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a bit sad, a bit broke, gonna smoke some weed about it

#4 hours before i have to think abt getting ready for work #but i took a nap a while ago so whatever #cant sleep anyway

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MY HOPE MAY HAVE BEEN ANSWERED.. PICKING UP MY ORDER STATUS ARRIVED..

pleaseee doordashers in my area i know a tropical depression is rolling thru our state but i want my mcdonalds 😭😭 it was so expensive pls i stg if someone picks up my order ill tip $18 or more (doublibg the alrdy $9 tip on a $25 ish dollar order 😩😩

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pleaseee doordashers in my area i know a tropical depression is rolling thru our state but i want my mcdonalds 😭😭 it was so expensive pls i stg if someone picks up my order ill tip $18 or more (doublibg the alrdy $9 tip on a $25 ish dollar order 😩😩

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one year self harm free bitch!!! gonna go smoke weed to celebrate, as if i wouldnt be doing that usually anyway but still lmao.

12:26am , 9/19/22

[citrusvein]

me shitting my brains out while the random guys in my living room paint the walls

#this is so fucking awkwardddd #like hello random men! yes i did just wake up. yes im blowing up the bathroom. so sorry

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list of things i need to get / save / put aside / do:

$3000 (at least, not including whatever paycheck i get for that week)

toothbrush + toothpaste (separate from what i have)

seven t-shirts, two long sleeve shirts, three tank tops, three pairs of jeans or similar, one pair of pants i can wear to work (in addition to my thermal pair), three pairs of shorts, one or two jackets, one pair of shoes, fourteen pairs of socks

hair ties, brush, shampoo, body wash, and condioner

water bottle that's easy to clean

a car, or learn how to ride my bike

cat carrier, cat food, cat litter

flea and tick prevention + medicine

take my cat to the vet

bug spray

thin but warm blanket, one pair of thick socks, hand warmers

(to be continued or edited based on needed basis)

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fucking hell nicotine has me by the throat for real. literally im so pissed at everything rn i could kill for a cig or smthin my god

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ugh vuse pod ran out again. guess ill be going to work early on friday 😞

#juuust as i get off work too. not that it matters im broke af but still

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lost one of my v@p3s in my room and i cant fucking find it im gonna freak the fuck out soon i just hope i find it before anyone else does

#i have another one but the ppl in my house dont know i v@p3 #i thought i put it in my bag before i went to sleep but i searched it like three times and my entire bed and surrounding area #and its just not there #not in any of the usual places it falls #i was really tired getting into bed so i dont remember where i couldve put it #if i fall asleep with it in my hand it usually ends up in just a few places #but i cant find it #😭

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why tf is there mobile bank updates on a FRIDAY. motherfuckers i wanna see if i got PAID

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at work and my stomach is KILLING me. im so tired. it hurts so much and i cant do my work cause im stuck in the bathroom and i feel horrible cause my boss and coworker have to do so much cause im in here.

#like they said i could be in here but im fighting for my life #i need more caffiene but itll make me end up in here again #we open in 40 min 😭 #i probably look as shitty as i feel #i just hope i can stay awake

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waiting to leave the house takes FOREVER. why are my neighbors up at midnight. waiting until an hour after just so im sure my family is asleep. trying to be quiet so i dont make the dogs bark. getting ready for the cold ass weather so i dont get frostbite. smh

#cant wait till it's warm so i dont have to layer like four shirts just to leave the house for like 15-30 minutes #i wanna go out but i dont want my fingers to fall off or smthin yk? #its almost feb and its still reaching 30 degrees? the fuck #give me a solid 55 or 60 please

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my mom thinks im broke bc of w33d lmfao i only spent maybe $165 total MONTHS ago and im still not completely out. like lmfao no. there IS something i spend much more on tho

#like im not counting the bowl or the bag i keep it in or the grinder #but those were one time purchases that i dont need to buy again unless i break them #and the thing i spend more on im tryin to stop spending money on #but ive found it quite difficult

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just realized the noise i thought was my family being up mightve been my neighbors lmfao

#townhome living 😩

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every1 in this house go tf to sleep im trying to leave for a bit smh

#i just wanna go for a walk #but if theyre awake i gotta let em know im leaving + when i come back #its just a hassle and im tired but i want my me time

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god fuck i wish i had somewhere else to go. ill settle for going out later and metaphorically touching the stars

#vague and weirdass way to put it but yeah #we love doing this. it is one of my favorite activities

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wanted to go out tonight but it says it feels like -2 degrees outside and also we took in the semi-stray ive been feeding due to the weather and my mom essentially said i could keep them <3

it is possibly too good to be true? but tonight Corndog gets to sleep in my room. tonight they are warm, fed, and safe. :)

#i still want to go out but i dont think ill be able to #my throat hurts also and i dont want to go to the er smh