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cell phone lot

here we wait for arrivals, goodbyes

for airplanes to land, sleep in our eyes

a parking lot or a rocket ship?

i’d vote for the space craft, the way it made time slip

were those engines in my ears or was it the ocean?

you’d think i was crazy, for all it set in motion

the way i felt, what a surprise

at least that’s what i thought, as we watched the sunrise

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C E L L P H O N E L O T

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Fal: I was tiny and you loved me

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“The ground shakes and it’s loud. Warfare could be louder, but this is the loudest totally good thing you will ever hear. The loudest good thing you will ever feel.“

#Spotify

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🖤

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H O M O H O N E Y

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2022

T A S K S

- [ ] Patriarchs and Prophets [January 16]

- [ ] Purchase Land from Jer

- [ ] House plans

- [ ] Meal in Bentonville with Ladies

- [x] Schedule Pap, Wisdom Teeth

- [x] Sell house

- [x] Fletch Artifact Uprising

- [x] Teton Trip Artifact Uprising

- [x] Alligator tattoos

- [x] Superintendent [January]

- [x] No TV [January 14]

- [x] iMac Computer Photos

- [x] Make Bath Bombs

- [x] 990 Postcard [January]

H O U S E

- [x] Touch up grey

- [x] Touch up white

- [x] Painting ceiling for leaks

- [x] Front door

- [x] Carpet

- [x] Trim inside

- [x] Back lightbulb

- [x] Email [email protected]

B O O K S

- [ ] Live No Lies

- [ ] William J. Seymour

- [ ] Paul, the Spirit, and the People of God

- [ ] The Rise and Triumph of the Modern Self

- [ ] Life Together

- [x] The Goldfinch

- [x] The Gifts of Imperfection

T R A V E L

- [ ] Karo + Sarah [October]

- [x] Moon River [September]

- [x] Chattanooga [February]

R I T U A L S

- [ ] Morning Routine [row, shower, P&P]

- [ ] Work routine [vitamins, water, swings, 2 pgs a day]

- [ ] Nightly routine [facewash, brush teeth, meds]

- [ ] Sabbath [no TV, organizing, escapes]

- [ ] TV in Moderation [Sundays or with friends or during productivity]

- [ ] Invest Deeply in Friendship [listen, send mail, set chat times, visit]

C O M P A S S & W E I G H T O F G L O R Y

- [ ] Foster system of teachers to work in my stead

- [ ] WoG $34k in a year [2k a month + 10k read a thon]

- [x] Winter Read-a-thon [February]

- [x] WoG long sleeve shirts

- [x] Update donors

B U C K E T L I S T I D E A S

- [ ] Enneagram Certification [enneagram coaching certification, intigrative9, CP Enneagram Academy]

- [ ] Classroom by Bible Project

- [ ] Hell Study – video and book

- [ ] Apocrypha / Deuterocanon

- [ ] Complete Works of C.S. Lewis

- [ ] Missional Life Course

- [ ] The Incredible Years

- [ ] Assumption Abby

- [ ] Complete works of George McDonald [Phantasies, Princess & the Goblin, Sir Gibbie]

- [ ] Memorize Sermon on the Mount

- [ ] The Brothers Karamazov

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You took the first slice of me and you ate it raw

Ripped it in with your teeth and your lips like a cannibal

You fucking animal

I can still taste you and it kills me

That there's still some sick part of it that thrills me

That my own body keeps betraying me

There is such power there, it may destroy me

But it compels me

Of course I deny it

Can hardly believe it

Dismiss or demean it

'Cause I know I can't speak it

But when I began to tell

It became thе hardest thing I ever said out loud

Thе words got locked in my throat

Man, I choked

#Spotify #megsmixedtape

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April 2022

September 2022

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I used to be a human being

“You held a certain fascination when you were beautiful, delicate, and untouched. But now you’re like one of the Arabians my father used to own: Rode hard and put away wet. I don’t want you now and I don’t see why anyone else would.”

Chuck Bass, Gossip Girl

i like my body when it is with your

body. It is so quite new a thing.

Muscles better and nerves more.

“your hair still smells like lice but it smells like you which I think is nice. And that’s really fucked up.”

or if your wish be to close me, 

i and
 my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly,


as when the heart of this flower imagines


the snow carefully everywhere descending;

her: you want coffee?

me: yeah sure!

her: what kind?

me: whatever you think!

her: we can just surprise you?

me: yes! That’s the kinda surprises I like!

“I think I like it for the exclusivity. Maybe that’s a metaphor.”

(Me on why I like Casey’s Mountain Dew)

I'm feeling sacred, my soul is stripped

Radio's painful, the words are clipped

The grief, it gets me, and the weird goodbyes

My car is creepin', I think it's dying

I'm pullin' over until it heals

I'm on a shoulder of lemon fields

“You have a WWJD bracelet. What does that mean? This is not what Jesus would do!

#words

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R.I.P.