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"So hold your head up high and know it's not the end of the road Walk down this beaten path before you pack your things and head home At the end of the road you'll find what you've been longing for I know 'cause my feet have the scars to show I was lost with vague direction and no place to call home It's time for you to press on This is not your war Set your sights to North and press on This is not your escape Wash way what they thought of you Because in this place, we're all as good as dead ...end cycle... Behind the mask you'll find yourself alone It's not the end of road for you"

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This song… Is so fucking fitting. Considering life, living out of my car, working a worthless job, no place and no one to call my own.

“Street signs, so many street signs pass me by every night and I know tomorrow I won’t recognize the world Home bound, but I want to be home now Two more months of empty faces standing there screaming up at me And I don’t know why I wanna go home, I wanna sleep in my own bed I want a normal life again Is this the end? Is this the end? No matter how hard I try, all I know is the road All I know is the road Save me, can anyone save me? I don’t know who I am anymore This was supposed to be the dream You don’t see the pain in my eyes? You don’t hear the pain in my words? I’m just stuck here cold and alone with no one beside me And I wanna go home I wanna go home, I wanna sleep in my own bed I want a normal life again Is this the end? Is this the end? No matter how hard I try, all I know is the road All I know is the road And you wonder why I’m out of my mind And you wonder why I’m out of my mind I wanna go home, I wanna sleep in my own bed I want a normal life again Is this the end? Is this the end? I wanna go home, I wanna sleep in my own bed I want a normal life again Is this the end? Is this the end? No matter how hard I try, all I know is the road All I know is the road”

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Send me home - Asking Alexandria

"A stranger to most, but everyone knows his name The city he wakes up in is never the same It gets hard to count the days with only stars to lead the way And in his heart of gold he knows this has to change So send me home I have lost my way And I don't even know if we'll make it through today Take another step, take another breath I fill my lungs with the deepest of regrets And I don't know if I'll make it home again It gets a little harder day by day The loneliness is swallowing me I listen to the silence to hear what it might say Who will pick me up again? I need you here, I need a friend We'll get lost on time that's stolen So take my hand And send me home I have lost my way And I don't even know if we'll make it through today Take another step, take another breath I fill my lungs with the deepest of regrets And I don't know if I'll make it home again Take all that I've got All I need is one more moment I just have to end this torment Take all that I've got We'll get lost on time that's stolen Take my hand and lead me home again Just take my hand So send me home I have lost my way And I don't even know if we'll make it through today Take another step, take another breath I fill my lungs with the deepest of regrets And I don't know if I'll make it home again"

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Reverence

This, is my last day in my home, my apartment, this hell I chose to call home. There is much packing, even more throwing away of the old and gone. I keep finding so much regret, and pain within things that I had sat away, so I would not have to deal with them in my ever present mask of psycho-motor retardation. I chose this, I put myself here, every heavy regret that I have brought along the way.  “No sympathy for the devil; keep that in mind. Buy the ticket, take the ride...and if it occasionally gets a little heavier than what you had in mind, well...maybe chalk it up to forced consciousness expansion: Tune in, freak out, get beaten.” So I may be homeless by the end of this day, I have had a lot going through my mind in the last few days, much of what is on my mind is my fear of the unknown in what may happen to me and my best friend, Nero. Somehow I find the strength to muster on, keep packing and sorting, tossing away what has become dead weight.   Though in my deep surprise, is in every little now and then, when I come across something... unexpected... and piece by piece I began to reassemble, my simple inspirations of the past, my previous passions and fires... and even some of my dreams, pieces of who I was, or hoped to become, long though passed and gone forever, an immeasurable solitude and quiet yet desperate solace.   So what does it all mean, what now, what comes next, I see my foundation becoming whole, the basic core of every fundamental straw of who I am or who I was to become, regaining ground, as every tiny piece of strength I hold in my hand, placed into the pockets which once held burdens and sorrows, what next?... Well who really ever knows... but into that dark night I will walk, a little taller, and more secure, without ever really knowing if it will be okay. I think the thing is, we have to do our best, to secure that future, and make every little thing be as okay as we can, because if we don’t... then tell me, in the end, who will?

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“ In this place co-op space I can't stand another man around my oxygen I know I hate myself and probably everybody else In this taste the right taste when you wish that they would welcome you with open arms I know I hate heartbreak and I want to be there when it caves So why do I always feel like I'm not someone sabotage myself One car garage, I'm not waking up I've taped it up to go Where I feel like no one else is watching One car garage, am I giving up I'm tangled up in hope But I feel like someone else's coffin I dissipate and I'm late, I've got people on the other side of holy gates I know I hate myself and probably everybody else But I've got some reasons why I feel like I'm alone in a solo show. I'm a broken home And I want my body gone but I don't want to hurt no one So why do I always feel like I'm not someone sabotage myself One car garage, I'm not waking up I've taped it up to go Where I feel like no one else is watching One car garage, am I giving up I'm tangled up in hope But I feel like someone else's coffin I smile feel it, I sink and sleep I'm giving in but it's not enough I'm not enough And I can't last another minute in a broken tomb I know I hate myself and probably everybody else One car garage, I'm not waking up I've taped it up to go Where I feel like no one else is watching One car garage, am I giving up I'm tangled up in hope But I feel like someone else's coffin “

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“ Good morning day Sorry I’m not there But all my favourite friends Vanished in the air It’s hard to fly when you can’t even run Once I had the world, but now I’ve got no one If I needed someone to control me If I needed someone to hold me down I would change my direction And save myself before I If I needed someone to control me If I needed someone to push me around I would change my direction And save myself before I drown….drown Good morning day Sorry you’re not here All those times before We’re never this unclear It’s hard to walk when you can’t even crawl Once I had this world, but now I’ve lost it all If I needed someone to control me If I needed someone to hold me down I would change my direction And save myself before I If I needed someone to control me If I needed someone to push me around I would change my direction And save myself before I drown Rolling faster than I’m breathing Drown Rolling faster than I’m breathing Drown Rolling faster than I’m breathing If I needed someone to control me If I needed someone to hold me down I would change my direction And save myself before I If I needed someone to control me If I needed someone to push me around I would change my direction And save myself before I (Save myself before I drown, save myself before I drown, save myself before I drown) “

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“ I could be mean I could be angry You know I could be just like you I could be fake I could be stupid You know I could be just like you You thought you were standing beside me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you You thought you were there to guide me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you You thought you were there to guide me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you I could be cold I could be ruthless You know I could be just like you I could be weak I could be senseless You know I could be just like you You thought you were standing beside me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you You thought you were there to guide me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you You thought you were there to guide me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you On my own, cause I can't take living with you I'm alone, so I won't turn out like you Want me to You thought you were standing beside me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you You thought you were there to guide me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you You thought you were there to guide me You were only in my way You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you I could be mean I could be angry You know I could be just like you “

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“ I tried a thousand times to make you feel it Like the days when we had first met But I feel I never moved you What the fuck how did we forget? And in another life would it be different Would we do it all again? And at that would you tell me that you loved me? All alone why should I pretend? Gagged and bound You told me you broke down And I believed everything My love for you was logic drowned Round and round I came all the way down To tell you that I'm really here And I don't wanna waste my time Without you without me And I'm not being honest I get it back to get me off She did me dirty once before But now that's over I had it all in my hands Until you ripped it out again Let it go there's nothing left Underneath the masquerade You got me up all night I wake up in another room You wake up, you're never next to me Oh no, no, no And I'm coming home tonight But this house wasn't built for two If I let you have the rest of me, Would you tell me the truth? I tried a thousand times to make you feel it Like the days when we had first met But I feel I never moved you What the fuck how did we forget? And in another life would it be different Would we do it all again? And at that would you tell me that you loved me? All alone, why should I pretend? I put my trust in you like I had nothing to lose Now I'm all confused Tell me what to do Tell me what to do Tell me what to do I had enough I'm through I put my trust in you I had nothing to lose Tell me what to do with that said I never wanna see you again It feels so flawless The summer in august when we fell in love Looking back remember when we first met The morning dove into my soul made of gold. No How could you be so thoughtless? My lover my goddess I was so in love with How could you be so faithless? Ignore dedication I showed her through Without you without me And I'm not being honest I get it back to get me off She did me dirty once before But now that's over I had it all in my hands Until you ripped it out again Let it go there's nothing left Underneath the masquerade, death [2x] “

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See the NOAA Mission Data on TropicalTidbits.

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“ Just try to keep in mind Life is too short to be wasting all your time So sick of playing this game of follow the leader And it seems the world is held together by the same strings that tug our hearts And they twist and they pull and get tangled up And it seems we're all so stuck in this normal way of living You aren't taught to follow your dreams American standard The future's as bright as it seems There's evil in this world even if you don't see it You have to look a little closer You have to lend me your ears And just try to keep in mind Life is too short to be wasting all my time Obsessed and terrified We're the ones who control our lives So sick of playing this game, FUCK So sick of playing this game You want truth I can't tell you what is real on that shining box you call a life I refuse, I resist to live this way Solve or be solved, walk the walk Follow the leader Follow your leader I refuse, I resist to live this way Will you find your own way? Follow the leader Follow your leader I refuse, I resist to live this way Will you find your own way? Just try to keep in mind Life is too short to be wasting all your time [x2] And just try to keep in mind, life is too short to be wasting all my time Obsessed and terrified We're the ones who control our lives [x2] Just try to keep in mind Life is too short to be wasting all my time We're the ones who control our lives Yeah, we're the ones who control our lives “

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One sleeps, the other guards

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“ You're all I have. You're all I have. I can't decide If I love it or hate it. Now it's a part of me. Warmer now, I feel you within me. It keeps creeping deeper. It's not something you can prepare for. I tried to fight it off, You kept pulling me in. I think I found that 'one in a million,' And I can't breathe. You're all I have, And I haven't trusted anyone. Finding out feeling isn't easy. You're all I have. This is more than I deserve, I know. I've just go to believe. You didn't seem to care When I distanced myself, So here's the real me. You didn't seem to notice When I looked away, You wanted to show me how to believe. How to believe. You're all I have, And I haven't trusted anyone. Finding out feeling isn't easy. You're all I have. This is more than I deserve, I know. I've just go to believe. Feelings are a deadly thing. When you fail, You give yourself to something. You may never know what it's like To lose everything. If I lost you, I'd lose everything. Give yourself and you'll start to believe. That there was meaning, That you can trust what you see. Give yourself and you'll start to believe. That there was meaning, That you can trust what you see. You're all i have. You're all I have, And I haven't trusted anyone. Finding out feeling isn't easy. You're all I have. This is more than I deserve, I know. I've just go to believe. You're all I have, This is more than I deserve. You're all I have. Feeling isn't easy, This is more than I deserve. You're all I have. You're all I have, And I haven't trusted anyone. Finding out feeling isn't easy. You're all I have. This is more than I deserve, I know. I've just go to believe. You're all I have. “

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oh my lord................................... god... what have you done................

Malachite

Locality:  Tonglushan Mine, Daye County, Huangshi, Hubei Province, China

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