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｡･:*:･ﾟ☆  Short update!  ｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

//Again, sorry about my absence!  I’m still no better. Doctors are not helpful, my naprapath have been the one with the most success in helping me so far.  And the my cat got suddenly ill. I’m willing to say things are not going too well for me right now. I truly appreciate your patience with me!

#;;ooc

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Portrait of Wincenty Rapacki as Hamlet (1870) by Karol Miller (Polish, 1835-1920)

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#honestly if i was around more id love to diskuss my thoughts on skill in magic absolutely not being hereditary #why i think being a great witch or wizard because one or both of your parents was is kind of bullshitty #but i dont have the energy for it #and my cat have been sick this week so my mood have reached a new bottom #;;ooc

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｡･:*:･ﾟ☆  Short update!  ｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

//Again, sorry about my absence!  I’m still no better. Doctors are not helpful, my naprapath have been the one with the most success in helping me so far.  And the my cat got suddenly ill. I’m willing to say things are not going too well for me right now. I truly appreciate your patience with me!

#;;ooc

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A few, maybe poorly chosen words from me before I disappear into my sleepless void again (i have slept 60h these past 4 weeks yaaaaaaaay):

TEENAGERS CAN BE FU**ING AWFUL, MEAN AND STUPID.

They can treat themselves, and others badly. Even when they have good grades, good and loving family, safe and secure and healthy, they can end up doing bad shit and acting in ways that are unacceptable and can be for reasons very far away from bad parenting or troubled mental health.  They might realize it and try to mend their mistakes or ways. Sometimes they had to be told it’s wrong, and then fix it, or don’t.  They can be entitled, arrogant and impulsive.  Of course, adults can be this way too, but this is about how teenagers can be so goddamn scary!!

#i've repressed most of my teenage years because of the terrible things teenagers are capable of doing #even teenagers who clearly had no idea they were harming me #and all over the place i just see teenagers terrifying me with the horrible things they can say and do. intentionally or #not or because of a mislead impulse or fear or whatever #of course there are those who doesn't fulfill all these criteria #but really. teenagers scare me. #AND TEENAGERS WITH WANDS SCARE ME TOO #and i roll my eyes at anyone who claims the hogwarts kids are pure cinnamon rolls #whos faults can ALL be traced back to their upbringing or external influence #because i call such bullshit on that tbh #teenage brains are weird #;;ooc

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Places of the Wizarding World

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Armani 2015

#;; Handmade by yours truly {Lydia's creations and wardrobe} #;;q

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#;;A house in the outskirts of Hogsmeade called Hamcoll {Home} #;;q

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tenderness

#;;aesthetic {loved the stars} #;;q

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｡･:*:･ﾟ☆  Short update!  ｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

I went to see a doctor, a physiotherapist to be precise, because that’s what was recommended to me. He just told me he couldn’t find any reason for my restless legs, nothing related to my back-pain anyway.  Of course, at the time I was very tired and I always get flustered and ramble a lot when at the doctors, so I didn’t question why he didn’t send me to take any blood-samples when we know I’ve suffered different deficiencies in the past that can cause the restless leg. He just told me to keep doing what I have been doing (stretches and exercises that only deal with the sensation while I’m doing them) sent me to a specific doctor who just helps you “deal with things” (pain, sleeplessness, anxiety etc).  And now that I’ve had proper time to process, I’m pissed.  I don’t want to accept this until we’ve eliminated the things it could possibly be! So I’ve made an appointment for a phone call with a doctor to try and make them give me a time to leave blood-samples and check the values in it. 

So...no improvement yet...

#not so short update but that's it #;;ooc

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#;;aesthetic {loved the stars} #;;q

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#;;aesthetic {loved the stars} #v; 2nd wizarding war {assurance} #;;q

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magical papers - The Daily Prophet

#;;q #;;Be a voice not an echo {Medora} #;;inspiration

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I think I just want another excuse to imagine Lydia in pretty dresses and extravagant environments tbh

I want weird royalty/nobility au even though I at this stage can't make sense of it I just want it don't judge me

#its self care do not judge #;;ooc

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I fear I'll have to call a temporary semi-hiatus.

Whatever it is that's causing my restless legs and back pain, it's enough to make me sleep about 2 hours a night and making me unable to sit still. I can't rest because of my leg. I don't have the energy to do anything because I can't rest.

I can't focus, my creativity is at the bottom.

I'll be seeing a doctor this Tuesday, hopefully he can help me figure out what's up and maybe get me something to help me sleep.

Until then, I'm afraid you might not see much of me. I have some replied drafted and qeued and I will try to reply to messages best can. But I won't be on too much.

I'll see you when I can sleep and sit still for 15 minutes straight again. Love you. Stay safe.

#and to people waiting for plotting and starters. i have to respectfully ask for your continued patience with me #i want to interact with you i promise #im just very tired and in a lot of pain atm. ill get back to you as soon as i feel better!! i promise! #;;ooc

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Aquarius Hufflepuff Moodboard:  Aquarians who are sorted into House Hufflepuff are introverted, but not shy; march to the beat of a different drummer, but don’t wear their weirdness like a flag; socially minded, but highly critical of society. Confused? So are the Hufflepuff Aquarians, but they tend to sort things out eventually. Their minds lean toward the practical side of things - they’d rather invent new and useful spells or gadgets than dwell for hours in hot air theory - and the solutions they find to common problems are brilliantly on target. They like people and want to get along well with everybody, but are uncomfortable with intimacy; so they have lots of acquaintances but few close friends. They have the ability to laugh at most any situation.

#yeah? #thats pretty much lyds? #;;hufflepuff {Tag pending} #;; musings

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｡･:*:･ﾟ☆  Lydia aesthetic #3454 || → Mid to late teens ||   ｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

✧･ﾟ Poofy but crisp white shirts with rolled up sleeves tucked into worn jeans ✧･ﾟ Smudges of charcoal from pens on her face ✧･ﾟ Sitting cross-legged on tables when no one’s around ✧･ﾟ Wearing hair loose less often ✧･ﾟ A thimble in every pocket ✧･ﾟMended socks and stockings ✧･ﾟFinding old buildings and ruins reclaimed by nature ✧･ﾟ Howling wind in chimney✧･ﾟ Astronomy club on Wednesday evenings ✧･ﾟ Diplomatic ✧･ﾟ Climbing up trees or large rocks to sit there for hours ✧･ﾟ Trying to hide the emotions on her sleeve ✧･ﾟ Braided crown that’s gone messy throughout the day ✧･ﾟ Spotless clothing but ink-stained fingers ✧･ﾟPricked and raw fingers from sewing needles ✧･ﾟThe latest publishing of ‘Stitching and spells’ or ‘Witch weekly’ in her bag ✧･ﾟ

✧･ﾟ Bright eyes though usually looking a bit pale and tired ✧･ﾟJasmine or rose oil scent on neck and wrists ✧･ﾟ Dried meadow flowers ✧･ﾟLeaning into your touch ✧･ﾟ Stars ✧･ﾟ Lose pieces of thread stuck to robes ✧･ﾟDesire to travel ✧･ﾟ Frugally Fashionable ✧･ﾟ Swimming on rainy days ✧･ﾟ Slightly too long and sharp canines ✧･ﾟ Very animated body-language when excited or she thinks nobody is watching ✧･ﾟ Using work and studying as a distraction ✧･ﾟ Short well kept nails ✧･ﾟCarrying books in hands because bag is full of other things ✧･ﾟ Umbrellas and sitting in the shade on sunny days ✧･ﾟScribbled stars on anything she can get her hands on ✧･ﾟInnocence lost ✧･ﾟ Tea with lemon ✧･ﾟPlain sweaters in neutrals and cool colors ✧･ﾟConstantly losing bobby pins ✧･ﾟSnowy forests and mountains ✧･ﾟ creaking floorboards ✧･ﾟ Playing with thimble in class ✧･ﾟNightmares about being trapped in wildfires ✧･ﾟSalt ✧･ﾟ

✧･ﾟ Too much noise in crowds ✧･ﾟ Gold locket necklace ✧･ﾟAlto ✧･ﾟ Sorting letters in neat stacks by sender ✧･ﾟOld and weary-looking dress form ✧･ﾟScreaming into pillow ✧･ﾟ Dark eyes that penetrate your soul ✧･ﾟ Old chest filled with fabrics ✧･ﾟHugs ✧･ﾟ Wincing when you-know-who is named ✧･ﾟ taste of metal ✧･ﾟAll-nighters ✧･ﾟCrying because of poetry ✧･ﾟ Bringing a duvet to a chair by the fire and reading ✧･ﾟMost expensive possession is telescope ✧･ﾟ “ Sticks and stones…“ ✧･ﾟTends to take charge if nobody else does it first ✧･ﾟ Crowing cracks in relationships ✧･ﾟ Leather messenger bag with brass monogram ✧･ﾟ Staring in frustration at loose threads in other’s clothing ✧･ﾟAlone at home ✧･ﾟ Engaging eye-contact when threatened ✧･ﾟBirthmarks ✧･ﾟScratching her neck when focused and thinking ✧･ﾟFeeling betrayed ✧･ﾟ Purring cat ✧･ﾟ Lace up shoes and boots ✧･ﾟCopper pots, kettles and pans ✧･ﾟ Oval face ✧･ﾟPrefect’s badge ✧･ﾟHumming Celestina Warbeck songs ✧･ﾟSparse or no makeup ✧･ﾟ Dimple on right cheek ✧･ﾟ Willingly spending an unreasonable amount of time in the dungeons ✧･ﾟ Loves fashion ✧･ﾟShares food ✧･ﾟWaking up in panic ✧･ﾟ”Showing some basic respect and decency never killed anyone” ✧･ﾟAdmires people with integrity and personality ✧･ﾟ

✧･ﾟCandlelight and oil lamps ✧･ﾟ Robes of black or blue wool outside of school ✧･ﾟDoesn’t enjoy studying but does it very diligently never the less ✧･ﾟ Sneaking out at night because of sleeplessness ✧･ﾟEnamel mugs ✧･ﾟ Slightly lopsided smile ✧･ﾟ Appetite going from 0 to 100 quickly✧･ﾟ Lingering gazes   ✧･ﾟ Secret collection of small animal bones and shells ✧･ﾟ Confused loyalties ✧･ﾟCold breath at the break of a misty dawn ✧･ﾟHufflepuff ribbon in hair ✧･ﾟTouch-starved ✧･ﾟDIY or die ✧･ﾟNo longer caring much for Frog cards ✧･ﾟKnee length skirts ✧･ﾟSelectively organized ✧･ﾟ Stroking seams with fingers ✧･ﾟStanding up for others when she think’s it’s necessary ✧･ﾟ Still struggles somewhat with standing up for herself ✧･ﾟAdress-book always on her person ✧･ﾟ Blue and white striped dressing-gown ✧･ﾟChess board left in the middle of a game ✧･ﾟHats with wide brims ✧･ﾟWears socks to bed sometimes ✧･ﾟStar charts and constellations ✧･ﾟBuying old Vogue magazines in Muggle thrift shops ✧･ﾟScottish accent getting subtly heavier after summer ✧･ﾟBurning birch wood in a fireplace ✧･ﾟPlacing career advice pamphlets as bookmarks ✧･ﾟ Back and neck hurting after hours of sewing, drawing or pattern-making ✧･ﾟFutile attempts at using sunscreen to handle the sun ✧･ﾟ

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