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Going clothes shopping is a sure way to bring myself back to the honeymoon phase of my ed.

#vent blog #tw vent #mentally fucked #tw ana trigger #tw ana diary #anami4 #anatumblr #ana rant #tw ed not ed sheeren #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed rant #ed vent #ed disorder #tw disordered eating #tw eating issues #light as a feather #💡as a 🪶 #🕯️as a feather #i need to ⭐️ve #⭐️ving #⭐️ve #⭐️rving #starv1ng

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womp womp

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it's like theres a hole in my heart that can never mend itself

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Reblog if you’re pro recovery because we love recovery, we’re just not ready for it

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Do you ever watch people that watch you eat? They're staring at you, wondering why you are stuffing that shit in your mouth. They see how big you are, how your fat hangs over your pants. You disgust them with every bite. Stop embarrassing yourself.

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fuck recovery. im over it. coming back once again

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I'm not going to become skinny if I keep eating like I'm fat

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lately my life is just waves of “I could go the rest of my life without eating” and “GRRRRAAAH I MISS FOOD SO MUCH IM SO RAVENOUS”

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fuck this ed *binges*

ugh im so fat *starves*

fuck this ed *binges*

ugh im so fat *starves*

fuck this ed *binges*

ugh im so fat *starves*

fuck this ed *binges*

ugh im so fat *starves*

fuck this ed *binges*

ugh im so fat *starves*

fuck this ed *binges*

ugh im so fat *starves*

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the words are different but the meaning is the same

really quick and rough doodle to express my rage about the kind of comments some people leave on ... a lot of things but usually things people are passionate about like art and discussion. i hate when people do this, deliberately go out of their way to say something cynical and sarcastic about something that someone put a lot of energy into and chose to share. it makes me so angry.

i know it sounds childish, but "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything" is true. i've had enough skull emojis for the rest of my fucking life. to quote another tumblr post, try saying something beautiful and true. don't be a tar pit. we don't need any more cruelty in this world. it all adds up.

please reblog instead of liking, and if you feel compelled to leave a comment about how you hate when people put reblog captions at the bottoms of their posts, you are the type of person i am talking about.

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me after breaking my morning skinny with 150 cals

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Why are these new scars so light??

#vent blog #mentally fucked #self h@rm #self mutalition #baby cvts #I don’t go deep but they still leave SOME kind of scar #fml #self h4rm #tw s3lf harm #s3lf mutilation #tw self h4rm #cvtaddict #i want to cvt #cvtt!ng

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Oh shut up stomach, you literally have so much fat that you can eat if you are hungry, leave me alone 😀

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Fml when is it my turn to get a partner who will cut me? Am I asking too much? smh 🥲

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No, you don't understand how it feels to wish for death while blowing out the candles on your birthday cake

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Cvt on my dominant arm today, clean skin is sooo satisfying to cvt but I hate that I'm ruining more and more of my body.

I remember being 14 and only cvtting my left thigh making sure to keep everything in one place, and then tonight I sl1t the shit out of both legs and both arms, calf, thigh, shoulder, wrist?? Everywhere?

Kinda hurts, mentally. Like?? Why do I do this to myself