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To be large is in charge right? Well that is what they say..

So sit back and just listen and I'll tell you my day. And you be the judge is that really the case?

As an oversized woman in this day in age I get glares and suggestions on how to lose weight.

How dare I feel comfy in this body I carry? Or find a a nice suitor id be LUCKY to marry.

Cause in this cruel world I'm a FETISH, I'm a friend without benefit no not to me? Cause right now your just not relationship ready.

See..

To others I have a pretty face.. so that's just enough, to have for a night or when things just get tough.

But what about Sarah you posted on snap.. With those roses... Heart emojis and all that nice stuff...

I just left your house and I mended those wounds that you needed to cry about.. you know that life can be hard about as hard as you are. So you ask if I'd mind helping you out?

So what is it? Why don't I amount?

Oh no it has not a thing to do with me... It's you. Things are really just heavy... Then you post that you have a girlfriend that at best weighs 120...

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My head is in the clouds.

While my shoulders hold the world.

And my back is dirt and rock.

When I feel the tumble my stone crumbles and I can barely walk.

My toes are bitten from the frost as they yearn for the warm wet sand.

My body will disassemble from my feet to to my temple made from my own hand.

I can put in the work till the sun sets and moon rises in the east.

But there are no suprises all that I disquise is the soul that I hold underneath.

If I don't take the time to let myself shine and bask in this life.

I'll lose what I'm worth on this place they called earth clung to its work and overlooking what to me is divine.

-Shavis Harris

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Yes it is harder to choose self love.

Yes that means many lonely nights and days.

But it also means turning you into your best company and spending days dedicated to what happiness means to you.

I don't not love those who I must part with but I love me first. And its okay that we have to part in order for me to progress.

Loving those who aren't good for you from a distance is the best way to move to your next chapter.

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I am yellow but you... You like red.

You are the bull, you cause chaos and destruction to reach the only color you see. Its easier for you to be locked in a cage than to ever be free.

You fight the black but it consumes you. You fear the white light because that means you must move.

How dare you embrace change, to embark in the new.

You lie in the dirt with rocks and worms while the birds poke and prod all taking their turns.

But I, I am too high, I'm up here with those birds while they take their flight.

I am change I am growth and I will never give in, I'm here to prove that I will not always win.... but I'll learn.

-Shavis Harris

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This is so good!!!

Journey With Me. 7.25.21 “One Handed Toss Is Not For You”

Double date disaster, Why do you let your temper steep Hotter and longer than any tea for her? You shout, you roar, you leap

Your ax it fails to meet A target other than by your feet You throw too fast and pull too quick Perhaps more than the wood is thick

Step up and tall Inhale, ax held high and let it fall From your hand, into the red So it may embed

Do you hold her hand so tight? Before you tussle in the night? As with her, sharp and bright Take it slow, and hold it light

While if your target might not be met My bill to yours, I’m sure to bet You’ll stick your target That way this won’t be a date to regret

What is the rush to strike out with axes When the one you are with might see her exes If the others are scared How well can you have fared?

Take it steady, Take it slow When you’re ready Then let go

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You know how everyone always says "We accept the love we think we deserve."

I am seeing that become more and more true every day.

At one point I was unemployed and a full time mother. I had all the time in the world to do whatever spontaneous act came my way.

I'd find mysellf in different situations all the time that although I didn't want to be in, it beat being alone.

Now that I have what I consider a career, somewhere I bust my behind for day in and day out....

I found myself weeding out so many people who brought me down, I left the places I would have been before, and I cut anything out that made me unhappy.

For the first time in my life I have chosen myself above all else.

I used to think that being by myself meant I was lonely. But now I am my best company. I would rather be alone than to be unhappy with anyone including partners, friends and family. And it's a road that isn't easy to travel along but its yellow brick and I am emerald baby.

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My language is physical.

You often ask me why it is I'm nice the answer being simple.

I give those what I want in return.

I crave a person like me every day.

I wish I had what you do. A me for me would be lovely. A person to hold my hand when things get kinda ugly.

Coming home to a soft hand to hold, and comfy chest to lay on.

A listening ear to the problems I face.

A me for me is what I have. I should think myself lucky. I being the only one to know just exactly how to love me.

-Shavis Harris

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I help you at the cost of myself time and time again.

No matter how bad still calling you friend.

I put myself back together and noticed something new.

I was wasting my time sitting with you.

From the blue lights, the broken glass and the lumps in your mattress.

I knew I could be so much more and move past this.

At first I was indignant with how that morning felt for me.

But now I feel better like I'm finally free.

I don't need your late night touch for a sense of relief.

-Shavis Harris

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The world throws a curve

More painful than last

No coping for you

Just moving right passed

You can lay yourself down

To catch a quick breath

But nothing at all prepares for the next

It hits like a bull with herculean horns

And stabs like a rose with vigorous thorns

Trying your hardest just trudging about

Hoping to God that you figure it out

Unknowing to you, you have all the power

To make something sweet thats nothing but sour

To flip a switch on the hurt seems fallacious I know

But you can't expel the rain and just get a rainbow

💔Shavis Harris☮

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I often wonder what its like

To be the girl who perplexes men

By simply existing

To be the constant record playing in his brain

To make him smile and bubbly inside

The one who needs no fixing

The one with aspirations and ideas of where she's going

Without any doubts thats what she wants

Just knowing

But I'm not, I'm the last his mind goes to when he's all alone

I'd be the one he calls when no one picks up the phone

I have an assortment of things I'd say I mildly excel in

When those ask me what I do nothing seems worth the telling

To make one a career would feel close to unrealistic

In the simplest of terms I'm just another statistic

💔Shavis Harris☮

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I'm at a loss, not for words

but my yellow its gone.

No hellos, no hugs, no goodbyes but just songs.

The melody helps my emotion

flow in ways that feel healthy,

even though there are days that feel like there's no help for me.

My memories feel weak even though they were recent.

But it haunts me always that none were that decent.

My mind won't let go of that you weren't okay and I didn't hear it,

Hidden in the mundane problems we go through I know now you mean it.

I wish now I would have taken it all much more seriously,

I'd take all the screams and tears if that meant you'd be here with me.

💔Shavis Harris☮

#art #poetry #loss #healing #music

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                              freestyling thoughts 

to all my enemies, sell a bit of that skin because your virginity will be taken

the hills have eyes but the snakes behind the lies i conned them like a wrap for you p-words

i go in the course to catch bear’s back

when i feel bad instead of bowing i just stand on the prayer mat

back on my psycho shit! when i try to sever the connection from the moon matrix connecting to my microchip

you don’t get where i’m going with this?  the bank because it’s nonsense

some of you never change even with a pen he got for the quarter

illuminati confirmed?  it’s a coin toss

but then i see all these new bots that cry in response to certain stimuli eerily obsessed with soy sauce

that’s when i look up at the sky and i’m like wtf? this is pointless

like who are these kids dressed in all black with severe muscle & bone loss?

stove’s on, i’m baking next-level shit but i’m probably going to end up shelving it because no one these days seem to have the attention span to understand what the even angle is let alone the hidden messages

like everyone on stage at once singing my new style is an acquire-d taste because my levels of consciousness have recently reached a higher state and i want to take you beautiful souls to that desired place beyond the iron gates of the matrix designed to keep you from desiring change with your fire blaze in the depth of your belly to fearlessly elevate to higher stakes and annihilate those fire gates

screaming love is dangerous in a world drowning in hate but i come in your blood like this shit is dope, i mean

not dope, dopamine i’m here to awake you from the devil’s scopolamine so you can see nuts and bolts of this whole machine and unlock your powers to manifest all your dreams

we have the war locked now which craft you need?

i hear the trumpets around the month sounds waves bouncing of the wall if one die mention nothing you heard of one, this is multidimensional in a parallel universe with ghosts free from the machines they haunt

cycle of life– do you care to sell your soul to escape the time loop and the foreign installation of the reincarnation hack or do you rather prefer to stay on the carousel?

you know why joker is the strongest card? because this life is a joke – you wake up in the morning, wait isn’t mourning death?  then you’re awake, isn’t going to a wake going to death?  langue-witch is another lie on top of other lies to trick your mind into cursing itself

ok pray to god, go to work, suit and tie what a façade  block your soles with your shoes, most live their life backwards now that’s evil just spell live backwards lost in the dark seas trying to find nemo answering cancer with chemo last  day as you’re lost here with heavy words

lost hair bald and the suffering used a source of sustenance for dark footsoldiers of the demiurge

drugs are illegal but they sell them as FDA-approved pills causing addiction epidemics but if you sell you’ll end up in jail trying to sell a bit to learn they don’t give a fuck

open your 3rd eye they’re trying to blind it with fluoride in your water supply – this year has been an expose as conspiracy theories as facts as all of this comes to light

if your 3rd eye is blind as window curtains Book of Eli – your eyes lie on your face and ICY why it’s cold

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Art by Zelyphia

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What a joker.

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