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Will I ever get over this? Nope

#i am not immune to the use of the phrase 'good boy' #the picture of dorian gray

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You and I are friends, Basil, and we must always remain so.

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A bit of friendzoning for a late Valentines!

It’s amazing to see how the relationship between Dorian and Basil changes through dialogue selection; this line (if I remember correctly and under comprehensible reasons) did not make into the film, so I took some liberty in mixing things up and made a little offering to all the artists that gave me brainrot.

#the picture of dorian gray #art

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...because any moment may be our last. everything is more beautiful because we're doomed.

#looking through my drafts and seeing this post unfinished and knowing in my core I'll probably never actually finish it . #but strangley enough i don't hate the way it looks with only those 2 panels ? beauty in simplicity or something idk #woe unfinished post be upon ye #honestly probably wouldnt even bother posting it were it not for the fact i was hit by a sudden wave of sadness #by being reminded out of the blue that alex really does just . lose nigel that night #enough deep level analysis my brain is all out i think . but just the simple fact that nigel dies that night #and alex has to go on for the rest of his life post-ending carrying that grief and loss with him #i know we talk about how nigel isn't truly 'gone' in the sense that they're one now and jack is supposed to be an amalgamation of the two #a product of their union and 'consummation' that night at the yard #but he's still gone . no matter how much alex might try and follow in nigel's footsteps #no matter how hard alex tries to tread that same path nigel did to feel close to him #he's gone . they will never have that moment beneath the house ever again . and alex has to go on living with that #anyway . normal again . imagine dropping a song rec like i used to. aha . go listen to sick like me by in this moment. #like minds #murderous intent #nigel colbie #alex forbes #nigel colbie x alex forbes #edit : THEY'LL NEVER HAVE THE MOMENT UNDER THE HOUSE AGAIN !!!!! #thinking about the moment where nigel sits across from alex after he shoots john #and the contrast to the scene in the crawlspace . nigel is trying to connect he is trying to get alex to see to understand #but now alex is closed off. something may be irreparable broken between them #do you think it was the moment where nigel starts to despair . to plead . realise that he needs to find a way to make alex truly see #i need to get some sleep

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If We Were Villains sketch page

#iwwv #art

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#it's an older meme sir but it checks out . hopefully #if you recognise the audio you'll know what's coming lmao #dont ask me what possessed me to do this i thought it was hilarious at the time . i have trial submissions to be doing . #also i'm too impatient to post at a better time #hopefully people understand this #like minds #like minds 2006 #murderous intent #nigel colbie #alex forbes #video #like minds meme

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#aesthetic

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#there's no other way to characterise this look as anything but gay yearning i don't care what greg says #like minds

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obsessed with characters who were written for one another. like, what do you mean the reason for my existence is to be by your side? what do you mean our divine purpose is to belong to one another, for better or worse?

#nigel & alex

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Today I discovered that a couple of TSH characters were based on actual people Donna Tartt knew at Bennington College- amongst them were students Todd O'Neal and Matt Jacobsen, who were the inspiration for Henry and Bunny respectively.

AND JUST—

There's even their own comments about it and it's so funny wait:

Here's the source

#tsh

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"Do you understand? When I am done telling you these stories, when you're done listening to these stories, I am no longer I, and you are no longer you. In this afternoon we briefly merged into one. After this, you will always carry a bit of me, and I will always carry a bit of you, even if we both forget this conversation."

– Hao Jingfang, "Invisible Planets," in Invisible Planets: Contemporary Chinese Science Fiction in Translation, tr. & ed. Ken Liu

#nigel & alex #quotes

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#woe low quality shit posts be upon ye #brought to you by sleep deprivation and the extent of my phones editing software #matching couple outfit ideas ❤️ #honestly the tshirts work interchangeably. its kind of their thing #like minds #murderous intent #nigel colbie #alex forbes #like minds 2006 #the way I've spent the last week thinking about making that post on the newspaper article and instead you get this . anyway 🤡👍 #still cant get over the fact theres like . a fandom for this film now . crazy

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#aesthetic #art

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there being next to no established canon backstory for basically anyone in this film is tonnes of fun cause you can say stuff like 'i think nigel had a brother he accidentally killed when they were both children' and there's nothing to dispute it

#who's to say otherwise? greg? HA! you can gaslight that man into believing whatever you want he understands so little of his own film #coming up with my own reasons as to why his father dislikes him so much #like minds #nigel colbie #like minds 2006 #originally when i wrote this it was younger brother but now i'm like . older? i mean there's something to be said #about the idea of the older brother .the protector . being responsible for the death of the younger one #but then i started thinking along the lines of a baldr loki sort of situation. where the older one is the golden child #so perfect and pure and bright #and the younger has something irrefutably wrong with them. they're wicked and rotten and wrong #and they end up being responsible for the death of the child beloved by both their parents #and from there the resentment festers and grows #maybe john should've taken better care to make sure his guns were always locked away properly #maybe it wasn't as much of an accident as nigel led them all to believe #anyway .watch someone jump in and point directly to canon info that refutes this . i have not watched the film in awhile

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desire - clementine von radics // intimacy - angelica alzona // bloodsport - yves olade // that unwanted animal - the amazing devil // the banquet - guillermo lorca garcia-huidobro // things have gotten worse since we last spoke - eric larocca // the body - stephen king // bones and all (2022) // dialogue between ghost and priest - sylvia plath // stem peels & pits collaboration with stephanie gonot - samantha margherita // give me a god i can relate to - blythe baird

#coming back to this again because i finished reading bones & all today . and now i am having Thoughts™️ #about certain people . from a certain film . iykyk

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#being there could fix me . temporarily #photography

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AU where Josh manages to grab onto Nigel’s hand at the last moment that night on the train and both of them fall out. AU where Nigel has been dead the entire time but Alex Forbes doesn’t know that; where the trauma of watching his friend fall to his death combined with the realisation he was complicit in the death of another causes his mind to fracture.

He doesn’t remember making it back to his dorm room that night, only remembers waking up to the news that Josh and Nigel were was dead. All of Nigel’s things have been moved to another room, of course they have, because Nigel was gone, dead, all his fault, his fault trouble.

AU where Alex takes the train one night to the Colbie house because Nigel asks him to, because he feels this innate and intense need to try and better understand this boy he got killed; where he finds the card and the books and Nigel’s red bible, and begins to understand.

AU where the body of Susan turns up one morning, and the police question Alex about it, but there’s no way it was him, because he was late; he was late, and by the time he showed up at the cinema, she was waiting for him still, sweet Susan, with her kind eyes and kinder heart, she had waited for him and she didn’t even suspect anything until the very second before he struck gone.

AU where Alex finds the letter he wrote Nigel wrote, inviting him to his house that night, where Alex sees the Colbies arguing through the window; where he wrestles the gun from John and shoots him to kill him because he read the journals, knows that this man has been hurting Nigel his whole life and he wanted him dead protect Nigel.

AU where Nigel confronts Alex at the train yard that night, where he forces Alex to remember everything he did, everything Alex did; where he forces Alex to pull the trigger and kill off the version of Nigel he’s been carrying around in his mind, where Alex dies that night right along with him and Jack is born instead.

#types out the most incomprehensible batshit thing ever and posts it: haha you get what i mean? #this would've been a fic but i know i don't have the motivation to commit to that right now and it would've ended up abandoned #anyway . blame the crowded room for inspiring this . and then the dynamic between the narrator and tyler from fight club #and joe and rhys from s4 of you for driving it #does this actually even make sense ? to anyone that is not currently sharing the braincell with me ? #who knows #like minds #murderous intent #nigel colbie #alex forbes #doing some serious handwaving as to how this au would work for like . 60% of the movie. youd have to scrap the sally interview basically #also doing some serious handwaving as to whether josh's death is enough of a stressor to trigger a dissociative episode #especially one that results in development of DID #dont look at this post directly . only from a side angle . corner of your eye. thank you

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"If reincarnation is real I wonder how many people stare at their own art in museums, listen to their own music they made in a different life and read books they don't remember writing"

@themachomoron

#okay bear with me here .. the reincarnation au for nigel and alex where they're destined to meet again and again #but alex never remembers the lives they've shared together while nigel does #and the bible nigel has in the film actually belonging to alex from a past life . nigel shows it to him #in the hopes it will trigger something . awaken some part of alex that *knows* nigel. some part that remembers him