DEFINITELY slimecicle bg3 spoilers so putting it under the cut just in case <3
hey btw xiv being nothing more than a number to their father is gonna fuck me up forever and ever. that flashback sequence FUCKED me up. their father holding their little hand, the only thing even slightly breaking his massive, intimidating silhouette. their father knelt down before them, one of his hands rested on their shoulder so gently, showing them his magic and cradling that magical flame so close to his heart. how carefully he cupped xiv's hands in his own, when they first attempted to recreate that flame he'd shown them. how despite all of that, they would become nothing more than a spell battery. he hadn't even bothered to give them a proper name. just a reminder of what they were to him.
the fact that he pretended to care, even if only when they were young, somehow makes it even more fucked up. and the fact that xiv would still listen to him if he showed his face again (seeing as the emperor disguised himself As Their Father to gain their trust). auaudhehg. all I do is be emotional over slimecicle characters.