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#did #dissociative identity disorder #did memes #yup this is a real conversation i had

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#i would not like to make or see the prequel though preferably

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having c-ptsd be like: *dissociates* *feels a breakdown nearing* *tries to distract* *procrastinates* *breaks down so bad you can’t move afterwards* *has a nightmare* *wakes up in cold sweat and crying* *stays in bed all day but still exhausted and everything hurts* *worries about future* *gets triggered* *can’t figure out if something bad is happening right now or all the stress is from the past* *has intrusive thoughts that induce guilt* *gets anxiety attack* *they’re coming they’re coming* *has a flashback* *considers telling someone and decides it’s too much to handle* *isolates* *considers self harm* *just let me get thru these next few hours*

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(TW ED & SH Topics)

Well... L’s decided that she wants to lose weight, and that she’ll do that by not eating at and getting angry at anyone else who does.

I’ve been trying to keep up with some eating but she snapped and cut in retaliation (in the most painful manner she could without actual danger). Don’t really know what to do about that.

#kel posts #food mention #tw self harm #tw eating disorder

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We’ve got one that shows up for McDonalds fries too!! Except he wants his own lol

tell me the stupidest thing that summons one of your alters to front!

i’ll go first: i have an alter who gets summoned to front when we eat fried rice

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Me: *sneezes differently*

Me: … who’s there?

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When you start unlocking repressed memories in therapy:

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therapist: how was your week?

me: mm.. i can’t remember

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Host: My head hurts.

Alter: Mine too lol. Small world.

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Pretending to be the host and getting caught is weird. On one hand its validating because someone sees you and that feels good. On the other hand, oh fuck, someone sees you!

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person: are you a boy or a girl?

me: depends on who you’re talking to

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Being my friend

Buy one get ten free!

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*mean girls meme voice* oh my god Karen, you can’t just ask people why they’re multiple

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its so weird going to counseling and shit and having to say you were “triggered” unironically after the internet and popular culture has completely fucking dismantled and destroyed a legitimate term in psychology 

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