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take his ass to the timeloop

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who wants to give me rheir credit card so i can get an amazon free trial

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before the poll, a quick definition of terms:

"mutual" - you found this post from a mutual (on their blog or your dash) "following" - you found this post from someone you're following, but who isn't following you "random" - you found this by scrolling through someone's blog, who you don't follow. this includes people following you "For You" - you found this on the For You page "recommended" - you found this in a "Check out these blogs" popup, or a "recommended" post when looking at a different post "other" - you found this post some other way. comment how? "reblog ✅" - you're going to reblog, queue, or schedule this post "reblog ❌" - you're NOT going to reblog, queue, or schedule this post

with that out of the way:

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I understand the "I will die for you" ship dynamic, but what about the "I will not let you die, I will not let myself die- we will, at any cost, survive" kind of couple?

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I got bored. I made a thing. Take my quiz

Scuggies

#I got survivor :D #rain world

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every character playlist has the

-song where the lyrics are disturbingly on the nose

-song that doesnt suit the character but you havent taken it out cuz its a banger

-bad song that stays because it suits the character so good

-last five songs that may or may not stay depending on whether or not they pass the test of sitting in the list for a week

-oleander by mother mother

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Quick vent

Sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough.

Not bad, but not good either.

Just the most mediocre person ever, I have no specialty, nothing I'm specifically known for, I'm just... there

It's a downside of being a jack of all trades, your a master of none

#vent

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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

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reblog this if you want anonymous opinions of you

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Apply rain to world!

Replace rin with slugpups

It is now raining slugpups

AAHHH!!

just kidding. i live above the clouds lol

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#I FOUND IT!!!!! #YOOOOOO!!!!! #NO WAY #if you move SLOWER than my running speed you are g one

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@voldkat what have you done to me i've been listening to Creo - Crazy on loop while I work on asks XD

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reblog to slowblink at your mutuals

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I'm gonna be honest, I wanted to do this one for a while...

But I rushed it.

Original under cut

#rain world #rain world downpour #shitpost #rw rivulet #rw five pebbles #rainworld

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"You. I dont like you."

[pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [throws a spear at your head] [completely misses and hits a batfly instead] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [throws a spear] [misses again] [throws a spear] [misses again] [throws a spear] [misses again] [throws a spear] [misses again] [pelts you with rocks [throws a spear] [misses again] [throws a spear] [misses again] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [pelts you with rocks] [throws a spear] [misses again] [throws a bomb] [everything in the room is obliterated]