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HELLO!!! it is i, e with my first muse! you’ll be able to find some quick stats, her intro & some connections under the cut!

Not everyone can say they’ve been to the Big Apple, but [ ALARA AYDEM ], a [ 30 ] year-old [ CIS WOMAN ] has lived in [ BROOKLYN ] for [ 12 YEARS ]. This is the city of dreams and [ SHE ] knows it, because they came to NYC to be an [ EVENT PLANNER ]. Well, that and as an [ EX-GIRLFRIEND ] to [ DEREK BISHOP ]. Living in the city means they meet all kinds of people, but everyone always seems to think they look like [ MELISA ASLI PAMUK ]. They even got away with free cab fare once because of it!

trigger warnings: drugs, abuse & overdose character psd credit: katzenx on deviantart

𝓺𝓾𝓲𝓬𝓴 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓽𝓼:

full name: alara deniz aydem

nicknames: al, ali, lar, lara

age: thirty

date of birth: february 15, 1992

gender: cis female

pronouns: she/her

romantic orientation: biromantic

sexual orientation: bisexual

occupation: event planner

𝓫𝓪𝓬𝓴𝓰𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭:

alara’s childhood wasn’t really easy. she never met her father, since he’s been in prison for as long as she could remember. as far as she knew, her mom wasn’t even sure if he was the father, but she needed a name to write down on the birth certificate so his was placed there. she never talked to him, or made any indication that she wanted a relationship with him.

her relationship with her mother, on the other hand, was something else entirely. when she was younger, alara’s mother loved dressing up. she was her mom’s personal little doll, and she loved it. she loved the attention, the doting her mother did on her.

however, as she grew up and became a woman, alara’s mother slowly started resenting her.

her mother was a beauty queen, the kind who constantly talked about the “old days” and how she could have been an actress if she just hadn’t gotten pregnant with alara

her mother liked to sleep around, and eventually, she started getting into the company of a prominent drug dealer back in their shitty little town

so her mother was now not just the local town whore, but she was also the resident drug addict whose house she almost sold just to buy another stash

alara swore that she’d never be like her mother. she’d been working for as long as she could remember and had been saving up, so as soon as she graduated high school, she moved as far away as she could, all the way to new york city and she never looked back

with her high school grades, she was able to get a partial scholarship, so that meant she was working while getting her degree

a few years after graduating college, she caught the eye of a businessman named kyle. now, kyle here didn’t seem to be at first (since he seemed so charming and all about her) but eventually showed his true colors as an abusive asshole.

he (sometimes) physically & (always) emotionally abused her to the point that there was a lot of self-hatred there, and when she finally got the support she needed to get away from him, she did something she swore she would never do -- drugs.

she never wanted to be like her mother, but the high was the only thing stopping her from hating herself. it became a coping mechanism every single time she wondered how she could have reached such a low point in her life, which was often

it got so bad that she was rushed to the hospital one night because she suffered an overdose, and it definitely put things into perspective. she vowed to get clean, and has been clean since.

𝓹𝓮𝓻𝓼𝓸𝓷𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓽𝔂:

she’s incredibly loyal; loyal to a fault. if you’re her friend then you’re her friend for life because she knows how rare true friends are. she’ll drop everything and anything if you need her by your side

however, she’s also going to expect the same thing from you. if you disappoint her and leave her hanging when she needs you, there’s a 99.94% chance she’ll never forgive you.

she has a tendency to bottle it all up – all her emotions, her frustrations, her needs – until it all explodes in everyone’s faces (and that’s not a pretty sight)

she’s definitely a cynic when it comes to love now. none of her relationships had been successful, and it caused her to look at the notion of love with disdain

she doesn’t like to talk about herself that much, and she will most definitely not talk about her past with just anyone

she can be abrasive at times, definitely temperamental

if the saying “trying her best” was a person, that would be her tbh

𝓯𝓾𝓷 𝓯𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓼:

an absolutely shitty driver. probably shouldn’t have gotten her license tbh

absolutely cannot live without coffee. you do NOT wanna talk to her before she’s gotten a cup of it in the morning

definitely a type a personality

organized to a fault

talk about sitcoms and she’s your girl. new girl, friends, how i met your mother, the office, b99, etc. she LOVES those shows a lot

𝓹𝓸𝓼𝓼𝓲𝓫𝓵𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓷𝓮𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼:

THE ABSOLUTE RIDE OR DIE - best friends since pretty much forever. got the friendship bracelets she still has and everything. the person she told everything to. every fear, every dream, every little detail, every gossip about the famous people she works with!!

CLOSE FRIENDS - people she would take a bullet for, and can talk to about anything. they meet up regularly to catch up on each other’s lives and usually go to the same parties.

FLIRTATIONSHIP - just someone who she can flirt with a bit, and they flirt back, and they don’t really know if there’s anything more there but they don’t really wanna stop with the flirting?

PREVIOUS TOXIC RELATIONSHIP - they both know they’re no good for each other but they kept coming back to each other, even if it’s just to hook up for a night. they swore up and down that nothing’s happening between them, though, until all communication was lost when one of them decided to end things.

EXES THAT ARE ON GOOD TERMS - they knew it was never going to amount to anything, but they enjoy each other’s company, and hold no ill will that things between the two of them didn’t work out.

EXES THAT ARE ON BAD TERMS - their relationship’s end was met with animosity, possibly a lot of fighting prior to one or both of them officially ending things.

PREVIOUS OR CURRENT TOXIC FRIENDSHIP - they’re nice to each other’s faces but once the other’s back is turned, the backstabbing begins. they’re not callous enough to not help when the other is in need, but both would definitely think twice before helping the other out.

PREVIOUS BAD INFLUENCE - someone who’d convince her to go out and party and drink when they should be studying, urging them to take the decisions that probably aren’t for the best

FRIENDS FROM BACK HOME - they come from the same shitty small town and how they ended up in new york as well is completely up to you!

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS - everyone needs a bit of a release and these two have an understanding that there’s nothing more there, just a mutual & beneficial relationship with no strings attached

i’m more than happy to brainstorm some more connections!

#enyc.intro #drugs tw #overdose tw #abuse tw

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