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Being overstimulated is such a weird thing to explain to people. Like "hey sorry, I'm not mad at you and this is nobody's fault and I'm not blaming anyone for it happening, I am aware this is a part of regular everyday life but I am mentally crumbling because There Have Been Things Happening nonstop for 5 hours straight back to back with no breaks, and I really need to sit down in complete silence for like 15-25 minutes, after which I will be completely fine and can proceed as normal. But if I'm not allowed to have that, I will resort to violence."

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I miss being with someone who accepts me

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When will it be my turn, for someone to look after me?

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It's not an easy year but we made it through. I'm so proud of us💕

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It's too much to ask to be allowed to feel things, I'm expecting too much by wanting empathetic responses all the time and validation, I'm demanding and high maintenance, I'm asking too much all the time, my existence is asking too much.

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6 days later, back in the same place.

I tried all day to stop the day from being ruined. I tried stopping the argument before it started, I tried acknowledging while saying I don't hold the same opinion, I tried responding to the concerns with practical change, I tried carrying on somewhat like normal, I tried sitting with and comforting and reassuring, I tried apologising

I tried I tried I tried.

For what? Probable migraine as usual. Sleeping in different beds. Nastiness and misery all day.

Why am I bothering? I feel like I'm trying so hard but really the only way to not have this happen is if I shut up and submit, there is no way of holding different opinions and being okay in this household. Everything is okay until I do something he doesn't agree with or I say something wrong. I can't physically do everything 'right' all the time.

I'm so tired. I feel like I'm in an unhealthy relationship. K used to call him abusive sometimes. They used to fight constantly. C and I rarely fought over the past few years. Am I the problem? I really don't know. I was really trying today to fix things, resolve things, make things better..

Not trying hard enough I guess.

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the crushing guilt of being unproductive vs the exhaustion of being burned out. fight.

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Well that's a mixed bag 😂

someones probably already done this but

put in the tags the first thing that comes up when you type:

a

b

c

d

i'll go first

#anger #bored #cuteness #dying

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Images that you would probably not see again @thoughtstherapy

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I'm tired of feeling tired

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If I could remove myself and make you happy, I would.