOVING ON HAVE A NICE DAY #THE NARRATION OF EVERYONE TELLING HIM WHO HE IS AND DECIDING WHO HE IS. IS ONLY FUN FOR SO LONG ITS BEEN FOUR SEASONS P L E A S E #i was gonna wait till i watched ep ten to complain about this a bit but heck now i'm rambling in the tagshgklmsdfaow;ef WE'RE DOING GREAT

[mulletmitsuya]

random tokrev rant ahead !!

when i first started this blog it was going to be for random shitposts, groupchats once in a while, and mostly tokrev analysis but i was so scared of discourse that i just chose to do the funnier stuff 😭. when tokrev was at it's peak i'd be reading 20k+ words of analysis and it was so fun!! but i felt like i couldn't word what i wanted to say properly so that discouraged me but i wish i'd ignored that because there would have been at least one person who understood what i was saying yk?

#anyway #i used to have a tagging system but i forgot so that's my bad #and the thing about discourse is that you could give a person all the canonical facts of the story and they'll still find a way to pretend #that they're right and i personally cannot handle that #i take things very seriously and someone thinking they won a argument when they didn't would make me rip my hair out #so maybe my blog not going into that direction was good for my metal health #i feel like fandom interactions always end up as fights for some reason #why can't two opinions co-exist #let's discuss and have fun why we gotta tell each other to kill ourselves😭 #like i saw a very well thought out and written theory about sanzu having autism or something along those lines #and a comment was like “stop trying to give him excuses he's a terrible villain and he's just crazy blah blah blah” #whole time this person's an izana apologist #like😐 #i love both these characters but a lot of characters in tokrev are more complicated than just a “crazy villain” #and it seems like they understand that about izana so???? #ok i'm done now i hope you guys get what i mean #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers manga #tokrev

[iceinherheart-kissonherlips]

you'll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you  🎶

#dwedit #rd edit #river song edit #eleventh doctor #river song #doctor who #is it great? no. does it make sense? no. not really.I just wanted to make it #because this quote kind of makes me go feral #because imagine river. a ghost. trying to get a closure from a man who supposedly loved her #but it seems to have forgotten all about her. put her on a shelf life a book that wasn't even that great and engaging #and so she haunts him. first trying to get a reaction and realising that he can't hear or see her #and so then she talks. about their adventures. about her love. how she misses him. how she's always missed him #she'd tell him about her solo advenures #how much fun she used to have and she'd tell him how many times she stole his TARDIS and he didn't even notice #and she'd make fun of him piloting the TARDIS ('hundreds of years and you still can't do that. you really did get that flying licence in a p #and during these rare times when he slept she'd read or tale him fairytales. because why not? what does she have to lose? #and yet. he heard her all the time. every single time. #but he never talked to her. why would he? to do that he'd have to acknowledge that he'd lost her for good. just like her parents. just like #and river - she was supposed to be different. a touchstone. someone who would be able to keep up with him. stay with him. they would always #and yet. he was left all alone. his wife gone. a ghost of her was all he could have. he should set her free but he was a selfish man. so he #is it too much? or not enough? #idk they just make me go feral tbqh. what can I say I want me faves to suffer :) #mine #long post #otp: the towers sang and you cried

[schnaf]

Parallel Contents | 🕵️‍♂️The Accomplice

#xdinary heroes #gaon #kwak jiseok #aaaah i liked these vids!! #the criminal dude was so fun and i felt like they all really liked him #also i just looked up something and i'm really glad that phrases like making eyes at someone and giving someone the eye exist in english to #because.... gaon might not have been as flirty as gunil but the eye thing is what he did here #'🥺don't you want to tell these beautiful eyes the truth?' #also kwakoh's confidence.... jungsu being like 'beautiful hands? can't be me' and these two dudes were like 'hm yeah sounds like me' #(especially ode is right when it comes to his beautiful hands ugh. but the way he was like 'beautiful eyes? yeah why not'.... BOI)

[the-priestess-of-dawn]

FEH Validar... is going to have no choice but to go through some character development. Aversa regained her memories. 4/5 of the Grimas summoned have lost theirs, and the 5th, despite being the most powerful, is also the saddest, openly admitting to feeling empty inside. Things just aren't the same as they were in his home world.

#validar #i am aware that i might be the only validar fan out there but look okay IF GRIMA CAN CHANGE #his lack of personality beyond grima COULD be looked at in terms of the shallow writing all awakening antagonists recieved #BUT it can also be really compelling if you treat it as a legitimate character trait #he has no real sense of self beyond an unstated but clearly felt jealousy that he can't become grima. an implicit sense of being unworthy. #i mean if he were grima he wouldn't be himself. but he has no attachment to himself. he would give up his existence for grima if he could #and he clearly doesn't understand why robin would want to be robin and not grima. what the fuck is a “self” anyway. grima is his everything #“the evils of this world are nothing to me. i am an agent of fate.” he tells the summoner #but is this not just his way of suppressing his own feelings? of minimizing himself? #damn it validar we have GOT to get you some self esteem! you are allowed to be a person!!! and so is your child/reincarnated god!!! #maybe someday i'll write a fic... i know i've been saying this for several years but hey. it could happen eventually.