Like he loves her to the extent that he's ready to give up the part of him that wants to be with her ( and that's his whole being)
He yearns for her so much to the extent that he'll sacrifice everything for her
Sunjae taking up the "green flag" to new heights
And here in his shaky voice yet saying " what am I going to do with you?"
In a manner saying like " stop giving me heart attack like this, I CAN'T STOP THINKING OF YOU, EVEN WHEN I AM DOING MY SHIFT AT RESTAURANT, EVEN WHEN I AM WALKING HOME, EVEN WHEN I AM BREATHING, SOL AHHH YOU TAKE MY WHOLE SOUL AND ENCAPSULATED IT"
Few lines from the show which are kinda nice to read:
1. Love ain't that simple
2. Stay by my side and ill protect you
3. Even if I die I won't regret meeting you
4. If I had to go back to the past and make my choice again, I choose you.
5. Every now and then, I have these thoughts. Isn't there a reason that I was saved? Is there a more special future awaiting me? : Song Ma Rin
6. Knowing won't change anything. That is my conclusion. Knowing about it won't help you change anything. :Future Yoo Soo Joon
7. People say that it's a relief that, at least, you survived. They don't know how guilty that makes me feel.:Song Ma Rin
8. I'll ride that subway till the very end. Why? I want to save Ma Rin. You want to let it happen even when I knew like this time? She's the only family I have in this world. She's my one and only wife, my woman. I'm supposed to protect her until the very end.
9. You didn't know when I'd be back. why did you wait? why would you be so foolish to wait?
First, the restaurant owner has blackout sleeve tattoos.
Beyond that being sexy *bites knuckles*, it's also gangsta.
Which is why he was guarding the entry to his establishment, and only let Qian in but not his schoolmates.
This is also why meeting there bothered Xiong so much.
Because this is a gangsta's restaurant.
Yet later on, we know Xiong frequently visits the restaurant on his own accord, but even more importantly, that he is allowed to visit. It's now a mutual respect.
And this is a gangsta's clinic.
They are NOT a front for gang activity (probably, most likely, maybe?), but a majority of the clientele are gangstas.
Which means these places serve the community and as a safe space for gangstas because they need to trust that the people who make their food and stitch them up won't snitch or try to kill them.
Which is why Zu Guan knew Le Ge was back, and it's why Le Ge was at the restaurant and not his office. He needs to make his presence known, but also, it's a sign of respect to visit the people who held it down while he has been away.
Le Ge knows that Qian doesn't trust him, but there is a level of respect and honor among gangstas, which is why Le Ge trusted the restaurant owner to keep his gun, and it's why the owner was ready to leave it all behind to go with Le Ge knowing full well what Le Ge was planning.
Because he knows that life.
It's also why Le Ge made sure everyone got their shot including himself.
Le Ge stated he doesn't deal drugs, so he probably is in money laundering and reinforcement by offering protection and collection for a fee.
And Qian owes him.
Le Ge gave Qian a legit job, then when Qian needed more money, Le Ge gave him a less legit job. Le Ge not only gave Yuan his name but the official documents to go with that name. Le Ge's clinic fixed Qian and his family up for a nominal fee. Le Ge's restaurant gave Qian the privacy to do business without prying ears. And, yeah, Qian could've died trying to get out, but Le Ge isn't asking anything of anyone else that he, himself, wouldn't do.
And as much as Qian doesn't like or trust Le Ge, he respects him.
Because Le Ge is a man of his word. He doesn't blame others. He takes responsibility. And he keeps his promises.
That's why, unlike A Hu who sees Yuan as Qian's weakness and uses Yuan again to get to Qian, Le Ge understands that Yuan is Qian's strength. It's why he got upset that A Hu took Yuan the first time, and it's why he is pissed when he sees the video A Hu sent him.
When Qian told Yuan he could come home, we understood that Qian was "home" for Yuan. And we understand that Qian's entire life is his family. So Le Ge knows Qian will fight harder for Yuan. Le Ge knows Qian will kill for Yuan. And Le Ge knows Qian would die for Yuan because Qian's life is nothing to him without his family.
Which is why he reminds A Hu that his leg is the way it is NOT because of Qian, but because A Hu underestimated Qian. Le Ge tells A Hu he must take responsibility for his choices and his life.
Because Qian has always taken responsibility for his life.
I'll pay you back. Everything I owe you.
Because his entire life is his family.
Everything I own is yours whether you want it or not
And Le Ge gave him that.
Qian is Yuan's entire life, from beginning to end.
Anyone else losing their mind over the conversation Yuan and Qian had from inside their bedrooms while talking across the hall to each other? The seriousness of the conversation but the distance between them. I lost my mind.