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Not the oldest not the youngest and not the middle what I'm I then

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If I eat then it's wow you're gonna eat all of that and if I don't it's oh you're going on a diet now

If I'm a picky eater why are you fat then and if I'm open to eating whatever then it's haha you never say no to food

There's no wining if you're overweight

#ed thingz #tw ed descussion #st4rv1ng #thisismydisorderedconfession #4norexi4 #tw disordered eating #tw ana diary #ed disorder #ana trigger #fear food

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How do I lose weight if i work in a grocery store i can't stop eating candy

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[wannabeskinnyhardway]

I feel like being with that one boy I don't love and don't feel comfortable around is the only way I'm going to be in a relationship cause he Is the only one that wants to be with me

And I can't stop thinking that no one will ever want to be with me cause I'm fat and ugly

But at the same time i feel like if someone wants me then there is someone else who could want me

I just want to feel loved and I don't want to feel like this any more

I don't want to feel like being skinny is the only way out of this

But I know it's the only way out

I just want to be skinny

#bonespro #ed thingz #fat ana #ana trigger #fear food #tw weight #weight loss #i want to be weightless #tw ed descussion #ed bllog

[wannabeskinnyhardway]

Sometimes

I feel that I cannot love. I don't feel love towards my parents, family, or friends. I feel attached to them yeah sure I guess, but love? I don't think I do I don't know where's the problem ? Do I love them but I don't know the feeling, or have I not met anyone yet to make me feel this way

Or I'm I just a dump kid who is seeking attention?

I guess I will have to wait a little bit more to find out

#love #attachement #i have a problem #feelings #give me attention

[wannabeskinnyhardway]

It didn't matter if I lived or not cause in my head I already killed myself four years ago

[wannabeskinnyhardway]

Please call me first why I'm I always your second option

[wannabeskinnyhardway]

I think I lied about having my period every month too much that I actually no longer remember when the last time I actually got it was it a year? Two years ? four years ? Six months? I actually can't remember even if my life depend on it

#bonespro #ed thingz #fat ana #ana trigger #fear food #tw weight #weight loss #tw disordered eating #4norexi4 #tw ed descussion #i wanna be weightless #ed bllog

[wannabeskinnyhardway]

I live alone and it's Ramadan and I'm still fat I think being fat is a me thing it has nothing to do with where I live or what time is it I just have to accept that I'm always gonna be the fat one I hate myself

#bonespro #ed thingz #fat ana #ana trigger #fear food #tw weight #weight loss #ana ed #ana rules #tw ana mention #pro ana buddy #tw ed descussion #ed bllog #i wanna be weightless

[wannabeskinnyhardway]

Yeah mom I remember the good old days when I cried myself to sleep wondering why my parents will never love me the way they love my older sister and waking up with my eyes swelling shut

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#bonespro #ed thingz #why are they like this #ed motivation #weight loss #tw weight #fear food #ana trigger #fat ana #tw ed descussion #i wanna be weightless #ed bllog

[wannabeskinnyhardway]

12 Year old my would be screaming if she saw what 19 old my have done

#bonespro #ed thingz #weight loss #ana trigger #tw weight #ed motivation #fear food #fat ana #obese ana #poc ana

[wannabeskinnyhardway]

My biggest fear is that I will die and people can't lift me cause am too big

#getting skiny #bonespro #eating problems #ed thingz #pr0 m14 #sk1nnie #only pr0 for myself #pr0 mi4 #pr0 m1a #pr0 3d #ana ed #ana fast #ana rules #pro ana buddy #fat ana #just ed stuff #developing an ed #ed motivation #eating disorder tricks #eating disorder rules

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In fact, as far as I can remember, I've been the one who eats small portions of food, and yet I've always been the one to joke around with when it comes to eating a lot.

#getting skiny #bonespro #eating problems #ed thingz #sk1nnie #only pr0 for myself #pr0 m14 #pr0 mi4 #pr0 3d #4na

[wannabeskinnyhardway]

My whole body hurts so much I can't even tell where it hurts anymore

#getting skiny #ana fast #bonespro #eating problems #ed thingz #pr0 m14 #sk1nnie #pr0 3d #pr0 mi4 #only pr0 for myself #just ed stuff #ana ed #developing an ed #ed motivation #ed rules #pr0 ana diary #ana rules #fat ana #obese ana #pro ana buddy #tw ana thoughts #an0rex1c #ana couch

[wannabeskinnyhardway]

I wish I had the same self control I had in 2016/2017

#getting skiny #ana fast #bonespro #eating problems #pr0 m14 #sk1nnie #pr0 3d #ed thingz #pr0 mi4 #only pr0 for myself