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Oh, yeah… what the hell is that?

so why tf is tumblr storing 5 gigs of cache data on everyone's systems that's not a problem i remember having in the past are they crypto mining through this website now?

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Lmao at this lesbian cable worker who said this right in front of Dick Cheney when fixing his internet. What a hero.

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My landlord replaced my broken stove with the most disgusting dirty stove that’s clearly been stored in a shed for 20 years piece of shit I’ve ever seen. I’m so fucking angry I could cry.

#I am crying actually #I’m am so fucking beat down by life #I cannot handle one more fucking thing going wrong for me #personal #I’m going to bed. fuck all of this.

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Start an ASMR channel

just had yet another client tell me I have a soothing and calming voice lmao maybe I should have been a therapist

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Once some friends got into the ol’ Lennon vs McCartney debate and it was pretty evenly split among the 10 or so of us. One person started going around the circle pointing at everyone to ask where they came down on it. It’s getting to the end and I don’t really care but I do think that Lennon is racist and a misogynist so because I love to be a little shit and I thought it would be funny I said Yoko Ono and I was right. It was funny.

YOU HATE THE BEATLES?!?? (Yeah some of them suck as people) BUT THE MUSIC?!??!!! EXPLAIN /lh /nm

I mean it's mostly a joke, I really just hate Yellow Submarine

#a group groaning in agony at a well placed wrench in the works is the best kind of joke there is

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body paintings by Karen Turner

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I usually eat hours and hours after I wake up.

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Looking buy some high quality, black owned hair bonnets.

#the last ones I bought were from Canada and the shipping cost almost as much as the bonnets #so American would be ideal but non American is not exactly a deal breaker #I’m growing my hair out again so it would be nice to have long hair options #personal #hair care #hair bonnets #satin bonnets #black owned businesses

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If you notice me reblogging

a repost

stolen art

false information

etc.

please let me know, you’re not rude or annoying and I actually do give a fuck and I will correct my mistake, thank you

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the beauty of tumblr’s retrochronological dash is that when you come back online, if the first post you see is “okay im normal now” you know you’re about to witness the most spectacular meltdown a mutual has ever had in recent memory, followed by the impetus that trigger the entire event

#me the last two days

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Called the EAP, already had my intake. That’s much better than last time when I was rescheduled 4 times before begging for care because of how I was feeling.

They have my the info for a debt consolidation place and my bank has options too.

Also, I didn’t overdraw my account, so I must be really bad at math and freaking out (only a little) unreasonably. I did go from $1700 to $40 in one day with paying bills, one Walmart trip, and one lunch+. I get paid day after tomorrow, and the bulk of my bills are paid.

If I do this debt consolidation thing I’m going to have to file my taxes real quick because even though I’ve never owed before if I do this year I will need to add that to the consolidation.

Now I’m going to eat for the first time since Monday.

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I’m the same way. I can do left over once. My idea was to make big batches of things I could freeze (mostly soups) and then have stuff I could pull out and make easily.

why do I try to do meal prepping? I know myself. I know I get bored fast with food and I don’t like to eat the same thing several days in a row. I know this

#still working on it

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Yeah, things are different in the light of day.

#gonna make something to eat and head back into town to talk to the bank #called the EAP and got started on counseling #I’m also looking into debt consolidation #I’m about $700 in the red every month. #No fucking idea how I’m able to pay my bills

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I’m probably only feeling like this because I didn’t eat yesterday and I think I only got like 4 1/2 hours of sleep but I’ll be honest I’m not sure either of those would really help since I’m not having a full melt down.

#I’m gonna try watching some YouTube and see if I can fall asleep.

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#I choose silence because I have taken 4+ hour drives with out radio #or my phone #I do play out scenes of stuff in my head or out loud but #I regularly do the 30 minute drive to town in silence #it’s very soothing white noise #especially when my mind is loud

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I had $5 in my bank account yesterday. Got paid for mileage from a work trip today. Somehow I have already spent it all and may have even overdrawn. Which means I’m fucked. I am going to go back to town and try and return some stuff and probably deposit some cash that I withdrew today.

What the fuck am I doing with my fucking life?! Besides, you know, dragging it through the fucking dirt.

I’ve been feeling like I’ll have to sell most of my shit and get a roommate and a second job and probably a paying ‘hobby’ because I feel like I’m just fucking drowning constantly. I overdrew my bank account by nearly $400 at Christmas. I have borrowed so much money from my mom because I was afraid that I wouldn’t make rent. I took on a work trip I didn’t want to because I was trying to pay her back.

There’s still some money coming my way probably (another travel reimbursement that I need to submit and a decent paycheck) but it may not be in time.

Not to mention that the two people I heave been talking to for the past two MONTHS have seemingly ghosted me in the last two weeks. I know one of them has blocked me and the other is just seemingly not responding but I can see that he’s been active. Which. Idk, it’s been so long since I let myself be vulnerable like this and it really fucking sucks that it’s blown up in my face.

I’m not suicidal yet, but man, I am on the fucking razor’s edge. I am not doing well friends.

#personal #suicide mention #tw suicide #suicide tw #cw suicide #suicide cw #I’ll probably call the EAP in the morning too #I should probably be on something that I am not currently on #I have been largely sober for two years and i am feeling like that is a mistake in this moment. #I’m just. I. I can’t. I’m so done. #I’m trying not to have a full freak out but it’s hanging over me and it’s big and it’s dark #not sure we’re gonna get ourselves out of this one boys