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Between Ruikasa, Rui is clingy more often (he cannot go a day without holding Tsukasa's hand or getting a few cuddles or he Will die), but when it hits for Tsukasa it hits hard. If he's sick or had a bad day he will not let Rui go, doing everything to stay by his side.

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Rui has a really bad habit of slouching, once Tsukasa doesn't have to look up to make eye contact with him he has to scold him to stand up straight

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Rui's parents are good parents who love and support their son in all his endeavors and I think Rui would be really open towards them. Especially after joining Wondershow.

Anyways, Rui's mom asked if she could use Rui's phone and Rui's like "Sure"

She ended up needing to open the gallery, asked him, and he's like "yeah I don't mind"

What he forgets is that he had walls and walls of Tsukasa Tenma photos. His poses, him passing out after a day of practice, him admiring something, him mid rehearsal, etc. Just him too.

As he comes to the sudden realization, his mom is already looking at him expectantly.

Rui: (it clicks) "Mom wait oh n-"

Rui's Mom: "..."

Rui: "...I can explain"

That's the first time Rui's mom actually saw Tsukasa instead of just hearing about him. She gets tempted to tease him, but Rui's a full blown wreck at this point, snatching his phone away and curling up in the corner of the couch.

It's so much like his middle school behavior, but for such a different reason. She can't help but smile.

She just goes up to her son, pats his head, and just whispers "You can do it!" to him before leaving.

...Rui ate his veggies for dinner without much complaint that night. His mother just laughs while his father is over there like "Huh. What. What happened. Is everything ok?? Rui are you actually EATING your carrots??!?"

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🃏Today's Miku figure is:🃏

Re-Ment Secret Wonderland ver. 7cm (2023)

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"I love you , I'm glad we're friends"

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Me every morning: “Where THE FUCK did my pilot G2 07 pen GO”

because i like to keep one in my pocket at all times outside of my house

#pilot pen #pilot g2 07 #actually neurodiverse #actually autistic #comfort item

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Customer: YOU FOOL DMV: CONFRONTATIONAL Verdict: DENIED

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GOING CRAZY?!?!? I WANNA READ THE WHOLE THING?!?!? NO ONE CAN STOP ME ?!??!?!

what the fuck did I just download

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crows return (soon

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Geniuenly like. So many people claim support disability. But then say something completely untrue

Y’all support autism? So what about when the person has intellectual disability or need help walk talk eat bath use bathroom? Does your support end when you see someone with higher needs?? Someone who actually genuinely won’t survive without support from others n that support is sometimes having other people do everything for them.

Y’all support depression? What about when the person can’t bring themself to get out of bed for days on end? What about when that person goes days weeks months without cleaning self because can’t get up even though need to?

Yall support schizo-spec disorders & psychosis? What about what the person get violent because of their delusions n hallucinations? The ones know are fake but still can’t help but believe in? The ones genuinely believe in their delusions/ hallucinations? What about the ones don’t don’t get violent to self n other because of the disorder? Those that just sit scared about the hallucinations n delusions. The ones that won’t leave their room/ house out of fear of their delusions/ hallucinations?

Y’all support those with physical disabilities? What about the housebound bedbound ones? The ones need gait trainers walkers wheelchairs? What about the ones who full time users? Or the ones that need power chairs to independently move around? What about the ones crying screaming throwing up from their pain?

What about the disabled that always have a horrible attitude because tired of yhr disrespect? Tired of having to explain everything about them to everyone even if personal? Tired being told get over it n just educate others?

The disabled ones tired telling people not use certain terms. Tired of being spoken over n for without being thought about or asked. Tired of hearing their communication isn’t valid for ‘xyz’

Y’all support but act very picky about who deserves support and who’s not worthy of it. It’s not support if you pickin n choosing

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fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

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fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

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fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

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This may be the worst one of these I have ever made